I Gave My Heart To A Jersey Killa

by Tina J

  I don’t play that shit so when I seen the dude with her hair wrapped around his hand and the busted lip, I tried to diffuse the situation. I don’t know dude and my niggas ain’t here, so I wasn’t tryna get in no shit.

  “Bro, you need to let her go.” I saw Monie’s eyes grow wide. She’s probably embarrassed.

  “Mind yo fucking business. This me and my bitch shit.” He looked me up and down.

  “Bitch?” I was mad as hell he called her that.

  “I’m not gonna tell you again.”

  “VJ, I’m ok.” I noticed the tears falling down her eyes.

  “Yea VJ. Beat it.”

  “Not until you let her go.” I was trying my hardest to remain calm.

  “Fine.” He swung her across the room and her head hit the wall knocking her out. I started beating this nigga ass. I zoned out thinking about my moms attacker and had no one pulled me off, I probably would’ve killed him.

  “Call an ambulance.” Somebody yelled after seeing his dumb ass knocked the fuck out. This is why I tried not to ever get angry. I get that supernatural strength and can’t control myself.

  “Monie, get up.” I smacked her face a little.

  “Grab me a wet paper towel.” Someone passed me one and after rubbing it on her face a few times, she opened her eyes.

  “You ok?” I asked.

  “What happened?” She was still very confused.

  “He threw you against the wall and you hit your head.” I lifted her hair up to see how bad the gash was.

  “Tha fuck going on in here?” I heard someone bark and everyone in the room dispersed.

  CLICK! I felt the steel against my head.

  “Who the fuck are you and why my cousin on the floor bleeding from the head and mouth?” The dude barked.

  “Haven I’m fine. I must’ve been drunk and fell against the wall. He was helping me.” My anger turned into disappointment. Disappointed she saved the nigga after he threw her against the wall like a rag doll.

  “I don’t want no problems.” I put my hands up and stood.

  “Thanks Vernon.” She had pleading eyes for me not to mention what took place.

  “Why the hell this nigga on the floor?” He put his gun up and when the EMT’s showed up, he had them take her first. I left the scene and went to grab Mecca and my cousin. Ariel was dancing with a bottle in her hand and Mecca had an annoyed look as usual.

  “Where’s Monie?” Ariel questioned as if I would know. I did but my cousin didn’t know that.

  “We’re leaving. You coming?” I asked ignoring her question.

  “Let me get Armonie.” I grabbed her arm.

  “How long he been beating on her?” She blew her breath and I could see how watery her eyes got.

  “I tried to help down there but she took up for him.” I explained a little of what went down.

  “She always does.” She put her head down.

  “Promise me you’ll never allow a man to do that to you and if he did, you’ll tell me or your brother.”

  “VJ, I know all about aunty Maylan. I’d never wanna go through the same thing.”

  “Why is she letting him do it?”

  “She’s scared and sadly he has mind control over her. No matter how many times I tell her it’s not worth it, he’ll come over with flowers, gifts and apologies.” I shook my head and went to leave. Now she grabbed my arm and hugged me.

  “He threatened to kill her if she left him.” She whispered in my ear.

  “We’ll talk.” I told her and walked down the steps with Mecca behind me.

  “What’s going on over there?” Mecca pointed to the bathroom area. Security was deep and you couldn’t see pass the human wall they made.

  “Probably some stripper being nasty or something.” I wasn’t gonna tell her Monie’s business. They don’t know one another and it’s best to keep it that way.

  **************************

  “Mmmmm. VJ you feel good.” I pulled outta Mecca and made sure both condoms were still intact. Its a nuisance using two, but I trusted no one.

  “Turn over.” I waited for her ass to toot in the air and inserted myself back in.

  “Fuckkkkk. I’m gonna cum again.” She gripped the sheets and threw her ass back. I wasn’t really into the sex and wished she hurry up.

  “Then cum on this dick.” I smacked her ass and waited for her to get done. I was ready to nut but I never finished before a chick.

