“Baby girl, you got me all through your blood. You might not choose the street life directly, but you will find your way there one way or another. I don’t want you to date a nigga like me. I want you to have better. If I let you do you, I promise you gone gravitate to a street nigga and I can’t have that.”
“Daddy, what’s wrong with dating somebody like you? You’re the best father any girl could ask for. You did something most couldn’t do. There ain’t another nigga in this world better than you.” Not being able to go to deep into this convo, I teared up and walked out. I wasn’t trying to say fuck her, but I wasn’t ready to let her know her father’s faults. When she see me, she sees a hero. She would look at me differently. If she knew her mama died all alone, while I was out in the streets, she wouldn’t fuck with me.
Shit may seem extreme, but fuck that. She can’t fuck with no street nigga. No man was about to leave my baby alone at a time when she needs them. I won’t always be here and I needed to know she would always be taken care of.
If that means I had to be the bad guy, so be it. I would try to be a little more lenient, but I would have to find a creative way to keep her in check but let her have some room at the same time. I wasn’t about to lose my baby, but I couldn’t give all the way in either.
Eight
KALINA
My daddy fell right into my bullshit, I milked the shit out of that situation. I didn’t give a fuck about him having another baby. He was grown with a girl, that’s what happens in that kind of situation. It would be nice to be somebody’s big sister. I also knew he would never shoot me, but I ain’t gone lie. I was scared as shit. My damn pussy lips was shaking, but I had to prove a point.
When he came up the stairs, Cap was talking shit to me about me having a curfew. He wanted me to come over his house, but I was giving him a million excuses. I wasn’t about to let him know that his ass was right. I needed to play mad with my daddy in order to get out of the house and not get my ass snatched up. When I stood in his face, I prayed his love for me stopped him from beating my ass. If Lisa hadn’t walked in, he might have beat me to sleep.
That bitch was worth something after all. Grabbing my stuff, I made my way through the tunnel and eased to the Bugatti. I knew my daddy was gone go back to my room, but I can act like I was hurt and left. He would forgive me and blame his self. I needed him to give though, because this shit wasn’t gone work too many more times. My daddy didn’t play games and I know I was pushing the envelope.
Pulling off, I headed to Cap’s house with a smile on my face. We been talking all day every day since the day I laid up with him at his house. This nigga was everything and I’m glad he wouldn’t give up on trying to get a bitch. I’ve opened up to him more than I have with anybody. He knew more about me than Breezy did. He was so damn understanding and sensual, but aggressive at the same fucking time.
When I got ready to pull up, I texted him for the gate code. He gave it to me and I made my way up the drive. As soon as I got out of the car, he was leaning in the door way waiting on me. I couldn’t stop the smile that spread across my face.
“Let me find out your ass done snuck out. Your daddy gone beat your ass.”
“Fuck you. Let’s go, I’m tired as hell.” Picking me up, he threw me over his shoulder. “Put me down boy.”
“Naw, my baby said she was tired. So, I’m gone carry your ass to my bed.” Taking off running, I screamed as I bounced against his hard frame. When we got to his room, he threw my ass on the bed. I finally took a good look at him and realized his ass didn’t have his shirt on. The tats all over his chest had me ready to try this sex thing.
“You got something I can throw on, I wanna take a shower?” Walking over to his dresser, he gave me a wife beater.
“Don’t ever bring your ass to my house with funky pussy. If you don’t want to fuck, just say that shit. Don’t come over my shit smelling like back the fuck up nigga.” Slapping him on the arm, I snatched the shirt and went to wash my ass. Once I was done, I threw his shirt on and climbed in the bed. His ass looked like he was sleep and I was kind of disappointed.
Mad as hell, I turned over on my side rolling my eyes the entire time. I even snatched the covers like I didn’t have a lot already. I wanted his bitch ass to freeze though. All this sexy nakedness and his ass over there sleep. I was about to leave until I felt his hands slide under my shirt and rub my ass. Scooting back, I wanted him to know it was okay without me looking thirsty. When all his ass did was just rub me, I was ready to scream nigga if you don’t take this pussy. Pushing against him some more, I tooted my ass right against his dick. It was brick hard, so I don’t know what was holding him back.
