My heart races just a little faster and my head spins. I say softly.
“I would do anything for you, Emily. Just know that you will never be alone when I’m around. Looking after you is the most natural thing in the world to me.”
She pulls back and something in her expression makes me gasp for air. There is an intensity in her eyes and she stares at me with unspoken questions in them. She reaches up and runs her fingers through my hair and then lightly grazes her lips to mine. I feel her shift closer and a thousand thoughts jostle for position in my brain. I tell myself I should stop this but my heart screams at me not to. My body responds to hers and my mind shuts down. I am no longer in control of this situation as Emily draws back and says huskily.
“I’m sorry, Jax. I can’t pretend anymore. I think I’m falling in love with you and it’s hurting like Hell. I want to be close to you and yet I feel as if I should keep away. I dread the day I see you with another girl and yet I dread not seeing you more. My mind is healing but my heart is yearning for you. When I left Amelia James behind and became Emily Stone, I left my past. I don’t need protecting from that all the time I have hope in my heart for the future. If any of this scares the hell out of you then I will understand and walk away. However, if there is a little part of you that likes me too, then I just want to let you know that it’s ok. I like you right back.”
I think I’m in shock. This woman strips me bare. I have never met anyone like her in my life. I have had many women and sometimes even more than once. Not one of them has even scratched the surface of my heart. This one though has blasted her way inside and ripped it out from me. It’s not all about sex. There is something about Emily that is calling to me. I want to make her happy and see her laugh. I want to be the one to give her pleasure and hold her hand through life. With her beside me, I feel the richest man on earth. I would be proud to call her mine and shout it every day for the world to hear. I am in love with Emily Stone and know that I am lost forever. It’s time to claim my girl.
I reach down and run my fingers over those sweet lips as I whisper.
“I love you, Emily, but you must know that I’m a fraud. All this time I have been pretending to protect you but wanted you near me because I can’t bear the thought of one minute away from you. I don’t want to use you like those other men and am battling to prove that to myself. I can’t lie though and this has been one battle I am in danger of losing right here now. If you just say the word, I am all yours. I don’t want any other girl, I want you. I won’t rush you because I don’t want to be just another dickhead in your life. It’s up to you, Emily. If you want me, I’m all yours.”
She smiles shyly and her eyes sparkle as she says gently.
“You sure do talk a lot. What I really want is for you to help me out of this dress and take me to bed and prove it.”
I grin wickedly and allow my dick his moment of triumph as he dances his victory dance in my pants. Reaching behind her I unzip her dress and watch it fall to the ground. She stands there looking like an Angel as I drink in the sight of her. She is perfect and I drop to my knees before her and worship her like the goddess she is. I hear her gasp as I rain kisses down her body and take one of her perfect breasts in my mouth, sucking it gently until I hear her groan. Then I take off her underwear and carry her to the bed, kicking the door open like a cave man.
I don’t waste any time and lay her gently on the bed.
I can’t remove my clothes quickly enough and watch the lust fill her eyes. Those eyes are my Kryptonite. They steal my senses and weaken me with desire. I am drawn to her and look with reverence at the amazing girl waiting for me so willingly in my bed. She reaches up and runs her fingers down my chest, tracing the outline of the ink scripted on my skin. Just her touch sends my head spiraling and I have never felt anything like it in my life. Now I know that she is my first. The first and last girl I will ever love. Lust doesn’t come into it. I am not interested in a quick fuck. I want more. I want to show Emily that she is worth the stars. She is no second choice, she is the most important woman in my life and I would never hurt her.
I pull her up until our faces are inches apart. Gazing into her eyes I trace the contours of her face. No words are necessary as I pledge myself to her. Leaning down my lips meet hers and I taste the sweetness within. She groans softly and shifts closer, running her hands behind my head and pulling me closer. Our lips meet and our tongues dance. We devour each other as though this is our last meal. Reaching down, I pull her closer and feel the tremble in her body as she shudders in anticipation.
Then I lower her back until I tower above her. She gazes at me with those beautiful eyes and draws me in. Then I proceed to kiss every part of her. There is not an inch left unloved as I worship her body. I have waited a long time for this moment and I intend on savoring every second.
She shudders as she feels my tongue between her legs and arches towards me. I taste every part of her and it is like the finest banquet. I touch every inch of her perfect body and bring her to the edge of ecstasy. She is driving me crazy but I will not be rushed. Emily needs a man who will love her like no other. I am that man and will not let her down.
She starts to plead. “God, Jax. I want you inside me more than I want air.”
She reaches down to stroke my shaft and feeling her soft gentle hands on my throbbing dick almost makes me come instantly.
I pull her hands away and holding one down I use the other one to reach for a condom. In one practiced move, I am sheathed and ready and as I thrust into her sweet depths, I roar with ecstasy. There is no sweeter feeling than sinking balls deep into the woman I love. She fits me perfectly and her legs wrap around my waist as I thrust inside her again and again. She pants and groans with pure need and I watch her every expression as I savor the moment. Our eyes meet and as we come together we know. We are where we both belong. We are home.
