Trevanion stared at him with frustration and then grabbed the pickax and swung again. It took three more attempts, but finally its sharp tip lodged in the stone. With a tug on the chain to check it was secure, he pushed Finnikin forward to begin the climb. Finnikin scrambled up the cave wall, his eyes on the pickax above him, willing it to stay in place. He felt the moment Trevanion began to climb behind him, the chain becoming taut and painful to hold.
At the top, he extended a hand to Trevanion and pulled with all his might. He felt pain shoot up from his elbow, but he gritted his teeth and ignored it. They grabbed at the chain and hauled it up to hide it from their pursuers.
"Stay down!" Trevanion said, struggling for air.
For a long while they did not move, pressing themselves flat against the rock as the dogs barked and the guards called out to one another below. Finnikin watched his father, waiting for a sign. It wasn't until the air was silent and Trevanion seemed satisfied they would not be seen from afar that he pointed out a path to the east over the caves.
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"But to get to the shrine--" Finnikin began.
Trevanion silenced him.
"All you do is follow," he said.
Later, when Finnikin felt there was no more strength in his body, when the sun caused the world to double in his eyes and Trevanion half carried him down the rock face toward the ravine, he thought he heard the sound of rain. Suddenly Trevanion stopped and Finnikin stumbled to his knees. Before them, from the mountain above, a stream of water showered from the rocks in sprays of silver. And behind the waterfall, like an apparition, was the shrine of the goddess Sagrami.
Without thinking, Finnikin staggered to his feet and pulled off his shirt and trousers to stand naked under the coolness. When he looked back at Trevanion, his father was staring at the water with an expression of wonder. Then he removed his clothing and stood alongside Finnikin, lifting his face to the sky and extending his arms. Slowly he turned and placed his hands on either side of Finnikin's head, before pressing his lips to his son's forehead like a man giving thanks to his goddess for all things blessed. And for the first time since Trevanion's arrest in Lumatere, Finnikin allowed the tears to fall under the shower from the rocks, mingling them with the blood and grime and rot that he knew would never be truly washed from his father's memory.
In the ravine below was the horse from Sarnak. Trevanion leaped on and grabbed Finnikin's injured arm, almost pulling it out of its socket. Sharp threads of pain shot through him, but he held on as his father turned the horse toward the east. When they reached the fork in the road, following the novice's instructions, they found the path of stones that took them into the woods.
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Trevanion rode the horse hard, and it took all of Finnikin's strength not to lose his grip. As he stared into the distance, he began to doubt that the cottage in the woods even existed. Until there it was, and standing at the gate that marked its entrance was Sir Topher ... and Evanjalin.
Trevanion was off the horse in an instant and went straight for the girl's throat, lifting her from the ground. It took Sir Topher and Finnikin's combined strength to pull him away.
"Let her go, Trevanion," Sir Topher said. "She's more good to us alive than dead."
After a moment Trevanion released her and she stumbled. She looked to Finnikin, but he would not meet her gaze.
Trevanion took Sir Topher's hand and gripped it hard. "I am your servant until my last day on this earth," he said quietly as the two men embraced.
Finnikin winced as Sir Topher put a hand on his shoulder.
"You are in pain?"
"I'm fine." He watched as Evanjalin disappeared into the trees beyond the cottage.
"You were lucky she only sent you to prison. She sold the thief to the traders of Sorel."
"Mercy," Finnikin said, amazed that her actions still had the power to surprise him. But he had seen the bruises on her face, and he looked at the older man closely. "What did he do to her?"
"Enough to deserve what he got."
That night, as Finnikin lay in the loft nursing his arm, Evanjalin crouched beside him. He smelled leaves of rosemary and eucalyptus and watched as she stirred a substance into a paste and then administered the balm to his bruised and swollen face.
"Did I not tell you to bend to their will?" she reprimanded him.
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"Have I ever given you reason to believe that I would bend to another's will?" he replied sharply. When the balm stung his face, he gripped her wrist with a firmness he knew caused pain.
"Why are you so angry?" she asked, pulling away.
"You betrayed me! Am I supposed to be grateful? Am I supposed to thank you?"
"You have your father. Lumatere has the captain of its Guard."
"Lumatere doesn't exist!"
"That is your belief, Finnikin!" she said. "I can tell by reading your Book of Lumatere."
"You have no right to touch that book," he said angrily.
"You dropped it when the soldiers took you away."
"Don't you mean I dropped it when you betrayed me?"
She studied his face for a moment. "You list the dead. You tell the stories of the past. You write about the catastrophes and the massacres. What about the living, Finnikin? Who honors them?"
"You think you're worthy of the task?" he asked bitterly. "After what you've done? Go to bed, Evanjalin. Lumaterans sleep easier without your help."
He heard her sigh as she leaned toward him. "Only someone who has the comfort of two fathers sleeping close by could make such a statement."
She lifted his arm and he winced. "I'm going to have to dislocate your shoulder," she said. "I know exactly what to do, so you need not fear anything. Do you want a signal, or would you like to signal me?"
"What kind of a signal?" he said, alarmed. "Can I trust you?"
