by Robin Cook
Jack tossed the ball through the hoop and then watched it bounce in decreasing altitude until it was stationary. His mind was churning. As crazy as the notion sounded, he couldn’t help but question if Connie and the rats might have succumbed to the same agent. What if it had been some kind of gas and the drains in Connie’s bathroom didn’t have functioning traps? The trouble was, sewer gas stank, and the EMTs would have noted it.
“Ah, it’s impossible,” Jack voiced out loud. He went over and picked up the ball. He tried to think of other things, but he couldn’t. As he took practice shots his mind kept dredging up Connie and the rats and images of the Brighton Beach summer cottages.
Laurie put down the dessert menu and shook her head. “I’m stuffed,” she said. “I can’t possibly eat dessert.”
“Do you mind if I order something that we could both nibble on?” Paul asked. “I know how much you like chocolate.”
“Of course,” Laurie said. “As long as you understand that you’re going to have to eat nine-tenths of it. But I’ll have a decaf cappuccino.”
“Coming up!” Paul said. He raised his hand to get the waiter’s attention.
The evening had gone well, and Laurie was feeling considerably better than she had earlier after talking with Lou and Jack. When Laurie had first gotten home she’d considered canceling the week-old plans she had made with Paul to go to the ballet at Lincoln Center followed by dinner. But after some time by herself she decided that the information she’d gotten from Lou and Jack didn’t necessitate an angry confrontation. She wasn’t entirely confident what they’d said was true, and even if it was, she was more than willing to hear an explanation. It was more the surprise of it all that had upset her.
“How about some dessert wine?” Paul asked.
Laurie smiled and shook her head. They’d had a wonderful red wine with dinner, and Laurie was luxuriating in its afterglow. She knew she’d had quite enough alcohol.
Paul had arrived for the evening with more flowers and an apology for his insensitivity that morning. He’d assured her that he understood her commitment to her work, and he even went so far as to say that he truly admired and valued that she had such a commitment.
As they’d talked, Laurie had been tempted to bring up the issue of the nature of his work in the context of the discussion of hers, but decided against it. In the face of his sincere apology, she didn’t want to seem unappreciative or insensitive. She’d decided to wait for a more opportune time.
And then there’d been the other surprise. Paul had told her that he’d managed to change the Budapest trip until the following weekend in hopes that her schedule would permit her to go. He’d even said she had all week to decide.
The dessert arrived, and it was a piece of vertical chocolate art. At its core was a moist, dark, flourless chocolate cake that Laurie could not resist. After a taste she smacked her lips with delight.
Paul had ordered a brandy. When it arrived, he swirled it, smelled it, and then took a taste. Satisfied, he leaned back and smiled. He was the picture of contentment.
“There’s something I want to ask you, Paul,” Laurie said, sensing there could not be a better time to bring up the work issue. “I know when I asked you this question this morning, it seemed confrontational. I didn’t mean it to be, and I certainly don’t mean it to be now, but I’d like to know what kind of business you are in.”
Paul stopped swirling his brandy and regarded Laurie with his coal-black eyes. “Why do you want to know?” he asked with a calm, even voice.
“As your future wife, I’d think you’d want me to know,” Laurie said with some surprise. She didn’t expect his response to be a question. “If you didn’t know what I did, I’d certainly want to tell you.”
“My response this morning was to ask if it mattered,” Paul said. “Does it?”
“It could,” Laurie said. “Take my job. My own mother has this distorted idea that it’s ghoulish. You could have felt the same way.”
“Well, I certainly don’t.”
“I’m glad,” Laurie said. “But you get my point. I don’t think my mother would have married my father if he’d been a medical examiner, at least I don’t think so.”
“Are you trying to tell me that if my business is something you don’t approve of, you won’t marry me?”
“Paul, this is not an argument,” Laurie said. “Now you are scaring me by making this discussion into something it needn’t be. Please tell me what your business is.”
“I’m in the defense business,” Paul said with an edge to his voice.
“Okay, that’s a start,” Laurie said. She looked down into the swirled surface of her cappuccino. “Can you be a little more specific?”
“What is this, an inquisition?” Paul demanded.
“No, Paul, as I said, this is a discussion.”
“And such an entertaining discussion!” Paul said sarcastically.
“Why are you being so defensive? This doesn’t sound like you.”
“I’m being defensive because too many people have the same prosaic response about the arms business.”
“And you think I’m going to have the same response?”
“It’s possible.”
“What is it you sell?”
“I sell arms. Isn’t that enough? Can’t we talk about something else?”
“You mean like cannons, bombs, or guns.”
“A little of all of them,” Paul said. “Whatever is in demand.”
“What about Bulgarian AK-47 assault rifles?” Laurie asked.
“Sure,” Paul said, surprised at such a specific question. “It’s one of my preferred products. It’s a reliable, inexpensive, well-made weapon. Much better than the Chinese version.”
Laurie closed her eyes. She could see a montage of images of Brad Cassidy’s body and his grieving parents. She remembered how she’d felt when Shirley Cassidy said that her son was selling Bulgarian AK-47s to other skinheads. To think that Paul could be involved in such things was hard to comprehend, especially recalling the mayhem from guns she’d witnessed over the years in her professional position as a medical examiner.
