I rinse my mouth, wash my hands and head back to my table. When I sit down, the waitress is walking up with my ice cream. Surprisingly I’m hungry again so I eat half of it. I’m not a complete heathen.
My phone lights up with a text message. I look at the time and I’m surprised to see that I left the hotel almost two hours ago.
Savvy: Where are you?
Me: I’ll be back soon.
Savvy: Ash I feel horrible. Where are you? I’ve had six cups of coffee. I’ll come to you.
Me: I’m fine. Leaving now. I should be back in 20 minutes.
After I pay my bill I make my trek back to the hotel. I’m anxious as hell not knowing what I’ll be walking in on. What kind of mood or horrible things will Josh say to me when he sees me again?
You know what? Screw him. If what we shared means nothing to him, if he doubts me that much, we don’t need him.
***
As I enter the lobby and head toward the elevators I hear someone yell my name. I spin around and see Josh sitting on a stool at the bar with his brothers waving his arms like a lunatic. Savvy rushes over and pulls me to the side.
“I don’t think you should go over there. Since you left Josh has hit the bar pretty hard and his head isn’t in the right place right now.”
“How is he taking it? Was he really upset with me?” I question.
“I want to lie to make you feel better, but he’s really angry. After being burned by Marybeth, well, that betrayal is still fresh in his mind. I know he’ll see things clearly in the morning, just give him some time.” Time. Fuck time. If he doesn’t believe me now, where does that leave us?
“Savvy, how can he question me? I know I didn’t tell you all the specifics, but after everything we’ve been through, how could he think so little of me?”
“I know, it’s a really messed up situation and I told him that. Zander wasn’t happy that I said anything. You may end up with a roomie tonight because we’re not seeing eye to eye on this situation.”
“I didn’t want this to cause problems for you. And I definitely didn’t want you getting caught up in the middle. I’m so sorry.” I feel like all I do is cry these days.
She gives me a sympathetic smile. “I always have your back girl. Now let’s go upstairs and rent a movie.”
I nod my head as we walk over to the elevators. When we get on I look back towards the bar. My eyes meet Josh’s and I crumble inside. I never thought Josh would look at me with such disgust.
“Ash, we need to talk.” Josh screams through the place as the elevator doors shut.
Savvy pulls me into her side as I lean my head on her shoulder and start to shake as tears glisten down my cheeks. “I’m so sorry Ash, this is all my fault.”
“He was going to find out eventually. No matter how I told him, he was always going to doubt me. It just sucks, I expected so much more from him.” This is the final straw with Josh. Never again will I entertain the idea of a future with him.
When we reach my room, I open the door and kick my shoes off.
“So, what movie do you want to watch?” Savvy asks.
“Anything with blood and guts, my heart can’t take anything mushy.”
“Don’t worry Ash, everything will work out.”
I sure hope so.
CHAPTER 6
Josh
“Another round for the room bartender.”
“No more rounds for the room Josh. Nobodies even down here anymore.” Zander says.
I look around and see that he’s right, although I’m seeing two of him.
“Dude, why did you make me drink so much? This hangover is going to be killer.”
“I didn’t make you do anything bro, Jay didn’t have anything to do with it either surprisingly. Don’t you remember what happened with Ash earlier?” Zander questions.
“Z don’t say her name. He finally forgot why he was drinking, let’s not kick that back up again.” I hear Jayden say behind me.
“Jay, my favorite twin. How is this even possible man? How can I lose a baby and find out there’s another? Am I being punked?”
My brothers think they’re being stealth whispering behind me but I hear every word. It’s okay though, I’ll just sit here enjoying my old buddy Jack and pretend I’m oblivious to them.
“We need to get him upstairs, but I think he should come back to my room. Savvy no doubt wants nothing to do with your ass tonight so your room’s open for him too.”
“The hell you say? Savvy will be in my bed tonight.” Zander’s protective bullshit used to make me laugh but now I understand it. Or understood it. I don’t know what to feel right now and I can’t help but be skeptical after Marybeth, even though I know Ash is nothing like her.
