by Eli Lowe
My hands pulled Kazan close to my lips while he kept hovering over me, with no intention to stop his hands from caressing me everywhere even for a second.
“Summer?” Kazan's deep and panting voice brushed against my ears suddenly.
I tried to look at him, but could not, as he was keeping his head buried on my neck.
“Hmm?” I asked in my already hoarse voice.
“You do love me, right?” Kazan looked up at last with such desperation to know my answer and I realised how insecure he was feeling right now. He was indeed strong physically but he was just as fragile as me from inside. And I knew that it was the only heart that I must protect.
I pushed him with both of my hands to make him lay on his back in an instant while I climbed on him this time without wasting any more second. His heart was racing so was mine. My hands did not bother to stop from touching his face just when I said, at last,
“Yes, I love you more than you can ever imagine, Kazan.” And just when the words came out of my mouth, my lips got sealed once again. As Kazan sprung up and sucked my lips in a way as if he just realised that he was the luckiest man on earth.
And he did not bother to ask anymore.
Kazan gripped my hips tightly into his hands and made me move on him while he kept his eyes closed and rested his forehead on my shoulder for the time being. His warm breaths again kissed my skin, causing the sparks to intensify even more than before.
His groaning increased and so did his needs, as he kept thrusting his hard shaft inside my core even harder and faster as if he turned into some beast once again, while I could not stop myself from moaning out of pain and extreme pleasure as well.
And at last, with one last move, all his warmth burst inside me. Kazan fell back on the bed all exhausted, keeping my trembling body on top of his chest without bothering to let go of me. Neither did I have any strength to move, so I kept lying on him while both of us were struggling to catch our breaths.
His chest kept going up and down faster than ever at this instant. The loud beating of his racing heart did not fail to come to my ears either as we stayed entangled with each other like this for quite some time, until I tried to move.
Kazan made me lie on his side carefully and did not forget to pull the cover up on our body, making sure that I was okay as my body was still shaking a bit. He pulled me into his chest in an instant so that I could stay warm all night.
We kept lying for long but it seemed that sleep had no intention to come to any of us tonight. His hands kept traversing on my bare back the whole time, letting me feel all those tingles even after we just made love like some insane.
He was happy and so was I at this moment.
I wanted to talk to him, I wanted to know more about him, I wanted to feel everything that he was feeling right now. I wanted to know how he grew up, how he became an alpha at such a young age and so many things.
But little did I know that I was about to make his nightmare alive once again, unknowingly.
Cause I asked the very question which was always connected to all his miseries somehow, which I was yet to know.
“Kazan?” I called him out.
“Hmm?” His deep voice caused another shiver ran down my spine once again, declaring the fact that I could be hungry again right after a grand feast.
But I tried to avoid any such idea right now and asked,
“If you and Markus are brothers then why don't you both belong to the same pack?” As soon as he heard me, his hands stopped caressing my back like before only to halt for some moment. I felt that Kazan became a bit stiff after what I had asked, due to some unknown reason. Seeing him like this, I was about to say that he should never force himself to say something which he does not feel like he could ever say. But even before I could say all that to him, Kazan began to answer me,
“Well, Blood Bay Pack belonged to my father while Rose Bay was my mother's. But after mom left her pack to come to live with dad, Rose Bay was left with no next in line alpha after grandpa. And when Markus and I were born, mom promised grandpa that one of us would take the responsibility of the alpha of Rose Bay Pack after grandpa retires. And that was how from the beginning, Markus was chosen as the next in line alpha of Rose Bay Pack while Blood Bay Pack was left for me to look after.
Even so, we were still together, cause back then when the decision was taken, we were too young to be separated. So grandpa agreed to have Markus when we grow up enough to take such responsibility.
But I guess, that was never meant to happen.
Cause, the time made both of us stay separated from a really young age, against everyone's will.” Kazan paused to think something which must be something terrible as I felt his grip tighten on me without much of his consciousness.
“What happened?” I asked.
“Mom and dad died when we were young enough to understand what actually happened. Grandpa wanted to take us both with him to his pack as he wanted to give us a safe childhood. But then again, if he had done that, the Blood Bay could have collapsed which was not acceptable at all. So, my dad's beta, Jacob, made me stay back here in the Blood Bay, and Markus went to Rose Bay.” A menacing silence overtook after whatever Kazan just said, raising so many questions in my head all over again.
Episode 39
Kazan's P.O.V
Last night I dreamt of that piece of memory from my childhood once again. Even though I was very young back then to recall everything or to even understand what had happened that day years ago, that particular memory was the only thing I could never forget, even after all these years. Rather the horror in them never let me forget about that time from the past.
Since then, as I kept growing up, the sight which I had witnessed at such a young age did not fail to haunt me in my sleep every night. And soon it turned into my nightmare which kept becoming more and more vicious in my dreams as days passed by, leaving me no other choice except keeping the truth inside me all this time.
