by Dean Koontz
“Oh, sure, yeah,” he said, standing up. “Just give me a minute.” Then to Christine: “Listen, this is embarrassing, but I’d really like to talk to you, tell you about myself, what I’m looking for in a woman, and see if maybe you know someone... ?”
“Sure, I’d love that,” Christine said with such enthusiasm that she was surely the reincarnation of either some hillbilly woman who had been a much sought-after troth-finder or a successful schatchen from Brooklyn.
“Hey, you know, the two seats next to mine are empty,” he said. “Maybe you could sit with me the rest of the way...”
He expected her to be reluctant to give up window seats, and an inexplicable twist of anxiety knotted his stomach while he waited for her response.
But she hesitated for only a second or two. “Yes, why not.”
The stewardess, still hovering near them, nodded her approval.
To Jim, Christine said, “I thought Casey would like the scenery from way up here, but she doesn’t seem to care much. Besides, we’re almost at the back of the wing, and it blocks a lot of our view.”
Jim did not understand the reason for the wave of relief that swept through him when he secured her agreement to move, but a lot of things mystified him these days. “Good, great. Thank you, Christine.”
As he stepped back to let Christine Dubrovek get up, he noticed the passenger in the seat behind her. The poor woman was evidently terrified of flying. She was holding a copy of Vis à Vis in front of her face, trying to take her mind off her fears with a little reading, but her hands were shaking so badly that the magazine rattled continuously.
“Where are you sitting?” Christine asked.
“The other aisle, row sixteen. Come on, I’ll show you.”
He lifted her single piece of carry-on luggage while she and Casey gathered up a few other small items, then he led them to the front of the plane and around to the port aisle. Casey entered row sixteen, and her mother followed.
Before Jim settled down himself, something impelled him to look back across the wide-bodied plane to the aerophobic woman whom they had left behind in row twenty-three. She had lowered the magazine. She was watching him. He knew her.
Holly Thorne.
He was stunned.
Christine Dubrovek said, “Steve?”
Across the plane, the reporter realized that Jim had seen her. She was wide-eyed, frozen. Like a deer caught in car headlights.
“Steve?”
He looked down at Christine and said, “Uh, excuse me a minute, Christine. Just a minute. I’ll be right back. Wait here. Okay? Wait right here.”
He went forward and across to the starboard aisle again.
His heart was hammering. His throat was tight with fear. But he didn’t know why. He was not afraid of Holly Thorne. He knew at once that her presence was no coincidence, that she had tumbled to his secret and had been following him. But right now he didn’t care. Discovery, being unmasked—that was not what frightened him. He had no idea what was cranking up his anxiety, but it was escalating to a level at which adrenaline would soon start to squirt out his ears.
As he made his way back the aisle toward the reporter, she started to get up. Then a look of resignation slid across her face, and she sat down again. She was as easy to look at as he remembered, though the skin around her eyes was slightly dark, as if from lack of sleep.
When he arrived at row twenty-three, he said, “Come on.” He reached for her hand.
She did not give it to him.
“We’ve got to talk,” he said.
“We can talk here.”
“No, we can’t.”
The stewardess who had warned him about blocking the aisle was approaching again.
When Holly would not take his hand, he gripped her by the arm and urged her to get up, hoping she would not force him to yank her out of the seat. The stewardess probably already thought he was some pervert Svengali who was herding up the best-looking women on the flight to surround himself with a harem over there on the port side. Happily, the reporter rose without further protest.
He led her back through the plane to a restroom. It was not occupied, so he pushed her inside. He glanced back, expecting to see the stewardess watching him, but she was attending to another passenger. He followed Holly into the tiny cubicle and pulled the door shut.
She squeezed into the corner, trying to stay as far away from him as possible, but they were still virtually nose to nose.
“I’m not afraid of you,” she said.
“Good. There’s no reason to be.”
Vibrations were conducted well by the burnished-steel walls of the lavatory. The deep drone of the engines was somewhat louder there than in the main cabin.
She said, “What do you want?”
“You’ve got to do exactly what I tell you.”