“Shorty, you keep scooting that ass against my dick, make sure that’s what you really want. Once I go in, your life ain’t gone be the same. This dick a game changer.” Not answering him, I turned to face him. Leaning forward, I kissed him softly. “Shorty, you making this hard. Real hard.” Taking my hand, I massaged his dick letting him know I was ready. His groan let me know, he was about to give in. “Fuck it.” Flipping me over, he pinned me down and just stared at me.
I thought he was about to change his mind he looked at me for so long. Right when I was about to say fuck it, he attacked my mouth. That shit sent flames through my body. I don’t know how I went so long without this shit. Kissing me down my neck, I couldn’t wait to see what was next. Feeling his warm mouth on my nipples sent chills through my body. It felt like I was about to orgasm from that alone.
“You okay?” Nodding, he kept going further. I heard people talk about head, but I had no idea how it would feel. When his tongue flicked my clit, I lost all of my mind. That shit felt like nothing I ever felt before. I didn’t even know how to describe what he was doing to me. All I knew was, he was gone be eating this shit from this day forward. Sliding back up, he tried to kiss me. I moved my face because it seemed like it would be nasty, but I hesitantly kissed him back.
Tasting myself turned me on in a weird kind of way. He looked at me again, but this time I felt his dick pressing against my hole. It didn’t seem like it was going to fit and the shit hurt like hell. Trying not to seem inexperienced, I held in my scream.
“You okay? You want me to stop?” Shaking my head no, he slowly pushed his way inside. My walls were on fire and I had no idea why anybody would want to do this shit.
“Fuck, it hurt so bad.” I noticed he slowed down, but he didn’t ask me if I wanted him to stop again.
“Baby, I would stop but I can’t. Shit feels to good. Fuck.” Knowing I had him going like that, I took the pain as he pushed his big ass dick inside of me. After about ten minutes and him groaning, I started getting wet and I was now turned on. The shit went from pain to pleasure and I was feening each stroke. When he realized I was into it and no longer hurting, his pace increased and I went crazy.
“Fuck Cap, you better not cheat on me.” We weren’t together, but after tonight we was. He took my virginity so he was my man whether he wanted to be or not. My ass started thinking about our business relationship and started to panic. He must have noticed and started slamming his dick inside of me fast and hard. Fuck them drugs. I would give all that shit up for this dick. There was no way I could live without this shit. My body started shaking, and I didn’t know what was going on. I had orgasms from my vibrator, but this was a different feeling. My legs started shaking like a stripper and I couldn’t help but scream out.
“Fuuucckkkkk. Oh my Gawddddd. Shit.” When I heard him groaning with me, I knew he was about to cum as well. Pulling out, he shot the shit all over my stomach. I don’t know why, but I got pissed. “I’m not good enough for you to cum in? You trying to treat me like a hoe in the streets. Get this shit off me now. GET IT OFF.” He looked at me like I was crazy and it pissed me off more. I went crazy and started slapping the shit out of his ass.
“What the fuck is wrong with you? If you hit me again, we gone have a problem.” Looking him dead in the eye, I slapped his
eye to the right. Nigga was looking at me and the wall. When I went to slap him again, he grabbed my hands and pinned me down on the bed. “I won’t hit you, but you not gone put your hands on me.” Trying to get my hands loose so I can slap him again, I fought against him. I have no idea how his dick slid back in me, but it was. After the third stroke, my ass was calm and no longer mad. It’s a damn shame how his dick had control over me already. I stopped fighting and allowed him to take my body to new heights. This nigga had me gone, and I was loving every minute of it. When we came this time, he let it ride inside of me. Falling on his side of the bed, he looked at me like I was crazy.
“I didn’t cum in you because I assumed a Queen Pin wouldn’t want to be pregnant. You’re not on birth control and we hadn’t talked about that. How the fuck I’m gone treat you like a hoe when you ain’t been with nobody but me? Get that attitude in check before I fuck your ass up.” My dumb ass hadn’t thought about what would happen if I got pregnant. I was inexperienced so the shit never crossed my mind. I thought his ass was trying to play me, now my dumb ass might get pregnant.
