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by Michael Connelly


  The thought made him realize that he did not know the widow’s name. Irving had given him only an address, apparently assuming Bosch knew her name. As he turned off the freeway onto the Sierra Highway, he tried to recall the newspaper stories he had read during the week. They had carried her name.

  But it didn’t come to him. He remembered that she was a teacher — an English teacher, he thought — at a high school in the Valley. He remembered that the reports said they had no children. And he remembered that she had been separated a few months from her husband. But the name, her name, eluded him.

  He turned on to Del Prado, watched the numbers painted on the curbs and then finally pulled to a stop in front of the house that had once been Cal Moore’s home.

  It was a common ranch-style home, the kind minted by the hundreds in the planned communities that fed the freeways to overflow each morning. It looked large, like maybe four bedrooms, and Bosch thought that was odd for a childless couple. Maybe there had been plans at one time.

  The light above the front door was not on. No one was expected. No one was wanted. Still, in the moonlight and shadow, Bosch could see the front lawn and knew that the mower was at least a month past due. The tall grass surrounded the post of the white Ritenbaugh Realty sign that was planted near the sidewalk.

  There were no cars in the driveway and the garage door was closed, its two windows dark empty sockets. A single dim light shone from behind the curtained picture window next to the front door. He wondered what she would be like and if she would feel guilt or anger. Or both.

  He threw his cigarette into the street and then got out and stepped on it. Then he headed past the sad-looking For Sale sign to the door.

  4

  The mat on the porch below the front door said WELCOME but it was worn and nobody had bothered to shake the dust off it in some time. Bosch noticed all of this because he kept his head down after knocking. He knew that looking at anything would be better than looking at this woman.

  Her voice answered after his second knock.

  “Go away. No comment.”

  Bosch had to smile, thinking how he had used that one himself tonight.

  “Hello, Mrs. Moore? I’m not a reporter. I’m with the L.A. police.”

  The door came open a few inches and her face was there, backlit and hidden in shadow. Bosch could see the chain lock stretching across the opening. Harry was ready with his badge case already out and opened.

  “Yes?”

  “Mrs. Moore?”

  “Yes?”

  “I am Harry Bosch. Um, I’m a detective, LAPD. And I’ve been sent out — could I come in? I need …to ask you a few questions and inform you of some, uh, developments in —”

  “You’re late. I’ve had Channel 4 and 5 and 9 already out here. When you knocked I figured you were somebody else. Two or seven. I can’t think who else.”

  “Can I come in, Mrs. Moore?”

  He put his badge wallet away. She closed the door and he heard the chain slide out of its track. The door came open and she signaled him in with her arm. He stepped into an entryway of rust-colored Mexican tile. There was a round mirror on the wall and he saw her in it, closing and locking the door. He saw she held tissue in one hand.

  “Will this take long?” she asked.

  He said no and she led him to the living room, where she took a seat on an overstuffed chair covered in brown leather. It looked very comfortable and it was next to the fireplace. She motioned him toward a couch that faced the fireplace. This was where the guests always sat. The fireplace had the glowing remnants of a dying fire. On the table next to where she sat he saw a box of tissues and a stack of papers. More like reports or maybe scripts; some were in plastic covers.

  “Book reports,” she said, having noticed his gaze. “I assigned books to my students with the reports due before the Christmas vacation. It was going to be my first Christmas alone and I guess I wanted to make sure I had something to keep me busy.”

  Bosch nodded. He looked around the rest of the room. In his job, he learned a lot about people from their rooms, the way they lived. Often the people could no longer tell him themselves. So he learned from his observations and believed that he was good at it.

  The room in which they sat was sparse. Not much furniture. It didn’t look like a lot of entertaining of friends or family happened here. There was a large bookshelf at one end of the room that was filled by hardback novels and oversized art books. No TV. No sign of children. It was a place for quiet work or fireside talks.

  But no more.

  In the corner opposite the fireplace was a five-foot Christmas tree with white lights and red balls, a few homemade ornaments that looked as if they might have been passed down through generations. He liked the idea that she had put up the tree by herself. She had continued her life and its routines amidst the ruins of her marriage. She had put the tree up for herself. It made him feel her strength. She had a hard shell of hurt and maybe loneliness but there was a sense of strength, too. The tree said she was the kind of woman who would survive this, would make it through. On her own. He wished he could remember her name.

  “Before you start,” she said, “can I ask you something?”

  The light from the reading lamp next to her chair was low wattage but he could clearly see the intensity of her brown eyes.

  “Sure.”

  “Did you do that on purpose? Let the reporters come up here first so you wouldn’t have to do the dirty work? That’s what my husband used to call it. Telling families. He called it the dirty work and he said the detectives always tried to get out of it.”

  Bosch felt his face grow warm. There was a clock on the fireplace mantel that now seemed to be ticking very loudly in the silence. He managed to say, “I was told only a short time ago to come here. I had a little trouble finding it. I —”

  He stopped. She knew.

  “I’m sorry. I guess you’re right. I took my time.”

  “It’s okay. I shouldn’t put you on the spot. It must be a terrible job.”

