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by J. G. Ballard


  'Judith here, darling,' his wife called. 'Everything all right?'

  Cursing under his breath, Maitland fumbled for his cane. The image of the dark coast and the estuary with its spectral caves had gone. Like a blind worm, he turned his blunted head at the unfamiliar sounds and shapes in the garden.

  'Are you all right?' Judith's footsteps crossed the lawn. 'What's the matter, you're all hunched up - have those birds been annoying you?'

  'No, leave them.' Maitland lowered his cane, realizing that although not visibly present in his inward vision, the gulls had played an oblique role in its creation. The foam-white seabirds, hunters of the albatross With an effort he said: 'I was asleep.'

  Judith knelt down and took his hands. 'I'm sorry. I'll ask one of the men to build a scarecrow. That should - '

  'No!' Maitland pulled his hands away. 'They're not worrying me at all.' Levelling his voice, he said: 'Did you see anyone in the town?'

  'Dr Phillips. He said you should be able to take off the bandages in about ten days.'

  'Good. There's no hurry, though. I want the job done properly.'

  After Judith had walked back to the house Maitland tried to return to his reverie, but the image remained sealed behind the screen of his consciousness.

  At breakfast the next morning Judith read him the mail.

  'There's a postcard from your mother. They're near Malta, somewhere called Gozo.'

  'Give it to me.' Maitland felt the card in his hands. 'Gozo - that was Calypso's island. She kept Ulysses there for seven years, promised him eternal youth if he'd stay with her forever.'

  'I'm not surprised.' Judith inclined the card towards her. 'If we could spare the time, you and I should go there for a holiday. Wine-dark seas, a sky like heaven, blue rocks. Bliss.'

  'Blue?'

  'Yes. I suppose it's the bad printing. They can't really be like that.'

  'They are, actually.' Still holding the card, Maitland went out into the garden, feeling his way along the string guiderail. As he settled himself in the wheelchair he reflected that there were other correspondences in the graphic arts. The same blue rocks and spectral grottos could be seen in Leonardo's Virgin of the Rocks, one of the most forbidding and most enigmatic of his paintings. The madonna sitting on a bare ledge by the water beneath the dark overhang of the cavern's mouth was like the presiding spirit of some enchanted marine realm, waiting for those cast on to the rocky shores of this world's end. As in so many of Leonardo's paintings, all its unique longings and terrors were to be found in the landscape in the background. Here, through an archway among the rocks, could be seen the crystal blue cliffs that Maitland had glimpsed in his reverie.

  'Shall I read it out to you?' Judith had crossed the lawn.

  'What?'

  'Your mother's postcard. You're holding it in your hand.'

  'Sorry. Please do.'

  As he listened to the brief message, Maitland waited for Judith to return to the house. When she had gone he sat quietly for a few minutes. The distant sounds of the river came to him through the trees, and the faint cry of gulls swooping on to the banks further down the estuary.

  This time, almost as if recognizing Maitland's need, the vision came to him quickly. He passed the dark cliffs, and the waves vaulting into the cave mouths, and then entered the twilight world of the grottoes beside the river. Outside, through the stone galleries, he could see the surface of the water glittering like a sheet of prisms, the soft blue light reflected in the vitreous mirrors which formed the cavern walls. At the same time he sensed that he was entering the high-gabled house, whose surrounding wall was the cliff face he had seen from the sea. The rock-like vaults of the house glowed with the olive-black colours of the marine deeps, and curtains of old lace-work hung from the doors and windows like ancient nets.

  A staircase ran through the grotto, its familiar turnings leading to the inner reaches of the cavern. Looking upwards, he saw the green-robed figure watching him from an archway. Her face was hidden from him, veiled by the light reflected off the damp mirrors on the walls. Impelled forward up the steps, Maitland reached towards her, and for an instant the face of the figure cleared.

  'Judith!' Rocking forward in his chair, Maitland searched helplessly for the water jug on the table, his left hand drumming at his forehead in an attempt to drive away the vision and its terrifying lamia.

  'Richard! What is it?'

