A thought I never considered before, entered my mind. I didn't need to go back to my village. I could just stay with Ashleigh. We could settle down somewhere, build ourselves a lovely little home. We'd have to reinforce our house, so she and Aspen wouldn't break it down with every little spat they had. Oh, and of course, we'd have Danny and her men as our neighbours. We could be our own little town.
Just the idea of not having to return to my resentful tribe spread a warm glow throughout my body. Suddenly, the idea of saying yes to Ashleigh right here and now didn't seem like such an awful idea. In fact, it seemed like a great idea. The best idea I ever had.
"I'm more than okay with that," I whispered, a tightness in my chest dissolving as
the image of my future just took a whole different turn.
"So do you accept my proposal that someday, I'll propose to you?"
I bit my lip as I released a long, happy sigh. That was so Ashleigh. "Yes," I smiled, not able to contain the wide grin spreading on my face. In fact, it was so wide it made the corners of my mouth hurt.
"Yes?"
"Oh gods, of course, yes," I laughed, pressing myself into Ashleigh so I could kiss her properly. With wild strawberries dancing on my tongue and hidden in the warm embrace of my woman, I gave in to everything that was Ashleigh. Hell yes, I wanted a future with her. If only I’d understood her words better, I could've avoided the whole awkward "no" thing, but then again, her presenting a whole future to me had me happier than anything I'd heard in a long time. Maybe ever.
The rest happily clapped and before I knew it, we found ourselves in the middle of a big group hug. Danny's red hairs somehow made it into my mouth, but I didn't mind. The warmth and support I got from all of them, made my heart sing in a way I had never known before. Yes, this could be home. It already was.
"Welcome to the family, Akira!" Danny cheered, kissing me on both cheeks.
"Yes, welcome to the group!" Darren added, again slapping me so hard on the back that it took my breath away. And not in a good way.
JP gently patted my shoulder, his cheeks red with excitement. "R-Really happy to have you, Akira."
I beamed in happiness. Was this how it felt to be wanted? Was this why everyone kept pushing family? Because it was worth it? I could get used to this. Not just for the short run, but for the long haul. I glanced at Ashleigh. She said that the group was a package deal, in a take it or leave it way, but she possibly couldn't imagine how much I wanted to take it. I could see them become my family. All of them. Danny, Darren, JP, Regan, and of course, Aspen.
Aspen... Who I'd been kissing only a while ago and now, I was pre-engaged to his sister. Without his wolf to sway me, it was unmistakably easier to tell that I was Ashleigh's. But still. I didn't want to hurt him. I needed to know he was going to be okay. I turned towards him and he hadn't moved from his stump. "You okay with this?" I carefully asked, hoping that I hadn't just broken him.
He gave me a tired smile. "Of course, this is the right thing to do. I'm happy for you." He turned to his sister. "For both of you."
"You sure?"
"I'm sure. Honestly, I'm okay. Congratulations, Akira." And with those words, he stood up from his tree trunk and disappeared into one of the three tents surrounding our campfire. Huh. I hadn't even noticed there were three. Had someone predicted a fallout like this or did he set up his own tent after what happened between him and Ashleigh?
A warm arm pulled me against an even warmer body. "I know my brother. He'll be okay," Ashleigh reassured me, nuzzling her face against the side of my head.
"I sure hope so..." I sighed, melting into her. Yes, I could get used to this. With Aspen's Alpha asleep and my wolf's connection to him severed, it was suddenly a lot quieter in my heart. A lot more peaceful for my soul.
This could work. This might actually give me some rest. It would stop my wolf from being torn between the two siblings. It would finally let me commit to the one that I was always meant to be with. I turned in Ashleigh's arms, peering into her blue eyes. "You got me," I whispered, my voice breaking. After everything I put her through, all the uncertainty, all the misery, I hoped I could finally give her everything she deserved. My full attention. My undivided love. Unwavering devotion.
"Be careful what you say, Akira. I might never let you go after this," she murmured, raw emotion swirling in her blue eyes.