  Bosch wished he had a fedora like the ones the detectives in the old movies always had; that way he could hold it in his hands and fiddle with it and let his fingers trace its brim, give him something to do. He looked at her closely now and saw the quality of damaged beauty about her. Mid-thirties, he guessed, with brown hair and blonde highlights, she seemed agile, like a runner. Clearly defined jawline above the taut muscles of her neck. She had not used makeup to try to hide the lightly etched lines that curved under her eyes. She wore blue jeans and a baggy white sweatshirt that he thought might have been her husband’s once. Bosch wondered how much of Calexico Moore she still carried in her heart.

  Harry actually admired her for taking the shot at him about the dirty work. He knew he deserved it. In the three minutes he had known her he thought she reminded him of someone but he wasn’t sure who. Someone from his past maybe. There was a quiet tenderness there beside her strength. He kept bringing his eyes back to hers. They were magnets.

  “Anyway, I’m Detective Harry Bosch,” he began again, hoping she might introduce herself.

  “Yes, I’ve heard of you. I remember the newspaper articles. And I’m sure my husband spoke of you — I think it was when they sent you out to Hollywood Division. Couple years ago. He said before that one of the studios had paid you a lot of money to use your name and do a TV movie about a case. He said you bought one of those houses on stilts up in the hills.”

  Bosch nodded reluctantly and changed the subject.

  “I don’t know what the reporters told you, Mrs. Moore, but I have been sent out to tell you that it appears your husband has been found and he is dead. I am sorry to have had to tell you this. I —”

  “I knew and you knew and every cop in town knew it would come to this. I didn’t talk to the reporters. I didn’t need to. I told them no comment. When that many of them come to your house on Christmas night, you know it’s because of bad news.”

  He nodded and l
ooked down at the imaginary hat in his hands.

  “So, are you going to tell me? Was it an official suicide? Did he use a gun?”

  Bosch nodded and said, “It looks like it but nothing is definite un —”

  “Until the autopsy. I know, I know. I’m a cop’s wife. Was, I mean. I know what you can say and can’t say. You people can’t even be straight with me. Until then there are always secrets to keep to yourselves.”

  He saw the hard edge enter her eyes, the anger.

  “That’s not true, Mrs. Moore. I’m just trying to soften the im —”

  “Detective Bosch, if you want to tell me something, just tell me.”

  “Yes, Mrs. Moore, it was with a gun. If you want the details, I can give you the details. Your husband, if it was your husband, took his face off with a shotgun. Gone completely. So, we have to make sure it was him and we have to make sure he did it himself, before we can say anything for sure. We are not trying to keep secrets. We just don’t have all the answers yet.”

  She leaned back in her chair, away from light. In the veil of shadows Bosch saw the look on her face. The hardness and anger in her eyes had softened. Her shoulders seemed to untighten. He felt ashamed.

  “I’m sorry,” he said. “I don’t know why I told you that. I should have just —”

  “That’s okay. I guess I deserved it. …I apologize, too.”

  She looked at him then without anger in her eyes. He had broken through the shell. He could see that she needed to be with someone. The house was too big and too dark to be alone in right now. All the Christmas trees and book reports in the world couldn’t change that. But there was more than that making Bosch want to stay. He found that he was instinctively attracted to her. For Bosch it had never been an attraction of an opposite but the reverse of that myth. He had always seen something of himself in the women who attracted him. Why it was this way, he never understood. It was just there. And now this woman whose name he didn’t even know was there and he was being drawn to her. Maybe it was a reflection of himself and his own needs, but it was there and he had seen it. It hooked him and made him want to know what had etched the circles beneath such sharp eyes. Like himself, he knew, she carried her scars on the inside, buried deep, each one a mystery. She was like him. He knew.

  “I’m sorry but I don’t know your name. The deputy chief just gave me the address and said go.”

  She smiled at his predicament.

  “It’s Sylvia.”

  He nodded.

  “Sylvia. Um, is that coffee I smell by any chance?”

  “Yes. Would you like a cup?”

  “That would be great, if it’s not too much trouble.”

  “Not at all.”

  She got up and as she passed in front of him so did his doubts.

  “Listen, I’m sorry. Maybe I should go. You have a lot to think about and I’m intruding here. I’ve —”

  “Please stay. I could use the company.”

  She didn’t wait for an answer. The fire made a popping sound as the flames found the last pocket of air. He watched her head toward the kitchen. He waited a beat, took another look around the room and stood up and headed toward the lighted doorway of the kitchen.

  “Black is fine.”

  “Of course. You’re a cop.”

  “You don’t like them much, do you. Cops.”

  “Well, let’s just say I don’t have a very good record with them.”

  Her back was to him and she put two mugs on the counter and poured coffee from a glass pot. He leaned against the doorway next to the refrigerator. He was unsure what to say, whether to press on with business or not.

  “You have a nice home.”

  “No. It’s a nice house, not a home. We’re selling it. I guess I should say I’m selling it now.”

  She still hadn’t turned around.

  “You know you can’t blame yourself for whatever he did.”

  It was a meager offering and he knew it.

