by Anne Bishop
Instead of returning to his office—and all the confused hearts wanting counsel—Danyal went to the apartment on the administration building’s top floor. Some of the Handlers had rooms in another building on the grounds, but he and Meddik Benham were the only occupants on this floor.
He unlocked the apartment door, relocked it, and made a careful inspection of his home before settling into a chair. He felt vulnerable, and a Shaman, being the voice of the world, should not feel vulnerable. Ever.
Something had entered that poor, addled man, making him an instrument of evil. Another whisper of proof that something was very wrong in this part of the city.
Allies and enemies. A madman and a teacher. A guide and a monster. He’d been sent here because the council believed he could find these things.
But would he find them in time?
Chapter 8
Sometimes the hated voices whispered in Lee’s ear.
You need to get back to your sister. There’s danger coming.
All you need to do is cross over to one of Belladonna’s landscapes. We’ll help you.
You need to get home before it’s too late.
Sometimes the hated voices scratched against his mind.
Belladonna needs you. You have to reach her.
Your mother is in danger.
Don’t you want to go home?
His answers—whispered or screamed or trapped in his mind—were the same.
I don’t have a sister.
My mother is gone.
I have no home.
I don’t know Belladonna.
Every time he denied knowing her, he felt the last little heart thread that connected him to Glorianna thin a little more. The day would come when he denied knowing her one time too many and that thread would break completely—and he would never be able to find his way back home.
When the soft persuasion didn’t work, they began using the needle that poured fire into his brain and sent his body into thrashing, screaming panic. They laughed as they strapped his head down, forced his eyes open, and put in the drops of poison that clouded his eyes a little more each day until he couldn’t see his tormentors, couldn’t see anything.
Here in the city of Vision, you can find only what you can see. What do you think a blind man can find here, Bridge?
Nothing. No one. How many times had he said to Nadia, “I don’t want to see her!” when she suggested he go to the Island in the Mist to visit Glorianna? Now he couldn’t see her.
Now he pushed her away with all the strength and love in him. To save her from her enemies.
The words they whispered changed, became as painful as the needle and the drops they put in his eyes.
You want to be hurt, want to be punished for not loving your sister enough. That’s why you ended up with us. That’s why we punish you. It’s what you want.
You can’t escape us. We’re always with you, always watching. If you try to go home, we’ll be close enough to grab you, go with you.
There is no one you can trust because you’re surrounded by people loyal to us. No escape, Bridge. We’re always with you because you want us with you, want us to punish you for not loving your sister enough.
The words they whispered became as painful as the needle because, after a while, they became true.
Chapter 9
Zhahar grabbed Kobrah’s arm and pulled her out of the way of the male Handlers running into the building toward the sounds of fighting and a man’s raging screams. “Stay out here.”
“What’s going on?” Kobrah asked.
“New inmate. A violent one.” Squeezing Kobrah’s arm, Zhahar joined the other Handlers.
“Warn the Landscapers!” the man screamed. “Wizards and a Dark Guide have come to this place. Warn the Landscapers!”
“What are wizards?” one of the Handlers asked as he tried to muscle closer to the isolation cell.
“Don’t know,” another said. “And unless one of them drops his pants and takes a dump on a path, why would the groundskeepers care?”
Zhahar tried to slip into the hole left by the two men, but a hand closed on her arm and pulled her back, just as she had done to Kobrah moments before.
“Stay here,” Danyal said. “There is already too much help in that room.”
Surprised by the anger in his voice, Zhahar looked at him—and shrank away from the storm she saw in his eyes.
He released her arm and moved toward the pack of Handlers trying to get into the room.
Thunder shook the building as if the world had given voice to someone’s anger. Handlers looked around and scrambled to clear a path for the Shaman.
Within a couple of minutes, the new inmate was strapped to a bed in the isolation cell, still screaming about wizards and lightning and dark guides.
A couple of minutes after that, Shaman Danyal left the cell with two dark-haired men who looked disheveled and distressed.
As he passed her, Danyal gave her a slashing look that warned her to stay away from that room.
Despite the warning, she waited until she was sure he’d taken the two men up to his office in the administration building. Then she crept to the doorway of the isolation cell.
Two brawny men she hadn’t seen before were bending over the bed, whispering to the inmate who still struggled despite the straitjacket and ankle restraints that were secured to the bed’s metal railings. One of them reached down and pinched the inside of the inmate’s thigh hard enough for the man to cry out in pain.
The other, glancing up and noticing her, mumbled something to his companion. They both looked at her and gave her smiles that made her cold.
::I don’t like those men,:: Sholeh said.
=Let’s get out of here,= Zeela growled. =It would be too hard to explain my sudden appearance or why I got into a fight with these men.=
*They hurt him,* Zhahar replied, squaring her shoulders. *On purpose.*
“We’re just making him comfortable,” one of the men said. The heat in his eyes as he looked at her body…
=Get out of here now!= Zeela shouted.
