by Karr, Kim
An overwhelming sadness stabbed at my chest for what she had become.
“At that time in my life I was just starting to think about running for District Attorney and I thought having a woman beside me would be beneficial, so I asked her to marry me.”
I’d surmised that Michael and Lizzy, although married, weren’t truly in love, so this wasn’t a surprise. “Why her? You could have had anyone, I’m sure.”
“There was something about her that I couldn’t let go of. Not only was she beautiful, but also I really, truly believed that I could fix her. Change her life. And I thought maybe she could change mine. You know, the whole ‘two lost souls’ thing. I had a lot of hope back then, hope that she’d learn to love me.”
I hated hearing this. Lizzy and I had both been so broken.
He went on. “The offer I made her was more than fair. All she had to do was marry me, play the dutiful wife, help me get the nomination, and stay clean. In return, I’d give her forty thousand dollars for each year she stayed with me. It really would have been a picture-perfect campaign—selfless attorney helps struggling woman and they fall in love.”
I narrowed my eyes at him. “Manufactured love for the polls?”
He went on. “It didn’t start out that way. I told you, I really did love her.”
My eyes widened. “So my sister married you for money?”
He nodded. “Sadly, yes.”
I didn’t know what to say.
“It wasn’t long after I’d made my offer that we went down to the courthouse and got married. About a month later she discovered she was pregnant. I didn’t question who the father was. A baby was going to change everything. At first I thought the pregnancy would bring us closer together, but it didn’t. I found her withdrawing more and more. I tried to help her, but she wouldn’t talk to me. She stopped coming to work, said she was too tired. Then she started to disappear for days at a time, only to turn up hungry and exhausted. I never asked where she’d been. I knew where—to see him. I think that’s when I gave up on her. Turned my mind off to love and focused on my career. With a family, I would more than likely be able to climb the political ladder so much quicker.”
My jaw dropped and my body shook. “You took your tragic situation and made it about politics?”
“No, Elle. I took control of my life and tried to make something out of it.”
“Spin it however you want.”
“You weren’t here. You didn’t see the way she treated me, the way she’d talk to me. She had absolutely no respect for me or for what I’d done for her.”
“Why’d you let her stay, then?”
“She was pregnant. I couldn’t kick her out. I knew if I did, she wouldn’t take care of herself. So day after day, I endured all the crap she threw my way. After she had Clementine, things only got worse. By then, I’d stopped trying to make her happy. One day, out of the blue she threatened to leave me, take the baby, and run away with Tommy.”
“But Clementine was legally your daughter. Lizzy couldn’t just take off with her. You had rights too.”
He laughed. “Your sister didn’t care about the law. I knew there was a very real possibility that I could come home one day and find her and Clementine gone and that I’d never see them again. I couldn’t have that. Clementine meant everything to me. That’s when I went to someone for help who didn’t care about the law either.”
“What kind of help, Michael?”
“Someone who could offer Tommy the job of a lifetime.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Your sister used to tell me the oddest things, either during one of her rages or later, once she had calmed down. One time she had told me that Tommy wanted to be successful on his own and break free of his father’s hold. He really felt that his ticket out of the Flannigan shadow was the drug market. I knew this, and I used this information. Within hours of your sister telling me her plan, Tommy was offered one of the very coveted positions as wholesaler for Boston’s biggest drug supplier. There was no way he was going to leave town and give that up. And with him staying, I wouldn’t have to worry about Elizabeth leaving. This would give me a chance to get her help and for us to cement as a family. Or so I thought.”
Shock wasn’t even what I was feeling. “You’re an attorney, Michael. You uphold the law. Why would you even know a person who runs a drug empire?”
His eyes, so icy blue, had tears in them. “Elle, if I would have known that it was going to cost me your sister anyway, I would never have let Seamus back into my life.”
My heart was in my throat. “Who is Seamus to you, Michael?”
“You already know, Elle. He’s my older brother.”
My own shock finally seemed to register as I put it all together in my mind. Seamus ran Boston’s drug empire. Seamus was the Priest. Seamus was the one who’d kidnapped me. Seamus was Clementine’s uncle. The delivery boy was his son. Clementine’s cousin.
Oh God.
Tears were leaking from Michael’s eyes and he grasped his hands with his hair. “I can’t take it anymore. I just can’t.”
“Take what?” I screamed.
He flinched and words stumbled out of his mouth. “Ever hear of selling your soul to the devil?”
I didn’t know what to say to that.
“That’s what I did when I asked Seamus to give Tommy a job. I had no idea my political aspirations were so significant to my brother. It turns out, they were even more important to him than they were to me.”
I was losing him. He wasn’t making sense. I needed to pull him back. In a softer voice I said, “Michael, finish your story, please. What happened after you got Seamus to give Tommy a job?”
