All The Befores
Samantha Chase
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Epilogue
Here’s a sneak peek at the next Magnolia Sound title
Chapter 1
Also by Samantha Chase
About Samantha Chase
Copyright 2019 Samantha Chase
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Editor: Jillian Rivera
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Praise for Samantha Chase
“Samantha Chase writes my kind of happily ever after!”
-NY Times & USA Today Bestselling Author Erin Nicholas
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“If you can’t get enough of stories that get inside your heart and soul and stay there long after you’ve read the last page, then Samantha Chase is for you!”
-NY Times & USA Today Bestselling Author Melanie Shawn
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“A fun, flirty, sweet romance filled with romance and character growth and a perfect happily ever after.”
-NY Times & USA Today Bestselling Author Carly Phillips
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“The openness between the lovers is refreshing, and their interactions are a balanced blend of sweet and spice. The planets may not have aligned, but the elements of this winning romance are definitely in sync.”
- Publishers Weekly, STARRED review
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“A true romantic delight, A Sky Full of Stars is one of the top gems of romance this year.”
- Night Owl Reviews, TOP PICK
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“Great writing, a winsome ensemble, and the perfect blend of heart and sass.”
- Publishers Weekly
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1
The big house looked a little dark and sad tonight.
It fit her mood.
It wouldn’t stay that way for long, though. Soon it was going to be filled with tons of people talking, laughing, loving, and celebrating.
But it was quiet right now. Tonight, Susannah Westbrook was the lone occupant of Magnolia on the Sound – her soon-to-be-open bed and breakfast – and she was the furthest she’d been in a long time to laughing, loving, and celebrating.
It didn’t have to be this way…
And yet…it was.
A soft sigh escaped as she stood on the gravel driveway and marveled at the plantation-style home as she pushed her sad thoughts aside. The house represented hope to her. After what seemed like a lifetime of struggling – surviving a bad marriage, raising two kids on her own – she was finally feeling like her luck was changing. For years she had envisioned taking the house and turning it into something magnificent. It had been in her family for generations and now it was hers.
It was both exciting and bittersweet.
Her grandfather left it to her when he passed away a year ago and it had taken almost the entire year to make repairs from Hurricane Amelia as well as the renovations that would turn it from a family home into a B&B. It had been a labor of love and it was worth all the blood, sweat, and tears she put into it.
This was her dream – taking the old house and turning it into something magnificent; she wanted it to be the kind of place that showcased and celebrated a century of life and love in the South. For years she envisioned redecorating and making upgrades that would make it a showplace for anyone who walked through the massive double doors. Susannah had done her research and kept much of the historical feel to the home – including the family Bible and photos that showed not only Magnolia Sound when it was first founded, but also the family who first settled here. Walking around the house, anyone would feel the connection – the love – for the small coastal town. And when she opened the doors to her first guests next week, she couldn’t wait to share all of that information and history with them.
She took one step toward the house when a light went on inside. Gasping, she froze. No one was supposed to be here. None of the lights were on timers and she had foolishly forgotten to turn any on before she’d left for her date earlier. Now what was she supposed to do?
Pulling her phone from her purse, she immediately pulled up her daughter Mallory’s number. Because Mallory and her fiancé lived next door, Susannah hoped they would come over and check out what was going on inside the house with her.
The front door opened and the sound of a phone ringing wasn’t just happening on the other end of the phone; it was happening…out on the front porch?
“Mallory?” she called out.
The front door opened farther and her daughter stepped out onto the porch as a light came on above her. “Hey, Mom! You’re home early!”
Susannah practically sagged against her car. Pressing a hand over her heart, she forced herself to move and go up the front steps to greet Mallory. “What on earth are you doing here? You scared at least ten years off of my life when I saw a light go on inside.”
Hugging her, Mallory laughed softly. “Sorry. I was going to bake some cookies to bring into the shop tomorrow, but I was low on ingredients.”
“So you were raiding my pantry?”
“Guilty as charged,” Mallory replied sheepishly. Arm in arm, they walked into the house. Closing the door behind her, Mallory looked at her mother and smiled broadly. “So? How was your night? Did you and Colton do anything exciting?”
“Oh, um…just dinner,” she said, walking straight toward the kitchen.
“And…?” Mallory asked expectantly, almost as if she knew what had happened tonight.
Rather than answer right away, Susannah busied herself by putting a kettle on the stove to make some hot tea. She pulled two mugs down from the cabinets and tried to figure out a way to change the subject.
