by Thomas Tryon
“Like Missy Penrose?”
“Missy, and other—”
“Phenomena? It’s possible.”
“Phenomena can be realized, too. By those who—seek.” Again the little snick of emphasis. “Take yourself, now. You’re a man of perception. Seein’s not necessarily believin’. There’s many kinds of reality, y’know. Many kinds o’ things.” She seemed to be leading the conversation, as if making some subtle probe of my nature. “It’s a matter of understandin’ things that maybe seem impossible to understand.”
“How?”
“By a pusson openin’ himself up to the possibility.” Again she shot me a look to see how I was absorbing this.
“How would a person do that?”
“There are ways.”
“Would you show a person?”
The familiar twinkle behind the glasses. “What makes you think I could?”
It was my turn to shoot her a look. “I think you could.”
She laughed and gave me a thump on the back. “Flattery’s a poisoned gift, they say.” She brushed some strands of cobweb from her skirts where her scissors usually hung. I pricked up my ears at her next words. “Still,” she said in a barely audible tone, “an ‘experience’ might be arranged.”
“How’s that?”
“I said an ‘experience.’”
“When?” My response was too eager, too forthright. I suddenly realized we were dealing in subtleties. Again she used her glasses lorgnette-style to peruse the ground carefully.
“Who knows?” she said at last. “A pusson mustn’t go too fast. The sphinx in Egypt’s been there a long time but no one’s solved its riddle yet. Not even the great Napoleon. ’Course, some folks is smarter than others. If they was presented with a sphinx, they might be able to solve the riddle.”
“They?”
“They.”
“Me?”
“Maybe.” She replaced her glasses and her glance was mischievous as she picked up her skirts and went by me. “A man must learn to discover what is possible.”
“Would that be the ‘experience’?”
“You got too many questions.” I could hear the humor in her voice. “Come along.”
14
THE NEXT FEW DAYS brought more intermittent rain followed by a cold snap. We turned the heat on for the first time since our occupancy, and steam clanked through the labyrinthine pipes, rattling the radiators in furious bursts of energy, but producing little heat. The thermostat, of ancient vintage, was found to be defective, and I called a heating crew from over on the turnpike, asking them to replace it with a new one. Meanwhile we used the fireplaces. These proved to be defective as well, for in each room—the living room, the bacchante room, and our bedroom—more smoke seemed to come down the flue than went up.
Clearly what was needed was Jack Stump, whom I remembered hearing brag that he was handy in the matter of chimneys. He was long overdue to have returned, and I biked down the River Road to the bait shack where he lived.
Jack Stump had never claimed the virtues of homemaker, and his poor dwelling appeared to be in the same sorry state as when he had first taken tenancy back in March, after the spring floods. I could see a watermark girdling the battened sides about halfway up, and I wondered why the shack hadn’t been carried away altogether. The lawn was weeds, with cans and other debris scattered everywhere. At one side was a windowless shed where he probably stowed his rig, but the door was padlocked when I investigated. I knocked at the shack door and got no reply. I knocked again, then called; still no reply.
I would have to tackle the chimneys myself. I turned my bike around and pedaled back up the road, pulling over to the side as a red Volkswagen came toward me from the other direction. I recognized Jim Minerva, who waved as he passed. What was he doing down on the River Road when he should be working at the grocery store? Playing hooky, maybe, and getting in a bit of fishing.
Driving back along Main Street, I saw Tamar Penrose in the doorway of the post office. She was holding a cat in her arms, and she watched me sullenly as she cradled the animal against her shoulders, her red nails running through the fur like so many red beetles.
In its unpredictable, New England way, the weather turned fine again. The following Saturday I engaged Worthy’s assistance and together we went about dealing with the chimneys. We laid old sheets at the bottoms of the fireplaces, covered the mantels, then got up on the roof. Using safety ropes, we fished a heavy chain down the chimney and flailed it about, loosening the soot and unclogging the flues.
