Somehow he arrived back at their lodgings. He went to their room and sat on the bed, forearms across thighs. Staring blankly at the rush-covered floor.
For three years duty had sustained him. Given him a purpose, a reason for having survived when Eryn had perished. But deep in his gut the familiar knot of rigidly contained resentment tightened, and for once he allowed the treacherous thoughts free reign.
This life crucified him. Even in the beginning when he’d still been riding high on the bloodlust of having slaughtered Dunmacos, the reality of the existence he’d assumed sickened him.
But he’d given his word to his king. And the knowledge of what he owed the Briton outweighed his own considerations.
It was no longer enough. For the first time since Eryn’s death the constant nightmare of his failure to save her had receded. The immovable rock in his chest had crumbled. He’d recalled how it was to speak without thinking, to laugh without guilt. To dare dream of a future without killing.
Because of Morwyn.
And she had left him.
He pulled a pouch from his belt. Tugged it open and withdrew its precious contents. The elegantly engraved gold bracelet with its tasteful jewels glinted up at him. Mocking him. He hadn’t sold it when she’d pressed it on him. He’d had some vague notion of returning it to her someday. But now, he never could.
His hand closed around it. It was all he had left to remind him of the woman who held his heart captive.
Chapter 28
Dusk was gathering as Morwyn approached a familiar stretch of forest. Familiar, because she was close to where she and her fellow Druids had been ambushed. How long ago that seemed.
She pulled the stolen horse to a stop and took their bearings. Their escape had been frighteningly easy. But she wasn’t surprised. Because now she was obeying the Morrigan’s will.
No one had seen them when they’d left the lodgings. No one had stopped them when she’d untethered the food-laden horse on the outskirts of the settlement.
And no one had followed them. A lone woman and child. Easy pickings. But the forest was empty of Roman, Briton and Gaul. As if the Morrigan, rejoicing in her victory, cleared the path for her errant Druid.
As she had before, the conviction gripped her that she was close to Caratacus. But this time she knew better than to search. His hidden enclave could never be found by conventional methods. The Elder had explained how the entrance could be discovered, and so she allowed her mind to relax. A difficult endeavor when every nerve screamed in protest of the desertion of her Gaul.
Briefly she closed her eyes. She wouldn’t think of him. Couldn’t think of him, or she’d tumble into insanity. Her priority now was ensuring Gwyn’s safety. And safety lay in the Briton’s camp.
She urged the horse forward, followed unseen paths, unerring in the knowledge she was going the right way. Deeper into the forest where undergrowth tangled and twisted branches tore at her gown.
The horse balked, ears flattening against its skull. Morwyn dismounted, lifted Gwyn to the ground and gripped the leather reins in one hand and Gwyn’s hand in her other.
They had arrived. She pulled the reluctant horse forward, to an unremarkable gap between two great oak trees. As they passed through, a faint sensation of vertigo assailed her, and she was catapulted back in time to the Sacred Spiral Aeron had created.
This feeling was similar. But so very much diluted.
She glanced over her shoulder. The forest looked exactly as it had before. But she knew that, if anyone stood beyond those two sacred oaks, they wouldn’t see her or Gwyn or the horse. All they would see was dense, uninhabited forest.
“Are we there now?” Gwyn’s voice was plaintive as she rubbed her eyes with her knuckles.
Morwyn straightened her spine and looked ahead to the bleakness of her future. “Yes.”
Within moments of passing through the oak tree entrance a small contingent of warriors appeared, one brandishing a blazing branch that momentarily dazzled her in the gathering gloom. Gwyn huddled against her waist, trembling in silent terror, and Morwyn had the sudden, horrifying conviction that the Elder had directed her into a trap for her sins.
“Explain your presence.” The voice was young, feminine and edged with power. Morwyn squinted, trying to see the owner of the voice, the one who held the flaming torch, but it was impossible.
She angled her jaw proudly. If she was to be slaughtered, she wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of showing her fear. Perhaps they would spare Gwyn. Or at least kill her swiftly.
