by Karr, Kim
Charlotte turns back and stares out the window at the plant.
“What I’m trying to say here is don’t let them bring you down. Fight for what you believe in. Prove them wrong.”
Turning back, she lifts her chin. “I want that more than anything, but I’m not sure I can anymore.”
I say nothing. We sit just inches apart. The heat is unbearable. Like a sauna. The light from the streetlights creeps in and makes it all too bright. Although I fought for those lights overhead, right now I’d rather have shadows.
Because this is it.
The moment I decide to either speed ahead or screech to a halt.
To get in or out.
Believe in her theory or don’t.
Choices.
Consequences.
Either I continue to believe my father’s death was an accident caused by negligence or I rock my entire world and choose to believe what Charlotte has told me—that it wasn’t an accident at all—and join her to prove it. That someone was behind the explosion that killed so many people and ruined so many more lives.
Rolling the window down, I let the thick air fill my lungs.
Blood.
Sweat.
Tears.
Determination.
That’s what it smells like.
Looking at her, I see those things in her eyes and I can’t deny she’s a lot like me. Although our lives took different paths after the age of eight, the devastation changed us in ways neither of us could ever fully admit. I see her, though. See what lies beneath all that softness and beauty. Determination. Fortitude. And driving need. She really, truly believes the explosion wasn’t an accident, and because once upon a time I believed in her, I decide to let go of my own pent-up anger and hurt.
And fall.
“Don’t give up. Let me help you,” I finally say.
She frowns, shaking those curls. “I couldn’t ask you to do something like that, Jasper.”
“You didn’t ask; I’m offering.”
Her gaze drops. “No, Jasper, I can’t accept your help. You saw what they were like out there tonight. If they found out you were helping me, it would be like dousing a fire with gasoline. And besides, it’s a losing battle. I can see now why my father gave up. These people are ruthless.”
I reach over the console and take her face in my hands. “Maybe I like the heat. Maybe I don’t mind taking the side of the underdog. Maybe I insist—”
The deep breath she inhales alerts me to what my touch does to her. Upon her exhale, she puts her hands over mine and stops me from finishing.
Fire.
Flames.
A raging inferno licks through my body.
Pulling out of my hold, she leans against the door. “You have to think about your business, Jasper. The murder case is already impacting it, and being seen with me, the black sheep of Detroit, isn’t going to help you rebuild goodwill.”
“Charlotte, you must not know me well enough for you to be saying something like that.”
She looks at me, confused.
Shutting the windows, I consider starting the engine and turning the air on but let my gaze fall on her instead. “The one thing I really don’t give a shit about is what people think of me.”
With that declaration, I surge across the car, crashing my mouth to hers, thrusting my tongue in her mouth, consuming her, devouring her, tasting her, wanting to eat her up. With a need bordering on primal, I pull her over the console so I can feel more of her. Her lips never leaving mine, she adjusts her body to straddle my hips and puts her hands on my shoulders. I, in turn, put my hands on her ass, pressing her closer to me. To my hardness. To my insane need to have her.
The fabric of our clothes grinds together until we’re both fitted so right. If only our clothes weren’t still on, I’d be inside her. I can’t help the groan that escapes my throat at the thought of burying myself deep inside and letting the world disappear, if only for a little while.
The sounds she makes drive me to the threshold, but I’m not going to take her in a car. When I take her I want space to move. When I finally give in to this pent-up need I’ve been feeling for the past week I want to see her, all of her. And when this happens, because it is going to happen, I want to look into her eyes and see my own flaming, burning desire reflected back.
The heat behind the seductive way she kisses me makes my body quake for more, every stroke of her tongue thrusting me deeper and deeper into a whirlwind that revolves entirely around her. Only Charlotte Lane. The girl doing something to me no one ever has done.
Just thinking of her makes my heart race and my world spin faster and faster. Being with her puts me in another dimension.
A thought that scares the living shit out of me.
Shoving my mindfuck of issues aside, I focus only on her. My hands are moving and this time so are hers. Up my chest, to my shoulders, down my arms. Her touch is electric. I want more, so much more. My greedy mouth stays attached to hers. The air feels stifling. None of that matters. It’s only her and me and the way our bodies react to each other.
The buzzing of my phone in this small space jolts me out of this lustful haze and I break the kiss. Knowing I need to answer this, I hold her in place and fumble for my phone in my front pocket.
It’s Will. Drawing in a breath, I look at Charlotte and give her a slight smile. “Don’t move,” I tell her and then answer the call. “Hey, man, I’m good.”
“Jasper, Jake told me what happened. I can’t fucking believe it.”
“I know. It’s over for now, though.”
Will sucks in a breath. “That’s just it. It’s not. There’s more.”
I drop my head back against the headrest. “What else?”
Charlotte stiffens and I rub my free hand up and down her back.
“There’s an outstanding warrant to search your car. The Storm has to be taken down to impound by midnight tonight. That’s why Todd has been trying to reach you.”
“Are you fucking kidding me?”
“What?” Charlotte asks in alarm.
I put the phone on speaker because she might as well hear this. I mouth, “The police want to search my car.”