The Dodds had returned the night before, and I called down to Maggie, who was planting bulbs on her side of the hedge; after a while she brought Robert out to enjoy the sun in a lawn chair and they talked while she gardened. When Worthy and I came off the roof before lunch, we carried away the sheets and emptied them in the trash, then cleaned up at the kitchen sink. While we handed the bar of Lava soap back and forth, I reminded him of the leaking sink in the studio, which he had neglected to take care of.
We had calf’s liver for lunch, and when we had eaten, Beth drove over to Mrs. Green’s to pick up a quilt. I paid Worthy and sent him along, then walked down the drive to the studio. I closed the door behind me and sat, bemused, on my stool. The thing I was thinking about was in the room, but for the space of a quarter of an hour I did not look at it. Finally I went to one of the racks and took out the sketchbook I had used at the fair. I flipped through the pages until I found what I was looking for: the drawing of Missy Penrose’s doll. I stared at it for some time, then, placing the pad on the drawing board, I drew a shoebox down from the top shelf, where I had hidden it. I removed the cover and placed the doll from Justin’s cornfield beside the sketch and compared the two images.
Both had corncob bodies, both had huge eyes secured in the straw head, straw legs bunched together with raffia ties, and tattered bits of rag that passed for garments. The doll was just a child’s doll, but the other thing—I stared down at the strange, eldritch face, again trying to comprehend its being. It was clearly meant to represent the female figure, for attached to the cob body were large protuberances passing for breasts, and its sex was clearly defined by a deep cleft between the legs.
What was it? Whose hand had fashioned it? Recalling a section in one of my reference books, I found the volume and turned to “Primitive Art,” my eyes scanning the pages: a grotesque figure of a painted clay effigy vessel, possibly representing the goddess Demeter; another, a contemporary doll of the Angolese, representative of the fertility rites practiced by primitive agrarian societies; a giant basalt head found in Mexico, believed to represent Coatlicue, the great Mother Goddess, destroyer of men; an ivory doll carved by an Eskimo, the figure of a shaman or tribal priest; a Pueblo Indian kachina doll with wooden body, dressed in cloth and feathers; a Mayan stone face found in Honduras; a god of the ancient peoples of Oceania; a carved relief of a female, dug up in France, and believed to be the object of worship of the ancient Celts. All, as the accompanying text explained, manifestations in the different cultures of a similar deity, that Earth Mother who was older than Rome or Greece, older than Crete, than Babylon or Egypt; as old as the dawn of time.
I turned back to the drawing board, comparing the images again. It was the eyes, mainly. In the sketch they had a blank, almost innocent gaze, but in the figure they seemed mysterious, even malevolent. All-seeing eyes, all-knowing. Omnipotent. Whose did they remind me of? There was a cruelty in their ominous stare, implacable, remorseless. Suddenly I felt a chill. Had I tampered with something I had no right touching, some witch doll or voodoo object one of the superstitious villagers had stuck in Justin’s field to cast a spell?
I whirled at the sound of footsteps. Worthy Pettinger stood hunched in the doorway, a wrench in his hand. “I forgot to fix the pipe—” He broke off and his face paled as he stared at the thing on the drawing board. “Where did you get it?”
“I found it.” He stepped back as though struck. “Can you tell me what i
t is?”
“Where did you find it?”
“In a field.”
“Where?”
“At Justin Hooke’s.” The wrench clattered to the floor; I picked it up. “Have you ever seen one before?”
“No. I never.” A whisper as he backed away to the door. “You got to get rid of it.”
“What is it?”
“I—don’t know. Does anyone know you took it?”
“No. I don’t think so.” I lifted it, shook it, heard a swift intake of breath from Worthy. I put it in the box and set the lid on. “I’ll burn it.”
“No! You can’t burn the corn—it’s got to go back into the ground. Bury it.” Snatching up the box, he ran from the studio. When I stepped out, I saw him taking a spade and hurrying behind the garage, the box under his arm.
He dug the hole under a clump of bushes close to the hedge separating our property from the Dodds’; he shoveled the box deep into the soft ground, covered it, and jumped on the earth with his feet. Then he scattered leaves and twigs over the spot. When he finished, he leaned on the spade handle, sweating and wiping his mouth, his eyes riveted to the newly covered hole.