She frowned. “Listen, I—”
“Exactly what I tell you, and no arguments, there’s no time for arguments,” he said sharply, wondering what the hell he was talking about.
“I know all about your—”
“I don’t care what you know. That’s not important now.”
She frowned. “You’re shaking like a leaf.”
He was not only shaking but sweating. The lavatory was cool enough, but he could feel beads of sweat forming across his forehead. A thin trickle coursed down his right temple and past the corner of his eye.
Speaking rapidly, he said, “I want you to come forward in the plane, sit farther front near me, there’re a couple of empty seats in that area.”
“But I—”
“You can’t stay where you are, back there in row twenty-three, no way.”
She was not a docile woman. She knew her own mind, and she was not used to being told what to do. “That’s my seat. Twenty-three H. You can’t strongarm me—”
Impatiently, he said, “If you sit there, you’re going to die.”
She looked no more surprised than he felt—which was plenty damn surprised. “Die? What do you mean?”
“I don’t know.” But then unwanted knowledge came to him. “Oh, Jesus. Oh, my God. We’re going down.”
“What?”
“The plane.” Now his heart was racing faster than the turbine blades in the great engines that were keeping them aloft. “Down. All the way down.”
He saw her incomprehension give way to a dreadful understanding. “Crash?”
“Yes.”
“When?”
“I don’t know. Soon. Beyond row twenty, almost nobody’s going to survive.” He did not know what he was going to say until he said it, and as he listened to his own words he was horrified by them. “There’ll be a better survival rate in the first nine rows, but not good, not good at all. You’ve got to move into my section.”
The aircraft shuddered.
Holly stiffened and looked around fearfully, as if she expected the lavatory walls to crumple in on them.
“Turbulence,” he said. “Just turbulence. We’ve got ... a few minutes yet.”
Evidently she had learned enough about him to have faith in his prediction. She did not express any doubt. “I don’t want to die.”
With an increasing sense of urgency, Jim gripped her by the shoulders. “That’s why you’ve got to come forward, sit near me. Nobody’s going to be killed in rows ten through twenty. There’ll be injuries, a few of them serious, but nobody’s going to die in that section, and a lot of them are going to walk out of it unhurt. Now, for God’s sake, come on.”
He reached for the door handle.
“Wait. You’ve got to tell the pilot.”
He shook his head. “It wouldn’t help.”
“But maybe there’s something he can do, stop it from happening.”
“He wouldn’t believe me, and even if he did... I don’t know what to tell him. We’re going down, yeah, but I don’t know why. Maybe a mid-air collision, maybe structural failure, maybe there’s a bomb aboard—it could be anything.”
“But
you’re a psychic, you must be able to see more details if you try.”
“If you believe I’m a psychic, you know less about me than you think you do.”
“You’ve got to try.”
“Oh, lady, I’d try, I’d try like a sonofbitch if it would do any good. But it won’t.”
Terror and curiosity fought for control of her face. “If you’re not a psychic—what are you?”
“A tool.”
“Tool?”
“Someone or something uses me.”
The DC-10 shuddered again. They froze, but the aircraft did not take a sudden plunge. It went on as before, its three big engines droning. Just more turbulence.
She grabbed his arm. “You can’t let all those people die!”
A rope of guilt constricted his chest and knotted his stomach at the implication that the deaths of the others aboard would somehow be his fault.
He said, “I’m here to save the woman and the girl, no one else.”
“That’s horrible.”
Opening the lavatory door, he said, “I don’t like it any more than you do, but that’s the way it is.”
She did not let go of his arm but jerked at it angrily. Her green eyes were haunted, probably with her own visions of battered bodies strewn across the earth among smoking chunks of wreckage. She repeated herself, whispering fiercely this time: “You can’t let all those people die.”
Impatiently, he said, “Either come with me, or die with the rest of them.”
He stepped out of the lavatory, and she followed him, but he did not know whether she was going to accompany him back to his section. He hoped to God she would. He really could not be held responsible for all the other people who would perish, because they would have died even if he had not come aboard; that was their fate, and he had not been sent to alter their destinies. He could not save the whole world, and he had to rely on the wisdom of whatever higher power was guiding him. But he most definitely would be responsible for Holly Thorne’s death, because she would never have taken the flight if, unwittingly, he had not led her onto it.