***
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Emily
My heart is beating, and I am covered with sweat. As Jax pulls me on top of him he strokes my hair and whispers.
“I love you, Emily.”
I raise my head and kiss his lips gently. “I love you too, Jax.”
He grins. “You do know that Jax isn’t my real name?”
I laugh softly. “You do know that Emily is not my real name either?”
We laugh and I look at him with interest.
“So, who are you then? I mean, I think I should know who has just captured my heart.”
His eyes darken and melts my soul.
“My name is Joshua but my family calls me Josh. My last name is Jackson and when I joined the band, they shortened it to Jax.”
I kiss him lightly on the lips and smile.
“I’m very pleased to meet you, Josh My name is Emily Stone. I used to be known as Amelia James but I left her behind in Washington. You wouldn’t like her, anyway. She was weak and easily blinded by power and lust. That girl deserves to remain forever incarcerated in a wall of steel where she belongs.”
He stares at me for a second and then says softly.
“Does Emily Stone have a family someplace?”
I feel my face fall and shake my head sadly.
“No, she never has. Emily Stone has herself and only herself. Amelia James was an orphan and loaned out to various families who took pity on her before sending her to the next one. Nobody ever came to give me a family of my own to love. I have never belonged anywhere and the only person in my life is me. Is it any wonder that I left her behind?”
I see the pity in his eyes and frown.
“Don’t pity me, Jax, because it made me who I am today. I learned the hard lessons of life and vowed to look after myself by making the best of a bad start in life. Luckily, I was blessed with a good brain and sailed through school. I set my sights on Washington and clawed my way to the White House with determination.”
As I think about that life, I sigh and Jax tightens his arms around me. I snuggle in and say
softly.
“I was foolish and naïve. I thought the dashing Senator loved me and wanted me as his girlfriend. I fell in love with him and he manipulated my fragile mind. You’ve got to understand I had never had anyone care for me or put me first in my whole life. He appeared to do just that and I foolishly believed he was the love of my life.”
I feel Jax tense and sit up and look down at him gently.
His eyes are shrouded in pain and I trace his lips gently.
“Now I know it was just a frightened girl clinging on to whatever love she could get. Even when he hurt me I confused it with love. He told me it was because he loved me and was keeping me safe. Now I know there was never any love there. He was a monster using an innocent girl to act out his sick fantasies. He never loved me and now I have met you I know what true love really is. I do love you, Josh. You are the first person I have ever loved in my whole life and I just want you to know that. Whatever has happened before in our lives I want it to stay there. You are my future and I finally feel as if I belong.”
His eyes soften and he says huskily.
“I could say the same thing. You are the first girl I have ever loved. Unlike you, I am blessed with a loving mother and a sister I adore. Life dealt us a hard blow when it claimed the life of my father. I was ten years old. My mother was paralyzed and incapacitated forever. My sister Sammie took on her role and helped us through the dark days. I feel as if I have been angry all my life but none of that seems to matter anymore. Music soothes the pain away and now I have a purpose. That is to love you like you have never been loved before. You do have a family now, Emily Stone. You have me and mine. They will love you as much as I do and together we can conquer our demons. Nothing can tear apart what has been written in the stars. If anyone tries, then we will fight back and win. I will love and protect you forever.”
I lie down on his chest to keep the tears that have formed hidden. My heart feels as if it will burst.
He says huskily.
“I know we have just met but I feel as if I have known you all my life. When something is right, it is never wrong. I will make it my life’s work to make you smile and chase the shadows away.”
Blinking back the tears I kiss his chest and look up into his eyes and grin sexily. I don’t say a thing and just love my man like I will do for the rest of my life. Now it’s my turn to kiss him all over and worship the man who has given me the greatest gift. Nothing will come between us—I will make sure of it.
We must fall asleep because we are woken by a pounding on the door. I sit up with a start and hear Eddie shouting.
“For fuck’s sake get your ass’s downstairs. The busses are ready to leave and everyone’s on board. I hope to God you’ve got Emily in there because she isn’t to be found. You’ve got ten minutes before we leave without you.”
I try to jump out of bed but Jax laughs and pulls me back. Grasping my hair in his hand he wraps it around his fist and holds my head still and kisses me like a man possessed. Desire fills my body and soul and I melt into him. He groans and flips me onto my back and I feel him hard and ready against my stomach. I whisper.
“We don’t have time, they’re waiting.”
He grins wickedly. “Let them wait. What I want to do to you won’t wait and I know which one I’m gonna choose. You win every time, Emily.”
I gasp as he fills me with one giant thrust and I look at him with crazy, lust filled eyes.
“Fuck me, Jax, that feels so good.”
He groans. “Say it again, darlin’. In fact, I want to hear you screaming for me to fuck you hard.”
As he powers into me I scream his name, begging him to go harder and deeper. I want him to crawl inside my body and never leave. I want us to be joined together in one crazy, lust filled package that keeps the world away.