She looked hurt. "Of course you can. Maybe a count."
"As in one, two--"
His cry of pain echoed across the stable, and within seconds Trevanion was in the loft with Sir Topher at his heels.
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"What have you done?" Trevanion bellowed, grabbing her by the arm and shaking her.
Finnikin was spluttering, his eyes rolling and watering from the waves of pain that paralyzed his arm.
"I know how to administer to cuts and injuries," she said in a small voice.
"Is that what you do? Administer suffering?" Trevanion snarled.
"Let her go, Trevanion," Sir Topher said. "She has suffered herself. She was with the exiles in Sarnak."
"And you believe her?" Trevanion asked coldly.
Evanjalin looked down, unable to meet his stare.
"Tell us who they were. What part of Lumatere did they come from?" Trevanion asked.
"Go on, Evanjalin," Sir Topher said gently.
But she would not respond, and despite the pain, Finnikin clenched his fist with fury.
"You lied to the High Priestess about Sarnak?" he accused.
"No, I didn't." Eyes still downcast, she handed Sir Topher the herbs. "On the arm, just below the joint," she said as she climbed out of the loft.
Trevanion's expression was hard. "We rid ourselves other the first moment we get."
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CHaPteR 9
Leaving Sorel became their only priority, and despite Trevanion's objections to anything Evanjalin suggested, they agreed with her that the lawless town at land's end was their best bet for survival. Speranza was a place that had been conquered, reconquered, and relinquished so many times that no one seemed to remember who governed it. In such a place, the presence of two escaped prisoners, even one who looked as if he had stepped out of the depths of hell, would go largely unnoticed.
At midday they entered the courtyard of the tavern in town. From the balconies, women beckoned to them with gestures that needed no interpreting. As they pointed and purred, Finnikin heard Evanjalin give a snort beside him before going off to tether their horse.
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Sorel had not altered the striking features of his face. With his knotted hair tied back and his dark beard cropped, he still had a presence that attracted the opposite sex, despite the unhealthy pallor of his skin.
Sir Topher returned, holding a key. "Come, Evanjalin, I have booked us a room. Perhaps a rest?" he suggested, all too aware of what was on offer for the others.
Finnikin stole a glance at her, but then the women with wicked laughter in their eyes were upon them and he allowed one to take his hand.
Later, he stepped onto the tiny balcony beside the bed and watched the vendors pack away their stalls. The tavern girl playfully pulled him back toward her. He had enjoyed their time together. She had required nothing from him but pleasure. No intelligent banter, no request to save a kingdom or sacrifice a part of himself. But he resisted the temptation to stay and pulled on his clothes before grabbing his pack.
In the courtyard, he sat at a table and retrieved the Book of Lumatere. He thought of Evanjalin lying in the room above and remembered their conversation from the night of his arrest. He had trusted her, and she had deceived him. He flicked through the book, his fingers running over all the names he had recorded over the years. But then he turned to a page of unfamiliar handwriting, and his breath caught. There, in a small neat hand, was page after page of names, some written with self-assurance, others with a tremble.
He stood, about to make his way into the tavern to find her when he realized the horse post was empty.
"The horse?" he called out to the stable boy. "Who took our horse?"
"You brought no horse," the boy said.
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"The novice did."
"Who?"
"Girl. Blue woolen cap. Dressed like a boy." Recognition registered on the boy's face. "She came back for it."
"Where did she go?" Finnikin asked uneasily. The boy ignored him, and Finnikin walked away, trying to decide whether to call Trevanion and Sir Topher. Instead, he turned back to the boy. "If I were to continue down the road to the south, what would I see?"
"Not another village for at least a day."
"Nothing?"
"Nothing," he repeated.
"And how far to the closest village going east?"
"I tell you there is nothing," the boy said as Finnikin began to walk away again. "Except for the camp."
Finnikin's heart slammed in his chest. "Camp?"
"Of the filthy exiles. Should round them up and --"
Finnikin did not stay to hear the boy's suggestion. He took the road out of town and headed east.
He smelled the camp before he saw it. But nothing had prepared him for the sight. It was spread over more land than the town he had left behind, but never in his travels with Sir Topher had he seen a camp more damned. Those standing at the edges watched him with empty eyes. This is not life, Finnikin thought, just day-today survival. He heard the heart-wrenching wails of babies crying from hunger.
When he saw no sign of the horse, he was torn between relief that Evanjalin might not be there and a fear of where else she could be.
"I'm looking for a girl. Bare head, dark eyes," he said to anyone who looked in his direction.
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When no one responded, he began to make his way through the rows of makeshift tents. Children with bloated stomachs stared at him with the vacant expressions they had inherited from their parents. Flies hovered over their faces and fed from their open sores.
A hand reached out and gripped his arm. It was a man, little older than Finnikin, his skin stretched taut over prominent cheekbones. "You are heading toward the fever camp," the man said. "You had best be on your way, for it catches you fast."
Finnikin looked past him. Excrement lined the path to the next camp, and he could hardly breathe from the stench of vomit and shit and death and sickness. He stumbled to the side and emptied his stomach of the mutton soup and ale he had consumed at the tavern. As he stayed bent, he stared with horror at the body of a woman in front of him, eyes wide open, flies feeding.
