‘Yes, Papa,’ Isabella said dully.
He took her hands in his. ‘Now, come, smile at your papa before you leave so that I can remember a happier face on my travels.’
Isabella could not smile. But she reached up to kiss her father then turned with dignity to Lisette waiting by the carriage.
Daniel walked to the door, knowing he was sacrificing his only child. He groaned at his own selfishness and weakness, but he could not stay in this vast, empty, inherited mausoleum alone.
His last image of his daughter was of a small, frightened white face peering out of the window at him, before the carriage turned down the drive and out of sight.
Chapter 20
The taxi dropped them off near the bridge so that they could walk along the river path to the house. Mark pointed; ‘It’s three-quarters of the way along the path. Can you see, the house with the creeper growing up the front?’
His voice held a proprietorial excitement that made Gabby smile. It was late afternoon and people were beginning to leave offices and shops and go home. Even the river seemed busy with small tugs and cruisers. The path was wet from a high tide and they negotiated the puddles.
‘The river floods on a regular basis at certain times of the year,’ Mark said. ‘All the houses have flood barriers at their front doors to stop the water entering the houses. Sort of quaint, isn’t it? People dash out to put them up as the river rises.’
‘Do the barriers work?’ Gabby wondered. ‘How awful to come back to a flooded house. You could be out when the river rises.’
‘According to my aunt, if in doubt, put them up anyway.’
Gabby peered into windows. ‘What lovely houses. Why did your aunt leave?’
‘She’s nearly eighty. Most of her friends in London have died. I think she was lonely and the house got too big. She’s gone off to live near Exeter with a friend, but she doesn’t want to sell her house until she knows whether living with someone else is going to work. So this arrangement is ideal for both of us.’
‘She’s very wise. How come she is living over here? Did she marry an Englishman?’
‘She did, but he died some time ago. They never had children, which was sad. She’s a great person. I’m her godson and she has always been very good to me.’
‘I expect you’ve been good to her, too.’
Mark smiled and they stopped for a minute and watched the river. Beyond the houses on the far side the sky was a flushed pink and gold as the sun sank below the buildings.
Mark got the front-door key out of his pocket and they walked up three steep steps to the entrance of a small three-storey house with creeper growing up its walls. The front door was dark green with a brass knocker. As he opened the door, Mark turned to Gabby and said, ‘I’m like a kid. I can’t believe I’m going to live here for a year. There’s no place I’d rather be. Come in and look, Gabriella.’
There was a long hall that led into a sitting room on the right, which had a view across the river and was now full of buttery yellow light. It was partially furnished, but it was obvious that furniture and ornaments had been removed. A fine layer of dust lay on the mantelpiece.
The left room was empty, but had once been a dining room.
‘I don’t think my aunt ever used it after her husband died,’ Mark said. ‘There is a kitchen at the back, facing the garden, which is much warmer.’
The stairs went straight up from the hall and a narrow passage continued to the back of the house and into a surprisingly large kitchen, which had a small Rayburn and pine dining-table and chairs. Gabby could tell immediately that this was where Mark’s aunt had spent most of her time. It was an L-shape, and Mark went in and opened up old pine shutters which led back into the sitting room. Immediately the room was flooded with light from the dying sun.
‘I don’t think she ever closed these when she lived here.’
Gabby was silent, drinking in the light and the sound of the river. Listening to the boats hooting as they went under the bridge, to the distant growl of traffic and a blackbird somewhere, calling on one note. If it is possible, she thought, to fall in love with a house at first sight, I have just done so.
Mark, seeing her face, said, ‘I see you understand now why I am so childishly excited.’
‘Yes,’ Gabby said. ‘Oh yes.’
‘Come upstairs and then I’ll open a bottle of wine and show you the garden.’
They climbed the steep stairs to two bedrooms at the front and one at the back. Both front bedrooms were empty of furniture. The windows, stretching from floor to ceiling, looked down on the fast flowing river and the sounds of people calling to each other at the end of a day.
