The Essential Gwendolyn Brooks

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by Elizabeth Alexander (ed)

Nobody loves a master. No. Despite

  The bright hosannas, bright dear-Lords, and bright

  Determined reverence of Sunday eyes.

  Picture Jehovah striding through the hall

  Of His importance, creatures running out

  From servant-corners to acclaim, to shout

  Appreciation of His merit’s glare.

  But who walks with Him?—dares to take His arm,

  To slap Him on the shoulder, tweak His ear,

  Buy Him a Coca-Cola or a beer,

  Pooh-pooh His politics, call Him a fool?

  Perhaps—who knows?—He tires of looking down.

  Those eyes are never lifted. Never straight.

  Perhaps sometimes He tires of being great

  In solitude. Without a hand to hold.

  Sadie and Maud

  Maud went to college.

  Sadie stayed at home.

  Sadie scraped life

  With a fine-tooth comb.

  She didn’t leave a tangle in.

  Her comb found every strand.

  Sadie was one of the livingest chits

  In all the land.

  Sadie bore two babies

  Under her maiden name.

  Maud and Ma and Papa

  Nearly died of shame.

  Every one but Sadie

  Nearly died of shame.

  When Sadie said her last so-long

  Her girls struck out from home.

  (Sadie had left as heritage

  Her fine-tooth comb.)

  Maud, who went to college,

  Is a thin brown mouse.

  She is living all alone

  In this old house.

  when you have forgotten Sunday: the love story

  ——And when you have forgotten the bright bedclothes on a Wednesday and a Saturday,

  And most especially when you have forgotten Sunday—

  When you have forgotten Sunday halves in bed,

  Or me sitting on the front-room radiator in the limping afternoon

  Looking off down the long street

  To nowhere,

  Hugged by my plain old wrapper of no-expectation

  And nothing-I-have-to-do and I’m-happy-why?

  And if-Monday-never-had-to-come—

  When you have forgotten that, I say,

  And how you swore, if somebody beeped the bell,

  And how my heart played hopscotch if the telephone rang;

  And how we finally went in to Sunday dinner,

  That is to say, went across the front room floor to the ink-spotted table in the southwest corner

  To Sunday dinner, which was always chicken and noodles

  Or chicken and rice

  And salad and rye bread and tea

  And chocolate chip cookies—

  I say, when you have forgotten that,

  When you have forgotten my little presentiment

  That the war would be over before they got to you;

  And how we finally undressed and whipped out the light and flowed into bed,

  And lay loose-limbed for a moment in the week-end

  Bright bedclothes,

  Then gently folded into each other—

  When you have, I say, forgotten all that,

  Then you may tell,

  Then I may believe

  You have forgotten me well.

  of De Witt Williams on his way to Lincoln Cemetery

  He was born in Alabama.

  He was bred in Illinois.

  He was nothing but a

  Plain black boy.

  Swing low swing low sweet sweet chariot.

  Nothing but a plain black boy.

  Drive him past the Pool Hall.

  Drive him past the Show.

  Blind within his casket,

  But maybe he will know.

  Down through Forty-seventh Street:

  Underneath the L,

  And—Northwest Corner, Prairie,

  That he loved so well.

  Don’t forget the Dance Halls—

  Warwick and Savoy,

  Where he picked his women, where

  He drank his liquid joy.

  Born in Alabama.

  Bred in Illinois.

  He was nothing but a

  Plain black boy.

  Swing low swing low sweet sweet chariot.

  Nothing but a plain black boy.

  the vacant lot

  Mrs. Coley’s three-flat brick

  Isn’t here any more.

  All done with seeing her fat little form

  Burst out of the basement door;

  And with seeing her African son-in-law

  (Rightful heir to the throne)

  With his great white strong cold squares of teeth

  And his little eyes of stone;

  And with seeing the squat fat daughter

  Letting in the men

  When majesty has gone for the day—

  And letting them out again.

  The Sundays of Satin-Legs Smith

  Inamoratas, with an approbation,

  Bestowed his title. Blessed his inclination.

  He wakes, unwinds, elaborately: a cat

  Tawny, reluctant, royal. He is fat

  And fine this morning. Definite. Reimbursed.

  He waits a moment, he designs his reign,

  That no performance may be plain or vain.

  Then rises in a clear delirium.

  He sheds, with his pajamas, shabby days.

  And his desertedness, his intricate fear, the

  Postponed resentments and the prim precautions.

  Now, at his bath, would you deny him lavender

  Or take away the power of his pine?

  What smelly substitute, heady as wine,

  Would you provide? life must be aromatic.

  There must be scent, somehow there must be some.

  Would you have flowers in his life? suggest

  Asters? a Really Good geranium?