"I wasn't planning on going anywhere," I replied, making her smile broader and wider than I'd ever seen before.
"Good." She laced her fingers through mine, turning the coals in a gentle fire that quickly heated me with a warmth that I knew wouldn't be easy to extinguish. Maybe even impossible.
I pressed myself against her, realising how perfectly our bodies matched each other. My head fitted in the nook of her neck, her arms following the shape of my waist impeccably. We were made for each other. I'd never been more certain. She was it. All my worries of my future melted away as I melted in her. Stress I'd been carrying in my shoulders left as I relaxed in her arms. I tried to hide a yawn, but of course, she caught it.
"You tired?"
"Hmm-hmm," I hummed, finally realising how exhausted I was. Had all this really happened in one day?
"You need sleep. Actually, we all need sleep," Ashleigh ordered gently. "We can keep the big reveal for tomorrow, right?"
Everyone nodded, more yawns going around. Everyone was worn out. Today had stretched us all far too thin.
"Goodnight, guys. We're calling it a day." She waved at the rest.
Danny happily waved back. "Night, girls. Behave!" She grinned, making me roll my eyes. Of course, she’d be over the moon about this. But I was far too tired for any funny business. I just wanted to sleep. Undisturbed sleep. Endless sleep.
Ashleigh steered me towards the middle tent and I gladly let myself fall down on the heap of furs and coats. My mate closed the tent flap and curled up next to me. With her arms wrapped protectively around me and my head rested on her collarbone, I finally left all my earthly worries behind. Just like Ashleigh, sleep became mine.
Mirror
Expecting the next morning to be awkward, I crawled out of the tent, hoping that Darren's heavenly food would break the tension. Following my nose, I found myself standing next to a row of people. Both Aspen and Ashleigh were already staring hungrily at the big pot warming on the fire.
He’d regained some colour and didn't look nearly as ghostly as yesterday. Sleep must've done him good. He seemed like a person who actually belonged on earth again.
"Cook faster, Darren," he whined, licking his lips as he eyed the hot stew simmering away.
"Maybe just a little taste," Ashleigh mumbled, trying to steal a spoonful, but Darren wouldn't have any of it. He tapped both the twins on their heads with the handle of his ladle and positioned himself between the food and the siblings.
"Down, you crazies. We'll eat when it's ready."
Both grumbling under their breaths, Ashleigh and Aspen sat down on a stump, muttering to each other. I only caught a couple of words, but it sounded like an elaborate plot to lure Darren away from his pot and claim all the food for themselves. I smiled in relief. They were still their crazy selves. I hadn't ruined their relationship
I waved gratefully at Darren, who seemed a bit confused. That was okay. From all the things he was great at, cooking seemed to be his soft spot. He'd probably blush bright red if I told him how his food really brought people together. So instead, I sat down next to the dancing fire, settled for a cup of hot root tea, and patiently waited for breakfast. Honestly, how I'd found myself in such luxury in the middle of nowhere, I'd never really understand.
Only after Danny appeared from their tent with more twigs sticking out of her hair, Darren pooled a thick, rich stew in my bowl that made my mouth water. Without wasting one second, I dug into the delicious hot food that chased away the hunger and warmed my belly.
"We still have to tell Akira the secret," Danny mumbled in between bites, shoveling the stew so fast into
her mouth I was surprised she didn't choke on it.
"R-Right. I think Ash s-should tell her, n-no?" JP agreed, never even looking up from his plate.
I felt a thrill of excitement travel through my body. Now this was something to delay eating for. I was finally going to find out the secret behind their shifting. With everything going on, I’d almost forgotten how abnormal it was. They had made it feel so normal I'd forgot that I wasn't the strange one. They were.
Without missing a bite from her plate, Ashleigh dug Aspen's necklace from her pocket and held it up against the faint morning light. "The secret... Is this…"
So the necklace was really the secret? Well hot taco, if I’d known you could only shift while wearing jewellery, I'd have gotten my ears pierced or something.
"And?"
My mate shrugged, scraping her bowl for the last of Darren's delicious food. "That's it."
