Thank you for downloading this Simon & Schuster ebook.
Join our mailing list to get updates on new releases, deals, recommended reads, and more from Simon & Schuster.
CLICK HERE TO SIGN UP
Already a subscriber? Provide your email again so we can register this ebook and send you more of what you like to read. You will continue to receive exclusive offers in your inbox.
For mum
(for looking out for me)
and dad
(for putting up with me)
ONE
Wednesday 13 June 1962
I am the wind. I skeet across tarmac and whoosh over dale. Birds skate along my amorphous limbs and the sun bakes down on my back. I am a sirocco, hot as the desert sand. I fly. I loop. I race.
I’m also Evie, as old as the hills (16½), as tall as a tree (5ft 11), and as wise as time (perhaps). A dog-loving, celery-hating, never annoying, always enjoying, at times corduroying, (brackets-deploying), daughter of Arthur, and the fastest girl with a milk bottle in East Yorkshire.
My milk-delivery speed is not usually worthy of comment. Under normal circumstances, I’m to be found doing my rounds either on foot, with a few bottles in an old basket, or on my bike, in which case I carefully balance the basket up front, leaving the bike front-heavy and ripe for an accident if I brake suddenly (as I often do).
Today, though, I’m flying.
I’ve borrowed Arthur’s other child: his MG roadster. If he knew I’d taken the car, he would not be happy. Luckily he’s currently in his trusty old Land Rover on a shopping trip to Leeds with Christine, our housekeeper, stocking up on a new shaving brush (him) and ‘just a few little bits and bobs’ (her). Despite being only eight years older than me, Christine (hoarder, moaner, heifer) always makes it very clear that she is an Adult and I am not, although in Christine’s world being an Adult seems to consist of little more than listening to Mantovani LPs, drinking Babycham and wearing cleavage-bolstering dresses.
I have been warned about driving Arthur’s pride and joy before. It is one of many things classified as Off Limits. Other things that are Off Limits include the telephone, the drinks cabinet, the bull (yes, this is the country), the attic, assorted ornaments and vases, and – by far the largest category – Christine’s Things, a group of objects that seems to be growing in number with the speed of a virus.
I’ve broken the Off Limits car rule today because this morning is the occasion of my first ever hangover. Somehow my brain knows to tell me that being on a bike would not be good (but why doesn’t it say anything about driving a car?).
Yesterday, at 4.02 p.m., I finished my last O level exam. Chemistry. By 5.30 p.m. I was slumped in the corner of my best friend Margaret’s father’s barn slugging a perm-inducing mix of spirits from an old dandelion and burdock bottle. The day before, Margaret (girl guide, practical, destined for teaching) had suggested we get ‘something fizzy’ so that we could celebrate the end of our exams. She’d supply the food and I was tasked with getting two bottles of Babycham from Christine’s stash at the back of the pantry. As if trying to remember about titration numbers and endothermic compounds hadn’t been mentally exerting enough.
The pantry is a dark cave of plenty. Its shelves are lined with tins, packets, bottles and jars, all standing like soldiers on a parade ground, best face forward and ready for action. The back of the pantry slopes down and it’s there, tucked away, that Christine keeps her Babycham. Usually there are dozens of bottles of the stuff, herd upon prancing herd, but last night there were only two. Two bottles. Two very conspicuous bottles. So I made do with the drinks cabinet (Off Limits – see above), decanting half an inch of everything into the most innocent-looking bottle I could find.
Initially my drinks-cabinet cocktail wasn’t a success (Margaret said it was like drinking vapour rub), but after a while we both decided it didn’t taste so bad after all. It was definitely helped down by Margaret’s food: two bags of crisps, a Melton Mowbray pork pie, some sherbet dips and a box of Terry’s Neapolitans. I can remember lots of dancing (with each other and with assorted hay bales) and lots of falling (falling off things, falling over things, falling under things), but the rest of the evening is a bit of a blur.