Laurie took a deep breath. She was conscious her emotions were getting the best of her, and in such circumstances she knew she had a tendency toward tears. She didn’t want to cry. Whenever she did, it irritated her to no end because it invariably precluded further discussion. She opened her eyes and looked at Paul. She read his expression as defensively arrogant.
“Do you ever think of the consequences of the guns you sell?” Laurie asked. She wanted to keep the conversation going.
“Of course,” Paul said flippantly. “They provide people with the ability to defend themselves in a dangerous world.”
“What about when the guns end up in the hands of violent, right-wing fringe groups?” Laurie asked. “Like skinheads?”
“They have a right to defend themselves just like anyone else.”
“The problem is, with such bigoted hate groups, the guns tend to get used and they kill people.”
“Guns don’t kill people,” Paul said cavalierly. “People kill people.”
“Now you’re sounding like a National Rifle Association spokesperson,” Laurie said.
“The NRA has some very good points,” Paul said. “Like the fact that the Constitution itself very specifically gives us the right to bear arms. When the government intervenes like it did with the Omnibus Crime Bill, it’s acting blatantly unconstitutionally.”
Laurie stared at her potential fiancé-to-be and shook her head. She couldn’t believe they could be so far apart on such an important issue when they were so compatible in so many other ways.
Paul tossed his napkin onto the table. “I’m frankly disappointed that your response to my business has turned out to be exactly the hackneyed one I was worried about. Now you know why I didn’t tell you sooner.”
“I’m disappointed myself,” Laurie said. “I don’t like to think of you selling guns, particul
arly those Bulgarian assault rifles, wherever it is you sell them. I mean, you don’t sell them in this country anymore, do you?”
“It’s against the law, thanks to the unconstitutional Omnibus Crime Bill,” Paul said.
“That’s not what I asked,” Laurie said. “I know they are banned. I asked you if you sold them.”
Laurie stared at Paul. For a few moments he didn’t respond. His only movement was the rise and fall of his chest with his respiration. Their eyes were locked in a kind of duel.
“Aren’t you going to answer?” Laurie demanded incredulously.
“It’s such a stupid question,” Paul said haughtily, “I don’t think it deserves an answer.”
“But I’d like one,” Laurie said defiantly.
Paul took a drink from his brandy snifter, held the liquor in his mouth for a moment, then swallowed. “No, I don’t sell Bulgarian AK-47s in the United States. Are you satisfied?”
Laurie took a sip from her cappuccino. She didn’t answer herself while she mulled over the conversation. She wasn’t satisfied at all. In fact she was angry about the way Paul had responded to her reasonable questions. The good side was that the anger chased away her tendency toward tears. Inflaming her further, Paul was regarding her with an irritating superciliousness.
“Frankly I’m not pleased about any of this,” Laurie said. “What prompted me to ask about the nature of your work was that I had been told you were in the arms business.”
“By whom?” Paul demanded.
“I don’t think that’s relevant,” Laurie said. “But from the same source, I was told that you were convicted of cocaine possession. Is there anything you’d like to say about that?”
Paul’s eyes blazed in the reflected glow from the candle on the table. “This truly is an inquisition,” he snapped.
“You can call it what you like,” Laurie said. “From my perspective, it’s clearing the air. These are issues that I should have heard from you, not someone else.”
Without warning Paul stood up. His chair tipped over backward and crashed to the floor. Other diners looked up from their quiet meals. Several waiters rushed over to right the chair.
“I’ve had just about as much of this as I can take,” Paul snarled. Angrily he reached into his pocket and yanked out his billfold. He took several hundred-dollar bills and tossed them contemptuously onto the table.
“This should cover the entertainment,” he said. Then he walked out of the restaurant.
Laurie was mortified. She’d heard about such scenes occurring in public but certainly had never been involved in one herself. Timidly she picked up her cappuccino and took a few sips. Intellectually she knew it was silly for her to pretend that she wasn’t bothered by what had transpired, but she couldn’t help herself. She felt bound to maintain a charade of calm decorum. She even waited until she finished her coffee to request the check.
When she emerged from the restaurant fifteen minutes later, she was mildly concerned that Paul might be waiting for her. She was relieved when he wasn’t because she didn’t want to talk to him, at least not for a while. She stood at the curb to get her bearings. The restaurant was on Columbus Avenue on the Upper West Side. She was about to raise her hand to flag down a taxi to take her downtown when she realized she was only twenty or so blocks from Jack’s. She decided to pay him a visit. More than anything else, she needed a friend.
When she got into a cab and gave Jack’s address, the driver, who was a born and bred New Yorker, turned around and asked her to repeat it. After she had, he raised his eyebrows as if to say she was crazy, and they were off.
With little traffic, the ride went quickly. The driver turned left off Columbus as soon as he could and headed north on Central Park West. Laurie had to point out Jack’s building because there was no number.
“You gonna be all right, miss?” the driver inquired after she’d paid. “This is a rough neighborhood.”
Laurie assured the man she’d be fine and got out of the cab.