“Take me to Ashlyn.” I stand up and announce to the room.
“That’s a horrible idea. Let’s go back to my room where you can sleep it off.”
I look over at Kyle. “I love you little brother, but I prefer the company of a woman in my bed, no offense.”
“Jesus Josh I didn’t say come back to my room and feel me up. Let’s go.” Kyle grabs one of my arms and throws it around his shoulders while Z does the same for the other arm.
I should be embarrassed I’m being dragged across the lobby, but I feel no emotion right now. When we get up to Kyle’s room they throw me on the bed and tell me there’s a bucket next to me on the floor if the need arises.
Tomorrow I’m going to talk to Ash. I need to sort through these feelings in my head and approach this situation better than earlier. Do I really think she is lying to me? That the baby isn’t mine? That’s yet to be determined.
When I wake up the next morning I groan. How much did I drink last night? I try to scan my memory but it’s all a blank after I hit the bar. Drunk and passed out in god knows whose room isn’t what I had in mind last night. Remembering the fact that I needed to find and talk to Ash brings a bout of panic to the forefront. I fucked up again.
When I open my eyes, I’m stunned to be looking at the very face I need to see. Huh, what did I do to get in her bed? I lift the sheet and confirm I’m still wearing my underwear. When I get her in my bed again I sure as hell will not be drunk.
As I look at her face I feel a smile form on my lips. But it quickly disappears when I remember how I acted yesterday. Finding out that Ash was pregnant definitely came as a shock to me, but what I said was uncalled for. Do I really believe she jumped from my bed to someone else’s? No. I remember what she said to me that night and know she meant every word. Looking over to Ash the memory floods my mind.
I knock quickly on Ashlyn’s door and open it up heading inside with the food that I picked up on the way. We’ve been hanging out after work most days and it’s quickly become one of my favorite things. We eat and talk all night while watching her shitty ass TV shows.
“Ash?” I call out wondering if she’s even home. There are no lights on.
“I’m in my room.”
Once I walk into the kitchen I place the bag of food on the counter. I pull out the Chinese containers and walk to the cabinet pulling down two plates. After I dish out the food and grab forks from the drawer I bring it all to the living room. I hear Ash walking down the hallway and wonder what she’ll subject me to tonight.
“So, is tonight a Say Yes to the Dress night or Total Divas?” The fact that I know what those two shows are should get me blow jobs every day for the rest of my life.
As Ash comes around the corner in her tight tank top and sexy as hell yoga pants I hope it’s soon.
“Smells great! Work was busy and I’m starving.”
When she sits on the couch next to me I pass her a plate as she puts on Total Divas. At least it’s wrestling and hot chicks.
The show ends and neither of us move. Our empty plates are sitting on the coffee table and I’m rubbing Ashlyn’s foot in my lap. When I press firmly on the sole of her foot, she moans. Fuck! As I feel my dick harden against the zipper of my jeans I try thinking about
anything but the sound she just made. I send an apology to the big guy in my pants and promise to take care of him later. This has become our little ritual.
I look over at Ash and notice her staring at me. She looks deep in thought as she bites her lip. I want to be biting that lip. She moves her foot and slowly starts rubbing the inside of my thigh with her toes. When they graze my dick my eyes roll back in my head. If her toes feel this good, what will happen when it’s her hand? Her mouth? Her pussy?
As she continues to rub along my length, I lie my head back on the couch and take a deep breath. When I feel the warmth of her foot leave my leg I look over to see her slowly moving towards me. She lifts one leg over me as she straddles my thighs.
“Ash…” I warn.
“Shut up and take me to bed.”
When I stand up she wraps her legs around my waist making it easier to carry her towards the bedroom. I stop in the hallway and push her back up against the wall not able to wait a moment longer. I lean down crashing our mouths together and her animalistic groan nearly does me in.
