“I’m gonna get more pizza and check in with Maren. I’ll be back.”
When I hear the door close, I slip out of the bathroom. I get back in bed and I eat my slice of pizza. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until I started eating. I finish off a bottle of water and lay down. I wish I had my cell phone so I could call Kace. Even if it just goes to voicemail, I have a lot to say.
My eyes get heavier and I finally give in and close them. Kace’s face is the last thing I see before I’m finally pulled under.
I’m woken up by loud noises and fear wraps around me. Something is going on and I’m frozen in place. I pull the covers up to my chin as I sit there listening. I can’t make anything out, just that suddenly voices are loud. The door flies open, and I scream as I close my eyes.
“Ivy?”
My eyes fly open at Kace’s voice and I look at him standing there. His clothes are covered in blood. The side of his head has definitely taken a beating and has dried blood on it. But what stands out the most are his sad brown eyes. They look haunted. I must still be dreaming.
“Kace? Is this for real?” I ask, dropping the covers as I crawl to the end of the bed.
“Ivy, fuck,” he cries out, wrapping his strong, muscular arms around me.
His intoxicating smell invades my senses. His heart beats rapidly beneath my ear as I dig my fingers into his back. His hold on me tightens as he kisses the top of my head. I can’t fight it any longer, the tears begin to flow.
“You’re alive?” I ask, my voice muffled against his chest.
“I’m alive, angel,” he whispers, kissing my head again. He finally pulls away and sits on the bed, pulling me onto his lap. “Alex isn’t though.”
He buries his head in my shoulder and I can feel him begin to shake. He’s crying. “It’s alright, Kace,” I say, running my fingers through his hair.
“I’m so sorry, Ivy. I didn’t protect you and I almost lost you and the baby. You suffered injuries and torment because of me. Fuck, I’m sorry,” he cries, holding me tighter.
I allow him to cry against my shoulder as I soothe him the best I can. I rub his massive back with one hand and hold his head with the other. The pain he is feeling needs to be released and I’m giving him that.
He eventually lifts his head and seeing his wet, haunted eyes makes my heart crumble. “I failed you, Ivy. I allowed unspeakable shit to happen to you because I wasn’t there to protect you. I’m so fucking sorry.”
I brush my thumbs under his eyes and cup his cheeks, careful not to touch where he’s been hit. “You saved me, Kace. You’re the reason I’m alive.” I reach down to touch my stomach. “That we’re alive.” I give him a small smile. “I thought I was going to die, and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever encountered.” He goes to interrupt, but I place my finger on his lips. “Until I heard your voice. You came for me. You put your life on the line for me. I get it now. I understand the meaning of this world, this club.” I smile as I remove my finger from his lips. “You love me enough to die for me.”
I press my lips to his and he growls when our tongues collide. I moan when he deepens the kiss. We’re both trying to make the other feel what we are in this moment and it’s surreal. I thought I’d never seen him again. That I’d be a single mom telling my child what a hero their father was, but I’m not. We both survived.
Kace breaks the kiss, resting his forehead on mine. “You aren’t leaving me?”
I search his dark brown eyes as I grin. “No big guy, I’m here to stay.”
He closes his eyes as relief floods him. When he opens them, he stands up, sitting me on the bed. He slowly and with as much care as I’ve ever seen checks me over. He lightly touches my bandaged wrists and ankles. His lips feather over the bruising and cut on my head. But then he looks at me with questioning eyes. I know he’s asking where else I’m hurt, so I turn my arm over and show him the bandaged burn.
He traces it before peeking up at me. “How bad?”
“Third degree burn,” I whisper.
“Fuck,” he yells. “Ivy, I fucking swear to you that I will never let anyone near you again. Never!”
I grab his massive shoulders and make him focus on me. “I trust you, Kace.”
His eyes widen as he falls to his knees. He swallows as he grabs my hands in his. “Fuck, trust is bigger to me than love. You trusting me means more than you’ll ever understand. I love you, but more than that, I trust you. I trust you, Ivy.”
We hold onto each other like our lives depend on it and maybe they do. Maybe alone we are nothing, but together we are everything.