I waited another moment, then spoke. “Worthy, tell me what it is.”
He took a breath and seemed to recover himself. “I don’t know,” he said with an offhand shrug. “Just some crazy thing.” He sounded sheepish. “I guess I got carried away. Well, long as it’s there I suppose we can leave it. Nobody wants a crazy-looking thing like that anyways.” Still he could not disguise the urgency in his voice.
I looked at him coolly. “Missy Penrose might.”
“Huh?” He looked up sharply.
“She has one like it. A corn doll. You’ve seen it, surely.”
He shrugged again. “Oh, sure, that. Lots of the kids do. ‘Gagas,’ they’re called. Just poppets.”
“You don’t care for Missy much.”
“Sure, she’s O.K.”
“Can she prophesy?”
A dark look had come over the boy’s face, the blood rose to his cheeks. He fell silent, absently chopping with the tip of his spade along the edge of the flower bed closest to the hedge. His shoulders hunched, his mouth assumed a grim line.
“Worthy, I’m asking you something.” Still no reply. “You don’t want to be in the play, do you?” He waited; silence. “Do you?” I stepped to the boy and spun him around. “Answer me, damn it.”
“No, I don’t!” He spat the words hotly. “It doesn’t matter anyway—I won’t be here!”
“Why not?”
He yanked his shoulder from under my hand and his dark eyes flashed angrily. “Because I’m leaving. I hate this town, and I hate the people in it. They’re fools, all of them.”
“Why?”
“Because they think that what they think is the only way to think. They think if you plow a field you should use a mule, not a tractor. Mules are the old way, and wooden rakes are the old way, and hoes are the old way, and that’s all you hear around here—the old ways. I don’t want to be a corn farmer.”
“Corn seems inevitable in this place.”
“Not for me. Nothing to do but plant corn, nothing to talk about but harvesting corn. And their Spring Festival and their Midsummer’s Eve and their husking bee.” His voice rose in pitch, then broke, and when he spoke again it was with a softer tone.
“Honest, Mr. Constantine, I got to get out of here. I’ve got to get away.”
“One-horse town?”
A trace of a smile. “Sort of. You know. A fellow gets feeling cooped up in a place like this. I never been anywhere farther than Danforth.”
“Will you go there—to your friends?”
“That’d be the first place they’d look.”
“Who?”
“All of them. I’m thinking of joining the navy.”
“And see the world? Maybe that’s a good idea.”
“I been savin’ my money. I got some put by, enough to tide me over. There’s a fellow I know runs a pool parlor and beer bar in Hartford. I can go stay with him until I decide what to do.”
“How old are you, son?”
“Sixteen.”
“The navy won’t take you without your parents’ consent, you know. Not till you’re seventeen.”
“I know. They’ll never give it, anyway, but I’ll be seventeen soon.” He lifted the shovel and stepped from the hedge, moving past me.
I stopped him. “You’re right. You ought to go if it’s what you want to do. It’s your life, no one else’s, and you can’t let other people tell you what you should do. We’ll miss you.” I took out my wallet, extracted some bills, and held them out. Worthy shook his head.
“Go on, son, take it.”
“You already paid me.”
“This is just to help you along till you get things figured out.” I pressed the money into his hand.
“O.K., but only till I can repay you.” He folded the bills until they were a small square and tucked them in his watch pocket. “Thanks, Mr. Constantine. I’m sorry to be leaving you. You’ve been kind to me. Will you tell Kate goodbye?” He looked back at the buried box. “And look—”
“What?”
“Nothing.”
I was sure he was going to say more, but had thought better of it. “Will you write me and let me know what you decide?”
“Sure. Would you want my tractor?”
“That’s right—we were going to plow with it next spring. How much are you asking?”
“No—you can have it. It’s a present.”
I said I couldn’t accept it, but if he thought I could manage to keep it running, I’d like to buy it; where could I send a check?