As he moved forward along the port aisle, he glanced to his left at the portholes and clear blue sky beyond. He had a too vivid sense of the yawning void under his feet, and his stomach flopped.
When he reached his seat in row sixteen, he dared to look back. Relief flooded through him at the sight of Holly trailing close.
He pointed to a pair of empty seats immediately behind his and Christine’s.
Holly shook her head. “Only if you’ll sit down with me. We have to talk.”
He glanced down at Christine, then at Holly. He was acutely aware of time slipping away like water swirling down a drain. The awful moment of impact was drawing closer. He wanted to pick the reporter up, stuff her into the seat, engage her seatbelt, and lock her in place. But seat-belts didn’t have locks.
Unable to conceal his extreme frustration, he spoke to her through gritted teeth. “My place is with them,” he said, meaning with Christine and Casey Dubrovek.
He had spoken quietly, as had Holly, but other passengers were beginning to look at them.
Christine frowned up at him, craned her neck to look back at Holly, and said, “Is something wrong, Steve?”
“No. Everything’s fine,” he lied.
He glanced at the portholes again. Blue sky. Vast. Empty. How many miles to the earth below?
“You don’t look well,” Christine said.
He realized that his face was still sheathed in a greasy film of sweat. “Just a little warm. Uh, look, I ran into an old friend. Gimme five minutes?”
Christine smiled. “Sure, sure. I’m still going over a mental list of the most-eligible.”
For a moment he had no idea what the hell she was talking about. Then he remembered that he had asked her to play matchmaker for him. “Good,” he said. “Great. I’ll be right back, we’ll talk.”
He ushered Holly into row seventeen. He took the aisle seat next to her.
On the other side of Holly was a grandmotherly tub of a woman in a flower-print dress, with blue-tinted gray hair in a mass of tight curls. She was sound asleep, snoring softly. A pair of gold-framed eyeglasses, suspended around her neck on a bead chain, rested on her matronly bosom, rising and falling with her steady breathing.
Leaning close to him, keeping her voice so low it could not even carry across the narrow aisle, but speaking with the conviction of an impassioned political orator, Holly said, “You can’t let all those people die.”
“We’ve been through this,” he said restively, matching her nearly inaudible pitch.
“It’s your responsibility—”
“I’m just one man!”
“But one very special man.”
“I’m not God,” he said plaintively.
“Talk to the pilot.”
“Jesus, you’re relentless.”
“Warn the pilot,” she whispered.
“He won’t believe me.”
“Then warn the passengers.”
“There aren’t enough empty seats in this section for all of them to move here.”
She was furious with him, quiet but so intense that he could not look away from her or dismiss what she was saying. She put a hand on his arm, gripping him so tightly that it hurt. “Damn it, maybe they could do something to save themselves.”
“I’d only cause a panic.”
“If you can save more, but you let them die, it’s murder,” she whispered insistently, anger flashing in her eyes.
That accusation hit him hard and had something of the effect of a hammer blow to the chest. For a moment he could not draw his breath. When he could speak, his voice broke repeatedly: “I hate death, people dying, I hate it. I want to save people, stop all the suffering, be on the side of life, but I can only do what I can do.”
“Murder,” she repeated.
What she was doing to him was outrageous. He could not carry the load of responsibility she wanted to pile on his shoulders. If he could save the Dubroveks, he would be working two miracles, mother and child spared from the early graves that had been their destinies. But Holly Thorne, in her ignorance about his abilities, was not satisfied with two miracles; she wanted three, four, five, ten, a hundred. He felt as if an enormous weight was bearing down on him, the weight of the whole damned airplane, crushing him into the ground. It was not right of her to put the blame on him; it wasn’t fair. If she wanted to blame someone, she should cast her accusations at God, who worked in such mysterious ways that He had ordained the necessity of the plane crash in the first place.
“Murder.” She dug her fingers into his arm even harder.