Chapter 16
Kace
I slip my cut on as I look at myself in the mirror. Alex deserves a sendoff like this. He gave up his life so I could have one with Ivy. He was a selfless motherfucker with a fucking huge heart.
“You look hot,” Ivy says, coming into the bedroom.
When I turn around the wind is kicked out of me. She looks fucking gorgeous. Her hair is down and styled so it covers the bruising on her face. She’s got a long sleeved black shirt on that covers her burn and her wrists. Her black skirt is tight and hits right above her knees and she’s got black boots on covering her ankles that go right up to her knees. I adjust my cock as I look at her. “Fuck, you look sexy as hell.”
She smiles and steps in front of me. “Maybe you can help me take it off later,” she whispers, biting her lip.
We haven’t had sex since everything happened. I didn’t want to push her, but she just gave the green fucking light. I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her flush against me. “You can fucking count on it, angel.”
“We better go,” she says, pulling me from thoughts of her sexy body. I nod and adjust my cut again. “I know this is hard.”
I sigh as I link my fingers with hers. “Yeah it is. Come on.”
We get to the funeral home and I nod in approval when I see the large crowd already. As Ivy and I walk hand and hand up to the door, several members from other chapters stop me to express their condolences. When we walk through the doors I see Zane and Harper, so we walk over to them.
“Hey, brother,” Zane says, giving me a quick hug. “Hey Ivy, you look great.” He kisses her cheek and I pull her closer to my side.
They all get a good laugh, but I keep the serious expression on my face. She’s mine.
“You both look amazing and very happy,” Harper says.
“Yeah wait until I start getting fat,” Ivy says, laughing.
I look down at her and my pulse picks up. “You’ll be sexy as hell.”
She peeks up at me and smiles. Her brown eyes are clear and happy as she says, “We’ll see.”
Riley and Gillian come in hand and hand. Porter and Finn come in next, with Enzo and Nora behind them. Maren comes in, pushing Brooks in a wheelchair, which he is trying to get out of. Adalyn is quietly yelling at him to sit still.
“This fucking chair is bullshit,” Brooks growls.
“You need to be off of it, so stop your complaining,” Maren says.
He shakes his head and looks at us. “Alex’s death is a reminder of our brotherhood. He gave his life to protect another. He died so we could all live and love. His death will not be in vain. We will live, love, and fight just like he wanted for us. Now let’s go say goodbye to our brother,” Brooks says.
I reach for Ivy’s hand and she links her small fingers with mine. “I’m right here, big guy,” she whispers. Yeah, she definitely is.
The funeral was exactly what Alex deserved. Shattered Souls from all over the country came. Friends and family filled the funeral home with stories of Alex throughout his life. Each story showed what an amazing man he was. We all led the hearse to the cemetery and the line of bikes was a mile long. It was fucking incredible.
We are now at Souls celebrating his life. He loved a party as much as the next guy and we are giving him one hell of a sendoff party. The music is loud, the place is packed, the liquor is flowing, and the laughs are endless.
“Remember that time he was showing us an easy way to ignite a fuse?” Riley says, laughing.
“That fucking thing blew up before he even dropped it,” Zane says.
We all laugh. The stories and memories have been endless. At that moment the shots I ordered are delivered. I grab mine and stand up. Everyone else grabs theirs and we raise our glasses.
“To our brother Alex. Fuck, we love you man,” I say, tossing back the shot.
I feel Ivy’s small hand on my back, so I turn around. “You alright?”
I grin and wrap my arms around her small frame. “I’m good, angel. Are you?” I ask, raising an eyebrow.
“Of course,” she says, biting her lip as she searches my eyes.
I lift one side of my mouth into a grin as I realize what she wants. “You want something?”
“Maybe,” she says, shrugging her shoulders.
I lean down to whisper in her ear. “Tell me what you want, Ivy.”
She bites her lip harder as her eyes trail over my body. “You.”
“Good enough,” I say, picking her up.
She wraps her legs around me as I slam my mouth to hers. She moans as my fingers dig into her ass while I fuck her mouth with my tongue.
