Finding the Light (Whitsborough Chronicles Book 3)

by C. A. Rene

  It's strange that it was tucked under the mattress and no other books were here. I pick it up and sit on the bed, this was given to me unbeknownst to my parents at the time. She had made me promise not to tell them and she would read me a bit of it every night. She gave me my love of reading through this book. I throw it behind me on the bed and start picking up the clothes and sheets and straightening up my desk. I have to find where Sonja went and I need to let her know that I know she's my mother.

  “Hey,” I turn and see Adri standing at my bedroom door.

  “Hi.” I smile at her.

  “We’re mostly done with the kitchen,” she shuffles her feet, looking slightly nervous.

  “Come here.” I tell her.

  Her head quickly pops up and she looks around to see if anyone is listening or watching.

  “Just come here.” I say again.

  Her movements are slow and unsure and it makes me feel bad about how much I have confused her in the last year. She stops in front of me and looks up through her lashes, her thick black lashes. Adri is gorgeous and the one and only female that could make my heart pound and my body heat.

  I run my fingers down her cheek and she leans her face into my hand. Today she smells of flowers and her strawberry shampoo. My other hand wraps around her face and I bring her flush into me. I know I told Emmett I would back off until they formed a bond, but there’s something about Adri that makes it hard to stay away. I did it for three years and it just about killed me.

  She wraps her arms around my neck and I slowly lower my mouth and press it to hers. It’s only meant to be a sweet kiss but as soon as I feel her mouth against mine, all thought escapes me and I open my mouth to lick her sweet lips. As soon as she gasps, I’m inside her mouth, feeling and tasting what I know was made for me. I deepen it further and suck her tongue into my mouth, pressing my cock into her soft stomach.

  I pull away and rest my head on top of hers, if I continue this I will have her naked and under me on the bed in no time. I open my eyes and see Emmett sitting on my bed, his legs stretched wide and leaning back on his hands.

  “Don’t stop now,” he grins, “it was just getting good.”

  Adri gasps and spins around to look at him. Emmett rises from the bed and walks towards her, pressing his chest into hers. Then he slowly forces her to step back into me, her back against my chest and her firm ass pressed into my cock.

  “Now,” he lowers his head, “my turn.”

  He tips her chin up and licks her lips before he crushes his mouth to hers. I can’t help it, a moan escapes me and I slide my hands up Adri’s sides towards her breasts. Emmett brings himself in closer and I know the second he presses his cock into her because her ass thrusts against mine.

  When they pull apart, Emmett looks into my face and what he sees there makes him smile. There was not one ounce of jealousy on my part, just raw lust and wanting. I want to strip Adri down and watch Emmett take her, then maybe I can take him.

  Adri bends her head back and looks up at me, “this is what you guys want?” She moans as Emmett continues to suck and kiss on her neck.

  “Close.” I say with a small smile, “how are you feeling?”

  “Like I want to be fucked,” she smiles mischievously, “by both of you,” Emmett’s head comes up and he looks from her to me, “at the same time.” She finishes and both Emmett and I groan.

  “That’s a start.” He nods while he presses another sweet kiss to her mouth.

  “We should maybe continue this another time,” I roll my eyes because I really don’t want it to stop, “I don’t want to have to answer a million questions from my brother and your sister.”

  “True.” He nods and steps back. His sweat pants don’t do a single thing to hide what I know he’s packing in there.

  Adri remains pressed against me and I give her a quick kiss to the temple. “I’m almost done in here, then I need to do a quick sweep of the backyard and pool house.”

  “Hey!” Emmett exclaims and flops onto my bed, “I love this book.” He picks up the book Sonja gave me and flips through it.

  “Yeah,” I smile, “I’ve had it since I was a kid.”

  “Travis loves to read.” Adri nods and smiles up at me.

  “Really?” Emmett looks up from the book, “Ember is making me a library for all my books. You should check it out.”