He could feel anger radiating from her like the heat of the sun reflected off a metal surface. Reflected. Suddenly, he realized that image was too apt to be anything less than Freudian. Her anger over his unwillingness to save everyone on the plane was no greater than his own anger over his inability to do so; her rage was a reflection of his own.
“Murder,” she repeated, evidently aware of the profound effect that accusation had on him.
He looked into her beautiful eyes, and he wanted to hit her, punch her in the face, smash her with all of his strength, knock her unconscious, so she wouldn’t put his own thoughts into words. She was too perceptive. He hated her for being right.
Instead of hitting her, he got up.
“Where are you going?” she demanded.
“To talk to a flight attendant.”
“About what?”
“You win, okay? You win.”
Making his way toward the back of the plane, Jim looked at the people he passed, chilled by the knowledge that many of them would be dead soon. As his desperation intensified, so did his imagination, and he saw skulls beneath their skin, the glowing images of bones shining through their flesh, for they were the living dead. He was nauseous with fear, not for himself but for them.
The plane bucked and shimmied as if it had driven over a pothole in the sky. He gra
bbed at the back of a seat to steady himself. But this was not the big one.
The flight attendants were gathered farther back in the plane, in their work area, preparing to serve the lunch trays that had just come up from the galley. They were a mixed group, men and women, a couple in their twenties and the others as old as fifty-something.
Jim approached the oldest of them. According to the tag she wore, her name was Evelyn.
“I’ve got to talk to the pilot,” he said, keeping his voice low, although the nearest passengers were well forward of them.
If Evelyn was surprised by his request, she didn’t show it. She smiled just as she had been trained to smile. “I’m sorry, sir, but that isn’t possible. Whatever the problem is, I’m sure I can help—”
“Listen, I was in the lavatory, and I heard something, a wrong sound,” he lied, “not the right kind of engine noise.”
Her smile became a little wider but less sincere, and she went into her reassure-the-nervous-traveler mode. “Well, you see, during flight it’s perfectly normal for the pitch of the engines to change as the pilot alters airspeed and—”
“I know that.” He tried to sound like a reasonable man to whom she ought to listen. “I’ve flown a lot. This was different.” He lied again: “I know aircraft engines, I work for McDonnell Douglas. We designed and built the DC- 10. I know this plane, and what I heard in the lav was wrong. ”
Her smile faltered, most likely not because she was starting to take his warning seriously but merely because she considered him to be a more inventive aerophobe than most who panicked in mid-flight.
The other flight attendants had paused in their lunch-service preparations and were staring at him, no doubt wondering if he was going to be a problem.
Evelyn said carefully, “Well, really, everything’s functioning well. Aside from some turbulence—”
“It’s the tail engine,” he said. That was not another lie. He was receiving a revelation, and he was letting the unknown source of that revelation speak through him. “The fan assembly is starting to break apart. If the blades tear loose, that’s one thing, the pieces can be contained, but if the entire fan-blade assembly shatters, God knows what could happen.”
Because of the specificity of his fear, he did not sound like a typical aerophobic passenger, and all of the flight attendants were staring at him with, if not respect, at least a wary thoughtfulness.
“Everything’s fine,” Evelyn said, per training. “But even if we lost an engine, we can fly on two.”
Jim was excited that the higher power guiding him had evidently decided to give him what he needed to convince these people. Maybe something could be done to save everyone on the flight.
Striving to remain calm and impressive, he heard himself saying, “That engine has forty thousand pounds of thrust, it’s a real monster, and if it blows up, it’s like a bomb going off. The compressors can back-vent, and those thirty-eight titanium blades, the fan assembly, even pieces of the rotor can explode outward like shrapnel, punching holes in the tail, screwing up the rudders and elevators... The whole tail of the plane could disintegrate.”
One of the flight attendants said, “Maybe somebody should just mention this to Captain Delbaugh.”
Evelyn did not instantly object.
“I know these engines,” Jim said. “I can explain it to him. You don’t have to take me on the flight deck, just let me speak to him on the intercom.”
Evelyn said, “McDonnell Douglas?” “Yeah. I’ve been an engineer there for