His facial features tightened. “Things got worse instead of better. I asked Elizabeth to stop seeing Tommy and she ignored me. She was around less and less, and I couldn’t get her to stay at home. She wasn’t even spending time with Clementine. Then one day I got a call from the nanny that Elizabeth had come home and made her leave. That wasn’t like Elizabeth. She didn’t like to be alone with Clementine. I frantically called Seamus to find out if Tommy was still working for him. Once he reassured me that he was, I rushed home and found her packing. When she saw me, all she did was ask for the money I owed her.”
“The forty thousand?” I asked, trying to understand what my sister could possibly be thinking. Why she’d want to uproot her child for a life on the road. She should have known better.
Michael scrubbed his face. “Yeah, and I went crazy. Called her some names and told her to go to hell. That’s when she told me to go fuck myself. That she didn’t need my money. That soon she and Tommy would have enough to never have to worry about money again. I laughed at her. That’s when she told me she had five million dollars’ worth of drugs in her car. While she packed, I took the drugs and put them in the panic room where she wouldn’t be able to get to them. I had to. There was no way I was letting her leave the house with Clementine. When she started loading the car, and figured out what I’d done, she freaked out on me, went nuts, and then drove off alone. She had done it all the time; I thought she’d be back in a few hours once she cooled down.”
I stood there, wordless. She was so much like my father. I hated that.
“But she didn’t return and I started to get worried. I thought she took off for good, and that’s when I called you.”
I felt sick. “That’s when Seamus had taken her?”
He nodded. “I didn’t know it at the time, but yes. It turned out Seamus had picked up Elizabeth right after she left the house that day. My call had alerted him. It was my fault.”
I had no sympathy for him, although he looked truly regretful. “So when you called me, you didn’t know where she was?”
He shook his head.
“When did Seamus tell you he’d taken her?”
He ran a hand through his hair. “About a month ago.”
“You knew where she was a month ago and yet you kept letting me think she w
as out there alone? Why would you do that?”
“How could I tell you any of this? Tell you what I’d done. I begged Seamus to let her go. He said he would when she was ready. He wanted her to repent for her sins and prove she would no longer be an adulteress.”
My mind was a whirl. “What about Patrick’s threats? You had the drugs; why didn’t you just give them back when he made the demand?”
“I couldn’t. By then Seamus had already sent a team in to package the drugs and have them delivered to his warehouse. When I received the threat from Patrick, Seamus told me he’d get me what I needed by the deadline.”
“But he only sent half the drugs to the boutique?”
“I know. He said he was worried that the DEA was watching and he wanted to make certain the delivery arrived safe. We know how that ended up.”
I shuddered. Thankful he didn’t really know.
“Things went from bad to worse after that.”
“What do you mean?”
“Elizabeth somehow escaped from Seamus and she started calling me. Threatening me. She wanted the drugs back. She even broke into the house, trying to get into the panic room.”
“The note,” I said. It slipped from my mouth, giving away the fact that I’d broken into the panic room.
He nodded, seemingly surprised. “Yes, she left you a note in the Mercedes, but I found it first. And then you found it—in my panic room.”
“Is that why your brother kidnapped me? Because I broke into your room?”
A shake of the head.
“Then why?”
Michael averted his eyes.
“Why?”
He sighed, resigned. “After his son delivered flowers to you, and saw you with Logan, Seamus was worried you were going to walk away from me. Believe me, I had no idea he’d taken you. I even went to the police.”
My breath, coming faster, blew the first word away. “But who I choose to love isn’t Seamus’s concern and I wasn’t doing anything wrong.”
“I know that,” Michael whispered. “But now he’s resorted to threats against Clementine to keep us together.”
“We were never together.”
“In his mind, we should be.”
“Tell him to find you someone else.”
“I’ve tried. Presented my secretary, the nanny, a few others, too. He had me run them through a few of his loyalty and faithfulness tests; none of them could pass. Since they wouldn’t say yes to my first order, the second test could never even be administered.”
The website. It made sense. Pick one. Show loyalty and obedience. I felt a little sick. “I must have failed too, then.”
He nodded. “He wasn’t testing you; to him you were the perfect match for me. He just needed to instill his family values in you.”
I threw my hands up. “Fuck him. Why does he care so much about who you end up with?”
Resolve seemed to overtake him and he spoke like he wasn’t talking to anyone. “I already told you, Seamus’s political aspirations for me were bigger than even my own. Mayor. Senator. White House. He saw his ability to rule more than Boston through me. To show my father he could be so much more than my father had thought he could be. However, if I was going to climb the political machine, he knew I needed a woman by my side and he thought, no he thinks, you are the perfect woman to fill that role. I’ve already told you this. You’re the key. Say yes and Clementine will remain safe.”
I stood open mouthed. Was Michael playing me? “I’m not going to say yes, Michael. But you have to be able to stop him from doing anything to Clementine. She isn’t a part of this. You have to talk him out of it.”
He was shaking his head.
“Talk to him!” I screamed.
“I have.”
“Then go to the police.”
“I can’t.”
“Why can’t you?”
He shook his head violently as if he wasn’t going to tell me.