“My name is Morwyn, acolyte of the great goddess, the Morrigan.” Thank the goddess for at least not allowing her voice to crack with nerves. “I’ve been searching for the Briton king, Caratacus, to fight by his side for freedom for my people. I was told the way here by the Elder.”
There was a fraught silence. Nobody moved. Then the shadowy figure clasping the torch broke free of the semicircle of warriors and approached.
Morwyn caught sight of the long honey-colored braid that snaked over the young woman’s shoulder. Her gown was richly embroidered, her gleaming silver jewelry exquisite. But she didn’t need to see those things to know this woman was a noble. It was evident in her manner. And more than that, it was obvious by the deference of the warriors that she was also a Druid. Or, at least, an acolyte of some standing.
They maintained eye contact. Finally the other woman held out her free hand, palm facing up. “Welcome, Morwyn, acolyte of the great goddess the Morrigan. I am Nimue, acolyte of the moon goddess Arianrhod.”
Morwyn smothered the rush of relief. She could allow no show of weakness.
“I thank you.” She relinquished the reins and placed her own palm upon Nimue’s.
Formalities over, Nimue smiled down at Gwyn, who still clung to Morwyn’s waist. “You and your”—she hesitated, as if she had been about to say daughter but was now unsure—“child must be weary after your journey. Come, I’ll show you where you may rest.”
The four warriors parted to let them through, and two followed as if they were personal guards for Nimue. Perhaps they were. Morwyn detected no subtle nuance in the air to indicate they possessed Druidic blood, and they didn’t give the impression of nobility.
Or perhaps, despite Nimue’s words of welcome, they didn’t trust Morwyn and followed merely to ensure she had no ulterior motive in entering their magical enclave.
They weaved through the trees, the forest becoming thicker until even the dull glow of dusk vanished beyond the canopy above. Nimue held her torch aloft and for a moment Morwyn feared the dry forest would catch alight. But instantly the trees thinned and they emerged into a small glade where an earth-covered dolmen hunched amid eerie shadows.
Morwyn’s heart jerked against her ribs. Although this cromlech had only one circle of massive bluestones surrounding the edge of the glade and the earth barely reached the capstone of the dolmen itself, it reminded her forcefully of the much larger sacred glade that Aeron had embraced as his own.
Nimue glanced at her. “You’ll be safe here,” she said, clearly misinterpreting Morwyn’s reticence. “This is the resting place for Druids only. The masses camp wherever they so desire in the surrounding forest.”
Morwyn swallowed her fear. It was foolish to let memories rule her. “Are there many Druids here?” Any she knew?
“The Elder has directed many here over the last few moons. They hail from all over Cymru and several from Britain.” Nimue hesitated, clearly debating whether to continue. “But only a few remain. They’re supervising the great mission for Caratacus.”
Morwyn glanced around the glade. A single lantern hung from the capstone of the dolmen and others were placed on the stone altar, casting flickering light and bottomless shadows. A small fire, set within a ring of stones, burned to one side of the dolmen’s entrance. At the far side of the glade she saw horses tethered.
Nimue followed her glance. “We can accommodate your horse if you wish, while you refresh yourselves.”<
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Morwyn decided not to mention the horse was stolen. Instead she gently disengaged Gwyn’s clinging arms and stripped the packs from the horse before allowing one of the warriors to take the reins. Nimue gestured for them to sit by the fire, and within moments she had water warming in a pot over the flames.
As Morwyn sorted through the food packs and handed Gwyn strips of dried meat to chew on, she reflected on Nimue’s careless comment.
The masses camp wherever they so desire.
She’d always known Caratacus’ rebels comprised, for the most part, of the general populace. But on Mon she hadn’t known his camp was protected. How, then, could those without Druidic blood enter?
“Nimue, the Elder explained I could find my way here by following the call to my blood. And that was true.” She paused, searching for the right words. Nimue regarded her in silence. “But even if the masses do manage to find their way here by themselves, how do they enter without the blood of the gods in their veins?”
“It’s not easy to find without a guide,” Nimue said. “Usually new recruits are brought by those who already know of the sacred gateway. And, of course, that helps ensure no spy may enter.”