  Once she released herself, I pulled out, took the condoms off and let her swallow my kids. In all the years I’ve had sex, a chick can never tell you I came inside her even in a condom. My ass was too scared to have kids and catch diseases.

  I went in the bathroom, took a shower and headed out. I had things to do today and my first stop is to my cousin’s house. I wanted to see her and check up on Monie. I haven’t seen or heard from Ariel since it happened two nights ago.

  I parked in front of their house and called my cousins phone. She opened the door and pointed to Monie’s room. She stayed downstairs because of all the homework. She had a little longer to go in school and my cousin will be the first RN in the family. All the crazy things she’s around, I’m sure it’ll come in handy.

  KNOCK! KNOCK! I didn’t hear anything and opened the door. Monie was laying in her bed watching TV. I moved closer and noticed the busted lip was no longer there and she had a small patch on her forehead.

  “What you doing here?”

  “Is that anyway to speak to the man who saved your life?” She sat up.

  “About that.” I cut her off.

  “No need for explanations and I’m not judging. I do think you should see someone because what he’s doing is coward shit. Ain’t no man gonna put his hands on a woman because she in a club.” Her head fell back on the headboard.

  “Thanks.”

  “No need.” I sat closer, turned her face from side to side and examined it. Besides the bandage on her head she looked fine.

  “Your owner know you here?” I chuckled at her being petty.

  “I don’t have an owner and never concern yourself with irrelevant people.”

  “Your girlfriend is relevant.” Monie folded her arms across her chest.

  “If you say so.” I stared at this woman in front of me and could see how broken she was without saying a word. I don’t know what my mom went through but it broke my father when he found her dying. She has to live with permanent scars and dentures and that’s just the physical part. Mentally she’s still messed up and has nightmares. I can’t imagine what she’s going through but I’m sure its similar.

  “A’ight. I just wanted to check on you.” I leaned over to kiss her cheek and she turned her head. Our lips connected and instead of us separating, we continued. My hand went behind her neck to bring her closer as if we weren’t close enough.

  “Oh my God VJ. I’m so sorry for kissing you.” She pushed me away.

  “It’s all good Monie. We both wanted it.”

  “Really?”

  “Yup.” I leaned in to kiss her again and this time she somehow found her way in my lap. I squeezed her ass and the soft moan escaping her lips had my dick waking up.

  “Ssss.” I kissed her neck and caressed her breasts at the same time.

  “You like this Monie?” My hands were in her shorts rubbing on her drenched pussy.

  “Yesssss.” She moaned. Her head was back as she began to ride the wave I felt coming. Her clit was extremely hard.

  “Armonie, your mom is on the... oh shit.” Ariel closed the door and Monie hopped off.

  “I’m sorry.” She pulled the covers up.

  “Don’t be.” I stared in her eyes and caught myself from leaning in to kiss her again.

  “It’ll be our secret.” I adjusted myself and kissed her forehead before leaving the room. I walked down the steps and Ariel sat on the couch smirking.

  “Let me find out you busted her cherry.” I stopped and looked at my cousin. Did she just say what I think
she said?

  “She’s a virgin?” I asked to make sure.

  “Got dammit. I thought y’all did it or she told you that’s why Freddy bugging. He doesn’t want anyone to be her first but him.” I smirked. A virgin. Shit, I never been with one.

  “Nah. I’m glad you told me tho. I would’ve had a hard time getting in.” She tossed a pillow at me.

  “You make me sick. Don’t tell her I told you.”

  “I would’ve figured it out.” I shrugged my shoulders.

  “Boy please. Freddy has been around for two years and he hasn’t even tasted her pussy. If you plan on getting some, I suggest you stick around for a few years.”

  “I’m not him and my swag on point.” We both laughed.

  “I wouldn’t sleep with her anyway. She’s too damaged and sex would complicate things.” I stared at the steps thinking about what just transpired. I’ve never cheated on Mecca and here I am in Jersey, exchanging slob and almost having sex with another woman. I need to stay away from her.