No, it was not that I did not want to tell anyone.
Cause, I tried.
Actually, I did tell once, in the very beginning, when I was entirely traumatized and when once all the limit of my endurance overflowed with the horrifying nightmares which kept coming only to force me to stay awake all night for years. And when I told everything about it to the only one who was really close to me back then, he did ensure me to get me out of this haunted memories by doing the justice for sure. But little did I know that it would make me lose him as well, proving the very fact to me ever so clearly that I just can not ask for anyone to help me out of my misery.
And that was why I never found the courage to open myself to anyone ever since. Not even to Markus. Cause, he does not know anything about this. And I was afraid that if I had told him, I might have lost him too, which I could never afford. Just as I was afraid to tell Summer as well about all those things which I had gone through since my childhood.
Yes, last night whatever I had told her was the truth indeed but I could not tell her that there was more to it. Cause I could never afford to lose her. Never ever.
****flashback****
Even though I liked that Summer, at last, wanted to know more about me instead of running away like before, I was still worried about a few things. Rather I was afraid to tell her everything even when I was feeling like she is the only one who has all the right to know each of the truth that I kept buried deep inside my heart for years.
The dilemma did not let me tell her any such thing at all which would lead her to utter danger, even though the words kept coming to my mouth all night, only for me to gulp down my throat.
Summer lifted up her hands to hold my face in-between her palms just when her soft lips touched my forehead, letting me free of all the distress for this moment. Her kiss worked just like magic to me.
And I could not hold myself back from the enticement of those alluring lips of my mate anymore and kissed her right away.
I just could not tell in just words how m
uch I love her, how much I admire her...not just now when I know that she is my mate but always. I admired her always.
A few moments passed and we stayed entangled with each other like this while she kept caressing me with all the love and warmth of her heart which I have always wanted.
I knew that her life was never that easy, nor was mine. But together we could be happy and I believed in us.
“How old were you when your parents died.” She asked in a low voice, while her hand was busy to run her fingers through my hair and I was loving what she was doing.
“I don't really remember. But I guess, we were about seven or eight years old when they died.” I said and became quiet again only to feel her at this moment. But it seemed that she had more things to ask, and I had no reason not to answer her unless it gets to the point which I can never cross no matter how much I want.
“And since then you grew up all alone, without anyone to get you through all the difficult times of your life?” Summer asked but it seemed that she was more hurt to feel the pain for me. But, I did not want her to feel miserable even not for a little bit and that too for me.
“No, I was not all alone, Summer. Jacob and his mate were there to look after me like their own child. And I was grateful to have such persons in my life without any doubt.” I tried to assure her even though I felt a bit happy somehow, seeing that there is someone now who could be even worried about me.
“Jacob? Your dad's beta?” She enquired keeping her anxious eyes on me.
“Yes, Jeremy's father. You know Jeremy right? My beta?” I asked as I did not know if she was getting whatever I was saying or not.
“Yes. I know him. But you said... that... you were grateful...why?... Kazan? Where is Jacob?” Her words made it very clear to me that she was no doubt becoming anxious to find out the reason behind whatever I had said to her.
“He was gone.” I said.
“What do you mean?” Summer asked as her eyes became wide, conveying the fact that she was indeed afraid to hear something horrible in no time.
“I mean he went missing, just like that a few years later. Back then, I was fourteen my be, and no matter how hard I tried to search him out from wherever he was gone, I just could not find any trace of him. I guess I was still not old enough to do everything as the alpha of my pack. But not now. I did not stop any of my attempts to look for him until today. Cause I know he is still out there somewhere waiting for me to get him back, which I will definitely, one day.” I said her all what I could, at least for now. And Summer did not ask further either. She just kept holding me close to her heart all night and I did not know when I fell asleep without a single effort tonight.
****end of flashback****
Keeping my eyes still closed, I stretched my arms, attempting to pull Summer even closer to me to get more of her warmth but I just could not.
I woke up in the morning with a sudden panic just when I realised that the other side of the bed was already cold as my hands could find no one beside me, quite unexpectedly.
I was about to jolt up on the bed so that I could rush to look for her, but something strange stopped me from doing so.
A few soft rustling sounds caught into my ears, making me all aware of the fact that she was still here as the presence of her intoxicating smell in the air did not let me think otherwise.
I could not hold myself back from turning around ever so quietly, making myself careful enough not to let her know that I woke up already.
And there she was.
I saw that my mate, Summer was running all around my room only in just one piece of clothing. My perfectly fitted t-shirt became an oversized one on her body which left her perfectly toned legs bare for me to watch as much as I wish.
The bright sunlight came into my room after quite a while, making the morning even more beautiful for me than ever. I found the curtains of my windows open after long while the room seemed in its best shape ever.
The mess in my room was now gone and every little thing which I never realised was in the room, appeared beautiful in my eyes and the most beautiful among them which took my breath away was my mate, my Summer.