  He heard his wife's hurried footsteps across the lawn, and then felt her hands steadying his own.

  'Darling, what on earth's going on? You're pouring with perspiration!'

  That afternoon, when he was left alone again, Maitland approached the dark labyrinth more cautiously. At low tide the gulls returned to the mud flats below the garden, and their archaic cries carried his mind back into its deeps like mortuary birds bearing away the body of Tristan. Guarding himself and his own fears, he moved slowly through the luminous chambers of the subterranean house, averting his eyes from the green-robed enchantress who watched him from the staircase.

  Later, when Judith brought his tea to him on a tray, he ate carefully, talking to her in measured tones.

  'What did you see in your nightmare?' she asked.

  'A house of mirrors under the sea, and a deep cavern,' he told her. 'I could see everything, but in a strange way, like the dreams of people who have been blind for a long time.'

  Throughout the afternoon and evening he returned to the grotto at intervals, moving circumspectly through the outer chambers, always aware of the robed figure waiting for him in the doorway to its innermost sanctum.

  The next morning Dr Phillips called to change his dressing.

  'Excellent, excellent,' he commented, holding his torch in one hand as he retaped Maitland's eyelids to his cheeks. 'Another week and you'll be out of this for good. At least you know what it's like for the blind.'

  'One can envy them,' Maitland said.

  'Really?'

  'They see with an inner eye, you know. In a sense everything there is more real.'

  'That's a point of view.' Dr Phillips replaced the bandages. He drew the curtains. 'What have you seen with yours?'

  Maitland made no reply. Dr Phillips had examined him in the darkened study, but the thin torch beam and the few needles of light around the curtains had filled his brain like arc lights. He waited for the glare to subside, realizing that his inner world, the grotto, the house of mirrors and the enchantress, had been burned out of his mind by the sunlight.

  'They're hypnagogic images,' Dr Phillips remarked, fastening his bag.

  'You've been living in an unusual zone, sitting around doing nothing but with your optic nerves alert, a no-man's land between sleep and consciousness. I'd expect all sorts of strange things.'

  After he had gone Maitland said to the unseen walls, his lips whispering below the bandages: 'Doctor, give me back my eyes.'

  It took him two full days to recover from this brief interval of external sight. Laboriously, rock by rock, he re-explored the hidden coastline, willing himself through the enveloping sea-mists, searching for the lost estuary.

  At last the luminous beaches appeared again.

  'I think I'd better sleep alone tonight,' he told Judith. 'I'll use mother's room.'

  'Of course, Richard. What's the matter?'

  'I suppose I'm restless. I'm not getting much exercise and there are only three days to go. I don't want to disturb you.'

  He found his own way into his mother's bedroom, glimpsed only occasionally during the years since his marriage. The high bed, the deep rustle of silks and the echoes of forgotten scents carried him back to his earliest childhood. He lay awake all night, listening to the sounds of the river reflected off the cut-glass ornaments over the fireplace.

  At dawn, when the gulls flew up from the estuary, he visited the blue grottoes again, and the tall house in the cliff. Knowing its tenant now, the green-robed watcher on the staircase, he decided to wait for the morning light. Her beckoning eyes, the pale lantern
of her smile, floated before him.

  However, after breakfast Dr Phillips returned.

  'Right,' he told Maitland briskly, leading him in from the lawn. 'Let's have those bandages off.'

  'For the last time, Doctor?' Judith asked. 'Are you sure?'

  'Certainly. We don't want this to go on for ever, do we?' He steered Maitland into the study. 'Sit down here, Richard. You draw the curtains, Judith.'

  Maitland stood up, feeling for the desk. 'But you said it would take three more days, Doctor.'

  'I dare say. But I didn't want you to get over-excited. What's the matter? You're hovering about there like an old woman. Don't you want to see again?'

  'See?' Maitland repeated numbly. 'Of course.' He subsided limply into a chair as Dr Phillips' hands unfastened the bandages. A profound sense of loss had come over him. 'Doctor, could I put it off for - '

  'Nonsense. You can see perfectly. Don't worry, I'm not going to fling back the curtains. It'll be a full day before you can see freely. I'll give you a set of filters to wear. Anyway, these dressings let through more light than you imagine.'

