Rewriting Stella

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by Tuttle, Dan;


  stood mesmerized by how its finish flowed

  like frothing monsoon puddles, each crest topped

  with hint of whiteness right when it explodes.

  Abu looked out upon the ocean as

  a sailor unperturbed by what’s beyond.

  “I wonder,” she restarted, “what it has

  inside.” His pointing finger did respond,

  directed at the smoking skewered fish.

  But Stella sought an answer past their dish.

  66.

  All dreams that night were colored by that blue.

  Abu’s imagined him in flight among

  the stars, past home, past Dar, past Timbuktu,

  revitalized the further he was flung.

  The unfamiliarity of sleep

  in place that wasn’t Stella’s childhood home

  left drops of anxiousness that must have seeped

  into her cerebellum after gloam,

  for while adream she had that nightmare of

  an unknown but important world interred

  by sidelong rushing waters, skies above

  all clear of rainclouds. Faces, objects blurred

  when BLING nudged Stella, sensing something sour,

  and woke her. Nightmares lengthened nighttime’s hours.

  CHAPTER 7

  67.

  The airport portal’s passport pass-checks proved

  both formal and forgettable. The form

  of long-hall building Stella thought improved

  upon the smallish structures she’d thought norm.

  Aluminum machines used magic sight

  to peer into their bags and look for knives.

  Abu scanned signs of what they would indict

  an owner for, if found. “They’re saving lives,

  they say, but frankly I don’t know who’d bring

  a panga on a journey overseas.”

  At jetway tunnel’s end he glimpsed the wing

  and wondered how its metal wove through breeze

  to lift behemoth tube to cloudlike height

  and feign to global villages unite.

  68.

  To feign a federation’s easy through

  mere economic globalism. Trade

  brought cheap-bought goods to many. Gains could glue

  consumers’ interest. Under that charade

  were nation-states each striving for more gold,

  like Stel’d seen forest plants wage ruthless fight:

  each root, vine throttled neighbors so to hold

  place closer to scarce showered golden light.

  In that kind spirit richer countries loan

  persuasively to poorer ones, enmesh

  debts deep in their power structures. From such throne

  they bide time till demanding pound of flesh.

  It’s feature much as flaw, this global theft

  that never stopped when colonizers left.

  69.

  The Chinese toiled not only in the veldt

  of Tanzania—they worked routes worldwide:

  from railroads laid connecting Bible Belt

  to California, Rockies’ peaks swirled by

  a curving vertebrae of wood and steel;

  from soccer stadiums and highways for

  transporting ore to port past jungle’s seal.

  And yet those efforts paled compared to corps

  reserved for infrastructure back at home.

  They’d built a dam beyond the size that eyes

  on standard low-cloud day could see. Syndrome

  of water shortage in the north gave rise

  to project to reshape a watershed,

  diverting thousand miles of river’s thread.

  70.

  Fermenting in official files were maps,

  sketched blueprints filled with figures, sums, and maths,

  geology’s formations, heights, and gaps

  traced clearly. Bold lines laid down pro tem paths

  where ruined roads would need to reconnect,

  where rural towns would swell from villages,

  where settlements they lacked time to protect

  would be submerged in lakebed. Tillages

  of centuries would be retired, for the

  top mandate from the government was ‘grow’,

  and full employment bought stability.

  So rural ways would not such progress slow.

  A farming basin, million people strong

  sat in the site where megadam belonged.

  71.

  Potential plan was locked in secret, none

  were authorized to speak about it yet.

  The Party could not risk that mayhem stun

  the populace with premature gazette

  before the plans for relocation set.

  A dressing ’round the window frame would cast

  an advantageous light on mortal threat

  to livelihoods: recompensation passed

  the incomes that they’d earn as farmers. And

  the big power-thirsty cities might be slaked

  with water flow’s electrons. High demand

  for real estate on newly-crafted lake

  would surely sell for pretty pennies. Wealth

  as land use shifts could be accrued by stealth.

  72.

  But this was not yet relevant for BLING

  or Stella or Abu, who had escaped

  their unloved nests ’neath Tanzania’s wing.

  They knew not how they’d soon be shaped

  by land and custom, tongue and culture, food,

  and closeness to a billion comrades whose

  decisions inappropriately viewed

  without the local context could confuse.

  As magic airplane coursed its airy track,

  transporting three small bodies – one with fur –

  toward hearts of Middle Kingdom, utter lack

  of knowledge fate would make them saboteurs

  was useful to preserve naïveté

  lest Party hastily believe them prey.

  73.

  At lucky eight past eight their plane flown flew

  through airspace of a basin’s ancient town

  inhabited since people first subdued

  the forest’s greens to farmland’s fecund brown.

  Egalitarian in many ways,

  its households lent support past garden fence,

  embodying ideals from hardship days

  when Mao thought communism common sense.