Episode 40
Summer's P.O.V
I was busy clearing his room since when I woke up this morning. Everything which was lying here and there carelessly out of their actual places till now, was kept at the exact place where they always belonged.
I opened the curtains too early in the morning as the dark clouds were all gone now and the sky was looking ever so bright once again, announcing that a new day had arrived with new hopes and new possibilities to start a new once again.
Our clothes from last night were still lying at a corner of the floor, after being abandoned for the whole time. I gathered them up one by one only to find that they were still a bit soaked and were not wearable at all. So, I had to hang them outside to get them all dry up as soon as possible, but it seemed that it was not going to happen in such a little time that I had now, before going back to my house.
I kept myself busy with these little things ever so quietly while Kazan was still sleeping, reminding myself to be careful enough not to make much noise so that I do not wake him up. Even after trying hard, it seemed that my efforts became all futile as I was pulled into a tight hug from behind in the next moment, causing me to get utterly shocked at this early hours.
Cause his sturdy hand was holding me close to his chest by my waist while I felt the warmth of his other hand on the back of my thigh at first which kept sliding up ever so cruelly with each passing seconds only to roam everywhere on my skin under his huge t-shirt which I was wearing right now, declaring the very fact to me clearly that Kazan woke up already and so did his little thing which was now poking me from behind.
“Good morning.” His voice brushed against my ear along with his warm breath as he bent down a bit to rest his forehead on my shoulder while keeping himself busy with his own act of torturing me early in the morning.
“Umm... Kazan!!! I have to go back, you know.” Just when I uttered the words, I was turned around by his one swift move to face him right now. And in no moment he lifted me up only to make me wrap my legs around his bare waist while my hands kept clenching him strongly by his shoulder so that I could prevent myself from falling down.
“Yes, and we still have time.” His deep morning voice became a new definition of seductive to me right this instant while he made sure to take both of us back to the bed once again.
“No, no. We do not have time. You...let go of me now. And give me something to wear so that I can go out. Our clothes are still wet.” I screamed, fearing that he might make me late and tired once again even before I could start the day.
“But you are looking great in this. You do not have to go out. You can stay here. Forever.” Kazan smirked. He smirked at me. I mean I saw him smirking for the first time in my life ever, and it took away all my breathe for sure even when I knew that his smirk was implying something else which I was trying to avoid since he woke up.
But still, I had to stop him from whatever he was planning to do.
“You promised. You promised that you would take me back the next morning if I go with you, which I did. And it is time for you to abide by your own words.” I tried to show him how angry I could be if he does not let me go at this instant, but I knew what was the real case with me right now. Millions of sparks had already started to overtake my mind, soul and body at this moment while my desires to be with him for each and every second for the rest of my life kept clouding my mind.
“But I don't want to. Tsk. You really make it hard for me to keep all the promises which I keep making to you especially, Summer. Okay fine. You win.” With that, he loosened his grip on me giving me the opportunity to make myself flee out of his devilish plans for this morning.
“Let's run back to your house.” Kazan said right after which made me even more suspicious about his intentions, but I did not say no to him.
“Okay.” I agreed
.
We let our wolves free to run once again as the soothing morning breeze kept running through our fur, taking all the worries away from us for this moment.
I felt my muscles on fire with each of my leaps during our run while Kazan kept following me closely from behind, ever so happily and willingly as if he was nothing but my own shadow which was never meant to leave me ever.
And after covering quite some distance we reached the very place for which we started our little run a few whiles ago.
Yes, we reached our house finally.
But little did I know what was waiting for me just behind the door.
Cause just when I pushed the already opened door a bit wider so that I could let my huge body in, effortlessly, the very familiar voice started to yell for no reason at all.
“Where were you, Summer? And don't you ever feel to inform me for once at least, before you decide to get disappeared all of a sudden, so that I don't have to worry for you like some crazy.” Kaith continued to shout at me without even realising that I was not alone. I let my self in, only to rush to my room so that I could shift back, but I heard Kaith stop his yelling all of a sudden, which was unlikely of him for no sure. A deep ferocious growl came to my ears right after, making it easier for me now to understand the sudden change in Kaith's behaviour.
Yes, Kazan might have made himself in too in his huge and terrifying wolf form, making Kaith completely stupefied, for now at least.
Kaith's P.O.V
I have never thought before that this kind of situation could be ever so frustrating and maybe beyond.
Why?
Well, I wanted to talk to Summer at this instant but I just could not. No, it was not at all that something inside me was stopping me from doing whatever I wanted to do. Instead, there was something else to prevent me from taking each step towards Summer.
Cause a big bad alpha was standing at guard in front of the closed-door of Summer's room and was growling every now and then whenever I tried to move from my spot even for a bit. As if he was all prepared to chew someone's head in just a second whoever dares to cross the invisible line that he made with his own huge inevitable presence and I did not want to lose my head for sure.