Mark had obviously been sleeping in the bedroom at the back of the house. There was a clock and books on the bedside table. A shirt hung on the door. A pair of trousers were neatly folded over a chair. The room looked down on the small garden, not much more than a large yard. Next to this room was an old-fashioned bathroom. On the third floor was an attic room.
While Mark went back downstairs Gabby went into the bathroom and brushed her hair, stared at herself in a crackled antique mirror hanging above the basin. Put some moisturizer on her lips. Sprayed a little of Nell’s scent on her wrists and behind her ears. She had no idea who taught her to do this small, timeless act. As she met her eyes in the mirror she saw how clear and calm they were. The blackbird was still singing as if its heart would break. Clear into this moment Gabby stared, transfixed, looking into the mirror as if she had never seen herself before.
I’m home, she thought. I’m home. She closed her eyes and gripped the edge of the basin, as peace, and something far beyond peace, flooded through her.
She walked slowly down the stairs and back into the kitchen. Mark had opened a bottle of wine and had poured out two glasses. He was leaning against the work surface, looking out into the garden. His face looked more serious in profile when his mouth and eyes were invisible.
He turned as she came into the room. She stood just inside the doorway, suddenly unsure. He did not pick up a glass of wine and hand it to her, he did not move at all, he just stood looking at her. The atmosphere in the room became electric and unbearable. Gabby held her breath. The moment hovered and grew, needing to be broken with a laugh. Needing to be broken.
Gabby swallowed and moved into the room towards him. He moved at the same time and they met somewhere in the middle. He placed his hands on the top of her arms and bent and kissed her forehead and both cheeks then drew back to look down into her face. Gabby could not take her eyes from his bottom lip. She longed to bite it. She reached up and kissed his mouth, once, hard.
His eyes changed colour, his hand came up to touch her face and he bent to her mouth, gently at first, almost a question mark. Gabby, holding on to his arms for balance, opened her mouth to him, pressing against him. He pulled her to him, kissing her urgently now, and there was only the sound of their short sharp breaths in the warm room.
He lifted her suddenly to the edge of the room so that her back was against the work surface, bent to her neck, pressed her so close to him she felt part of his body. She held the back of his head, pushing him to her skin as one of his hands started to undo her shirt. She could feel his hand trembling, then his fingers cold on her breast and his mouth warm on her nipple.
With a small cry she started to shake off her shirt, pulling her arms out of the sleeves. Mark undid her bra and removed it, threw it behind him, stood away for a moment to gaze at her; then he gently took her bottom lip in his teeth and held it there as if he was about to eat her.
Gabby’s hands moved to his belt and started to undo the buckle. Still kissing her, Mark helped her, sliding out of his shoes at the same time. He kicked his trousers and boxer shorts out of the way and slid her trousers and underpants down her legs, bending and pulling off her shoes and socks. There was the brief, awkward moment of their own nakedness before he pulled her to him again, kissing and touching her until she could bear it no longe
r.
He lifted her up onto the work surface and slid into her making her gasp, lowering and holding her onto him. Gabby, gripping his shoulders, cried out as they moved together and came immediately. Then they were both motionless in the dusky kitchen. The sun had disappeared behind the buildings and Gabby was grateful for the coming darkness. One of Mark’s hands stroked her hair as she stayed buried in his neck.
She shivered involuntarily and Mark held her away and whispered, ‘You’re getting cold.’
He carried her upstairs and wrapped her in his towelling robe and placed her under the duvet. Then he made two trips back downstairs to get the wine and their clothes which he folded neatly together on the chair. Finally he got back into bed beside her and held her to him, and they floated between sleep listening to the last of the birds skittering and calling in the dusk.
After a while he switched on the bedside light so that he could see her. He wanted any awkwardness to be dispelled. Gabby half sat up, concentrating on her wine, not looking at him. He turned her face to him and smiled. She met his eyes.