  At eleven o'clock the next morning, his eyes shielded only by a pair of sunglasses, Maitland walked out on to the lawn. Judith stood on the terrace, and watched him make his way around the wheelchair. When he reached the willows she called: 'All right, darling? Can you see me?'

  Without replying, Maitland looked back at the house. He removed the sunglasses and threw them aside on to the grass. He gazed through the trees at the estuary, at the blue surface of the water stretching to the opposite bank. Hundreds of the gulls stood by the water, their heads turned in profile to reveal the full curve of their beaks. He looked over his shoulder at the high-gabled house, recognizing the one he had seen in his dream. Everything about it, like the bright river which slid past him, seemed dead.

  Suddenly the gulls rose into the air, their cries drowning the sounds of Judith's voice as she called again from the terrace. In a dense spiral, gathering itself off the ground like an immense scythe, the gulls wheeled into the air over his head and swirled over the house.

  Quickly Maitland pushed back the branches of the willows and walked down on to the bank.

  ***

  A moment later, Judith heard his shout above the cries of the gulls. The sound came half i pain and half in triumph, and she ran down to the trees uncertain whether he had injured himself or disovered something pleasing.

  Then she saw him standing on the bank, his head raised to the sunlight, the bright carmine on his cheeks and hands, an eager, unrepentant Oedipus.

  1964

  The Volcano Dances

  They lived in a house on the mountain Tiaxihuati half a mile below the summit. The house was built on a lava flow like the hide of an elephant. In the afternoon and evening the man, Charles Vandervell, sat by the window in the lounge, watching the fire displays that came from the crater. The noise rolled down the mountainside like a series of avalanches. At intervals a falling cinder hissed as it extinguished itself in the water tank on the roof. The woman slept most of the time in the bedroom overlooking the valley or, when she wished to be close to Vandervell, on the settee in the lounge.

  In the afternoon she woke briefly when the 'devil-sticks' man performed his dance by the road a quarter of a mile from the house. This mendicant had come to the mountain for the benefit of the people in the village below the summit, but his dance had failed to subdue the volcano and prevent the villagers from leaving. As they passed him pushing their carts he would rattle his spears and dance, but they walked on without looking up. When he became discouraged and seemed likely to leave Vandervell sent the house-boy out to him with an American dollar. From then on the stick-dancer came every day.

  'Is he still here?' the woman asked. She walked into the lounge, folding her robe around her waist. 'What's he supposed to be doing?'

  'He's fighting a duel with the spirit of the volcano,' Vandervell said. 'He's putting a lot of thought and energy into it, but he hasn't a chance.'

  'I thought you were on his side,' the woman said. 'Aren't you paying him a retainer?'

  'That's only to formalize the relationship. To show him that I understand what's going on. Strictly speaking, I'm on the volcano's side.'

  A shower of cinders rose a hundred feet above the crater, illuminating the jumping stick-man.

  'Are you sure it's safe here?'

  Vandervell waved her away. 'Of course. Go back to bed and rest. This thin air is bad for the complexion.'

  'I feel all right. I heard the ground move.'

  'It's been moving for weeks.' He watched the stick-man conclude his performance with a series of hops, as if leapfrogging over a partner. 'On his diet that's not bad.'

  'You should take him back to Mexico City and put him in one of the cabarets. He'd make more than a dollar.'

  'He wouldn't be interested. He's a serious artist, this Nijinsky of the mountainside. Can't you see that?'

  The woman half-filled a tumbler from the decanter on the table. 'How long are you going to keep him out there?'

  'As long as he'll stay.' He turned to face the woman. 'Remember that. When he leaves it will be time to go.'

  The stick-man, a collection of tatters when not in motion, disappeared into his lair, one of the holes in the lava beside the road.

  'I wonder if he met Springman?' Vandervell said. 'On balance it's possible. Springman would have come up the south face. This is the only road to the village.'