Fourteen hours later, I woke up in bed (how did I get there?) wearing my Adam Faith nightie back to front and with my hair clumped together in tufty knots well beyond the means of any brush known to man (or woman). I lay still for a few minutes, letting life – and the room – settle, before realising that I was late for my milk run, a small and select clientele made up mainly of family friends (the milk run is my principal job around the farm along with some occasional hay spreading and cow scrubbing). Downstairs a note on the kitchen table (Gone to Leeds. Back 6ish. Dad.) reminded me that there was nobody around to enforce the Off Limits rule and so here I am, in Arthur’s MG, flying from village to village, the very model of a very modern milkmaid.
To look the part, I have wrapped an old woolly scarf around my hair and become Grace Kelly in High Society, or at least the part in High Society where Grace Kelly is driving Frank Sinatra round lots of empty country lanes, the part where they hate each other before they realise that they actually love each other. But instead of Frank in the passenger seat serenading me with ‘You’re Sensational’, I’m stuck with eight milk bottles in a basket, rattling and chinking (a micro-symphony of impending doom).
My life up until this point has been nothing special: a patchwork of school, Guides, cows, lost mothers, the Brontës, lacrosse, and Adam Faith. But now adulthood has arrived. Exciting things will happen. Life’s great adventure will unfold.
I will become A Woman.
What kind of Woman I will become is still very much up for discussion. Arthur is set on farmer’s wife. Christine, unhelpfully, has suggested either hairdresser or bus conductress. Margaret thinks I should become a teacher (of what? Cocktailology?). And me? What kind of Woman do I want to become? I honestly have no idea.
Different future Evies whoosh constantly through my mind. Librarian. Florist. Vet. It’s exhausting. Sometimes my head feels like a sputnik, rocketing around the world at great speed but without ever actually getting anywhere. Maybe I should become a cosmonaut? Do cosmonauts need a good pass at O level Chemistry? I read in Christine’s Woman’s Realm magazine that becoming a Woman is basically all about efficient typing skills and good deportment (of which I have neither), but I suspect it’s probably a bit more complicated than that.
*
The road ahead is clear (literally if not metaphorically) and I push my foot down on the accelerator, encouraging the engine to heights of high-pitched crooning that even Frank would struggle to reach.
Hedgerows and trees race past me as I fly. It’s a beautiful sunny morning and the bright blue sky looks like it’s been borrowed from a Spanish summer and stuck on top of our lush green Yorkshire fields. The early morning heat brushes my bare arms and I can taste its warmth in my mouth. Soaring and plunging, I am unstoppable. A force of nature. A wild wind-faerie. Will being a Woman always feel like this?
The hedgerows race.
The engine croons.
And the milk bottles chink.
I am Evie, a speeding joyous blur of scarf and smile.
Gulping in the view ahead, I see someone in a field. A man. And some cows. I shield my eyes with my hand, trying to get a better view.
It’s dear old Mr Hughes, a farmer from the next village.
I wave.
Mr Hughes doesn’t wave back.
I blink, trying to make out what’s going on.
Is he dancing?
I blink again.
Is he swinging? Swaying?
Corralling
? Herding?
From somewhere, the words to ‘Jerusalem’ jab-jab-jab themselves into my brain.
And then, just like that, mid-skeet and whoosh, I have a moment of clarity: Mr Hughes, flat-capped and trousers down, is singing the hymn at the top of his voice while thrusting rhythmically into the back of a cow.
Suddenly everything slows down.
My head inches round, transfixed by the strange coupling. My jaw drops and I feel a thread of spittle hanging from my mouth. Fat beads of perspiration appear on my forehead and my eyes feel as big as pan lids. My hands follow my head, edging the steering wheel round to the right.
The engine croooooooooooooooons.
The milk bottles chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiink.
And Mr Hughes serenades the world with his arrows of desire.
The MG clatters as it exits the smooth tarmac of the road and mounts the rough dirt of the bridle path. My head feels both hollow and very heavy. How is that even possible? What’s happening? Is it all some kind of divine punishment for breaking the Off Limits rule twice in twenty-four hours? I see a tree stump, gnarled and brutish, immediately ahead and then . . .