A voice booms through the car. “Jasper, it’s Todd. Listen, I’m over at Will’s place.”
“Todd, you told me there would be no more searches.”
His sigh signals his frustration. “I know, and that’s why I wanted to explain the situation, but it seems the shit hit the fan before I could. Pictures taken last Saturday of your car show some compelling evidence.”
“What are you talking about?”
“The photos from the press shoot show mud all over your car and tires, and it was enough for the judge to sign the warrant for another search.”
“Are you fucking kidding me? I went there that morning before the ground dried out. I already told you that.”
“I know, but we have no way to prove it wasn’t at the plant during the night. The surveillance cameras aren’t clear enough and therefore are not admissible.”
“Let them search it. They won’t find anything.”
“I know that, Jasper. Jake just got here. I’ll arrange to have it dropped off if that’s okay with you.”
Charlotte looks down at me and I trace her lips with my finger. “Yeah, do it. And Jake, I’ll have your car back to you within the hour.”
“JJ, keep it for the night. Your place is swarming with reporters and so are Will’s, Drew’s, and mine. I’d stay clear of the riverfront for the night. Call me in the morning and we’ll figure things out.”
“Thanks again, Jake. I’ll call you tomorrow,” I say and hit disconnect.
Charlotte takes my face in her hands. “You’ll get through this and be cleared soon.”
“I know.”
Her thumbs caress my cheeks and I turn to kiss one of her palms. As soon as my lips touch her soft skin, I push all the crazy shit that is my life behind me and concentrate on her.
And that’
s the problem.
Her.
My pulse races with the knowledge that my path toward this girl on my lap is speeding down the track like a freight train.
Our eyes are locked and our breathing is fast. Is the speeding train we’re on a warning to slow things down?
The thought has me faltering in my previous intentions. “Tell me we should be doing this.”
“We should be doing this,” she whispers.
Not convinced, I go on. “Tell me this doesn’t taint our innocent memories. Because that time was the happiest of my childhood.”
Staying stronger than I would have imagined, she runs her hands from my face to my chest and rests one of them over my racing heart. “What Charlie and JJ shared can never be taken away. Never.”
Mimicking her actions, I put my hand over her heart. Look at her. Stare at her. Feel her heart. A beat. Two. Three. Take a deep breath. Now I can feel her heart beating just as fast as mine. “Then let’s get out of here and see what Charlotte and Jasper can share,” I tell her and lift my chin to meet her soft, lush lips in a tender kiss.
And then I close my eyes and hope to fuck she’s right.
CHAPTER TWENTY
A CHEMISTRY LESSON
Charlotte
IT’S AMAZING HOW one small thing can change everything.
He believes me. Believes in what I’m saying. Maybe even believes me enough to help me prove my father’s innocence. Clear my father’s name. Ease my conscience. Set the record straight. Despite what scars of his might be uncovered, he’s willing to pull the Band-Aid off.
The trouble is I’m not, though. I’m not willing to watch him uncover wounds so deep he might end up hating me forever.
I look over at him. So handsome. So brave. So confident.
Anger wells deep within me.
Cast me out. Brand me with the letter A. I don’t care. But not Jasper. He’s been through enough. Just last week this city called him their white knight, and I can’t bear for him to become their black sheep along with me. That’s why I’ve decided to give us the night and then leave Detroit for a while.
Not forever.
But for now.
Until the smoke clears and the dust settles.
I’m not giving up. I’ll never do that. But it’s not fair for Jasper to be caught in the crossfire. Not when everything else around him is in such upheaval.
I’ll go to the police station tomorrow and let them know where I’ll be before leaving. Mackinac Island isn’t that far. They’ll have to let me go. And as for my car, well I’m not sure what to do about that.
Still looking at him, I watch as he runs a hand through his hair. He’s easing down my street with hesitation more than evident in his slow speed.
The moon is bright above and I can see how the muscles in his arm tighten with apprehension. I can see how he clenches and unclenches his jaw, uncertain, like me, of what lies ahead. I can see his worry.
Surprisingly, though, the street is eerily quiet. Relief washes through me, knowing that the location of where I live has obviously not been uncovered.
Yet.
Patrons of the bar next to my apartment building, the bar I should have been working in tonight when the news broke, linger outside smoking, focusing on their own lives.
Thankful, I let out a sigh of relief that I wasn’t there tonight, with the televisions turned on in every corner and my picture flashing across each and every one of them. Mean drunks might just be more ruthless than journalists trying to crack a story or citizens wanting due penance. Might. I’m not certain, but I’m glad I didn’t have to find out.
Relief evident on his face as well, he parks the car a good distance from my building and the bar and we walk down the sidewalk side by side. Up above I study the stars, looking for a sign of any kind that I should take a different path. That I shouldn’t leave tomorrow. That my staying won’t rock this town on its axis like I know it will. But I know I won’t find one. My road is clear.
Jasper drops a soft kiss on my shoulder and I wish I could use that as a sign, but I know I can’t. Instead, I continue to study the sky.