  'Ask him. Offer him another dollar.'

  'Pointless - he'd say he had seen him just to keep me happy.'

  'What makes you so sure Springman is here?'

  He was here,' Vandervell corrected. 'He won't be here any longer. I was with Springman in Acapulco when he looked at the map. He came here.'

  The woman carried her tumbler into the bedroom.

  'We'll have dinner at nine,' Vandervell called to her. 'I'll let you know if he dances again.'

  Left alone, Vandervell watched the fire displays. The glow shone through the windows of the houses in the village so that they seemed to glow like charcoal. At night the collection of hovels was deserted, but a few of the men returned during the day.

  In the morning two men came from the garage in Ecuatan to reclaim the car which Vandervell had hired. He offered to pay a month's rent in advance, but they rejected this and pointed at the clinkers that had fallen on to the car from the sky. None of them was hot enough to burn the paintwork. Vandervell gave them each fifty dollars and promised to cover the car with a tarpaulin. Satisfied, the men drove away.

  After breakfast Vandervell walked out across the lava seams to the road. The stick-dancer stood by his hole above the bank, resting his hands on the two spears. The cone of the volcano, partly hidden by the dust, trembled behind his back. He watched Vandervell when he shouted across the road. Vandet-vell took a dollar bill from his wallet and placed it under a stone. The stick-man began to hum and rock on the balls of his feet.

  As Vandervell walked back along the road two of the villagers approached.

  'Guide,' he said to them. 'Ten dollars. One hour.' He pointed to the lip of the crater but the men ignored him and continued along the road.

  The surface of the house had once been white, but was now covered with grey dust. Two hours later, when the manager of the estate below the house rode up on a grey horse Vandervell asked: 'Is your horse white or black?'

  'That's a good question, se–or.'

  'I want to hire a guide,' Vandervell said. 'To take me into the volcano.'

  'There's nothing there, se–or.'

  'I want to look around the crater. I need someone who knows the pathways.'

  'It's full of smoke, Se–or Vandervell. Hot sulphur. Burns the eyes. You wouldn't like it.'

  'Do you remember seeing someone called Springman?' Vandervell said. 'About three months ago.'

  'You asked me that before. I remember two Americans with a scientific truck. Then a Dutchman with white hair.'


  'That could be him.'

  'Or maybe black, eh? As you say.'

  A rattle of sticks sounded from the road. After warming up, the stick-dancer had begun his performance in earnest.

  'You'd better get out of here, Se–or Vandervell,' the manager said. 'The mountain could split one day.'

  Vandervell pointed to the stick-dancer. 'He'll hold it off for a while.'

  The manager rode away. 'My respects to Mrs Vandervell.'

  'Miss 'Ninston.'

  Vandervell went into the lounge and stood by the window. During the day the activity of the volcano increased. The column of smoke rose half a mile into the sky, threaded by gleams of flame.

  The rumbling woke the woman. In the kitchen she spoke to the house-boy.

  'He wants to leave,' she said to Vandervell afterwards.

  'Offer him more money,' he said without turning.

  'He says everyone has left now. It's too dangerous to stay. The men in the village are leaving for good this afternoon.'

  Vandervell watched the stick-dancer twirling his devil-sticks like a drum-major. 'Let him go if he wants to. I think the estate manager saw Springman.'

  'That's good. Then he was here.'

  'The manager sent his respects to you.'

  'I'm charmed.'

  Five minutes later, when the house-boy had gone, she returned to her bedroom. During the afternoon she came out to collect the film magazines in the bookcase.

  Vandervell watched the smoke being pumped from the volcano. Now and then the devil-sticks man climbed out of his hole and danced on a mound of lava by the road. The men came down from the village for the last time. They looked at the stick-dancer as they walked on down the road.

  ***

  At eight o'clock in the morning a police truck drove up to the village, reversed and came down again. Its roof and driving cabin were covered with ash. The policemen did not see the stick-dancer, but they saw Vandervell in the window of the house and stopped outside.

 

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