Morwyn frowned. That wasn’t quite what she had meant.
“But the spiral itself.” Perhaps Nimue didn’t refer to it as the spiral, but even so diluted in power, what else could it be? “How do those who possess not a drop of Druidic heritage pass through the barrier?”
For the first time Nimue looked confused, as if she truly didn’t understand Morwyn’s concern. “No one may pass through the barrier. Only through the sacred gateway between the great oaks.”
Morwyn stared at her, as the other woman’s words filtered through her brain. “So anyone at all can enter this enclave, providing they find their way to the sacred oaks?”
“Of course.” Nimue glanced at Gwyn, who was both chewing her food and listening to the conversation with equal interest. “How else could Gwyn enter? She’s not of Druid stock.”
Morwyn looked at the child and a chill stole through her heart. That consideration hadn’t even crossed her mind. But why hadn’t it? It would have been impossible for Gwyn to have entered the spiral of Aeron’s construction. He had ensured only his Druids could survive such feat.
“I see.” And she did. Hadn’t the Elder told her his power derived from splinters of the original bluestones Aeron had used? The Elder had not harnessed the Source of Annwyn. Of course the magic protecting this enclave wasn’t as powerful as the one she was used to.
Nimue leaned toward her, a strangely intense expression on her face. “What do you see, Morwyn?” Her voice was low, but it was no idle question. “Why do you ask such things about our sacred enclave? Who are you?”
Goddess, would she never be able to leave that night in the past? She drew in a deep breath. She wasn’t responsible for the devastation Aeron had caused that night. But it didn’t ease the guilt she always felt for having been taken in by his ice-cold charm.
“It was my High Druid who created the original Sacred Spiral.” She tensed her muscles, waiting for the inevitable derision. She could only hope Nimue possessed the sense of justice to accept Aeron had confided in no one about his plans. That despite appearances, the rest of Druantia’s clan of Druids had been innocent of attempted genocide.
Nimue’s eyes widened and lips parted. But she didn’t draw her dagger, didn’t go for Morwyn’s throat. Instead she leaned even farther toward her, until Morwyn could feel her erratic breath whisper across her face.
“He was your High Druid?”
Morwyn stiffened. Something was very wrong. Nimue didn’t sound angry or disgusted. She sounded reverential.
She had to be mistaken. Perhaps it was merely condolence Nimue expressed.
“He was, I fear, completely insane.” She realized her fingers were twisting the wool of her gown and only with great effort did she manage to stop.
“Insane?” Nimue raised her eyebrows and once again straightened. “Oh. Perhaps he was insane, Morwyn. But that doesn’t negate the truly glorious vision he had for the people of Cymru.”
Nimue’s words thundered through Morwyn’s mind. Individually, they made perfect sense. Collectively, they were as insane as Aeron had been when he’d murdered their ancient Queen.
“Aeron.” The name thickened her tongue and caused nausea to roil in her stomach. “Was evil. Vindictive. He cared for no one but himself. It wasn’t victory for the people of Cymru he wanted. Only personal glory.”
With a sense of detached disbelief she watched a flicker of irritation mar Nimue’s proud face. How had this happened? When had Aeron’s egomaniacal actions mutated from attempted mass murderer to thwarted savior?
Was this to be his legacy after all? Continued reverence, life everlasting—the very thing he had always desired?
“I confess I’m sorely puzzled by the attitude of all of your clan,” Nimue said, sounding more annoyed than puzzled. Morwyn clenched her fists and tried to regulate her breathing. I can’t allow Aeron to be worshipped as a martyr. “Why you insist his genius was corrupted I fail to understand. He devised the perfect weapon to rid our land of Romans for good!”
Morwyn’s breath escaped in a noisy hiss. “He—” she began, and then the full meaning of Nimue’s comment pierced through her broiling anger like a strike of lightning.