‘Just in case you were wondering, Gabriella, that was not a wham, bam, thank you, ma’am.’ He was laughing again.
Gabby smiled. ‘Sure?’
‘Oh, I’m very sure.’ He bent forward and rubbed her nose with his.
She looked at him. ‘Even if it was … I don’t regret it …’ She flicked her hair forward in the small nervous habit she had. ‘It was lovely … I’ve never had an orgasm before.’
Startled, he held her hair away from her face. ‘What? Never!’
‘No. So … thank you.’
He pulled her on top of him. ‘Obviously we’ll have to practise, don’t you think, to make sure it wasn’t a one-off?’
‘Oh, you think so?’
He manoeuvred her robe away. ‘I do, Gabriella. Practise makes absolutely perfect, as you English say. We must make sure we’ve got it right.’
‘Mark, you’re leaving tomorrow.’
‘But I’m coming back, Gabriella. I’m coming back.’
She smiled, sleepily. ‘So you are.’
‘I wanted you to see this house. I wanted to see if you thought you might come here sometimes.’
‘It’s a long way from Cornwall.’
‘But not impossible?’
‘No,’ Gabby said, ‘not impossible. This house almost seems … familiar, as if I have been here before. I love it.’
‘I’m so glad. Now I’m going to be sensible and make you eggs on toast and put you in a taxi before you turn into a pumpkin.’
Gabby stirred against him. ‘I’m not all that hungry.’
Mark groaned. ‘Unfair, hussy. I wish you could stay the night, Gabriella, but you can’t, can you?’
‘Nell might ring the club. I can’t really, Mark. I wish I could.’
‘Next time?’
‘Next time.’
‘We’ll get up … in just a second …’
But they didn’t.
In the taxi to Nell’s club, Gabby watched the wet streets slide by, full of the sounds of police sirens and night-time traffic. In the warm, impersonal room of the club she ached and throbbed. She was acutely aware of her own body, felt sensually absorbed into it, stunned by the way it had reacted so instinctively and physically to Mark. It felt as if she had grown a shiny and voluptuous second skin that was as startling as it was dangerous.
She felt that she could not be responsible for this hedonistic and earthy other person. She did not know her at all. Or, and this sudden thought was more frightening, did she know her only too well? Had she hidden her, buried her deep and tight, so that she might stay forever buried under a life she could only handle if she were stifled?
At six in the morning, Mark rang her.
‘Just checking you have no regrets,’ he said softly.
‘None,’ she said. ‘Have you?’
‘Not one.’
‘Mark? Even if it was a moment of madness, don’t worry, I will never regret it.’
He laughed. ‘I think you know what it was. Time will prove it to you, Gabriella. What time is your train?’
‘Ten-thirty.’
‘Paddington?’
‘Yes.’
‘I’ll meet you there. I want to see you again before I fly.’
She laughed. ‘OK.’
On the train back to Cornwall, Gabby thought, Nell and Charlie will notice I’m different. My mouth aches. I ache. I’ve got five hours to turn back into myself. Five hours to metamorphose back into the person I’ve always been …
At Plymouth, her mobile phone went. She jumped up and went into the corridor. It was Lucinda from the National Portrait Gallery. She asked if Gabby would be interested in restoring the small painting she had showed her, as their restorer would definitely have to take all her maternity leave.
Gabby was startled and unprepared for the suddenness of the offer.
‘Um … well, I’m tied up for a while doing this figurehead, but yes … I guess … When were you thinking? I mean, how quickly do you need someone?’
‘We need it to be done before the exhibition opens in July. Would it be possible for you to come up, say one or two days a week, while you are still doing the figurehead? Look, I’ve bounced this on you, do you want to have a think and ring me back?’
‘Yes. I’m on the train home, Lucinda. Can I ring you back when I get home?’
‘Sorry, I didn’t realize. Look, I’ll ring you tomorrow morning on the number you gave me. Is that OK?’