“I’ll put that in the daily notes for Shaman Danyal,” Zhahar said. “He expects to be informed of the care given to all the inmates.” And as much as she quailed at the thought of admitting she hadn’t followed his command completely, she was going to tell Danyal about that pinch—and about that look. If any female at the Asylum was violated by those men, she wouldn’t forgive herself for the cowardice of silence—and neither would Danyal.
She turned and walked away, feeling one of the men moving behind her. Then Kobrah stepped in from the outside doorway, a chilling look in her eyes as she stared past Zhahar.
The footsteps stopped, retreated back to the isolation cell.
Hurrying to the outside door, Zhahar left the building, relieved to breathe in dusty, heated air.
“We have a new Chayne?” Kobrah asked.
“Two of them,” Zhahar replied. Kobrah’s word for men who had power over other people certainly fit the new Handlers.
::I don’t like those men,:: Sholeh repeated.
=I’ll come into view when it’s time to go home,= Zeela said.
*Yes,* Zhahar agreed. Their middle sister was the strongest of them. She carried knives and brass knuckles when she was in view, and had won the bar fight that had given her the jagged scar on her left arm. Most men weren’t foolish enough to look at Zeela the way those new Handlers had looked at Zhahar.
“Isn’t your shift over?” Kobrah asked.
“Yes, but I need to speak with Shaman Danyal before I go,” Zhahar replied. She looked around, feeling too exposed, too close to the men who made her uneasy. “I’m going to the temple for a few minutes. Do you want to come with me?”
Kobrah stared at the doorway as if her vigilance was the only thing keeping those men in the isolation cell. “Yes, I’ll come with you.”
They hurried across a lawn that was turning brown and crisp in the late-summer heat, skirted the reflecti
ng pool that turned rank every time Teeko, one of the groundskeepers, filled it with water, and entered the small temple. The gongs that gave a voice to sorrow were always set out in the same order and each had a subtly different tone.
Zhahar knelt on the cushion behind the gong she usually preferred, but hesitated when she reached for the mallet. She thought a moment, then shifted one cushion to her left. A deeper sound. Even struck softly, its resonance reminded her of the thunder that had rolled over the building—and fit the itchy anger and sympathy that the new inmate’s screams had stirred in her.
She didn’t strike the gong softly the second time. He had fought, so they had to subdue him, but a man who was mind-sick shouldn’t be treated with such cruelty.
She struck the gong again. This time Kobrah struck a gong as well, and the sound seemed to wrap around anger and uneasiness, drawing them out of Zhahar.
The next time, Kobrah’s voice rose in a wordless sound that conveyed the feelings produced by the strangers.
When the gongs were struck again, Zhahar added her voice to Kobrah’s—and hoped the sound now resonating through the room covered the fact that there were four voices expressing their feelings instead of just two.
Standing in front of the desk in his office, Danyal studied the two men and struggled to hide his revulsion of the images that came to him from their heart-cores. Maggots so bloated they burst. Spiny worms crawling under the skin before turning to lightning that would silence a heart or mind.
Despite his ravings, the inmate felt like clean summer rain. These men felt like a festering cesspool.
“Why did you bring him here?” Danyal asked.
“He is our nephew,” Styks, the taller of the two men, replied. “Our poor sister’s only son. He lost his way in our great city and sought out places that damaged his mind and roughened his heart. It was no longer prudent to try to care for him ourselves. Bringing him here became necessary.”
“But why this one?” Danyal persisted. “You told me your sister lived in the northern part of Vision.”
“The northwestern part,” Pugnos, the shorter man, corrected.
“Which is my point. Why didn’t you take your nephew to the Asylum closer to his home? It will be a two-day journey for his mother to come visit him here.”
“Ah,” Styks said, looking unhappy. “That is one of the reasons we chose this particular place. She tried to help him, but he was drawn to the city’s unsavory streets, and his behavior became so degenerate, he attempted to have carnal relations with her.”
Danyal stiffened, certain he had misunderstood. “With his mother?”
“Yes,” Pugnos said. “They were found, and he was stopped before…Well. If he was nearby, she would feel obliged to visit him, and, frankly, we fear for her mind now. And her physical health has become fragile since that unfortunate episode. Knowing she could not make an arduous journey will allow her distance from her son without guilt. We will encourage her to write to him, of course.”
“There are two other reasons we choose this Asylum,” Styks said. “One is that I live in the southern part of the city, no more than a mile from here. My brother is staying with me for the time being, so we will both be available to visit often and do whatever we can to help restore our nephew to his right mind.”
“That is also why we hired two men to take care of him,” Pugnos said. “We did not want our family troubles to take your Handlers and Helpers away from the other inmates.”
How convenient, Danyal thought. A mother who is too fragile to travel and, therefore, will never be seen. And the men they’ve hired as personal Handlers are better suited to rough work in some of the shadow places than dealing with a man who has a damaged mind.
Before he could push for more information about the Handlers, he felt a pressure at his temples—and the thought drifted away.
“And your other reason for bringing him here?” Danyal asked, feeling off balance and wondering if he should stop by the infirmary and see Benham.
“Why…you,” Styks said with a smile. “No other Asylum has a Shaman as its Keeper. We are hoping that you can do what another Keeper could not: restore our nephew’s mind. Or at least keep it stable while we wait to see if the medicines our physician provided can cure the disease that’s festering in his brain.”