“Michael!” I was hysterical now. “Why can’t you? She’s your daughter, it’s your job to protect her!” I screamed even louder.
As he spoke, his shoulders began to shake. “I know. I know. But my choices have been stripped away from me, Elle. You don’t understand.”
Everything I saw was red. “No, Michael, your choice is to keep her safe, no matter what you have to do. Go to the police. Tell them everything.”
Kill him, I thought.
“I can’t.”
“Then I will.”
He shook his head. “You can’t.”
“Why not?”
“He’ll know I told you and then he will go after Clementine.”
“He almost killed me.”
“Elle, he’s obsessed with having connections. He thinks that’s how he is going to grow his empire. Nothing is going to stop him.”
“You have to turn him in,” I begged.
His laugh was dry. “Like I said, you don’t understand.”
My fists balled at my sides. “Then tell me.”
His eyes closed again and minutes passed before he spoke. “That Saturday morning that your car was at the mechanic’s and I went there, that was when I found the note Elizabeth had left for you folded on the visor in the Mercedes. That night I didn’t go out of town like I told you, but I went to the address on the slip of paper.”
My stare was one of complete anger.
“I didn’t mean for it to happen. She was threatening me. Blackmailing me—the drugs for Clementine. Was she kidding me? She couldn’t take care of Clementine. She had no idea what that even meant. But yet, she kept taunting me, threatening to steal her away, and I lost control. All I was doing was trying to shake some sense into her. To calm her down. She wasn’t thinking clearly. Clementine needed stability and she couldn’t provide that. She insisted she could. She kept threatening me. She was hysterical.”
My stomach lurched.
“She didn’t like what I was saying about her relationship with Clementine and she started clawing at my coat. Clementine’s rattle fell out of my pocket and she picked it up like it meant something to her. Like she really was her mother. Biologically she might have been, but that’s as far as it went. I tried to make her see that, but then she went wild, denying what I’d said like it wasn’t fact, she started hitting me, punching me, screaming at me. I had to defend myself so I shoved her back. That’s when she fell and hit her head. She was dead instantly and there wasn’t anything I could do. If I called the police, I’d go to jail, I knew that, so I called Seamus to help me get rid of her body, and now he owns me. You see, there’s nothing I can do. He owns me.”
My entire being was shaking. Inside and out. Tremors rocked me. Anger tore through me. I shoved him. “Killer.”
He looked at me then with resolve and regret in his eyes. “I know. But listen to me, Elle, I can make this right.”
I slapped him. “You killed my sister.”
Tears streamed down his face. “I never wanted any of this to happen. Just know that you’re the right person to take care of Clementine, to be her mother. I’ve spent the day arranging it all. Promise me you’ll take her and leave Boston. It’s the safest thing for her, and when you do, and she grows up happy, never tell her about her mother or me. Tell her she had parents who died loving her but nothing else.”
“What are you talking about?” I screamed.
He grabbed my arms. “Promise me,” he cried.
I stared at him blankly.
“Promise me you’ll take care of her,” he cried again.
I shrugged out of his hold. “I promise. I love her. You know I’d do anything for her.”
My assumption was that he was going to turn himself in.
Just then, I heard the door open and Logan yelled, “Elle!”
That’s when Michael pulled a gun from his suit jacket.
Terror shot through me.
I didn’t know what to do.
Michael pointed the gun.
“No!” I screamed.
“Elle,” Logan called for me again frantically.
I turned my head for only a fraction of a second. “No, Logan, go. Get out of here.”
Ignoring me, the look on his face was determined. He looked fearless, dauntless, as his long, lean body rushed toward me.
I screamed again, “Logan, leave the room!”
He wasn’t doing it.
“Stay clear of the gun!” I cried.
My head was bouncing.
From Logan.
Toward Michael.
And back.
I didn’t see the gun go off, but I heard it.
An icy chill slivered down my spine.
The gunshot shattered the atmosphere.
The sound was deafening.
My ears were ringing.
I’d never realized just how loud a gunshot could be.
Blood splattered all over me. Warm, yet so chilling. It covered me from head to toe.
I was screaming, but nothing was coming out.
Pure terror was all I felt.
My entire body shook and I couldn’t move.
Whose blood was covering me?
Mine?
Logan’s?
Michael’s?
I turned back and that was when I saw Michael on the ground. He’d killed himself. Strong arms wrapped around me, pulling me backwards, trying to turn me around. There were voices, screams, sounds, but I couldn’t make out the words. All I knew was that I was pressed against a hard body.
Logan’s body.
Everything was white noise. The walls, the blinds, and the window were splattered in red and the floor looked like it was bleeding.
My stomach revolted.
My feet were off the ground.
What happened next . . . I don’t remember.
Slowly, so slowly, the walls closed in around me and then finally, I was lost between them.
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
DAY 36
LOGAN
Prince Charming I wasn’t.
He was supposed to walk into the room where his sleeping beauty lay and kiss her. Or at least that was how Declan thought the story went. My plan was to do that and then slip my grandmother’s ring on her finger.