Reaching the sidewalk she looked up at the facade of Jack’s building. It looked as sad as always with only a small piece of its decorative cornice still intact and two windows on the third floor boarded up.
Every time Laurie visited she couldn’t help but marvel anew that Jack was still living there. She understood about the basketball, but she thought he could find a better maintained building even if he wanted to stay in the neighborhood.
The foyer was in worse shape than the facade. At one time it had been rather grand, with a mosaic floor and marble walls. Now it was only a shadow of its former self. The floor was missing more than half of its tesserae and the walls were stained and graffiti-filled. None of the mailboxes had functioning locks. Trash littered the corners.
Laurie didn’t bother with the buzzer system. She knew it didn’t work. Besides, the inner door had been broken into in the distant past and never repaired.
As Laurie climbed the stairs, her resolve waned. After all, it was late, and she’d not called and was coming uninvited. She also wasn’t even sure how much she wanted to talk about her evening before she’d had time to mull it over herself.
On the second-floor landing she stopped. From behind the door of the front apartment she heard yelling and screaming. She remembered that Jack had said there was an interminable argument going on in there. It made her sad to think people had such trouble getting along with each other.
Laurie debated whether she should proceed. It wasn’t until she thought about how she’d feel if the tables were turned— how she’d feel if Jack showed up suddenly at her apartment when he was needing a friend. Realizing she’d be flattered, she pushed on. When she got to his door, she knocked. There was no bell.
When the door was yanked open, Laurie had to suppress a smile. The look of surprise on Jack’s stubbled face reminded her of the kind of exaggerated expression a pantomimist might employ. Jack was in his boxer shorts, a V-necked T-shirt, and backless slippers. A medical book was in his hand. He obviously hadn’t expected company except, perhaps, for Warren or one of his other local basketball cronies.
“Laurie!” Jack said as if she were an apparition.
Laurie merely nodded.
For an extended moment they just looked at each other.
“Can I come in?” Laurie finally asked.
“Of course,” Jack said, embarrassed that he’d not invited her in sooner. He stepped to the side. As he closed the door, he remembered his state of undress. Quickly he disappeared into the bedroom to find some shorts.
Laurie walked into the center of the room. There wasn’t much furniture: a couch, a chair, a bookcase made out of cin-derblocks and bare lumber, and a couple of small tables. There were no paintings or pictures on the walls. The only light came from a floor lamp next to the couch, where Jack had obviously been reading. The rest of the room was lost in shadow. An open bottle of beer was on a small side table. A medical dictionary was open on the floor.
Jack reappeared moments later tucking a shirt into khaki shorts. He looked apologetic.
“I hope I’m not bothering you,” Laurie said. “I know it’s late.”
“You’re not bothering me in the slightest,” Jack said. “In fact, it’s a nice surprise. Can I take your coat?”
“I suppose,” Laurie said. She slipped out of it and handed it to him. He made a beeline for his closet.
“How about a beer?” Jack said as he searched for a hanger.
“No, thanks,” Laurie said. She sat down in the frayed and tattered armchair. Her eyes roamed the room. She knew something about what motivated Jack’s domestic asceticism, and it depressed her further. It had been eight years since Jack’s family had been killed in the commuter plane crash, and Laurie wished he felt freer to enjoy his life.
“How about something else?” Jack asked as he came into the cone of light from the floor lamp. “Water, tea, or juice? I even have Gatorade.”
“I’m fine, actually,” Laurie said. “I just had a big di
nner.”
“Oh,” Jack said simply. He sat down on the couch.
“I really do hope you don’t mind me dropping in on you like this,” Laurie said. “I was at a restaurant not too far away on Columbus Avenue near the Museum of Natural History.”
“I’m pleased,” Jack said. “I’m glad to see you.”
“So I just thought I’d stop by,” Laurie said. “Since I was so close.”
“It’s okay,” Jack said. “Really. I don’t mind at all. Honest.”
“Thanks,” Laurie said.
“Did something happen at dinner?” Jack questioned.
“Yes,” Laurie said. “A bit of unpleasantness.”
“I’m sorry,” Jack said. “Was it because of what Lou and I told you this afternoon?”
“That had something to do with it,” Laurie said.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“Not really,” Laurie said. “I suppose that sounds illogical, since I’ve come here to see you instead of going home to my apartment to be by myself.”
“Hey, nobody’s going to force you to talk about something you don’t want to talk about.”
Laurie nodded.
Jack couldn’t tell if she was really okay or if she was on the verge of tears.
“Let’s talk about you,” Laurie said, breaking the silence.
“Me?” Jack questioned uneasily.
“I heard that Warren Wilson came by the office today,” Laurie said. “What was that all about?”
Laurie was well acquainted with Warren and knew that he’d never visited the morgue. She and Jack had double-dated with Warren and his girlfriend, Natalie Adams, back when she and Jack had been seeing a lot of each other. They’d even gone on a wild trip to Equatorial Africa together.
“Did you ever meet Flash Thomas?” Jack asked.
Laurie shook her head. “Not that I recall.”
“He’s another one of the basketball regulars,” Jack explained. “His sister suddenly and inexplicably died sometime last night.”