I nod and try to smile, looking in the rear-view mirror to meet his gaze. “No,” I whisper.
“I know,” he says. “But at least the Princess Dowager will be. That’s the important thing.”
“Yes, it is.”
What if I’m making the worst mistake of my life? What if we could build a wonderful life together? I stare out the window at the moon and say a silent prayer for a sign. Something, anything, that will tell me what I should do.
****
My mum greets me as soon as I come up the front steps of the house, her face full of sorrow.
“It’s okay. She’ll pull through, Mum.”
“I heard on the radio. It’s not that.” She swallows, a guilty look on her face.
I close my eyes, not wanting to hear whatever is coming at me next.
“Poppy wanted to see your dress, so she snuck up when we thought she was asleep.”
“That’s okay. I’m sure it’s fine.” I shrug. “Did she have sticky fingers or something?”
“She left the bag open…and then she left the door open,” she says sheepishly.
I freeze, already angry at what I know has happened. “Mr. Whiskers?”
“I’m so sorry. He had an absolute heyday in there. It was like he was filled with rage at that dress for some reason.”
I slide my shoes off and start slowly up the stairs without saying anything.
“Do you want something to eat? I could heat up some leftover lamb stew.”
“No, thanks.”
Mum’s voice follows me up to the top floor. “Poppy feels just terrible about it, too. She made you a drawing to apologize.”
“That’s nice.” I go into my room and shut the door. I don’t bother to turn on the light or check out the damage to the dress. In the end, it doesn’t matter. There won’t be a wedding anyway. I just won’t be able to sell it and get some of my parents’ money back for them. I tug at the shreds of dress and the garment bag, pushing them onto the floor before I crawl under the covers, fully-clothed. I wanted a sign, and there couldn’t be one clearer than a shredded wedding dress.
TWENTY-FOUR
All-Knowing Grandmothers
Arthur
It’s mid-morning by the time I make it back to the hospital to see Gran. Last night when I saw her, she was sleeping soundly the entire time, so I left without being able to speak with her. When I arrive at her room, it’s so full of flower arrangements, it’s hard for me to find my dear, sweet, snarky little Grandmum. But when I do, she’s already sitting up, reading the newspaper.
“How are you feeling?” I say, giving her a light kiss on the cheek.
She smiles up at me. “I’d be much better if they’d let me go home already. The food here is atrocious.”
“I’ll have your meals brought to you from the palace.”
“That would be lovely, thank you.” Her face grows serious. “Now, what’s this shit about you canceling the wedding?”
“Where did you hear that? The official announcement won’t be made until this afternoon.”
“I have my sources. It’s a good thing I needed emergency heart surgery, so it could be put off until I could talk you out of it.”
“You don’t need to worry about that right now, Gran. You need to stay calm.”
“Then you’d better start talking, or I swear I’ll have another heart attack just to spite you.”
“You would, wouldn’t you?” I let a half-grin escape my lips, then I sigh, remembering that Tessa and I are over. “I’m afraid Tessa has come to the decision that she does not wish to marry me.” My tone is formal and distant. I could just as easily be giving the weather report. “It wasn’t my choice, but I must respect her wishes.”
My grandmother’s ice blue eyes fix on me. “What did you do?”
“Why must I have done anything?”
She raises one eyebrow at me. “You’re a man. Men tend to bugger things up.”
“I kept something from her that I shouldn’t have. I also was a little harsh with her about that whole night club incident. I also refused to answer when she asked for a full explanation of something I’ve been doing—but it was for her own protection.”
“Oh, Arthur, come here.” She gestures with one finger. “Closer, dear.”
When I lean down over her bed, she reaches up and slaps my cheek. I pull back, straightening up out of reach. “Ouch. That was hardly necessary.”
“That’s to remind you to stop being a chauvinist.”
“I’m not—”
“You certainly are. You’re doing exactly what I warned you about, and you can see where it’s gotten you. So go find her, tell her the truth, then stop trying to hide the world from her!”
“I can’t.” I shake my head. “I told her I wouldn’t beg.”
“So bloody what?”
“So, I have to have my pride.”
“Bollocks. That’s just a cowardly excuse. If a little begging is the difference between a lifetime of happiness with the right woman and being alone like a fool, it’s time to strap on some kneepads.”
The door opens, and Brooke walks in, wearing a lab coat over her dress. “Hi. I came as soon as I heard.” She hurries over to my grandmum and gives her a kiss on each cheek.
My gut tightens as I watch her, and I wonder if she was in on the whole #BrookeIsBetter thing the entire time. “You came? From Africa?”
She nods and smiles back at me. “Of course I did. You left that message that you wanted to see me as soon as possible, and I tried but couldn’t reach you. Then when I heard about the Princess Dowager, I realized what it was about and rushed straight to the airport.”
“I don’t think you do know what this is about.”
Her smile fades.
“Brooke, we need to talk.”
TWENTY-FIVE
T-Minus Two Hours
Tessa
“Tessa? Has Arthur found you yet?” Princess Florence is propped up in the hospital bed, her tiny Yorkie on her lap. Talk about different rules for royals.