“Fuck yeah, I love some free porn,” Riley says, laughing.
I turn around and wink. “Pay up or I’m taking her to my room.”
“Kace,” Ivy says, slapping my shoulder.
“How about just the warmup?” Riley asks.
“Fuck off,” I say, walking away.
They are all making comments and laughing, but I pay no attention. Ivy is pressed against me kissing my neck as I push the door open to the back. When we reach the bedroom, we stayed in far too long, I kick the door closed and lock it. I let her slide down my body and my dick presses harder against my zipper.
“You sure about this?” I ask, trailing my eyes over her.
She pulls her shirt over her head and I immediately notice the bandages. “I’m sure.”
I pull my cut and shirt off trying not to focus on the injuries I am responsible for. She sits on the bed and lifts her leg looking at me.
“You said you’d help undress me,” she purrs.
I stare at her as I unbutton my jeans. As they slide down my legs, I pull my boxers off. Once they are off, I grab my cock and pump it as I look at her. “You make my dick so hard.”
She bites her lip as she eye fucks me. It’s hot as hell. “I’m so wet looking at you.”
“Fuck,” I hiss as I drop to my knees in front of her. I rest her boot on my shoulder as I slowly unzip it. She watches in complete fascination. I pull her boot off, running my hands up her leg. I repeat it with her other boot, but this time when I run my hands up her leg I push her skirt up. I nearly come on the spot when I see she has no panties on. I snap my eyes to hers and she’s smiling. “Fuck, Ivy. If I knew you had nothing covering this wet pussy, I would’ve been on my knees at the cemetery making you come.”
Her breathing is heavier as her eyes bounce between mine. “Show me,” she whispers.
I push her legs wide apart, digging my fingers into her thighs. I lick a path up from her knee and she shivers as I get close to her pussy. The need to make her come is overwhelming and I bury my face between her legs. I lick slowly up to her clit, sucking it into my mouth before biting it.
“Oh God,” she moans, trying to move her hips.
I kiss, suck, bite, and lick at her until she is writhing above me. I push my tongue into her and fuck her while she moans my name. She tastes so fucking good; I can’t get enough. I slam two fingers into her dripping pussy and flick my tongue against her throbbing clit.
“Oh fuck, Kace. I’m so close,” she shouts.
I fuck her with my fingers hard and fast while my tongue licks frantically at her clit. I know she’s close, my fingers are drenched. I keep going, my body burning with the need to taste her release. I don’t need to wait long before she is screaming as her orgasm rips through her body. I cover her pussy with my mouth and lick at her, taking everything she’s willing to give me.
When she’s done, I move up her body and kiss her. My mouth is wet with her essence and I know she can taste it on my tongue. It turns me on more and my cock is begging for release.
I pull back and stare down at her. “You taste so fucking sweet, angel.”
She blushes and it makes me grin. I still have that effect on her and I fucking love it. She reaches down and grabs my cock, causing my head to drop back. “I need you to fuck me, Kace. I need to feel your piercing dragging against me. I need to feel your skin on mine. I need you, big guy.”
“Fuck,” I growl. “Take off your skirt and bra.” She does as I ask and moves to the top of the bed. I look at her sexy naked body waiting for me and I’m frozen. Her bandages are prominent, and her hair is no longer covering her bruising. The evidence of my failure is laid out in front of me.
She startles me when she grabs me by the shoulders. My brown eyes lock with hers. “Get your sexy body on the bed now.”
Her demanding tone momentarily snaps me out of my thoughts. I climb onto the bed and she climbs on top of me straddling me. I open my mouth to talk and she presses her hand against it.
“I’m fine. You saved me. I’m here and I’m not going anywhere. Get out of your head.” She lifts her hips and sinks down on my hard cock. I groan against her hand and she presses it harder as she starts moving. “Be here in the moment. Let go of all the thoughts you have. Focus on my pussy wrapped around your big, hard cock.”
I grab her and flip her so she’s on her back. I lift her hips and pound her tight pussy. She tosses her head back and fists the blanket in her hands. Her back arches as I continue the assault on her cunt.