He felt a hand on his shoulder. It was the man again, compassion on his face. Somehow compassion survives, Finnikin thought in wonder. He stood up, ashamed, and wiped his mouth with his sleeve.
"Are you looking for the priest-king?" the man asked. Finnikin was stunned. "The priest-king? Our blessed Barakah is here?"
The man nodded. "In the fever camp." Finnikin walked away, covering his mouth with his hand. "Come back for us," the man begged. "Whoever you are, do not forget us."
Beyond the tents, Finnikin saw a stretch of land that marked where the exile camp ended and the fever camp began. The fever camp was an assortment of the most basic living quarters, made up of sheets and blankets tied to posts. Bodies littered the space beneath them. Those who were bent over the sick looked like living dead themselves.
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But worse was beyond the sick huts. A lad with a corpse slung over his shoulder walked by, and Finnikin followed him to a pit dug deep into the earth. Men. Women. Children. Those his age who would never lie with a woman as he had that afternoon. He saw girls, their hair the color of spun gold, or waves dark and thick. The beautiful girls of Lumatere. Dead. Piled on top of one another. Layers of wasted skin and bones. The lad passed him twice, each time carrying a dead body that he proceeded to throw into the pit of the dead. Finnikin noticed the boy's strong hands. Craftsman's hands. Made for rebuilding.
But there was no place for rebuilding here. Just burying.
He sensed her before he saw her. She was walking toward him from one of the blanket hovels, holding a baby in her arms. A baby so still, Finnikin knew it no longer breathed. Evanjalin looked up and their eyes met across the pit of the dead.
Look away, he told himself. Do not let yourself get lost in those eyes.
When she reached him, he watched her search for something, desperation in her movements.
"What are you looking for, Evanjalin?" he asked.
"His mother," she said in a broken voice. "She died earlier with the baby still attached to her breast."
He wanted to walk away. Go back to the sleepy girl in the tavern who asked nothing of him but three copper coins. Who made him forget for a moment, when he was deep inside of her, this girl with large pools of night-sky for eyes.
Evanjalin continued to search among the bodies, and then he saw where her gaze ended. At a woman sprawled in a pit, arms outstretched. Evanjalin looked at the babe she held and crouched down. He could see that she planned to slip into the grave. And before he knew what he was doing, Finnikin climbed into the pit
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and she handed him the baby. Stepping around the bodies, he made his way to where the mother lay and placed the child on her breast, wrapping the dead woman's arms around her boy.
He felt dry sobs rising inside him, carving up his throat, and when Evanjalin held out her hand and pulled him out of the pit, he knew she could read it all on his face.
"Do not cry," she said fiercely, but her own tears flowed. "Do not cry, Finnikin. For if we begin, our tears will never end."
He held her face in his hands, her tears catching in his fingers, his forehead against hers. Cursed land, Sir Topher had said. Cursed people.
The priest-king had altered so much since the old days of Lumatere that Finnikin hardly recognized him. Finnikin had been in awe of the holy man as a child. Even Lucian believed he was some kind of god in his elaborate robe trimmed with gold, each finger adorned with rings. Today he wore a grubby brown mantle and hood; his beard was long, his feet sandaled. A toe or two seemed to be missing, and the marks of age stained his hands. The only reminders of the man he used to be were the deep laugh lines around his eyes. The priest-king had always loved to laugh.
"You're
still here," the holy man muttered when he saw Evanjalin. "I told you. This is no place for one so young and healthy."
"This is no place for anyone," she corrected softly. "You are the priest-king. You need to lead these people home."
The man shook his head. "A title that means nothing outside the kingdom."
"When we return to Lumatere--"
"If you want her to live, take her away," the priest-king said. Finnikin knew they were being dismissed. He turned to Evanjalin. "There will be no return," he said quietly.
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She glared at him. "Look at them. Do you believe that a strip of land in someone else's kingdom will be any better than this?"
"How can you even ask that, Evanjalin?"
"What did they do to a newborn in your rock village, Finnikin?" she said, taking his hand and clenching it into a fist. "Wrapped their little hands around stone from the village, binding it tightly for days. As they did with those from the Flatlands. Earth from the fields clenched in their fists. Silt from the river clenched in their fists. Grass from the mountains. Leaves from the forest. Joining them to the land." She blinked back tears. "We don't want a second Lumatere. We want to go home. Take us home, Finnikin."
She turned to the priest-king. "Blessed Barakah, if you return with us, people will follow. Those who are well. We will return to Lumatere where healers--"
"The healers are all dead, Evanjalin," Finnikin said, his anger rising. "The Forest Dwellers, the novices of Sagrami, any of them who had the skill and gift to heal are all dead. I was there. I heard their screams as they burnt at the stake. Even if we were able to get inside Lumatere, there is nothing to go back to. Can you not understand that? The only hope for our people is a second homeland in Belegonia."
"Why do you fear returning, Finnikin? Were you not the one who swore an oath with Balthazar to save Lumatere?"
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