"That's it?" This was their big secret? How was that even a secret? Did they really need to hold a big council meeting for that?
With her plate empty, Danny strung more words together. "That's it. We'd tell you more, but we don't know how it works either. Sorry to disappoint."
I groaned. Typical. They were hopeless.
"You still get to wear it though. And for it to really stop answering to Aspen, you should connect to the magic inside."
I perked up. Now that was more interesting. "Oh?"
"Right now, Aspen can't fully use it. But the magic in there is still aching to return to him."
"If you want to shift, you need to make the magic obey."
Ashleigh placed the amulet in my lap, her fingers brushing over my thigh. "It's yours now."
I tried to catch Aspen's eyes, hoping he wouldn't harbour any resentment for having his heirloom taken away. He smiled at me and nodded encouragingly. "Put it on."
The necklace slipped around my neck and the moment it fell on my chest, nothing changed. It was still just a piece of horn on a string. "Ummm..."
Darren scratched the top of his head. "Still nothing?"
"Nope."
"Do any of you remember how you got the magic to react?" Danny asked the rest, braiding her hair. "Sixteen feels like ages ago."
Ashleigh snorted. "It would for you, grandma."
"Oi!" The redhead aimed her spoon at my mate and threw her hair over her shoulder. "You teach her then!"
Catching the utensil midair, Ashleigh turned to me. "I would, if I remembered."
"Isn't it enough for me to have it? I can keep it away from Aspen?"
"No. I can still feel wisps of the magic. The tendrils are beckoning for me. My wolf wants it," Aspen weighed in, staring longingly at my chest. I hoped it was because of the necklace, but then again, you never knew with men.
"I remember some of the exercises my uncle did with me," Darren chimed in, cracking his fingers one by one. "I could try them with you? We'd need some peace and quiet for it, though."
I glanced at Ashleigh, unsure if she was okay with me spending time alone with Darren. I wondered why. It's not like I'd do anything wrong. But after my altercation with Aspen, I didn't want to mess anything up. "That alright?"
She tilted her head to the side. "Of course."
"I'm done with breakfast. We can start right now?"
"We'll break camp while you do," Regan suggested, the rest nodding in agreement.
"You sure you don't want me to help with the tents?"
Danny waved dismissively. "No, we got it. You go unlock your magic, that's more important."
"Back to the waterfall?" Darren proposed, making me nod enthusiastically. The water wasn't to blame for me jumping on Aspen, I'd love to see the waterfall again. And that place felt more magically charged than anywhere I'd been before. This seemed like the perfect place to unlock my wolf. Yes, I was ready for some action.
Except that there was no action. Back down in the valley, Darren made me sit in strange positions and kept saying weird things about my breathing. Somehow, none of his instructions made any sense.
"How can I breathe in, and both arch my back and flatten my stomach? That makes no sense?" I groaned, annoyed at his vague way of explaining things.
"You just, you know. Push your back out, and then you suck in your stomach. And then you breathe. It's not hard."
"Like this?" I asked, sucking my stomach in and pushing my behind in the air.
"You're not breathing."
I took a deep breathe, praying Darren would finally deem my downward dog acceptable, but all he said was: "You're forgot to keep your stomach flexed."
I screamed and let myself fall down on the ground. "That really doesn't help. I can't do that at the same time. Your exercises aren't working."
He pouted. "But I need you to relax and be in control of your breathing for the next step."
"The only reasons I'm stressed is cause I can't get your stupid poses right!" I yelled in frustration, ready to pull the hair from my head. This was going nowhere. What a waste of time. Downward dog? If he kept giving me vague instructions like this, there would be no downward dog. Instead, I'd show him outraged wolf. I imagined that would involve moves like me biting his arm and kicking his leg.
No, that's not nice, Akira. He was trying to help me after all.
I took a deep gulp of air and tried to push my irritation down. "Can we just move on to the next phase? Please?"
He scratched the side of his face. "Ummm... I don't know the next phase. This is all I can remember."
I clenched my jaw, refusing to let angry words come out. "Perhaps this isn't working after all."