I have never tasted anything so intoxicating in my life and with every swipe of her tongue I become more addicted. When I lean down to pick her up she grinds into my hard on. I know if I don’t get her to the bedroom I’ll take her up against the wall. Ashlyn deserves it all so I pull her close and quickly move us down the hall.
When we reach the bed, I crawl up the middle and lay her head on the pillow.
“Hellcat, I’m about to turn your world upside down and the only thing you’ll be able to do is scream my name.”
“God! You’re a dirty talker?” She groans and reaches for the button of my jeans.
“I’m in control. If you don’t do as your told, I’ll tie you to the bed and spank your ass.”
I planned on taking it slow with Ash, easing her into my…tendencies, but I can’t control myself seeing her writhing beneath me.
“Fuck waiting for punishment.” I growl out.
I leave the bed and rummage around her room trying to locate exactly what I need. When I find two scarves I make my way back to her and quickly tie each hand to the slats. If her squirming is any indication she is going to love this as much as I will.
Shit! I got too excited, forgetting to take her shirt off before I tied her up. I grab it and tear it down the middle, throwing it to the side piece by piece.
“Josh, you need to touch me, fuck me, lick me…do something.”
After removing the rest of her clothes, I throw Ashlyn’s legs over my shoulders.
“You have no idea what I’m capable of.”
I’m like a man possessed when I crash my mouth to her pussy. With the first swipe of my tongue Ashlyn calls out my name.
“Oh Josh…”
When she moans my name, it triggers something deep within me. I convince myself I can do better, make her feel so much better. The need to hear her screaming my name overwhelms me.
I add two fingers knowing exactly how to make it happen. As I pump them in and out I hook them upwards.
“Oh god, oh god!”
Close, but not quite my name. Adding pressure with my tongue and speeding up my strokes, Ashlyn starts grinding on my face. Next time I’m not tying her up so she can ride my fucking tongue. Just the thought has me nearly coming in my pants.
When I look up I see Ashlyn throw her head back in ecstasy and try to pull on her restraints.
“I’m gonna come!”
Still not my name. I pump my hand vigorously and move my other hand slowly up her body and roughly pinch her nipple. It definitely adds fuel to her already burning fire as tremors take over her body.
“Josh!” She shouts.
I work her through her orgasm until she calms down and pull back, taking off my clothes in record time.
“If I don’t sink my cock inside you right fucking now, I’m going to lose my mind.”
As she spreads her thighs in a silent invitation I drive into her in one thrust.
“Ash…” I growl.
Nothing has ever felt so right in my entire life.
“Josh, you have to move. Please.”
As I roll my pelvis upwards I hear her gasp. She’s not the only one in ecstasy. I’m right there with every roll of my hips. When I switch to deep measured strokes it sets my body on fire.
“Faster, harder!”
I quicken my thrusts. My orgasm is about to hit me like a fucking freight train but I fight it off until Ashlyn ignites. I move my hand down and start playing with her clit. I feel my balls slap against Ashlyn’s ass every time I bury myself deep inside of her. I can’t hold back any longer.
The walls of her pussy clenching around shoots me off like a firecracker. One more thrust and I’m releasing inside of her.
“Ahhhhh.” She yells through the room.
Before I can collapse I remember the restraints. Quickly untying the scarfs, I roll us so Ash is resting on top of me. We’re a mess of sweaty bodies and heavy breaths.
“Josh, I don’t even have words.” Ashlyn whispers.
“I sure as fuck do. Phenomenal.”
Lifting her head, I see the sexiest smile light up her face.
“Meh.”
Oh, she wants to play this game, does she? I roll and flip Ash to her stomach, pressing my front to her back.
“Do you want to change your statement Hellcat?”
“Nope I stand by my previous one.” She says in a breathy moan.
She yelps when the sharp sting of my hand registers in her head.
“Did you just spank me?”
Spanking her ass again is the only answer she gets.
Ashlyn stirs shaking me from my memory. I can reflect on that night at a later time and I’m not ashamed to say I think about it often.