“Fuck, you feel so good Ivy,” I moan. Her eyes are closed and her mouth is slightly parted. She’s fucking gorgeous and she’s mine. I will never let anything happen to her again. “I’m here, angel.” I say it quietly, but I hope she hears me.
I focus on this moment and it makes my heart pound faster. I have the love of a beautiful woman who forgave me for failing her. I know she’s it for me. I fucking love her and I trust her.
“Oh Kace,” she moans out.
I reach between her legs and rub her clit, causing her to moan louder. I slam into her knowing exactly where to drag my piercing to have her screaming in ecstasy. “Your pussy is squeezing me so tight and so fucking wet,” I groan.
“Fuck, I’m so close,” she yells.
“I feel you, angel. I want to feel you come on me, give it to me,” I growl.
She moans and arches her back, climbing closer to her release. My balls are so tight and I’m ready to explode, but not until she does. So, I lean forward, bending her legs back further. Her tits are rubbing on my chest as I bite down on her neck.
“Oh fuck,” she moans.
I kiss up her neck as I pinch her nipples. My lips slam to her and when she opens her mouth, I swallow down the moan she lets out. I pound into her, going deeper than before and she’s losing control beneath me. She finds her release and I pull back to watch the euphoria on her face. It’s fucking beautiful knowing I am the reason she is experiencing this euphoric state.
I pump into her a few more times and my release is impossible to hold back. “Ivy,” I groan.
My head drops back, and I let it all go.
I pull Ivy against me as I lay on my side. We hold onto each other as we recover. She rests her head on my shoulder and I pull back to see her. She is smiling and it makes me grin.
“I love you, Kace.”
“I fucking love you too, Ivy.”
She pulls out of my hold and reaches for her purse that is tossed on the floor. “I want to show you something.” She sits up and smiles as she hands me an ultrasound picture. “I had one before everything happened, but I lost it. I had planned to surprise you with it, but when I was at the hospital I had them print me out another one.” She smiles as she tucks her hair behind her e
ars. “That’s our baby and he or she is perfect.”
I sit up and kiss her quickly. Her eyes bounce between mine as I smile down at her. “He is fucking perfect. Just like his mom.” I reach down and grab my jeans off the floor. I pull out the ultrasound out of my back packet and hand it to her. “I’ve held this with me since I found it by your car. When I saw it my heart stopped. I was ready to die for him and I don’t even know him yet. You didn’t lose it, angel. I’ve just been protecting him.”
She wipes her tears and bites her lip as she looks from the ultrasound to me. “You make me fall more in love with you every second, big guy.”
“The feeling is mutual, angel.”
As we look at the picture of our baby, my heart starts to heal. I never thought I’d let someone in, but Ivy busted through. Together we are better than apart. This is just the beginning and I can’t wait to see where this crazy ride takes us. No matter what happens I know I’ll have this beautiful woman by my side and a baby to protect. I look up for a minute and grin. I finally have a family and it makes me fucking whole.
Epilogue
Kace
“Fuck!” Ivy yells.
“You’re doing great, angel,” I say.
She digs her nails into my hand and turns her head toward me. “Shut the fuck up. Get this kid out of me!”
“Okay give me a big push. The head is right here,” the doctor says.
This is it. I’m about to be a dad. I’m so fucking excited and nervous. Ivy’s water broke hours ago and we’ve been in the hospital since. She’s been amazing dealing with all the pain. It’s been hard watching her go through it. I’ve fought with a few nurses telling them to do something to help, but Ivy kept grabbing my hand and telling me she’s fine. The last few months have been the best of my life. Watching Ivy carry my baby, belly growing. She was so beautiful with her baby bump. It was sexy as hell. I’m definitely getting her knocked up again.
We had the entire house redone. Everything is new and it’s the perfect home to bring our baby to. We didn’t find out what the sex was, she wanted to be surprised. The nursery is all white and yellow. It’s perfect for a boy or girl. I know it’s a boy though. I’ve known since I saw that first ultrasound.
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