  A white carnation? would you prescribe a Show

  With the cold lilies, formal chrysanthemum

  Magnificence, poinsettias, and emphatic

  Red of prize roses? might his happiest

  Alternative (you muse) be, after all,

  A bit of gentle garden in the best

  Of taste and straight tradition? Maybe so.

  But you forget, or did you ever know,

  His heritage of cabbage and pigtails,

  Old intimacy with alleys, garbage pails,

  Down in the deep (but always beautiful) South

  Where roses blush their blithest (it is said)

  And sweet magnolias put Chanel to shame.

  No! He has not a flower to his name.

  Except a feather one, for his lapel.

  Apart from that, if he should think of flowers

  It is in terms of dandelions or death.

  Ah, there is little hope. You might as well—

  Unless you care to set the world a-boil

  And do a lot of equalizing things,

  Remove a little ermine, say, from kings,

  Shake hands with paupers and appoint them men,

  For instance—certainly you might as well

  Leave him his lotion, lavender and oil.

  Let us proceed. Let us inspect, together

  With his meticulous and serious love,

  The innards of this closet. Which is a vault

  Whose glory is not diamonds, not pearls,

  Not silver plate with just enough dull shine.

  But wonder-suits in yellow and in wine,

  Sarcastic green and zebra-striped cobalt.

  All drapes. With shoulder padding that is wide

  And cocky and determined as his pride;

  Ballooning pants that taper off to ends

  Scheduled to choke precisely.

  Here are hats

  Like bright umbrellas; and hysterical ties

  Like narrow banners for some gathering war.

  Peopl
e are so in need, in need of help.

  People want so much that they do not know.

  Below the tinkling trade of little coins

  The gold impulse not possible to show

  Or spend. Promise piled over and betrayed.

  These kneaded limbs receive the kiss of silk.

  Then they receive the brave and beautiful

  Embrace of some of that equivocal wool.

  He looks into his mirror, loves himself—

  The neat curve here; the angularity

  That is appropriate at just its place;

  The technique of a variegated grace.

  Here is all his sculpture and his art

  And all his architectural design.

  Perhaps you would prefer to this a fine

  Value of marble, complicated stone.

  Would have him think with horror of baroque,

  Rococo. You forget and you forget.

  He dances down the hotel steps that keep

  Remnants of last night’s high life and distress.

  As spat-out purchased kisses and spilled beer.

  He swallows sunshine with a secret yelp.

  Passes to coffee and a roll or two.

  Has breakfasted.

  Out. Sounds about him smear,

  Become a unit. He hears and does not hear

  The alarm clock meddling in somebody’s sleep;

  Children’s governed Sunday happiness;

  The dry tone of a plane; a woman’s oath;

  Consumption’s spiritless expectoration;

  An indignant robin’s resolute donation

  Pinching a track through apathy and din;

  Restaurant vendors weeping; and the L

  That comes on like a slightly horrible thought.

  Pictures, too, as usual, are blurred.

  He sees and does not see the broken windows

  Hiding their shame with newsprint; little girl

  With ribbons decking wornness, little boy

  Wearing the trousers with the decentest patch,

  To honor Sunday; women on their way

  From “service,” temperate holiness arranged

  Ably on asking faces; men estranged

  From music and from wonder and from joy

  But far familiar with the guiding awe

  Of foodlessness.

  He loiters.

  Restaurant vendors

  Weep, or out of them rolls a restless glee.

  The Lonesome Blues, the Long-lost Blues, I Want A

  Big Fat Mama. Down these sore avenues

  Comes no Saint-Saëns, no piquant elusive Grieg,

  And not Tschaikovsky’s wayward eloquence

  And not the shapely tender drift of Brahms.

  But could he love them? Since a man must bring

  To music what his mother spanked him for

  When he was two: bits of forgotten hate,

  Devotion: whether or not his mattress hurts:

  The little dream his father humored: the thing

  His sister did for money: what he ate

  For breakfast—and for dinner twenty years

  Ago last autumn: all his skipped desserts.

  The pasts of his ancestors lean against

  Him. Crowd him. Fog out his identity.

  Hundreds of hungers mingle with his own,

  Hundreds of voices advise so dexterously

  He quite considers his reactions his,

  Judges he walks most powerfully alone,

  That everything is—simply what it is.

  But movie-time approaches, time to boo

  The hero’s kiss, and boo the heroine

  Whose ivory and yellow it is sin

  For his eye to eat of. The Mickey Mouse,

  However, is for everyone in the house.

  Squires his lady to dinner at Joe’s Eats.