“My bad. I thought your ass was being funny. You heard what I said though right? You can’t fuck nobody else, we go together.” Laughing, he sat up and tried to do a dance but his body was too weak.
“I don’t want no other pussy. I need this tight shit right here. If you fuck another nigga, imma kill you and that bitch. That lil pussy mine and you better know it.” Smiling, I climbed on top of him. He looked at me like I was crazy.
“Now, give me some more of my dick. I need another round.” Groaning, he slapped me on my ass.
“Baby, you gone kill my ass. You know we got every day right? This dick ain’t going nowhere.” Laughing, I grabbed him and slid him inside. He was about to fuck me whether he wanted to or not.
Nine
BREEZY
I’ve been blowing Glitch phone up, but he wasn’t fucking with my ass. The nigga turned around and put me on block. I kept calling him from different numbers I got from that free app Text Plus, and he blocked them bitches too. I know I fucked up, but I was trying to tell him I was pregnant. His ass didn’t give a fuck what I was calling for and wouldn’t even hear me out.
Taking a chance, I decided to pop up at his house. I would wait here as long as I had to, so we could talk. After that, he could make his decision on what he wanted to do. If he said he wasn’t fucking with the baby, I wouldn’t have a choice but to walk away. I would raise my baby alone if I had to, but I wanted to give him the choice to be in the baby’s life.
Getting out of my car, I headed upstairs to his apartment. Since I never gave him his key back, I stood outside just looking at the door. I was scared as hell, but it was now or never. Deciding to get it over with, I stuck the key in the door and walked in. Looking around, I didn’t see him and headed to the bedroom. When I opened the door, I stood there in disbelief. He was fucking the shit out of this girl he swore was just a runner. I went at him a million of days, but he told me wasn’t shit going on with them.
“Are you kidding me?” When he looked up, the girl tried to move out of the way, but he laid her back down. His ass kept right on fucking her like I wasn’t standing there.
“Glitch, I was hoping we could talk.” I knew I didn’t have the right to be mad, so I decided to just let him know I needed him to get up.
“Talk.” The girl tried to move again, but he stopped her.
“Maybe I should leave.” I wanted to yell, you think bitch, but I stayed quiet.
“You don’t have to go nowhere. Talk Breezy or get the fuck out, I’m kind of busy.” Since he was being an ass, I blurted the shit out.
“I’m pregnant.” Never stopping his stroke, he responded like it wasn’t shit.
“Let me know when we can get a DNA. Until then, drop my key and stay the fuck away from me.” Throwing it at him, I walked out pissed off. Sitting in my car, I refused to go home. Yea, I did some fucked up shit, but he know this is his baby. I would never fuck more than one nigga without a condom. The longer I waited, the madder I got. That bitch had me fucked up.
Two hours later, her ass came outside walking all bow legged. The same bow legs I used to have. I followed her all the way home. Grabbing my gun, I jumped out and ran over to her car. Pulling the trigger, I gave her ass a head shot and ran back to my shit. Bitch wasn’t about to go bragging to the neighborhood that Glitch treated me. She had me fucked up. Stupid bitch. Once I calmed down, I thought I would feel better, but I didn’t.
The only thing I felt was defeat. I couldn’t blame nobody but myself for the shit that I was in. I didn’t realize how much I loved Glitch until he wasn’t fucking with me anymore. Heading home, I knew I couldn’t break. It’s not like I didn’t have any money, so my kid would be straight.
Walking in my house, I just wanted to lay the fuck down. A bitch couldn’t even get some sex because my nigga had me on restriction. Now that I wasn’t with nobody, the other niggas stopped trying to fuck me. The doorbell rung and I went back to the door. I knew it had to be one of my daddy’s friends if they made it through the gate.
“Hey Draino, what’s up?” It was this nigga that barely comes around, but it was one of my dad’s closest friends. Nigga was fine as fuck. I remember lusting after him when I was a kid. He was Italian and I swear he was the sexiest nigga I ever seen.