‘It’s fine. I’m sure I can juggle … I’d love to do it.’
‘It might just lead to other work. Of course, I can’t promise. Oh, and by the way, don’t worry about accommodation; I’ve got a spare room so that needn’t be an expense. I’ll speak to you tomorrow, Gabrielle.’
Gabby flopped back into her seat so excited she had to ring Nell.
Nell, answering straight away, was as thrilled as Gabby.
‘We’ll talk when you get home, but believe me, it is not something to turn down. Oh, you clever girl!’
‘I did nothing, Nell. Not a thing. It’s your reputation I’m trading on. I was just there.’
‘Being “just there” is sometimes enough.’
‘Serendipity?’
Nell laughed. ‘Something like that. See you when you get home. If that car of yours won’t start, ring me, I’ll come and get you.’
Gabby leant back and closed her eyes.
Being there is sometimes enough.
Chapter 21
It was the Commandant’s cocktail party. Josh, entering the mess with two fellow cadets, felt the buzz in the room. The passing-out parade was getting close and every cadet officer felt edgy.
The three men scanned the full room automatically for talent.
‘Mmm, quite a few yummy mummies here tonight,’ David said.
‘Commandant’s wife really is a stunner.’ Guy whistled low under his breath.
‘I’ve heard the daughter is tasty, too. Wonder if she’s here.’
Josh said nothing. His eyes were still roaming around the room. He had passed this daughter – whom he now knew was named Marika – frequently on his runs and they had grinned at each other as they sweated past, neither stopping to speak.
A crowd of people in the far corner parted and Josh saw her suddenly, surrounded by instructors. David and Guy grabbed a drink from a passing tray and made an unswerving and obvious beeline for that end of the room. Josh stayed where he was, his heart sinking. What was the point? She was hardly going to be interested in talking to cadet officers when she had the pick of the mess.
He drank two gins in quick succession. Nell was probably right, a career in the army was certainly going to affect his liver. He continued to loiter on the outskirts of the noisy flow of conversation and bursts of laughter. Sunday tomorrow. After church parade he would go for a long ride. If he had not had this passion to fly he would have chosen a cavalry regiment because of the horses. But flying was a
little world of its own and he couldn’t wait to join it.
It had been great to ride again, though. He had the pick of the horses at Sandhurst, beautiful thoroughbreds. Riding always relaxed him. He had missed Hal when he left home. Nell and Gabby had lent his horse to a girl in the village because Hal had needed regular exercise and they could no longer find the time to ride every day.
At the far end of the room he saw Guy and David had got themselves into the circle of people surrounding Marika. She was tall, as tall as some of the officers, and very blonde, that sexy pale Scandinavian blonde. Marika and her mother, Uli, were Croatian. Everyone knew the Commandant had met and fallen in love with her on his tour in Bosnia. He had eventually brought Uli and her daughter back to England. No one knew what had happened to her first husband, though fantasy and speculation were rife. Jokey rumours abounded of the Commandant having him shot.
Josh looked up and across the room, searching for someone he wanted to have a conversation with. He was being unsociable and he was not circulating, and this was expected of him. He sighed. He was bloody knackered after two sessions in the gym. Josh could not bear to fall below his own standards. He had a horror of failing, of not being quite good enough.
At that moment he caught Marika’s eye across the room. She moved her mouth in a half smile and lifted her eyebrows slightly, her eyes signalling Rescue me.
Josh made his way across the room to her little entourage, amused.
‘Hi,’ he said when he reached her. ‘I think we’ve passed each other running, puffing in opposite directions.’ He held out his hand. ‘I’m Josh.’
The girl laughed and took his hand. ‘Yes, but your speed is greater than mine.’
‘Oh, so you already know Josh?’ David said in a peeved voice.
‘Notice you kept that quiet,’ Guy said, sotto voce out of the side of his mouth, the art of subtlety having passed him by.
‘We have not spoken,’ Marika said, still staring at Josh. ‘I am Marika.’
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