by Erin Trejo
He took that fucking bitch’s last name. I didn’t believe it when they first told me. Ortega. I had been sitting right outside of his house and I didn’t even know it. I sigh as I climb off of the bed and grab my shirt. I dress quickly and stuff the rest of my stuff into my bag. I toss it over my shoulder before I leave his room.
“You can’t run from him,” Viking’s voice says from behind me. I jump, but keep walking. He has no say in this. As soon as we hit the main room he grabs my arm to spin me around to face him.
“Stop,” I warn him as he brings a cigarette to his lips and inhales before he blows out a ring of smoke.
“Long time ago, before I became the Prez I was lost. Hell even after I got that role I was still lost. Carnie grounded me. I hated the thought of her bein’ so young and innocent, but she brought out the best in me. Monster is a lost soul just wanderin’ around in this world. You know that. You bolt on him and it will kill him. He let you have a piece of him that no one has ever even seen before. Not even us, his brothers, got it. Whatever it is you think you’re gonna do, you need to rethink it. Your dad might be dangerous Kyza, but Monster?” He chuckles softly and shakes his head before he continues, “Monster’s far worse than even you know. When he snaps? It’s over. I wouldn’t wanna be on the receivin’ end of what he’s offerin’ up when he snaps darlin’.”
I eye Viking for a long second before I nod.
“I hear what you’re saying. I really do, and I appreciate the concern. I don’t want to leave him Viking. It’s the exact opposite of that, but I created this problem.”
“No. It’s not just you. We have another chapter near your hometown that fucked him over. He wants revenge. Whether you go in alone or you go in with us, we’re still goin’ in. You might think that over before you just split.”
“I have so many ghosts,” I whisper softly.
“Sit with me yeah?”
I’m torn. I want to run. I want to do what I need to do, but I nod my head and follow him to the bar instead. I sit on the stool when he slides me a drink and then grabs one for himself. I watch him as he comes around the bar to sit on the stool next to me.
“Only one person knows this story, and he’s dead. I was young. I wanted everything. This life was what I wanted, and I yearned for it. The first time I met a Bastard was down in Mexico. They were on a run down there and it went south. They were ambushed near their safe house. I just happened to be wanderin’ by there when it happened. The lady that lived in the house kept it up. Her name was Lupita,” he says as he looks off into the distance remembering the past.
“Was?” I ask Viking as he pulls his gaze back to mine with a nod.
“Yeah, was. She was killed a while ago. Anyway I was there when they got ambushed. I was right outside her house. They did a good job takin’ most of them out, but they also got their Prez shot. He was dyin’ while they were fightin’. I found him. He looked up at me and handed me a gun. He was fadin’ quickly ya know? He was shot somethin’ like four times I think. It was a fuckin’ mess. Lupita came out cryin’. She loved those guys like they were her own. His name was Tanker. He looked up at me and asked me to take away his pain. He asked me to fuckin’ kill him.”
I gasp and cover my mouth with my hand. Tears are filling my eyes. I’m suddenly very aware of how he came to be the president here.
“I’m so sorry,” I tell him.
He shakes his head, takes a long pull from his beer, and then continues, “He begged me. I took the gun from him and held it in my hands. I pressed it to his head. He gave me a nod and I did it. I took away his pain. Lupita cried, but when the other guys got back they were pissed. Their Prez was dead. Lupita told them that I did it. At first they were angry, but when she explained that he asked for it and their VP voted me in. No questions asked. No probation period. They said if I had the balls to end it for him that I was in.”
“Why are you telling me this?” I ask as I wipe tears from my cheek.
“Because you’re not much different than me. You did what you had to do because it needed to be done. I was haunted. Literally. I was a fuckin’ mess. My head was so fucked up, but we came back home and I settled in. I was who I was supposed to be in this life. Monster needs that in his life. He’s been haunted by shit for so many years now. Do you really want to take away the only happiness he’s had and steal it away from him? Ask yourself if he really deserves that.”