“All my clan?” Excitement churned, obliterating the sour taste of Aeron from her senses. “Nimue, who else from—”
The words lodged in her throat as three elderly figures approached the fire, and she leaped to her feet, pulling Gwyn with her. Nimue, also standing, proceeded with the formal introductions, and after the Elders seated themselves and began to speak of loyalty and obligations and the imminent evacuation of the enclave, the moment to question Nimue vanished.
But a burning need to know remained within Morwyn’s breast.
The morn dawned. Bren lay on the bed he’d so recently shared with Morwyn and stared up at the discolored ceiling, a dull sense of inevitability heavy as a rock in his chest.
There was no escape from his fate. He was pledged to Caratacus until death. The interlude he’d enjoyed with Morwyn was just that. An interlude. It could never have led anywhere. Even if she hadn’t deserted him.
He expelled a measured breath. He had information to convey to his king. Information he should have conveyed the previous day, except he’d been distracted by a woman.
But no more. She had gone. And with her had vanished his last chance at grasping a shred of comfort in this life.
Slowly he opened his fist. Her bracelet had gouged his palm, but the indentation would soon fade. The cavern she’d carved into his heart never would.
Trogus scowled as the party of exploratores left the settlement shortly after dawn. Always the same fucking mission. To try to find where the heathen Briton king hid among the forests and mountains of this barbaric province.
They’d scoured the area a dozen times. Never found anything. But there was a subtle shift in mood among the officers, as if they were in possession of information that could change the balance of this battle. Except it wasn’t a battle, because Caratacus was a fucking coward who lacked the balls to face his enemy on the field.
All he did was set lethal ambushes, use the local topography to his advantage and send out assassins on covert missions. It was almost as though he had advance knowledge of the Legion’s plans.
Not that Trogus gave a shit about the Roman Legion, but such tactical maneuvers could easily impact his own safety. And he cared a great deal about that.
The sun had passed its zenith as he descended, some way ahead of the other four exploratores, the sparsely wooded hill into the verdant valley, and the edge of the same forest where Dunmacos had rescued the whore. Gods, what wouldn’t he sacrifice for the savage pleasure of running his sword through the other man’s guts? It even rivaled his need to seek vengeance against the woman for the death of his tribesman.
From th
e corner of his eye he caught sight of a lone horseman entering the forest. He stiffened, pulling his mount to a halt. The distance was significant but he’d know that bastard anywhere. It was as if the gods had heard him, and granted him a boon.
Twice he had drawn Trogus’ blood over the Cambrian bitch. The third time, it would be Dunmacos’ lifeblood, from Trogus’ blade, pumping into the earth.
The vision, as potent as any of those when he’d fantasized fucking the whore, jerked his cock to attention, an unwelcome side effect and yet another reason to exact vengeance from the other auxiliary.
He turned to a fellow exploratore who had just drawn alongside. “I’m going to check out the forest beyond. Saw something suspicious.”
“You want to change our detail?” He made as if to call the others, and Trogus flicked his hand dismissively,
“No. I’ll check it out and get back to you. No need to make it official.”
“Fuck up and you’re on your own,” the other man said by way of agreement, turning to follow the others who were making their way to the forest at a point some distance from where Dunmacos had entered. Trogus dug in his spurs and galloped after his nemeses.
He planned to ambush the other man. Yet despite the acidic desire to prolong Dunmacos’ torture, he had no desire to be caught in the act of murdering one of his own. So, an arrow through the neck. A dagger across the throat. Heavy mutilation to the face and removal of chain mail to prevent identification.
And a hasty burial among the undergrowth to hide the body. With luck, scavengers would strip the flesh from the bones before it was ever discovered.
A flash of armor ahead. A glimpse of equine flank. He urged his horse forward using thigh and spur, bow in one hand, arrow in the other. Waiting for Dunmacos to sense his presence, to turn and fight, to see who it was who was ending his filthy existence.
Dunmacos continued onward, oblivious. Trogus’ fingers stilled on his bow, disconcerted by his prey’s behavior. Was it a trick? Even though Trogus kept in the shadows and concealment of trees, it was surely impossible for a scout of Dunmacos’ experience to be unaware of his presence.
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