  “Look at you thinking like a grown man.”

  “Whatever. Hit me up later for dinner. Just me and you.” I kissed her cheek and disappeared out the door.

  Ariel Glover

  “Don’t forget to call your mom.” I reminded Armonie as I walked past her door.

  After my cousin left yesterday, I stayed downstairs studying for my exam coming up. I’m already an LPN and loved my job but I want to be a RN now. Hell, I’m even taking management classes to be head nurse and the supervisor. Eventually, when I get my foot in the door, I want to run the whole floor and move up higher if I can. My goal is to run a hospital but there’s so many steps to go through.

  My father Birch is building a small hospital in Monmouth County NJ over in the Fort Monmouth area. Ever since the base closed a few years back, all of the space has been up for sale. Him and my uncle purchased a huge part and once the people heard a hospital and research facility would be there, they had no problem giving it to them. If I want to have a part in it, I want to make sure to provide my degrees if necessary. Whether my family has the money to do whatever, I want everyone to know I took the exact same steps others did.

  “Thanks. I spoke to her.” She sat on my bed as I finished putting my ankle boots on. VJ wanted to go out for dinner and he’s not the type to expect cheap. The restaurant he decided on was hella expensive and the least I could do is dress nice.

  “You ok?”

  “I wanna leave him Ariel but he won’t let me.” She busted out crying. I ran over to the bed and rubbed her back.

  “Then VJ saved me from his wrath, well before it got worse and things changed.” She laid her head on my shoulder.

  “What you mean?”

  “I know I’m worth so much more but when Haven asked what happened, I begged VJ with my eyes not to mention it, and the look he gave me hurt.”

  “Hurt?” I questioned.

  “It’s like he wanted to take me away and I didn’t let him. Ariel, I know his mom had a bad relationship and he probably sees me in her, but I don’t know how to get out. I’ve tried and yes it’s my fault for accepting the gifts and apologies but he’s gonna kill me.” Her cries became louder. I went in the bathroom and handed her tissue.

  “The only way to end your fear is to tell your family.”

  “NO!” She shouted.

  “Ariel, the Reaper won’t have a problem ending him and God forbid Colby Jr. finds out. Sis, you have the means to get rid of Freddy. Why are you saving him?”

  “I don’t know. I love his mom and family. I know if they kill him, they’ll be hurting.” I kneeled in front of her.

  “I’m not judging Monie because I’ve never been through this.” I took her hand on mine.

  “You know when enough is enough, and I understand how you feel towards his family but he’s gonna kill you. There’s no more saving him and if you don’t tell your family, you can be mad all you want, but I will.” She forced herself to stand.

  “Ariel you’re my best friend. How are you gonna tell them when...” She had an attitude and I didn’t care. I should’ve told a long time ago but not betraying her trust, I didn’t and now look. The nigga is doing everything to keep her away from the world. Once that happens, we’ll never know what’s going on.

  “When what Monie? When he kills you?” I let her hands go and stood.

  “I refused to sit back any longer helping you hide bruises and broken bones from your family. I’m as bad as him and you’re putting me in a position to lie. I hate lying to your mom and I feel like your dad can see straight through me.” She snickered.

  “Don’t laugh trick. I be scared as hell when your father questions me.” Her father Colby is cool as hell but when it comes to his kids, he don’t play.

  “How did you feel when VJ was here?” She rolled her eyes.

  “I’m asking because you’ve done more with him then Freddy and you’ve known him longer.” She blushed.

  “VJ made me feel safe in that short amount of time in the bathroom. Then, he came to check on me and neither of us expected things to go the way they did. Ariel, I swear if you didn’t walk in, I probably would’ve let him be my first.” I smirked.

  “He made me body feel things Freddy didn’t and I don’t know why. I loved the way he touched me and girl, his kiss, whew!” She fanned herself.

  “Ok. I don’t wanna hear what my cousin does.”

  “I’m just saying. He made my body hot and I finished myself off when he left.” Both of us got a good laugh outta that.