Hands linked, we silently walk up the steps, through the broken door, up the stairs, and finally through my apartment door. My heart is pounding. This man, who I feel like I’ve known my whole life, wants me. Hasn’t forgotten me. Chooses me over the ease of walking away.
It means so so much.
Inside my apartment I turn the lights on. Jasper drops my key on the counter and is already headed to my bedroom. I watch as he flicks the lights on in there and disappears inside. I’m nervous. Suddenly very unsure if I am ready to cross the invisible line he spoke of just twenty minutes earlier. Afraid if I do, the only good memories I have of my childhood will forever be tainted with this new memory.
“Would you like a drink?” I call out, my nerves apparent in the tone of my voice.
“No thanks,” he answers. Jasper is now in my bathroom, turning those lights on too, and before I can think too much about it he’s back in front of me. Close. Very close. Close enough that I can smell his cologne and see the stubble on his jaw. Close enough to kiss me. Instead, though, he asks, “What apartment does your super live in?”
That’s when I realize he was searching my apartment.
More nerves.
“Did you think someone might be in here?”
He shakes his head. “No, but I just wanted to be sure. Now what apartment can I find him in?”
Okay. Good. Because with the lock changed, I feel certain no one can get in.
Looking at him, I almost laugh out loud at myself that I thought he was ready to get down to it that fast. Blinking at my own ridiculous reaction, I blurt out, “2B.”
“I’ll be right back.”
I grab his arm. “Jasper, what are you doing?”
He reaches for my hand and gives it a squeeze. “Don’t worry, Charlotte. I just want to have a little chat with him about getting that lobby door fixed as soon as possible.”
“I already spoke to him.”
“Then perhaps I need to remind him that code violations do add up and that should I call the county supervisor, this violation might hinder his monthly city grant upkeep payout.”
I shake my head. “You don’t have to do that.”
“No, I don’t. I want to. You’ve spoken to him and yet the door is still broken, so I think he needs a slight reminder of his job responsibilities.”
“Jasper,” I sigh.
He gives me a cheeky grin and is out the door before I can say another word.
Suddenly feeling all too alone, I take off my shoes and hop onto the sofa. Most women would use this time to freshen up. Slip into some sexy lingerie perhaps. Aside from the fact that I don’t own any, I feel like I can’t breathe and need some air. Opening the window, I step out onto my fire escape and look up into the night. Inhaling slowly, calming myself, I get lost in my own thoughts.
Minutes later I find myself crossing my arms to ward off the goose bumps from the slight chill in the night air, and then I do what I always do when I feel this way—search the stars. Count them. Trace them. Stare at them.
“Are you looking for the Big Dipper?” His voice is warm like molasses.
Chemistry.
It’s here.
And I can feel it.
“All of the constellations, actually.”
He laughs. “How many have you found?”
I point. “Three. There’s the Big Dipper. The Little Dipper. And Lyra.” I bring my hand down and then ask, “Did you talk to the building superintendent?”
“I did. Everything is taken care of,” he says.
“Really?”
“Yes, he was quite understanding.”
I nod, uncertain that’s an entirely true statement.
Jasper pulls me in front of him and links his fingers through mine. “Lyra, huh? Show me.”
“See that bright star right there?” I say as I point, tipping my head back to look dir
ectly overhead.
“I see it,” he says, his breath warm in my ear.
His embrace chases away my chill. “That’s Vega. It’s always easiest to see in the summer months. It’s also the tail to Lyra. Starting there, go up and draw a lopsided square.” I move his hand and trace the box shape in the sky.
“Ahhh . . . I see it.”
I smile. “See, it’s not as hard as you used to think to find them.”
He rests his chin on my shoulder. “I didn’t have you holding my hand back then showing me the way.”
No, he didn’t.
Not like this, anyway.
With just a slight twist of his neck, his lips are nuzzling my skin and his teeth are nipping at the flesh.
No, not like this at all.
Suddenly, I’m on fire. Flames are licking over my entire body and there’s a burst of heat clawing through my belly.
Soft lips press harder against the skin of my shoulder. “Do you still look at the stars when you’re afraid?” he asks. He’s not mocking me in the least. He’s very serious.
“Sometimes.”
“Like tonight?” he asks with concern.
“Yes,” I admit.
“What are you afraid of?”
I tilt my head. “The same thing you are. Tarnishing the only good memories I have of my childhood.”
His mouth tilts upward. “I thought we decided that could never happen.”
I turn in his arms and look at him. “We did. But I can’t help but still be concerned.”
He lifts his hand between us and curls his pinky finger. “I could give you a sign, but how about instead we pull out the big guns and pinky swear that no matter what, we will always remain friends.”
Smiling, I lift my hand and curl my pinky around his. “Pinky swear.”
Fingers locked, we study each other under the light of the stars. Saying nothing. Thinking. Deciding.
Do this?
Don’t do this?
That uncertainty weighs heavily on me and I have to look away and back up to the sky. It’s then that I see it. “Oh my God, look!” I point excitedly at the shooting star.
“Make a wish,” he says, his voice rumbling low and lustful.
I close my eyes. “You too.”