When she looks up I’m met with beautiful blue eyes and a shy smile.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning. How long have you been up?” She questions around a yawn.
“Not long, maybe half an hour.”
She rolls her eyes and throws the blanket off of her before heading towards the bathroom. I hear the water running and a few minutes later she comes back out.
“We need to talk.”
“I know. But first I’m buying you some breakfast because I’m starving.” I sit up and throw my legs over the side of the bed.
“No hangover? You’re really a freak of nature. Lucky for you I want pancakes, let’s go.”
“Hey Ash, how did I end up here? The last thing I remember is falling asleep in Kyle’s room.” I stand up and rub the back of my neck feeling awkward standing here in my boxer briefs.
She laughs. “You were running up and down the hall yelling out my name. When I opened the door, you came inside and dove in my bed. I should mention you were only in your underwear.”
I groan not able to remember. “Guess I’ll need to grab some clothes.”
“You can use my robe. I’ll meet you in the lobby in a half hour.”
“Okay.” I grab the robe and walk to the door. Before I leave I turn around and look at Ash. “I’m really sorry for how I reacted yesterday.”
As I see the hurt in her eyes, I want to drop to my knees and ask for forgiveness. But she needs time, and time is what I’ll give her.
CHAPTER 7
Ashlyn
How the hell do I always get myself stuck in these situations? It’s not like I’m a people pleaser or Susie fucking Sunshine. I’m definitely neither of the two. Last night when Josh was running down the hall yelling my name I almost lost it. It was 2am, only a couple hours after he questioned if the baby was his and I was having the best damn dream of Charlie Hunnam. What the hell was he thinking? I had no choice but to pull him in my room so he wouldn’t get arrested. He said some gibberish about a baby and midnight diaper changes before passing out in my bed. Did I mention that he was only wearing his underwear? Can’t I catch a break?
When I reach the elevator, Josh is waiting for me. He’s freshly showe
red wearing well-worn jeans and a black tee stretched tight over his chest. The backward black hat on his head makes it hard to look above his shoulders. Damn. His hat always makes me a little tingly.
As we ride down the elevator together, the word awkward comes to mind. The way he stares at me is making me feel awkward. Every time he gives me a hint of a smile, like he’s sharing a secret only the two of us know, is awkward. The fact that neither of us have spoken a word to each other since I saw him in the hall is really freaking awkward.
I’m keeping a safe distance away from him, but it’s hard when there are so many people moving about this morning. Every time we get close I can smell his aftershave. I love the smell and I hate myself for it. We’re heading towards the best diner according to Josh and I could really care less as long as I get some decent food.
“Sit anywhere you like.” An older waitress tells us.
We walk towards the back and pick a booth in the corner. As I look over the menu, I can’t get chocolate chip pancakes or waffles with peanut butter out of my head. I bite my lip trying to decide which I want.
“What are the choices?” Josh asks knowing this is always my dilemma. You would think being a chef would make me a take charge kind of gal when it comes to my food.
“Chocolate chip pancakes and peanut butter waffles.”
The waitress returns to our booth and Josh winks at me before ordering both for me and a meat lover’s omelet for himself.
After she walks away I know I need to get the show on the road. “Listen Josh, I just want you to know I’m sorry about how you found out. I planned on telling you when the moment was right, but obviously Savvy and her big fat mouth had other plans.”
“I don’t like that you hid this from me, at all. Seeing you walk out of the restaurant after I found out killed me. Was I angry at first? Hell yes. I just learned I’d been lied to, and the woman I love and wished was the one carrying my child claims to be just that.”
“What you said to me was bullshit. How could you ever think this baby could be someone else’s? Do you think so little of me that you’d think I’d jump right into someone else’s bed? Last I checked that was you. You left. You chose another woman over me. Yet, you question me in front of everybody. Do you know how much that hurt? Having everyone think I’m whoring around and trying to trap you.”
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