“Mom? Is everything all right?”
The last thing she wanted was to break down in front of her daughter, but it seemed like the events of the night were ready to catch up with her.
Bracing both hands on the cool granite countertop, Susannah hung her head as the first tears began to fall. “No,” she sobbed. “Everything is all wrong.”
In the blink of an eye, Mallory’s arms were around her, embracing her. She didn’t ask any questions. She simply held on as Susannah cried.
They stood there until the kettle began to whistle and Mallory reached out to turn it off before leading them over to the kitchen table to sit. Once Susannah was settled, Mallory went to make their tea and neither spoke until they each had a mug in front of them.
“I’m sorry I fell apart like that,” Susannah began quietly, reaching for a napkin to wipe her face. “I didn’t think it was going to hit me so hard.”
For a moment, Mallory was silent, as if carefully considering her words. “What happened?”
Letting out a shuddery breath, she said, “Colton proposed tonight.”
“Oh my goodness! That’s amazing!”
“I turned him down.”
“Oh…um…why? I thought you guys were…you know…”
“You wouldn’t understand,” Susannah said wearily. “Let’s just say it’s all for the best.”
“Mom, I can’t possibly say that while you’re sitting here crying. How can it be for the best?”
“Just trust me, Mal, okay?” Resting her head in her hands, she wished they were discussing anything but this.
After several minutes, Mallory asked, “So then…that’s it? You and Colton are through?”
She nodded.
It was another few minutes before Mallory said anything. “I get that you don’t want to talk about this right now, but I also don’t want you to be alone tonight. I’m going to stay and we can just sit and watch some TV or bake or you can go up to bed and I’ll stay in one of the guest rooms and leave you be.”
“Mal…”
Reaching across the table, Mallory placed one hand on top of hers. “I’m not leaving.”
Emotion clogged her throat and all she could do was nod. Mallory pulled out her phone and stood, likely to call her fiancé to let him know where she was and what was going on. When she left the room to talk, Susannah was glad for the respite. She didn’t let out an easy breath until Mallory’s voice was barely audible.
Colton Hale had proposed to her.
And she had no idea it was coming.
None.
She was clueless when it came to relationships – always had been. Her ex-husband was her high-school sweetheart and they had gotten married right out of school because she was pregnant. When he left her, she put all of her time and energy into surviving and taking care of her children. Sam and Mallory were her entire world and she never even thought about dating until they were in college.
And boy had things changed in the dating world in those twenty years!
Still, Susannah hadn’t found dating a necessity and she certainly never found someone who really piqued her interest.
Until Colton.
They had been dating for almost nine months now and even though she knew she was in love with him, there was no way she would even consider marrying him.
Or anyone.
No matter how much it broke her heart.
Pushing her cup of tea aside, she rested her face in her palms again. As she closed her eyes, she could still see the look of utter devastation on Colton’s face when she turned him down. He was a good man – possibly the best man in the world – and that meant he deserved so much more than she could give him. He’d been married once before too and had no children so he didn’t understand some of her reasons for turning him down. She did have children – well, grown children – but they always came first for her. Now Mallory was getting ready to get married, and Sam was going to get engaged any time now, so how could she possibly steal any of the spotlight from them? This was their time.
Hers was gone.
Long gone.
Now it was time for them to shine.
There was no way she was going to admit that to Mallory right now or possibly ever. She knew her daughter well enough to know she was fairly selfless and would claim it didn’t matter, but it mattered to Susannah.
Not that it was her only reason for turning Colton down.
It seemed the list was endless.
He was five years younger than her; she was getting ready to start this new phase of her life with the B&B and that’s where her focus needed to be. She was too old to be thinking about getting married again…
But more than anything, the words her ex-husband said to her so many years ago still plagued her.
You’re not enough, Susannah. You’ve never been enough. No man is ever going to want you because you’re lacking in so many ways.
Twenty years later and it still stung.
She didn’t want to put Colton through that.
Right now, he thought he loved her and that she was enough. Well…he’d soon come to find out how wrong he was and then where would they be? It was better to end things now before they made a mistake.
Still…she missed him already.
Ached for him.
Oh, what she wouldn’t give to be the kind of woman who…
“Okay, I talked to Jake and he knows I’m staying here tonight,” Mallory said as she walked back into the room.
“You really didn’t need to do that,” Susannah said softly, staring down at the table. “I don’t think I’m going to be too talkative tonight, Mal. It’s too soon.”