He sighed. "Maybe not."
I stood up to stretch my limbs and tried not to feel too disappointed. After all, he had warned me that it might not work the first time around. Maybe if I tried again on my own later, it might turn out differently.
Back at the broken campsite, everyone looked expectantly at me. With a sigh, I shook my head and watched all their faces fall.
"No luck?"
"Nope..."
Ashleigh stood up from her stump to hug me. "You'll get it, I'm sure of it."
I sighed as I let myself melt into her embrace. "I hope so too."
A sharp voice close to my ear suddenly chirped in: "I'm sure you'll figure it out!"
It took me a moment before I could place the voice, but when I did, I immediately turned in Ashleigh's arms, hoping I was mistaken. It couldn't be.
Out of thin air, a shape took form and before me, long waves of hair appeared. Cece. No. Chesca. Unmistakably Chesca.
How could this be? I thought she was dead? No, I didn't just think so. I knew so. I’d seen her corpse. I watched the life drain from her eyes. I'd been there when she lost her life.
"I... But... What..." I stammered, staring at the young girl who was happily waving at me. "Huh? I thought... Wait... Huh?!"
"Hi, guys! It's me again!" Chesca chirped, grinning broadly as she threw her hair over her shoulder. Very Chesca like. Definitely the real deal.
"I thought you were dead... I know you’re dead. I watched you die!"
The girl in front of me giggled. "Yes, oops, that did not go over well. I was a bit careless there."
"Not you again!" Ashleigh exclaimed, protectively wrapping her arms around me. The Puma's appearance finally elicited a reaction from Aspen. He jumped up and strode towards her.
"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't just kill you all over again," he growled darkly, his lips curled up in an angry snarl. A small shiver ran down my spine at his display of anger. So even without his necklace, his Alpha hadn't completely disappeared.
Chesca giggled. "Because you could use my help?"
Danny threw her own hair over her shoulder. "What makes you think we'd even listen to you?"
The young girl turned towards me. "I can teach you."
Ashleigh growled. "She doesn't need your help. You can't teach her a thing."
The Puma laughed out loud, her head thrown back. "Oh, but that is where you’re mis
taken. I think you could use my help. I watched you down at the lake, Akira. That didn't really work out for you, did it?"
I felt my cheeks heat up. Damn it. Why was I such a failure?
"We've got it covered," Darren argued, but I could tell from his voice that he wasn't so sure of himself.
"You haven't got a clue on how to manipulate magic," Chesca teased, raising her eyebrow.
Darren scoffed loudly. "If we can't, how would an outsider like you know?"
Chesca snapped her slender fingers, a little puff of smoke appearing. "You might possess magic, but I know how to use it. Not just that. I dance with it. I play with it. Magic is my mistress."
I could hear the group collectively grind their teeth down as they realised Chesca was right. If they couldn't teach me, the necklace would keep corrupting Aspen. Nothing would change and he desperately needed it. We all looked at him, waiting for his answer. With or without his wolf, he was still the Alpha of the group.
He clenched his strong jaw. "Just this once. But we'll be watching."
Chesca clapped her hands. "Lovely! Akira, I can't wait to teach you all my tricks. Let's go down to the lake again."
I sighed. I really had no other choice. So once again, we descended down to the secluded valley.
"Let's sit here." Chesca pointed at a small patch of moss and made me sit down. "Look at the water. What do you see?"
I stared down at the blue mirror, the constant stream rippling my reflection. "I see me. And rocks."
Chesca sighed. "Look further. Imagine your wolf. What does she look like?"
I peered down at the water again. "I don't know. She has ears, I imagine. I hope?"
"Channel her. Call her to the surface. Imagine her emerging from underneath the water, breaking the surface."
"Okay, let me try again."
I stared back down at the lake, watching the ripples flowing through my face. A face I had seen so many times before. But this time, I was looking for something else. For someone else. My wolf. I stared and stared, but the image didn't change. The only person looking back at me, was me. Akira. The girl with the boring, grey eyes.
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