  His lady alters as to leg and eye,

  Thickness and height, such minor points as these,

  From Sunday to Sunday. But no matter what

  Her name or body positively she’s

  In Queen Lace stockings with ambitious heels

  That strain to kiss the calves, and vivid shoes

  Frontless and backless, Chinese fingernails,

  Earrings, three layers of lipstick, intense hat

  Dripping with the most voluble of veils.

  Her affable extremes are like sweet bombs

  About him, whom no middle grace or good

  Could gratify. He had no education

  In quiet arts of compromise. He would

  Not understand your counsels on control, nor

  Thank you for your late trouble.

  At Joe’s Eats

  You get your fish or chicken on meat platters.

  With coleslaw, macaroni, candied sweets,

  Coffee and apple pie. You go out full.

  (The end is—isn’t it?—all that really matters.)

  And even and intrepid come

  The tender boots of night to home.

  Her body is like new brown bread

  Under the Woolworth mignonette.

  Her body is a honey bowl

  Whose waiting honey is deep and hot.

  Her body is like summer earth,

  Receptive, soft, and absolute . . .

  Negro Hero

  to suggest Dorie Miller

  I had to kick their law into their teeth in order to save them.

  However I have heard that sometimes you have to deal

  Devilishly with drowning men in order to swim them to shore.

  Or they will haul themselves and you to the trash and the fish beneath.

  (When I think of this, I do not worry about a few

  Chipped teeth.)

  It is good I gave glory, it is good I put gold on their name.

  Or there would have been spikes in the afterward hands.

  But let us speak only of my success and the pictures in the Caucasian dailies

  As well as the Negro weeklies. For I am a gem.

  (They are not concerned that it was hardly The Enemy my fight was against

  But them.)

  It was a tall time. And of course my blood was

  Boiling about in my head and straining and howling and singing me on.

  Of course I was rolled on wheels of my boy itch to get at the gun.

  Of course all the delicate rehearsal shots of my child-hood massed in mirage before me.

  Of course I was child

  And my first swallow of the liquor of battle bleeding black air dying and demon noise

  Made me wild.

  It was kinder than that, though, and I showed like a banner my kindness.

  I loved. And a man will guard when he loves.

  Their white-gowned democracy was my fair lady.

  With her knife lying cold, straight, in the softness of her sweet-flowing sleeve.

  But for the sake of the dear smiling mouth and the stuttered promise I toyed with my life.

  I threw back!—I would not remember

  Entirely the knife.

  Still—am I good enough to die for them, is my blood bright enough to be spilled,

  Was my constant back-question—are they clear

  On this? Or do I intrude even now?

  Am I clean enough to kill for them, do they wish me to kill

  For them or is my place while death licks his lips and strides to them

  In the galley still?

  (In a southern city a white man said

  Indeed, I’d rather be dead;

  Indeed, I’d rather be shot in the head

  Or ridden to waste on the back of a flood

  Than saved by the drop of a black man’s blood.)

  Naturally, the important thing is, I helped to save them, them and a part of their democracy.

  Even if I had to kick their law into their teeth in order to do that for them.

  And I am feeling well and settled in myself because I believe it was a good job,

  Des
pite this possible horror: that they might prefer the

  Preservation of their law in all its sick dignity and their knives

  To the continuation of their creed

  And their lives.

  Ballad of Pearl May Lee

  Then off they took you, off to the jail,

  A hundred hooting after.

  And you should have heard me at my house.

  I cut my lungs with my laughter,

  Laughter,

  Laughter.

  I cut my lungs with my laughter.

  They dragged you into a dusty cell.

  And a rat was in the corner.

  And what was I doing? Laughing still.

  Though never was a poor gal lorner,

  Lorner,

  Lorner.

  Though never was a poor gal lorner.

  The sheriff, he peeped in through the bars,

  And (the red old thing) he told you,

  “You son of a bitch, you’re going to hell!”

  ’Cause you wanted white arms to enfold you,

  Enfold you,

  Enfold you.

  ’Cause you wanted white arms to enfold you.

  But you paid for your white arms, Sammy boy,

  And you didn’t pay with money.

  You paid with your hide and my heart, Sammy boy,

  For your taste of pink and white honey,

  Honey,

  Honey.

  For your taste of pink and white honey.

  Oh, dig me out of my don’t-despair.

  Pull me out of my poor-me.

  Get me a garment of red to wear.

  You had it coming surely,

  Surely,

  Surely,

  You had it coming surely.

  At school, your girls were the bright little girls.

  You couldn’t abide dark meat.

  Yellow was for to look at,

  Black for the famished to eat.

  Yellow was for to look at,

  Black for the famished to eat.

  You grew up with bright skins on the brain,

  And me in your black folks bed.

  Often and often you cut me cold,

 

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