  “I will.” I nod.

  “What’s this?” He holds up a folded piece of paper.

  “I don’t know,” I shake my head and take the paper from him, “where did you get it from?”

  “It fell out of the back of the book.”

  I open the letter and see Sonja’s perfect cursive writing on the page. It’s new because the blue ink looks fresh. “It’s from Sonja.” I whisper.

  “Adri and I will head out to the backyard,” Emmett puts his hand on my shoulder, “when you’re done, meet us there.”

  I nod and they leave the room, their hushed voices floating back to me. I want to read this but at the same time I’m afraid to fucking see what she has to say. It explains why that book was tucked neatly under the flipped over mattress. She knew I would find it and eventually find her letter also.

  I sit down on the bed and let out a heavy exhale, this is going to be hard to get through. I can feel it.

  Dear Travis,

  I named you that, it was after my papa. This book I give you when you a little boy was from my papa. He loved this book and I bring with me to America to help me remember him. I hope you take good care of it. He died when I was very young. You will be wondering why the nanny named you and I have finally decided to give you all the truth.

  Sonja always had a European accent and her English was fine but not perfect, I smile as I read the words and I can almost hear her voice in my head.

  My family is in Ukraine. My mama is there and also I have three other sisters. When Papa died we became very poor and Mama never have to work before and my sisters were younger than me. So I decide to come to America to make the money and send to my family. Many girls from my country do this and they enjoy the learning a new language and to experience different people. I was lucky because my mama speak some English and she teach me already.

  When I get here, I find ads for nanny and for teacher. I love children so much and I decide to try for nanny. It is a funny thing because my first place I call was to your father. He tell me his wife to be is pregnant and will have baby in a few months. They needed help because he is so busy. I was excited! I love newborn, so I come to this house and I have an interview. When I meet them, I think they are so young, younger than me! And your father he seem not so nice but your mother was sweet. She have a belly and I even feel the baby kick inside.

  Christina was pregnant, did she fucking lie to me about Sonja? I rub my hand down my forehead and try to hold off the headache that’s threatening to spill out.

  I get job and I am so happy because the pay is so good. I have enough to send to Mama and I can also save. Those early days were nice for me, your mother just sleep a lot and your father was always away at school or business. I mostly read to learn my English better and I cleaned to prepare house for baby.

  Then one bad day, Christina was in swimming pool and she fall asleep. But not a regular sleep, the one you get from drinking so much alcohol. I find the bottle of her favourite vodka by the pool. I did not know she drink like this and I did not know she have the mental problems. I find out later, she was always sad because she leave college and her family to live here and have baby. Your father was building business and still in the college. Nobody tell me. She look like she was dead and I jump in the pool to bring her out. I cannot swim very well and it take me a long time.

  I bring her out and her face look blue, so I press her chest and give the breath to her and finally she bring up so much water, I cannot believe her lungs have this much. I run inside to call the ambulance and they take her to hospital. It was so bad, the doctor s
ay the baby was not alive for at least one week inside her belly. This make her insides bad and she can no longer have child.

  I was scared, for sure I need a new job. But Mr. Greene surprise me and ask me to stay. Christina need my help and I could stay with her when he is gone. I was happy and I try my best to help her but she was impossible, she drink so much and I worry about her.

  Mr. Greene become angry a lot to her and they fight, he also become mean and not so nice to me too. He would hit Christina and he did things to me I do not wish to say. But you came from that bad thing, Travis, you are my son. I carry you for nine months and I give birth to you here in this house. I could not be allowed at the hospital because Christina make everyone believe you was hers. They take you from me, but Christina was not kind to you. Mr. Greene he tell me to raise you and I can name you but I must tell you Christina is your mother.

  I watch as a drop of water hits the page and spreads out quickly distorting the ink. I reach up and touch a hand to my cheek and I’m surprised when I pull back and see tears. My whole life I thought I was hated, I thought I was cursed with parents that wanted very little to do with me.