“We must be completely truthful about what that disease has done to the boy,” Pugnos said, giving his brother a sad look. “The Shaman must be prepared.”
“Yes,” Styks agreed, not meeting Danyal’s eyes. “You heard some of his ravings. He thinks people can disappear just by crossing a bridge. Or that he can make people disappear by throwing a stone at them.”
“He insists the world is full of demons and that he has never heard of the great city of Vision,” Pugnos said. “He began claiming he came from a different place when his eyesight began to fail. We think it’s because a blind man has no future in a place like Vision.”
There is more than one way to see, Danyal thought. You would know that if you came from here. “Anything else?”
They both lifted their hands as they shrugged. “More than we can think to tell you,” Styks said. “But if you can help our sister’s boy find his way back home, we will be in your debt.”
He didn’t want their gratitude or their assistance or their hired muscle. He wanted them off the grounds he tended and away from the people under his care.
Danyal walked around his desk, sat down, and reached for a clean sheet of paper—the first of many that would fill a folder and define a man’s life. “I’ll need some information about your nephew.”
“Of course,” Styks said as he and Pugnos settled in the visitors’ chairs. “His name is Lee.”
Chapter 10
Michael tossed a few broken pocket watches on the sand inside Ephemera’s playground on the Island in the Mist. Then he settled on the bench in the gravel section and pulled out his tin whistle.
“We’re going to play the Lee-heart game,” he said cheerfully. “Take those pieces of time and leave them where the Lee-heart can find them.”
The only response he got was sharp bits of stone jutting up from the sand, as well as patches of bog and some foul-smelling water. He wasn’t sure if that was a location or a message—or just Ephemera’s effort to bring him something.
Closing his eyes, Michael played the last tune he’d heard in Lee’s heart. It wasn’t the same tune as when he’d first met the man. There was more hurt now in Lee than there had been a year ago, more shadows and sharp edges. While it was tempting to play the tune he remembered, he needed to give Ephemera the heart music of who Lee was now.
So he played the music and sent it out through the currents of the world to guide Ephemera to the heart that matched the tune.
He and the wild child had done this once before. He had sent the music in his heart and Sebastian’s into a place that couldn’t be reached in any other way. By doing that, he had reached Belladonna, the Warrior of Light who had become the monster that Evil feared. He had reached the woman he loved and found the way to help her come home.
Now he was trying to reach out again. Ephemera hadn’t found Lee yet, and that was a worry because it meant Lee had changed so much the wild child couldn’t match heart to music—or it meant Lee was dead.
No one in the family said those words, but after so many weeks without any kind of news, it was a possibility.
Possible, Michael thought as he began the song again. But I’m not giving up on you yet, you ripe bastard. I’m not giving up on you.
He played the song a third time, then lowered the tin whistle. The pocket watches were gone. Ephemera was following the music through the Light and Dark currents of power and had taken the physical messages with it.
Hoping that this time they might get a message in return, Michael went up to the house where Glorianna waited for him.
Chapter 11
Zhahar watched the brawny man, that so-called Handler, slip out of the isolation cell and head f
or the staff toilets on this floor of the inmates’ building. Picking up a jug of water and a dipper, she walked briskly across the common area that separated the isolation cells from the rest of the rooms.
The cell’s door wasn’t locked. Wasn’t even secured by the outside chain, which was against the rules.
Her heart hammered, but she didn’t look around to see if anyone was watching her. Giving anyone a reason to doubt she was allowed to enter that room would get her into trouble.
::We shouldn’t be here,:: Sholeh whispered.
Zhahar opened the door, slipped into the room, and moved to the narrow bed that had strong metal bars where the Handlers could fasten restraints. *I just want to make sure he’s all right. Besides the Handlers his uncles hired, no one but Meddik Benham has seen him, and only with one of the uncles present.*
=Has Meddik seen him lately?= Zeela asked grimly. =Not only has he soiled himself, but he hasn’t been washed in so long, he reeks.=
*I don’t know,* Zhahar said doubtfully as she looked at the inmate. *I do know Shaman Danyal isn’t aware of how badly those Handlers are treating this man. He wouldn’t allow this.*
Her sisters were silent, which made her nervous. But seeing the inmate, she wondered what was really going on. Why was Meddik Benham ignoring this man’s condition? Why was Danyal?
::The Shaman won’t be happy that you’re in here,:: Sholeh finally said. ::Not after he told you to stay away so that you don’t draw the Chaynes’ attention.::
*I know, but…*
She looked at the man on the bed and felt her heart clench because of the mistreatment he’d been enduring. And then she felt her heart lift and soar as if someone had just fulfilled a cherished wish.
I’ve been looking for you, she thought. She couldn’t explain the words, but they felt true. They also frightened her because she understood what she was—and what he was.
Having a more personal interest now, she studied his face. His black hair was tangled and greasy. His skin looked pasty sick, and his lips were so parched they had split in a couple of places. She thought the unfocused eyes were green, but they were so cloudy, she wasn’t sure.