  “Easier said than done.”

  “Yeah.”

  There was a long moment of silence then before Bosch decided to get on with it.

  “There was a note.”

  She stopped what she was doing but still did not turn.

  “‘I found out who I was.’ That’s all he said.”

  She didn’t say anything. One of the mugs was still empty.

  “Does it mean anything to you?”

  She finally turned to him. In the bright kitchen light he could see the salty tracks that tears had left on her face. It made him feel inadequate, that he was nothing and could do nothing to help heal her.

  “I don’t know. My husband … he was caught on the past.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “He was just — he was always going back. He liked the past better than the present or the hope of the future. He liked to go back to the time he was growing up. He liked … He couldn’t let things go.”

  He watched tears slide into the grooves below her eyes. She turned back to the counter and finished pouring the coffee.

  “What happened to him?” he asked.

  “What happens to anybody?” For a while after that she didn’t speak, then said, “I don’t know. He wanted to go back. He had a need for something back there.”

  Everybody has a need for their past, Bosch thought. Sometimes it pulls harder on you than the future. She dried her eyes with tissue and then turned and gave him a mug. He sipped it before speaking.

  “Once he told me he lived in a castle,” she said. “That’s what he called it, at least.”

  “In Calexico?” he asked.

  “Yes, but it was for a short while. I don’t know what happened. He never told me a lot about that part of his life. It was his father. At some point, he wasn’t wanted anymore by his father. He and his mother had to leave Calexico — the castle, or whatever it was — and she took him back across the border with her. He liked to say he was from Calexico but he really grew up in Mexicali. I don’t know if you’ve ever been there.”

  “Just to drive through. Never stopped.”

  “That’s the general idea. Don’t stop. But he grew up there.”

  She stopped and he waited her out. She was looking down at her coffee, an attractive woman who looked weary of this. She had not yet seen that this was a beginning for her as well as an end.

  “It was something he never got over. The abandonment. He often went back there to Calexico. I didn’t go but I know he did. Alone. I think he was watching his father. Maybe seeing what could have been. I don’t know. He kept pictures from when he was growing up. Sometimes at night when he thought I was asleep, he’d take them out and look at them.”

  “Is he still alive, the father?”

  She handed him a mug of coffee.

  “I don’t know. He rarely spoke of his father and when he did he said his father was dead. But I don’t know if that was metaphorically dead or that he actually was dead. He was dead as far as Cal went. That was what mattered. It was a very private thing with Cal. He still felt the rejection, all these years later. I could not get him to talk about it. Or, when he would, he would just lie, say the old man meant nothing and that he didn’t care. But he did. I could tell. After a while, after years, I have to say that I stopped trying to talk with him about it. And he would never bring it up. He’d just go down there — sometimes for a weekend, sometimes a day. He’d never talk about it when he came back.”

  “Do you have the photos?”

  “No, he took them when he left. He’d never leave them.”

  Bosch sipped some coffee to give himself time to think.

  “It seems,” he said, “I don’t know, it seems like … could this have had anything to do with…”

  “I don’t know. All I can tell you is that it had a lot to do with us. It was an obsession with him. It was more important to him than me. It’s what ended it for us.”

  “What was he trying to find?”

  “I don’t know. In the last
few years he shut me out. And I have to say that after a while I shut him out. That’s how it ended.”

  Bosch nodded and looked away from her eyes. What else could he do? Sometimes his job took him too far inside people’s lives and all he could do was stand there and nod. He was asking questions he felt guilty asking because he had no right to the answers. He was just the messenger boy here. He wasn’t supposed to find out why somebody would hold a double-barrel shotgun up to his face and pull the triggers.

  Still, the mystery of Cal Moore and the pain on her face wouldn’t let him go. She was captivating in a way that went beyond her physical beauty. She was attractive, yes, but the hurt in her face, the tears and yet the strength in her eyes tugged at him. The thought that occurred to him was that she did not deserve this. How could Cal Moore have fucked up so badly?

  He looked back at her.

  “There was another thing he told me once. Uh, I’ve had some experience with the IAD, uh, that’s Internal —”

  “I know what it is.”

  “Yes, well, he asked me for some advice. Asked me about if I knew somebody that was asking questions about him. Name of Chastain. Did Cal tell you about this? What it was about?”

  “No, he didn’t.”

  Her demeanor was changing. Bosch could actually see the anger welling up from inside again. Her eyes were very sharp. He had struck a nerve.

  “But you knew about it, right?”

  “Chastain came here once. He thought I would cooperate with whatever it was he was doing. He said I made a complaint about my husband, which was a lie. He wanted to go through the house and I told him to leave. I don’t want to talk about this.”

  “When did Chastain come?”

  “I don’t know. Couple months ago.”

  “You warned Cal?”

  She hesitated and then nodded.

  Then Cal came to the Catalina and asked me for advice, Harry realized.

  “You sure you don’t know what it was about?”

  “We were separated by then. We didn’t talk. It was over between us. All I did was tell Cal that this man had come and that he had lied about who made the complaint. Cal said that was all they do. Lie. He said don’t worry about it.”

 

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