  I am sorry I did not tell you sooner, Mr. Greene threatened to cut off my pay and my family in Ukraine they need that money to survive. When he died I had a plan to tell you but you were so sad and I did not know how to do it.

  You have a bad childhood, I know this. So many people treat you badly, I tried my best to protect you but even I could not do it properly. Please forgive me, my son.

  I love you,

  Sonja Koltyk

  p.s. I am from a small village in Ukraine called Iza and I hope one day I can bring you there to meet your baba (that mean Grandmother)

  I need to find Sonja.

  I now know she would not leave to go back to her home because she needs this job for her family-my family. I need to find her and make sure she knows I appreciate every good moment she gave me as a child. If it wasn’t for her, I don’t think I would’ve continued to live past my fourteenth year.

  I tuck the letter into my back pocket and cross the hall into my parents room. E and Vin are no longer in here but everything looks like it’s back in order. The bed has been stripped of vomit and whatever else and the vomit on the carpet looks slightly better but I will need to bring in a professional cleaning company for sure. I walk into the bathroom and my gaze immediately locks on the back of the door. It’s bare obviously but E went a step further and even removed the robe hook as well.

  I exit the bedroom and head downstairs then out into the backyard. Everyone is walking around picking up lawn chairs and cushions that were either thrown about or the wind tossed them around.

  “Bro,” Vin calls out as he holds up our patio umbrella, “where’s the base for this?”

  “Base?” I raise an eyebrow, “you mean the like eighty pound weight that’s filled with sand?”

  “I guess so.” He shrugs.

  “Should be out here.” I do a full circle, looking at the ground as I turn. “Did it break off?”

  “No, the bottom is fine.” He calls out.

  I walk over to the shed where we keep our pool things and the patio furniture. The base is large and I would be able to see it right away. But the thing isn’t in here either.

  “I don’t know,” I call out. “Bring the umbrella in here so it doesn’t get damaged until I find it.”

  We load up all the patio furniture into the shed and I go to stand in front of the nasty dark green pool.

  “How deep is your pool?” Vin asks.

  “Ten feet.”

  “Nice, like mine.”

  “Are we gonna clean it out?” Adri asks, her nose scrunched in disgust.

  “Nah,” I shake my head. “I will come over another day and drain it. It needs to be cleaned before it’s refilled. I’ll get professionals to deal with that.”

  Everyone follows me out of the house and I lock it up. We all get back to our cars and Ember hops into mine with me. I pull out the driveway, making sure to close the gate behind me.

  “So, what now?” I look to E.

  “Now,” she looks at me and grins, “we get to work.”

  18

  I drove our Aunt and Uncle’s Mercedes to pick up Adri when we all decided to help Travis at his house. Now, as I’m driving her home, all I can think about is her mouth on Travis and him grinding into her. It’s on repeat and the tent I’m making in my pants is borderline embarrassing. Just those few minutes of the three of us together, gave me a teasing taste of what my life could be like constantly. I’ve never wanted something more.

  “Ember’s classes are starting this coming Sunday, are you going to join?” She asks, breaking through my continuous fantasy.

  “Yeah, I already signed up.” I smile at her.

  “I also heard her say she was fighting in New York this weekend. Does she do classes there too?”

  Oh fuck, Ember wasn’t careful with what she was saying. Maybe talking to Vin or Travis while Adri was walking by. How the fuck do I explain this one?

  “Uh, yeah. Ember fights sometimes in New York.”

  “Like legit fights or classes?”

  I pull into her driveway and turn to look at her, “I like your house,” I try to distract her from her question. “I meant to tell you that the other day.”

  “Oh,” she looks up at it with a shrug. “My mother came from old money. My grandfather was a founder here in Whitsborough along with Travis’ grandfather and yours too. They inherited his money but hate to stay here, so they travel the world and check in whenever.”