“Your daddy supposed to be meeting me, is he here yet?” Shrugging my shoulders, I sat on the couch. He called my daddy’s phone and hung up. “Nigga said it might take him longer. It could be about an hour. I’m gone wait for him in his office.” Nodding my head, I watched him walk off looking good as fuck. My pussy started talking and I gave in. Taking my clothes off, I went towards my daddy’s office. Draino looked up at me and I knew he wanted me.
“Boo, go put your clothes on. Your dad will be here shortly and I don’t want him to think I was on some bullshit.” Ignoring him, I walked over to his chair. Sitting on his lap, I leaned forward putting my breast to his lips.
“You said about an hour, I’m sure you can fuck me good in half of that time. Clean up and sit here like nothing happened. He’ll never know unless you tell.” When I put my breast to his lip this time, he opened it and started sucking my nipples. My pussy was dripping and I was ready to feel his dick inside of me. As he sucked, I pulled his dick out of his pants. Grinding against it, we both ended up groaning at the same time. He wanted me as bad as I wanted him.
Not about to waste any more time, I slid down on his dick and had to adjust. I never had a dick this big before and I was excited and wet as fuck. Throwing my head back, I started bouncing on that dick like it was mine. That shit was good as fuck. He was all in this pussy, but he must have wanted to go deeper. Standing up, he laid me on the desk and started tearing this pussy up. I could barely keep up with the nigga. It’s like he been wanting my ass and was releasing all this shit in my coochie.
“Fuck daddy, take this pussy.”
“Shut the fuck up.” Oh my, I guess he didn’t like for bitches to talk. Shutting up, I allowed him to keep assaulting my pussy. My shit was swelling, but I didn’t give a fuck because it felt good as hell. “I’m about to cum all in this pussy.” Throwing my legs behind my head, I was ready to catch all that nigga shit. I wanted him to come back for more and I was already pregnant, so I didn’t have to worry about shit. His strokes got fast as hell and I could feel him release. Wet shit flew all over me and I had no idea what the fuck happened since he was still inside. Did this nigga spit on me? Opening my eyes, I realized it was this nigga’s brains. Pushing him off, I screamed my head off.
“Go put some fucking clothes on. I’ll be up to talk to you when I clean this shit up.” Running past my daddy, I was embarrassed and scared as fuck. I’ve never seen that side of him and that shit scared the fuck out of me. Going straight to the shower, I scrubbed Draino’s blood off me and got dressed. I was still shaking by the time my daddy came to my room. You could tell he was still pissed.
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p; “I’ve been letting you get away with bullshit all your life because I knew you blamed me for you mama never being able to come around. Now, because of you, I just had to kill one of my closest friends. I’ve taken the blame trying to protect you, but this shit has to stop. Your mama was a hoe. A nasty disloyal hoe that didn’t give a fuck who she laid down with. Yes, I put her ass out, but I went looking for her one night I heard you crying for her.
She was laid up in a crack house high as fuck. I begged her to leave and even offered to send her to rehab. She didn’t want to. Told me she was living her best life and a kid would only slow her down. She only had you to trap me. I never wanted to tell you that because I never wanted to hurt you. I could take the blame and the hurt you were throwing at me. If you gone try to be like your mama because you miss her, make sure you smoke some crack too. I love you and I can’t control you, but I’m not raising a hoe. Get your shit together before I fuck you up.” Never giving me a chance to explain, he got up and walked out.
All these years, I blamed him. When it was that bitch that didn’t want me. I think the reason I fucked all these niggas was because in a weird way, it made me feel close to her. Now I didn’t even have that. My daddy was a dope mother fucker for the shit he did and now I felt bad he had to kill his friend. I wasn’t trying to get him killed, I thought we would be done before he came home. His dick was good though, probably the best I ever had.
I know I had to stop this shit, it was getting out of hand and I was about to be somebody’s mama. I didn’t want her to be like me or my mama for that matter. It was a lot of shit I had to think about and I was clueless on what to do. Crying myself to sleep, I would try to figure it out tomorrow.
Ten
CAPONE
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