As Joshua Jackson fills my body, he drives everything else from my mind. This is true possession. It is unbreakable. Two people forging a strong link that will bind them together for eternity. He’s right, the world can wait.
***
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Jax
As Emily hums in the shower I make a few calls. The bus left without us and I wouldn’t want it any other way. Five and a half hours on the bus or four hours in bed with Emily followed by a flight to Lansing. We should reach the hotel about the same time as the guys and I laugh to myself at the thought of Eddie’s furious face.
He gave me an earful when I finally called him. He calmed down when he realized we would be there before them and now we must pack and ship out.
I called Logan and we are hitching a ride on his private jet. They were always coming to see the show at Lansing and so it worked out perfectly.
I just hope he has something for me because I am not giving Emily up to anyone.
I find myself grinning like a madman as I feel the effects of the last few hours. I never knew love was this powerful. I sing about it in the songs I write without ever truly understanding the meaning of it. I am itching to lift my guitar and immortalize my thoughts into song but know we don’t have time.
Emily wanders into the room and fuck me if I’m not hard again as I see her naked body glistening with the drops of water from the shower. She towels her hair dry and I want to sink into her again more than anything.
She sees the look in my eye and rolls hers.
“Come on, Romeo. We’ve got work to do.”
I grin wickedly.
“The only thing I want to do, darlin’, is you.”
I reach for her and she slaps my hand away and grins.
“Come on, the sooner we get there the sooner we can christen the next hotel bed.”
I sigh heavily
“Ok, if that’s how it’s gonna be. Your wish is my command, let’s go.”
She laughs softly.
“It might be a good idea if we get dressed first.”
I look down at my dick flailing around looking for his home and laugh.
“He’s got a will of his own. He never listens to me, maybe you will have more luck.”
I laugh as she throws my clothes at my head and pretends to be annoyed.
“Get your ass in these before I get angry. I’m still working here and I need to get this star on the road.”
I salute her cheekily and dress reluctantly.
“Come on then, if you insist. I expect the cab is waiting, anyway.”
Just before we leave Emily stops and looks back at the room with a wistful expression. Taking her hand, I look at her and smile.
“What are you thinking?”
She smiles softly.
“This is where my life began, Jax. Where we began. I’m just committing it all to memory.”
I squeeze her hand and kiss her lightly on the lips.
“This is just the beginning, darlin’. You and I will travel the world together. There will be many rooms like this and they all blend into one after a while. We will stay the same though. What has grown between us will continue to grow wherever we are. As long as you are beside me I am home.”
With one last look at the beginning, we head off together.
Emily
As we pull into the private airfield I feel nervous. Jax squeezes my hand as if he can somehow see inside my mind and smiles reassuringly.
“Relax. They will love you.”
I smile nervously and he pulls me closer.
“Let me chase those nerves away.”
He lowers his lips to mine and once again shows me what I’ve been missing all my life. He pulls me onto his lap and I feel that he is hard and ready. I grind myself onto him, hating the thin layer of clothing that prevents him being inside me. He groans and whispers,
“Fuck me, Emily. I’m not happy unless I’m inside you. You have ruined me.”
I giggle as we draw up beside a Jet, patiently waiting to deliver us to Lansing.
I slide off Jax and try to bring order to my mind.
The driver opens the door and I laugh as Jax sighs
heavily and takes a few deep breaths to calm himself.
As I exit the car, I take a few of my own because waiting for us at the foot of the steps are the hottest couple I have ever seen in my life.
The woman is absolutely stunning and has long blonde hair with a shapely figure. She is holding tightly onto the hand of a guy who has dark hair like Josh and is dressed immaculately. He looks on with amusement as she squeals and rushes over, landing on her brother and holding him tightly.
“Oh my god, Josh. Look at you.”
He laughs and holds her tightly and a lump forms in my throat as I see the love in that embrace. Her boyfriend grins at me and I smile shyly. Wow, he is something else.
Jax pulls back and draws me towards them.
“Emily, meet my sister Sammie and Logan her boyfriend.”
I smile nervously and she positively beams at me as she pulls me in for a hug.
“Pleased to meet you, Emily. I must say when Josh told me he was bringing his girlfriend to meet us you could have picked me up off the floor. I never thought I’d see the day. I can see why though, you are stunning.”
I feel embarrassed and they all laugh as they note the reddening of my cheeks.
Logan slaps Josh on the back and grins at him as Sammie grabs hold of my hand and pulls me up the steps.
When I take my first look inside their Jet, I am amazed. This is surely the height of luxury. Everything is black and silver. Wall to Wall silver plush carpeting supports black leather comfortable seats. A stewardess smiles at us and hands me a glass of champagne in a crystal glass. There are other rooms to the rear of the plane and I wonder at the luxury they hide behind their doors. Sammie grins as she notices my stunned expression.
“It’s impressive, isn’t it? I still remember the first time I traveled on it. It’s had a bit of a makeover since then but no less striking.”
She guides me to a comfortable seat and looks at me with interest.
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