Sitting back down beside her, Mallory resumed her earlier position with her hand over her mother’s. “And you don’t need to talk about it. Not until you’re ready. For the rest of the night, we’ll find other things to do.” She smiled when Susannah looked up at her. “Since I was planning on baking tonight, maybe we can do it together. You know you’re going to need to start stocking up on baked good for when you have guests here.”
As far as distractions went, it would work.
Still, there was a part of her that appreciated her daughter’s attempt to help even though the other part really wanted to be alone to wallow in self-pity.
“Of course, if you’re not into baking, I believe we can make popcorn and turn on something on Netflix while we just lounge in the new library. How about Dirty Dancing or Pretty Woman? I know those are a few of your favorites.” Mallory paused. “What do you think?”
“Oh, sweetheart, I don’t know. I’m really not the best company right now…”
Mallory squeezed her hand. “If you really want me to leave, I will. But I want you to know that the thought of you being here alone while you’re feeling like this is killing me. You’ve gotten me through some really rough breakups…”
“Jake was the only one who really broke your heart,” Susannah clarified. “And in the end, it all worked out.”
As she said the words, she realized how there was the potential for her daughter to turn that around and use it on her.
Luckily, she didn’t.
“Still, just…humor me. Please. Go put on your jammies and meet me back here. Even if you don’t need cookies for future guests, I want them for the shop tomorrow.” She stood and smiled. “And I promise to replenish all the ingredients I use so I don’t leave you lacking.”
It was pointless to keep arguing. The truth of the matter was that her daughter was worried about her and wanted to be here to help. It was incredibly sweet and, instead of being a brat, Susannah knew she should embrace this because they didn’t often get time like this together.
Even though there was a broken heart involved.
Standing, she reached out and pulled Mallory into her arms and hugged her, placing a soft kiss on her cheek. “Thank you for understanding.” When she pulled back, she did her best to smile. “Give me a few minutes to go change and wash my face and I’ll be back to help with the cookies.”
“I’ll get everything started,” Mallory said with a smile of her own.
Susannah turned to walk away when something hit her. “Oh, and uh…Mallory?”
“Yeah?”
“No eating the cookie dough without me.”
She heard her daughter’s laughter as she walked out of the room and it eased some of her heartache.
Colton Hale was normally an optimistic man.
Some would say overly optimistic.
Not tonight.
It was after midnight and he was sitting alone in his tiny beach bungalow with dozens of nearly burned out candles and one small lamp on while he stared at the diamond engagement ring in his hand.
Susannah had turned him down.
In every scenario he had played out in his mind, not once did she turn him down. Sure there were a few where she was a little hesitant, but he always won her over. Lord knew the woman could be stubborn, but he’d never seen her behave the way she did tonig
ht. It was as if he had proposed to a stranger.
And it just about gutted him.
How was he supposed to move on from this? Sure, he’d been married before and survived a divorce, but by the time he and Dana decided to call it quits, it was a relief for both of them. Ten years of marriage and they had become polite strangers who were just ready not to be with each other anymore. It had stung, sure, but it was nothing compared to the hurt he felt right now.
How was that for crazy?
He had planned this night for a month, had done everything right – including going to Sam and Mallory to get their blessings.
Which they had given him.
For the night itself, Colton filled the place with Susannah’s favorite flowers – tulips. He bought her favorite wine – a pink Moscato – to go with the steaks he was going to grill for dinner. Everything was perfect. When she arrived at his house, he took one look at her and simply couldn’t believe how lucky he was. From the very first time he saw her when she moved back to Magnolia Sound three years ago, he was smitten. It had taken him years to get up the courage to talk to her and ask her out, but it only took one date to know she was it for him.
And he really thought she felt the same about him.
Man did it suck to be wrong.
He had gotten down on one knee and everything – had thought he was being the most romantic man in the world. With the ring in his hand, he professed his love to Susannah and then watched as her expression went from confusion to pure horror. She looked at the ring like it were a serpent rather than a gift.
The thing was, he knew she was scared – he saw it on her face once she forced herself to look at him. There had never been any secrets between them and there were two things that were clear from day one. First, Sam and Mallory were her world. And second, her ex-husband had done a real number on her. He didn’t just leave; he was cruel leading up to it and then dumped all the responsibility of raising two children on her while he moved on without them. She didn’t talk about her ex much, but when she did, it was never anything positive – except to say that without him she wouldn’t have her children.
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