I’m out of the car and flying through the air. Milk bottles whoosh past me like little white missiles. I am the wind, flying over hedgerow, a startled gust. All of a sudden I feel very hot. The ground disappears and I melt into the sky.
I am Evie, sixteen and a half, as wise as a tree, as tall as time, the fastest milk bottle in East Yorkshire, hurtling towards Womanhood.
This is all really strange.
TWO
Wednesday 11 July 1962
I am woken by a loud thump of cured ham.
‘What do you mean I’ll have to go on the bloody bus?’
That’s Christine, assembling a cold tea and clearly not happy about having to rely on the vagaries of the East Yorkshire Bus Company to get her to bingo.
I must have nodded off. It’s four weeks since the crash and the colourful assortment of pain-relief tablets I need to take every day makes me drowsy, or ‘dopey’ as Christine puts it. I have been out of hospital for two days and am missing the attention of all the middle-aged nurses desperate to mother me. In hospital, I was the star patient: young and glamorous (you don’t get many MG-driving sixteen-year-olds in East Yorkshire), with a whiff of excitement and scandal. The Hull Royal Infirmary’s answer to James Dean, but a marginally better driver.
‘We can’t leave Evie on her own, Christine. She’s an invalid.’
That’s Arthur, my surprisingly – given the state of his MG – doting father. He’s locked in a battle of wills with Christine over his services as a taxi driver. For the past six months he’s taken Christine, her mother (Vera) and Mrs Swithenbank (Vera’s friend) to bingo on a Wednesday night, but tonight he wants to carry on listening to the cricket on the radio and is using me as an excuse to get out of it.
‘Invalid!’ The cured ham takes another thump. I hope I’m not going to be expected to eat any of it. ‘You heard the doctor. There’s nothing wrong with her bar a few cuts and scrapes. She could fall out of bed and land straight in a warm bath, that one.’
She’s right. The consultant at the hospital said I was very lucky. I told him I was a Sagittarian, the lucky sign, and began to explain to him about the lucky charm on my necklace (my mother’s wedding ring), but he stopped me and said he just meant that it’s a good job I’m so young. A young body is a rubber body, apparently, and this rubber body bounced its way safely through a field of muddy grass after coming flying out of Arthur’s MG. I don’t remember any of this, though, as I had passed out, which, according to the consultant, is why I ‘fell so well’ – an odd way of putting it seeing as I was trussed up in a hospital bed, at the time, with a thick scratchy neck brace and more bandages than an Egyptian mummy.
But it hasn’t all been good luck. When I got back from hospital, a big Christine-shaped dollop of bad luck was waiting for me at the farmhouse. Apparently she’s now our live-in housekeeper.
Much more convenient for everyone, said Arthur.
Much easier to keep an eye on everyone, said Christine.
There’s no escape from her. She’s everywhere. Like a bad-tempered pink fog.
Since Christine started working as our housekeeper ten long months ago, after a fateful meeting with Arthur in the Red Lion (village pub and unofficial labour exchange), our once lovely kitchen has gradually turned into her trophy room. Her chief prize is the gleaming new electric cooker, prim and pert and very pleased with its own modernity. It replaced our nice old Aga, a huge beast which threw out as much heat as a steam train. Christine didn’t like the Aga because:
1. ‘It smells’ (really more the fault of Christine’s cooking than the Aga).
2. ‘It’s got a mind of its own’ (it takes a special kind of person to be outwitted by a kitchen appliance).
The Aga’s days were numbered after one memorable incident involving Christine, the Aga, three coiled Cumberland sausages and a particularly gripping episode of Take Your Pick!. No food, as such, was produced, just a burnt cruddy mess and more smoke than a London pea-souper.