  “Well you know he has a girl and you have a man. Don’t get caught up in the illusion of you two, until both of you are single.”

  “VJ has a lot going on and I would never bring him in my drama even though he helped me.”

  “Handle the Freddy shit before I fake drunk and tell everyone.” She tossed a pillow at me on the way out the door.

  “Love you. Lock up.” I shouted and headed to my car. I saw my ex walking towards me and started to go back inside.

  “Ariel?” I ignored him and unlocked my door.

  “You too good to speak now?”

  “What Eddie? Huh? What could you possibly have to say?” I turned and folded my arms against my chest.

  Eddie is the guy I used to date for the last six months. He was cool and fun to be around. It took me the entire six months before deciding to sleep with him. The night I did, of course I went down on him because he did me. We had sex and it was ok, but we had feelings for each other, so I didn’t make a big deal out of it. I figured we could explore each other and learn new things together.

  The next day, this nigga goes and tells everyone we slept together, and you know how fast shit travels on social media.

  Long story short, he’s a skinny dude and I’m thick as hell. Some would consider me fat because I’m short like my mom. I’m only 5’5 and I weigh 150 pounds the most. I’m not tryna be a model and I refuse to not eat, to keep up some fake image these girls have online.

  Anyway, they made fun of him for sleeping with a fat girl. Instead of defending me, he goes and tells them he wanted to know what it’s like to fuck a BBW and I couldn’t suck dick for shit. I was so hurt; especially when he was moaning louder than me.

  I could’ve hit him back and showed the messages he sent of how good I made him feel but what for? He already damaged my name which is why Haven calls me the DS ho. Mind you I’ve only done Eddie and the guy who was my first but let Eddie tell it, I’ve been around the world and back again doing it to hundreds of men. Yet, here he is begging for me to give him another chance.

  “I wish I would fuck with you again on any level. You’re childish, petty and can’t fuck.” He turned his face up.

  “Fuck you bitch. Pussy ain’t all that.” I sat in my car and rolled the window down.

  “Says the nigga tryna dive in. Peace.” I gave him the peace sign and left him standing there looking stupid.

  *********************

  “I’m here
for the Davis reservation.” I told the hostess at the front door.

  “Oh yes. Here it is. Mr. Davis isn’t here yet but I can seat you and get you started on a drink.”

  “Thank you.” I followed her to the table. She took my drink order and said the waiter would bring it shortly. I glanced over the menu and the prices were high as fuck. Regardless if a person has money or not, food shouldn’t cost this much.

  “What’s up dicksucker?” How ironic is it for us both to be here?

  “What the fuck you want Haven?” I peeped the chick next to him and shook my head. She was indeed a bad white chick but why is she here? I know for a fact Juicy’s gone and she’s the only one he’d bring to an expensive place.

  “Go to the table. I’ll be right there.” The chick listened and he plopped his ignorant ass in the seat.

  “You look hungry as hell sitting here alone.” I rolled my eyes. He leaned back staring at me. Haven was a handsome dude and the bitches loved him, but his mouth was horrible. He had no filter and gave zero fucks what he said or who he said it to.

  “Anything else?” I asked and glanced over the menu. He knew how to get a rise outta me and I was trying not to let him.

  “Yea. I need my dick sucked later and I was wondering if you’re services are available?” I slammed the menu down.

  “Haven, I’m starting to think you wanna see what this mouth do.” I rolled my tongue inside and he smirked.

  “It’s about time we on the same page. Look.” He turned to make sure no one was listening.

  “I’m about to feed this bitch, and then cut her tongue out. Soon as I’m done, be ready.” He had no remorse for the lifestyle he had.

  “Hold up.” I put my hand up and looked around myself.

  “Did you just tell me the Reaper is on duty right now and to be available when you done?” I whispered.

  I know who he is and the only other people who do, are family. He never wanted anyone to associate the two together which is why his identity was always unknown. People knew the so-called reaper is related to the Banks family but could never figure out who it is.