He thought a moment, then said, “Here’s what I’ll do. I’ll write to you, and put ‘John Smith’ on the envelope. That way you’ll know it’s from me.” Again he looked back at the covered hole. “Don’t tell anybody,” he whispered. I took the shovel and we shook hands.
“Tell your wife goodbye, too,” he said, and went up the drive. One thing was clear: he was lying. Something had frightened him.
I looked down at the spot where he had buried the box; then taking the shovel in my hands, I began digging.
When I had hung the shovel in the garage and come out, the shoebox under my arm, I heard Robert’s hallo from the other side of the hedge.
“That you, Ned? Come and sit.”
Turning the corner of the hedge, I found the blind man in his lawn chair, with his usual stoical attitude, as though he had learned long ago never to expect anything but what life chose to bring him. “Well, m’boy, Margaret tells me you’ve been up on the roof all morning. Be careful—those old shingles can be treacherous.”
I pulled up another chair, explaining that all necessary precautions had been taken, and that Worthy Pettinger had done most of the dangerous work anyway.
“Handy fellow, Worthy,” Robert said ruminatively. “Good-looking boy, too, they tell me. Got the old Cornish blood in him.”
“I thought the Cornish were fair. He looks more like an Indian.”
“In England it’s generally held that the so-called ‘black Irish’ were sired by those Spaniards who made it to shore when the Armada was sunk, but anyone who knows their apples will tell you it’s not the Spanish who blackened the Cornish hair, but men from a civilization far older than that. I’m speaking of the sailors from Knossos, in Crete, long before Caesar’s legions were even settling in England.”
“And Missy,” I asked pointedly. “Is she of the Cornish strain, too?”
“Her mother is, that we know. As to the father—that would be anybody’s guess.”
“Is it true she can prophesy?”
Before Robert could reply, Maggie appeared with a carriage robe which she tucked around his knees, laughing at his protests at being coddled. “Just pretend you’re on shipboard, darling.”
“What time do we get to Le Havre?” He smoothed the cover over his knees while Maggie knelt close by wit
h her gardening things. “What have you fellows been talking about?” she asked, digging in some large new bulbs.
“Ned was asking about Missy’s predictions.”
Maggie laughed again. “Ned, you’ve got to get used to the country notions around here.”
“I don’t think you can toss them off as notions,” Robert argued. “Certainly there are people who appear to be endowed with special powers. Cassandra foretold the downfall of Troy. Montezuma’s priests were able to predict ahead of time the coming of the white man to the New World. Modern psychical research recognizes precognition as possible. People get portents of disaster all the time, and they’re often confirmed.”
“Maybe Missy just makes lucky guesses,” I put in.
“Maybe. But because of her freckles the villagers believe she had communication with the god. Not our Christian God, mind you, but the god that was worshiped in the olden times, as the Widow calls them. In those days, they believed men had the power of divination which stemmed from their knowledge of the stars.”
“And Missy’s stars are written on her face.”
Maggie placed a bulb in the hole and covered it over. “You see, Ned—country notions.”
“What you have to remember,” Robert continued, “is that human nature doesn’t change much. You can’t negate the ingrained imagination of a whole culture. When they came from Cornwall to the New World, the original settlers were a deeply religious sect. What did they find when they got here? Cold, illness, the constant fear of attack; they were foodless and homeless. They were forced to adapt to circumstances, to learn new ways in order to survive. But in learning the new they refused to give up the old, a faith based on the moon and the stars and the tides, and on ancient deities they could turn to for succor in this time of stress. During the first year the village was settled, there was a good harvest, which the Indians had shown them how to grow, and they had food.”
But then, he went on, had come what was still remembered as the Great Waste, the famine where the corn shriveled up and died, and the Cornish settlers felt the cold hand of fear at their throats, and they raised themselves up and prayed for help, not in church but in the fields, inviting the blessings of the old gods, those who had come with the dark-haired Cretan sailors. And the gods answered them, for the land was blessed with crops in the fields and fruit in the orchards.