The kitchen now also houses, among other things, a pink glass vase full of dusty plastic flowers, a small china figurine of a dinner-suited Mantovani, a knitted pink doily plonked in the middle of our lovely old table, and a plague of pastel-coloured Tupperware bowls. The bowls are all over the kitchen. Little pots of plastic springing up like mushrooms. They’ve replaced a huge emerald-green tureen which we used to keep more or less everything in, from buttons and keys to coins, pencils and spark plugs. The tureen was an heirloom from my mother’s grandmother and had survived two world wars but didn’t survive Christine’s love of British Home Stores’ kitchenware department. Even the large black-and-white photo of my mother, Arthur and me (taken in winter 1946, when I was four months old, an ample mass of wool and lace with a tiny beaming face) has been sent off to Arthur’s study – replaced on the kitchen wall by a photo of Christine and Arthur in front of Buckingham Palace and another one of Christine meeting Perry Como outside the Manchester Free Trade Hall.
But, despite Christine’s handiwork, traces of the kitchen’s previous custodian still linger if you know where to look. Objects and spaces offer up secret bits of information like a discreet hallmark tucked away on a silver candlestick. Christine’s shiny new cooker, for example, sits in the same space as the Aga, but it’s much smaller, exposing an Aga-shaped block of brightly coloured wallpaper that sings out against the old, faded patterns around it. A noisy silence. Then there are the hooks in the pantry ceiling, meant for game and bird but left untouched for years, reminders of a time when the kitchen was run by someone who must have been considerably more skilled in the culinary arts than the present occupant.
And, unused and unknown, hidden deep inside the second cutlery drawer, is an art deco nutcracker inscribed with the initials DM. Diana Melville. My mother. A beautiful affirmation. An idea I can’t quite remember.
*
Thump.
It’s the poor cured ham again, a proxy casualty of our very own cold (tea) war.
Arthur is hovering, clearly uncertain of the best way to engage in battle. He looks scared (or do I mean scarred?).
Thump.
Christine is a formidable opponent. Her hair is up in rollers, a modern-day Medusa, and the stench of Amami setting lotion wafts across the room like clouds of mustard gas.
‘Arthur,’ she says, staring at him with the intensity of a serial killer.
Thump.
‘I’m sure Evie will be fine on her own for half an hour. They did let her out from hospital, remember?’
Thump.
Thump.
Arthur coughs.
‘I just think we should wait a few more days until she’s left on her own, that’s all. Probably best to keep an eye on her.’ He’s smiling as he speaks but it’s the kind of nervous-hopeful smile that I use when I’m explaining to Maureen, our village hairdresser, what style I
want (something hip) but know that she isn’t actually listening and will do exactly what she wants to do anyway (something with a vicious fringe).
Christine closes her eyes and breathes in deeply. Will she explode?
‘Just (thump).
A (thump).
Few (thump).
Little (thump).
Scratches (thump).
And anyway,’ she goes on, pointing at me with the carving knife. ‘She’s got her book to keep her company, haven’t you?’ The way she says ‘book’ makes it sound like she’s holding the word with laundry tongs. ‘What are you reading?’
It’s Laxdæla Saga, an old Icelandic saga about the Norse myths. Why am I reading the most obscure book in my entire collection just when Christine asks to see what I’m reading? Why couldn’t I have been reading Wuthering Heights again? I can see her eying the book with great suspicion. Christine’s reading doesn’t really extend much beyond Woman’s Weekly and the Littlewoods catalogue.
Arthur bought me the book on a family day out to York Castle Museum. The trip was his idea, a way for Christine and me to spend some time together, although why either of us would want to do that I have no idea. I was tasked with choosing the destination. Initially I suggested Whitby (where better to take a bad-tempered blood-sucker?) but Christine rejected it because the sea air plays havoc with her fringe. So we went to the museum. We spent an hour wandering around the castle and its recreations of ancient city streets before Christine got bored and suggested a trip to Browns department store, where she quickly sprang back to life and managed to persuade Arthur to buy her some new leather boots and a set of ‘Ye Olde York’ coasters. Afterwards, sitting in Bettys and having a toasted teacake, Christine said that she couldn’t understand why people were so interested in The Olden Days as it all looked a bit grim and dirty. Christine’s version of The Olden Days is fairly broad, starting with the First World War and then working backwards, taking in the Victorians, the Tudors, the Normans, the Vikings and the Romans in one huge blurred unwashed historical pageant.
The Miseducation of Evie Epworth Page 1