  “I’m sorry.” I mutter because that’s no life for a kid, practically living alone.

  “I’m used to it.” She shrugs, but I can see it hurts her, no matter how hard she’s trying to cover it. “They started leaving for a week at a time when I turned thirteen. I had a cook and a driver and they figured I didn’t need them. Which I guess I didn’t. Then the trips got longer and I now see my cook and driver as family. Well my driver also couples as a groundskeeper. They are nice people.”

  “You can always come to Ember’s.” I grin at her, “you can sleep with me.”

  She laughs and nudges me with her shoulder, “yeah right. It’s your house too, ya know? That was your family too.”

  “I know.” I nod, “it’s just taking me a while to wrap my head around it all. I came from having just Carm to all of you. It’s an adjustment.”

  “I get it.” She exhales on a huff, “I always felt like they had me because an heir was needed to take over the money and upkeep what belongs in our family.”

  “Cool,” I shrug, “so you take over that shit and you make your own family. Doesn’t need to be blood to be family.”

  “You’re right. You guys are my family.”

  Then she leans over slightly and I watch as her eyes start to fall shut. Fuck, she is utterly breathtaking. I lean into her and press my mouth to hers. Her guttural moan sends me into a near frenzy as I attack her mouth with my tongue.

  “Come inside.” She whispers as she pulls her mouth off mine.

  “I haven’t even taken you out properly yet.” I argue.

  “Do you want me?”

  I grab her hand and place it over my hard and throbbing cock, “what do you think?”

  “Then come inside.” Her hand begins to rub me through my sweats and my dick jumps in her hand.

  Sure, I’ve made out with girls before, I’ve been given head but I have yet to experience my dick in a warm vagina. I don’t know why I waited, despite what I told Travis, there were many opportunities. I guess I was waiting for this feeling, being so overwhelmed and anxious all at once. To be in love with the person I decide to give that part of myself to. Adri is that girl.

  So what was I waiting for?

  “You sure?” I ask against her mouth.

  “Yes.” She nods and gets out of the car. “Now.”

  I follow close behind
her, we walk up the driveway and I stand to the side as I watch her fumble with her keys. Her hands are shaking and I would find it so fucking endearing if mine weren’t doing the exact same in my pants pockets. We finally get in the house and I close the door behind me. I turn and Adri launches herself up and into my arms. My hands land on her shorts clad ass and my fingers grip into the skin on her thighs.

  “Tell me where to go.” I say around her lips on my mouth.

  She drops down and grabs my hand to lead me to a staircase. At the top we turn right and she opens the first door. Her room is huge, with large bay windows and a gleaming marble floor. Scattered around the room are various types of fur skin carpets.

  “Are those real?” I point to a particularly large gray wolf-head still attached.

  “Yeah,” she nods. “My parents collect them. This used to be their bedroom but I took it over at the start of high school.”

  I look over to a large fireplace and nearly scream when I see the gigantic black bear fur rug. Adri notices my startled expression and giggles.

  “That one is my favourite, it’s the most comfortable.” She grabs my hand and leads me over to it. “Especially on naked skin.”

  “Huh,” I swallow down my revulsion, “sounds… amazing.”

  Adri lifts her shirt up and over her head, the bra she has on is black and lacy, clearly showing her nipples. They are hard points and a soft dusty rose colour. Next, she undoes her short's button and zipper and slowly pushes them down her legs, stepping out and kicking them off to the side. She's standing in front of me-on this fucking bear skin rug-in a lacy bra and panty set. Her panties are a scrap of lace and that's about it.

  "Your turn." She says her voice husky with want.

  "Uh..." I glance down at the black fur around my feet.

  "I'll help." She drops down to her knees and starts untying my sweats. I didn't bother with underwear today since I was in a rush to get to Travis' house. She slides the waistband down and my hard as fuck cock pops out and almost hits her on the forehead. "Holy shit." She breathes, her eyes widening.