“Um, no. I came alone. I wanted to see you and make sure you’re doing all right.”
“Oh, this? It’s nothing, I just needed to come in for a little cleaning.” She gestures to the chair next to the bed.
“You look wonderful. So full of colour.” That may have been stretching it a bit. She looks weak, and it’s not just because of the IV attached to her arm.
“If we count gray as a colour, that is,” she says. “I’m an old, grey mare.”
“You’re not old. You’re vintage.”
Laughing, she shakes her head at me. “And you are young, lovely, and full of shit. Now, I understand you want to call off the wedding. Apparently, you’re not as bright as I gave you credit for.”
Well, that was a little insulting, wasn’t it? “I’m afraid it’s for the best. I’m not at all what Arthur will need in a queen.”
“Don’t worry about the queen part. It’s a wife he needs.”
“Yes, well, in this case I think he needs a wife who can double as an elegant queen.”
“All couples have their differences. It’s part of the fun. Argue, make up, argue, make up. It’s a hoot if you do it right.” She waves a hand at me. “Now then, there are some things you need to know about Arthur if you’re going to make this work.”
“I don’t think you should tell me anything, Your…Arthur and I aren’t going to be able to make this work.”
“Yes, I absolutely should. I know Arthur’s been a bit of an arse since the engagement, but he’s got good reason for it—well, what he would see as good reason.”
She stares out the window for a moment. When she turns back to me, her eyes glisten with tears. “His mother’s death affected him more than anyone realizes. Even Arthur himself.”
Oh, dear. This took a turn I wasn’t expecting. “I assure you I was very careful in my deliberations before making this decision. I know how
hard it was for him to let anyone get so close to him.”
“You don’t know because he never would have told you.” Her eyes bore into mine. “He just shut down completely. Wouldn’t talk about her. I tried very hard to comfort him and get him to talk about his feelings, but he wouldn’t. Just sat, silently. He would sit in the hall, staring at her painting by the hour. That’s why Winston had all other photos of her removed from the family residences. He couldn’t bear to see his little boy like that. Ill-advised, I know, but he thought it better to remove all signs of her, hoping Arthur would one day forget.”
A lump forms in my throat.
She dabs at her eyes. “Do you know how his mother died?”
“I think I can guess.”
“Good, because it wouldn’t be polite to discuss it.” She nods. “When Arthur found out the truth, he blamed himself for it. The day she…he’d been coming down with a fever. I don’t know if you know much about children, Tessa, but they tend to misbehave when they’re getting sick. Arabella was only two months, and little Arthur had been acting out like any five-year-old boy would do when his mother is preoccupied with a new baby. But that day, he told her she was the worst mummy ever and that he hated her face.” Her face crinkles as she tries to fight her tears.
“Oh, God. That’s awful. I mean, kids say things like that all the time, but for her to…right after…” My eyes fill with tears as I think about how young five years old is. I think of little Knox, and how innocent and naïve he is to the world. In my mind’s eye, I can see Arthur at that age. Small and sad and scared. “Poor Arthur.”
She reaches out and places her frail hand on mine. Warmth and comfort radiate from her. She says nothing, and when I look at her, the pain is obvious. We sit like this for a long while, both grieving for a little boy.
“He’s carried that with him for a long time now, and it’s time for him to set that burden down. Over the years, I’ve tried to help him realize it wasn’t his fault, but he won’t hear it. So, instead, he’s spent his entire life trying to rescue Arabella and me, and now you. And I know what kind of trouble it’s been causing you in particular. He’s been keeping things from you that you had every right to know.”
My head snaps back in surprise.
“Oh, yes, I know everything. Very little gets by me,” she says. “I know my grandson better than anyone, and I can tell you he’d never stray. But he’ll also never get rid of his ridiculous savior complex unless he forgives himself for his mother’s death. You need to be the one to help him do that.”
“I can’t. I wish I could, but—”
“What? It’s too hard? He’s not worth the effort?”
Yeesh. She’s tough for someone who just got out of surgery. “No, of course not. I just wouldn’t know how.”
“By standing up to him. By showing him you’re strong and you won’t be chased away by some idiots who disapprove. By taking him back.”
“I can’t. It’s too late for us. The palace is making the announcement today.”
“Then you’d better hurry,” she says with a firm nod.
My entire body fills with nervous energy. She’s right. I need to go get him back. I stand up and grab my purse. “Do you think he’ll want to?”
“Of course. He’s absolutely miserable without you. Now, don’t just stand here. Go find him!”
TWENTY-SIX
The Patience Test
Arthur
“Ruben, please don’t close the door!” The words spill out of my mouth as the door swings shut in my face. Blocking it with one foot, I say, “One minute. That’s all I ask for.”
Evi’s voice comes from inside. “What’s going on, Ruben?”
Ruben turns slightly. “It’s that heartbreaking prince again. I told him she’s not home, but he won’t listen.”
I take advantage of the distraction and press my shoulder to the door to pry it open. “Evi! I just want to know where she is.”
“Honestly, Ruben, his grandmother has just had a heart attack. Let the poor boy in.”