  Now motivated by their own fields’ take,

  they’d taken best Zedong and best Xiaoping,

  the former lauding acts for country’s sake,

  the latter letting people purchase things.

  This town named Fan would soon take center seat

  as X on blueprint’s super-secret sheet.

  74.

  Flown night wore on, the trio lulled to sleep

  in whirring airborne chilled metallic womb—

  with BLING curled patiently into a heap

  beneath the seat in front where legs had room.

  A noodle breakfast came with cabin’s light,

  set bright when stewardesses decided dawn

  in local time was near enough that rite

  of food to welcome day began. The yawns

  took over every aisle. “Spaghetti’s new

  for mornings,” Stel said, leaned in for a taste,

  regretted it. Foreign bienvenue

  would be improved if breakfast were replaced.

  The window took her focus from the food,

  the puzzle being how the sky was hued.

  75.

  Sky felt like purgatory, piloted.

  Air’s in-betweenness straddled beige and oat.

  Dark rain seemed imminent, yet quiet did

  persist from clouds. She’d learn that sulfur’s mote

  tinged skies from exurbs’ growing industry.

  The plane touched dow
n. Her body full of dreams

  felt blessed nigh to the point of nimbus. She

  strode tightrope line between maintaining schemed

  identity and ecstasy. Toes’ tread

  through jetway tunnel onto surer land,

  earned immigration, customs go-ahead.

  Arrived! Sharp brain put own fate back in hand.

  Soles touching ground of foreign soil in

  the Middle Kingdom loosed adrenaline.

  76.

  Their escort from the baggage claim was man

  who held a sign with two kids’ names in script

  they recognized. Inscrutable deadpan

  mismatched the courtesies his mouth did lip.

  Adventurers made way to taxicab.

  The speech exchanged between the two front seats

  was fluid such that parsed-out words weren’t grabbed

  by Abu’s brain. The words’ singsong tones, beats,

  were mesmerizing as pentameter.

  From backseat Stella frowned, she said, “I think

  they’re in an argument.” “I can’t infer

  if that’s the case or, if—” their guide glanced, winked,

  and smiled as if Abu’s truncated guess

  was truth: their high pitch hadn’t meant aggress.

  77.

  As first impressions go, arrival at

  their home was unremarkable. Jet lag

  formidable had numbed their senses flat

  and made once-steady vision zig and zag.

  They made their way through courtesies, and learned

  that hosts were wife and husband, girl and dog.

  Their spaciness meant meeting soon adjourned

  so they could sleep away their mental fog.

  As Stella and Abu retired to bed

  they split by gender, Abu on his own

  and Stella toward a bunk above her head!

  She’d never seen two beds stacked. Upper throne

  was hers at roommate Ai’s direction. Sleep

  came instantly without the mildest peep.

  78.

  A morning passed with foreigners asleep

  in Chinese household, time zones partly crossed.

  A few days of adjustment and they’d keep

  same time as locals. Day one, though, was lost.

  They met the head of house, a Party man

  named Long for ‘dragon’, common strong male name.

  He had a job that had to do with plans,

  constructing things. They found they overcame

  such difficulties found when mother tongue

  mismatches one another’s: English brought

  some useful commonality among

  them. Abu hoped he’d turn to polyglot,

  be first to translate nuanced thought and need.

  Till then, they had one tongue from which to lead.

  79.

  At breakfast table bowls were full of milk,

  and Stella was the first one out to try.

  She smiled at Ai and sipped the warm white silk,

  its sweetness and the size of spoon surprised.

  “My spoon’s too big!” As jester, she stretched arms

  to max, as long as elephantine tusk.

  Ai laughed a little, understanding. Harm’s

  impossible with clown-like gestures. Rusk,

  plain bread, or biscuit was more common back

  at home to go with morning chai. Stel’s spoon

  found different hidden treasure: egg, unpacked,

  but still with hardened yolk, no innards strewn.

  Defiance of experiences past

  made time elongate in this breaking fast.

  80.

  Abu came out and altogether three

  went off to school. It wasn’t lengthy walk

  but each sight mesmerized the escapees

  from Tanzania. Sidewalk breakfasts hawked,

  and scooters zipped through bike and highway lanes,

  so numerous that Stella turned and said,

  “These roads the last five minutes have contained

  more people than I’ve ever met.” Steam fled

  from tiny restaurants with lāmiàn bowls

  set out atop mold plastic furniture.

  An aproned woman filling soups cajoled

  them sit and eat she gestured; spurned, spit her

  small peace upon the sidewalk. Ai waved off

  concern that they’d offended: “Old man cough.”

  81.

  Ai’s English wasn’t perfect, but was good

  enough. Augmented with some mild charades,

  it let most simple thoughts be understood.

  They came upon the school, saw barricades

  in front with guardhouse stopping entrants to

  ensure they had credentials well in line.

  Beyond security was gent sent who

  had perfect ivory tower look refined.

  His eighties wireframe spectacles stood front

  on nose, his tweed-patch coat sought restitched hem,

  his slacks fine cloth showed they’d a purpose: blunt

  all doubts his institution was a gem.

  “I am Headmaster Yan. Huānyíng. I’ve heard

  we’re privileged to have you here, transferred.”

  82.

  Abu replied, “Your accent’s British, sir,

  and sounds like what I’ve heard on BBC.

  I hope I’ll form the same,” words skittish, per

  direct address from principal. “I see

  your school is very nice. I’m lucky to

  have such a chance. I thank your country much

  for bringing me. I mean, I never flew

  before. It’s all so new.” “We’re proud of such

  a program, priv’leges are ours. We here

  encourage students to make foreign friends,

  for whom we save slots in the mix. Sincere

  commitment to a global view contends

  we bring the brightest here, to China’s heart

  to share with their young, local counterparts.”

  83.

  With that, the eloquent Headmaster Yan

  brushed students through the double door, its arch

  held fluid writing in a foreign pen

  whose ink flowed thick in parts, in others parched

  into thin line’s suggestion. Gist unknown,

  it still pleased Stella with its comely form.

  Ensuing classes were discrete, but thrown

  into the snowglobe memory’s ongoing storm

  of swirled impressions when there’s far too much

  to take in and describe. As newborns, each

  phenomenon could drown their eyes, could clutch

  and puzzle-freeze their mind. Bell’s day-end screech

  brought quartet to the courtyard for repose

  and diagnosis of day’s cons and pros.

  84.

  “The floors are super shiny,” Stella said.

  “The blackboards here are white,” piped in Abu.

  “The classrooms all have lights set overhead.”

  “The windows all have glass. I like Chengdu.”

  Then Ai perked up at hearing hometown’s name,

  and pointed circularly ’round the yard,

  then looked back at the three, thumbs-up, exclaimed,

  “The best!” BLING YIPPED! agreement. Something marred

  a purely positive review, though. Stel

  said, “All through lunch I caught kids pointing at

  me, laughing, like they’d some mean girls’ cartel.”

  Abu, whose eyes had scanned all day for that

  mum type of ostracizing, said, “I saw

  nobody making me cause for guffaw.”

  85.

  “But seeing isn’t everything, Abu.

  I knew it, felt it, noticed noticing.”

  “You sense things, sure. I’d rather trust my view—
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  it’s more objective.” “Is it? Won’t miss things

  when mind’s elsewhere?” “I’ll try. I’ll look around

  tomorrow,” offering some mild support.

  A group of older boys passed, glanced at hound,

  then Stella, Ai. Howls burst out like bloodsport

  as they began to point and laugh at clique

  that sat there having done naught to provoke.

  Stel boiled: she’d hate the teasing and the tricks

  of social standing jockeying till croaked.

  Would she be victim of their senseless taunt

  till placating with offerings they’d want?

  86.

  The instigator’d been aggrandized by

  cruel act overt. Stel hoped that she could smash

  that hierarchy by slicing size of guy.

  She’d keep lookout for stealthy ways to trash

  him. Scene mismatched high standards set in class.

  This partial boarding school had English used

  in half its courses, much of China’s brass

  sent kids there. Still, elite browbeating bruised

  as had in Tanzania. Last time she

  had felt it, she’d sat on a log and found

  her puppy BLING, recovered her esprit

  adventuring in forests that surround

  home shamba. Withdrawal to her private place

  might revive ego bully had debased.

  87.

  Ai sat as witness, yet lacked words to share

  to make it better. So she stood to leave,

  escort them home. The sidewalk thoroughfare

  was packed, like earlier. Sad Stella breathed

  in deeply, trying to move past the thought

  of further teasing. Breath was her mistake:

  she coughed it out, remaining overwrought,

  unaided by the air’s oddly opaque

  gray quality. “Is rain coming tonight?”

  She asked of Ai. Ai shook her head, confused.

  Continued Stella, “Why’s it gray, then?” Height

  of clouds – or fog, or smog, or something – cruised

  at just four meters overhead, the signs

  across the broad-laned street held obscured lines.

  88.

  “It gray?” asked Ai, incomprehension sheer.

  “Yes, gray, the sky here’s different. Lower, thick.”

  Ai’s look showed blankness toward the tension clear

  to Stella. “Color,” added Ab, who flicked

  a finger toward the sky, “no good.” That seemed

  to turn Ai’s mental cogs, loose darting eyes

  in search of fitting words. Mind clearly teemed.

  Mouth opened twice, formed no words in two tries.

  Stel felt a pang of pity, waved point off

  to Ai. Returned glance of relief showed sign

  was mercifully received. Ab’s ill-timed cough

 

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