Ruben lets go of the door. The momentum from me pushing on it causes it to swing open and me to lose my balance, following the wooden slab as it crashes into the wall. “Thank you, Evi.”
I straighten myself up and give her a small bow. “Very kind of you.”
Ruben turns on his heel and walks away, muttering something that sounds like ‘useless feck,’ leaving me standing alone with his wife.
“I need to find Tessa.”
“She’s at work.”
I shake my head. “I was just there. No sign of her.”
“Nikki’s?”
“I had Arabella call her. She hasn’t seen her either.”
Evi snaps her fingers. “Let me text her.”
She walks down the hall to the kitchen, returning a moment later with her mobile phone and her reading glasses.
“Thank you, Evi. I know you have no reason to help me.”
“Sure, I do. My daughter will never be happy again without you.” She opens the bejeweled phone case and starts slowly typing with one finger.
I stand waiting impatiently, forcing myself not to tap my foot. Using my height to my advantage, I peer at the screen. So far, the only words she’s managed are:
Tessa, it’s your mother.
Dear God. She doesn’t even have to include that bit. Of course she’ll know it’s from her mother.
“Oh, wait,” she says, deleting everything she’s written. “The kids keep teasing me about not texting properly. I guess you don’t have to say who it is because she’ll already have my number in her contacts.”
“Right. Hadn’t thought of that.” Yes, I had. Everyone has. Just hand me the phone. Hand it to me so I can text her myself.
Prince Arthur is here looking for
“I suppose I don’t need to say Prince, do I?” she asks as she deletes the entire message again.
“Perhaps, I could just—”
“You’re so patient, Arthur. My kids are just awful. They keep grabbing the phone from me and doing it for me.”
“I’d never dream of it.”
“Such a well-mannered young man.”
“Yes, well, I did go to Prince Charming school, so…”
Evi drops the phone to her side and laughs like a kookaburra. I laugh for a second with her, all the while gesturing with my hands for her to lift the phone again.
Tessa, Arthur is here looking for you. Where are you?
Push send. Push send.
But she doesn’t. Instead, she looks up at me. “Do you want her to come here? Or should I tell her to meet you somewhere else?”
My voice takes on a high-pitched quality as I stifle the urge to rip the phone from her hand. “Umm, maybe just send it like that, and we’ll wait for a few minutes for her to answer.”
Using her texting finger, she wags at the air. “Yes. Smart.”
When she finally pushes the send button, I let out a long puff of air.
And now we wait.
She and I stare at each other awkwardly for a second. Evi smiles. “Lovely weather we’re having.”
“Quite. Yes. Unusually warm for April.”
“Indeed. How’s your gran?”
“She’s doing quite well, actually. She’s in great spirits.”
“Excellent.”
Her phone makes a ping sound, and we both turn our attention to it. “Nope. Not her. Grace next door wants to see if I can verse her in Candy Crush.”
“Oh.”
“Do you play?”
I shake my head.
“No, I suppose you wouldn’t have time for that.” She makes a clicking sound with her tongue for about half a minute. “Would you like some tea?”
“Thank you, no.” I check my watch. I still have two hours before the official announcement is made. Still time to turn this ship around.
“Oh! Have you tried calling that handsome Xavier? He’ll know where
she is.”
“He’s not answering, which is very odd because they’re meant to have their mobile devices on at all times. Unless…” I clap my hands. “I know where she is.”
“Where?”
“She’s at the hospital!”
TWENTY-SEVEN
Where in the World is Arthur Landgon?
Tessa
I hurry down the long hall to the hospital with Xavier, who is double-timing it in his excitement for me to find Arthur.
“To the palace!”
“I know a shortcut,” Xavier says, wrenching open the back door of the car for me.
Tires screeching, the car pulls out on the road and we zoom off toward my prince. I sit up, hands on the headrest of the passenger seat, watching out the window as Xavier weaves in and out of traffic. “This is rather exciting, isn’t it?”
“Agreed! You know, you burn two extra calories per minute when your adrenaline is pumping like this.”
“Do you?” I’m so happy, I don’t even mind his fitness facts today. I’m going to find Arthur, and I know in my heart everything will be okay.
Gravel spins under the tires as the car skids to a stop in front of the palace. I get out and run up the steps as fast as my legs can carry me. One of the pages opens the door, and I run into the Grande Hall, stopping when I get there to decide if I should try his office or his apartment.
A door opens to my left, and the king walks out. He stops when he sees me. “Oh, it’s you.”
I hold my chin high. “Yes, it is. I came by to say that you and your nasty friends won’t be able to chase me off. I have four older brothers, and they’re all total shits to me, so I have loads of experience dealing with arseholes. So, you’d better get used to the fact that I’ll be your daughter-in-law. I know that I may not be elegant or graceful or well-born, but I have a kind heart and I’m brave as fuck, and I’ll protect your son with my very life if it’s required, which should count for something.” I take a deep breath. “And you know what else? I’m going to be the person who keeps your family in touch with the people of Avonia, which is something neither Brooke Beddingfield nor any of your other stuffy cronies could ever do. And you know what else? I saved your sorry arse during the referendum, so you should probably just say thank you and welcome me to the sodding family.”
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