With that Viking stands up and walks away as I lay my head down on the table and just cry. I understand what he’s saying. I really do, but how do I finish this? How do I keep him and finish what my dad started so many years ago? Just the fact that he’s still out there looking for me and knows that I’m around is haunting me. Hands land on my shoulders. I jump, raise my head, then turn around.
“I get that you think you need to run Kyza. I’ve been there,” Monster says softly. I reach up and cover his hands with mine.
“It’s so hard. I know that I started this because I ran. It kills me to think that something could happen to any of you and it would be my fault,” I admit. Monster moves and pulls me from my stool.
“That’s the thing babe. Nothin is gonna happen to any of us. We want him just as much as you do. You want in? Just say the word, and I won’t say no. Look at me. I couldn’t tell you no even if I wanted to.”
“Why?”
“Because I think I fuckin’ love you Kyza. I’ve never felt like this before. I never wanted any of this shit, but here we are. You’re rippin’ your way through my goddamn heart and tearin’ it right out of my soul. I’d give you the world if you’d only ask me.” Tears are falling slowly down my cheeks as I look up at him. He’s right.
“There’s only one thing I want to ask you Monster.” He nods his head, but looks nervous. It hurts me that he looks that way.
“Anything baby.”
“Your heart.”
“What?” He asks as he cocks his head to the side.
“The only thing I want is your heart.”
He smirks and lowers his head, resting his forehead against mine.
“You already have it Kyza. I don’t want it back either. Now, turn around,” he says kissing me once before he spins me to look away from him.
He leans forward and puts my hands on the table in front of me. His hands run down my back as I sigh. I push into his touch and my insides quiver.
“What are you doing?”
“Teachin’ you a lesson,” he says before he slaps my ass roughly. In seconds he has my jeans and panties pulled down and he’s pushing inside of me as I gasp and scream his name.
“Tell me you aren’t gonna leave me,” he grunts. Each thrust is harder than the one before, but I love the feeling of him inside of me.
“Monster,” I moan.
He backs up enough to slap me on the ass even harder than before.
“Say it.”
I keep my mouth shut and my teeth sink into my lower lip. Monster leans over me. His cock is hitting me deeper and deeper, wrapping his arm around me he grabs my nipple and pulls it roughly causing me to scream again.
“I said say it.”
“I’m never leaving you!”
“Tell me you love me Kyza,” he demands.
His hand slides down my body to my clit. My insides explode as I come hard.
“I love you. Fuck, Monster. I love you.”
Chapter 23
Monster
“Fuck that shit,” I grumble as the guys sit around outside. We’re discussing how we might handle Ortega.
“Why not?” Viking asks looking at me.
I watch Kyza as I drink my beer. She’s having fun with the girls. They have fucking water guns of all things and are playing with them.
“I’m not puttin’ her in that position. We don’t know the layout of the house,” I remind him as I keep my eyes on her.
“He’s right,” Grinder agrees.
I grunt my appreciation at that.
“What if she goes with us? We could j
ust surprise attack the motherfucker,” Mason asks.
I glance over at Viking now. He seems to be thinking it over. I told Kyza I wouldn’t shut her out. Whatever it is that’s happening, she will be a part of it. I don’t like it at all, but she’s hard headed and she knows how to handle herself. I’ve taken her shooting to see what she’s got, I was shocked to say the least.
“It could work if we surround that shit.”
“We should blow it,” Grinder adds as all eyes turn to him. “What?”
“What the fuck do you mean we should blow it?”
“I mean blow the motherfuckin’ house all to hell. That takes out him and his men.”
“No. I want to see that piece of shit die,” I tell him.
“So we kill him then blow it. The shock of seein’ Kyza should give us an element of surprise. We can move in, plant that shit, and move out. As soon as we get the all clear, we blow the fucker.”
I jerk when a cold blast of water hits me in the side of my head. I turn in that direction and see Kyza stick her tongue out at me. I laugh, shake my head, and motion for her to come to me. She walks over and I pull her into my lap when what I really want to do is spank her ass.
“What is it?” she asks looking around at the guys.
“We want to blow up your dad’s place after we kill him. Wanted to see if you were opposed to that idea,” Viking says to her.
Kyza shifts on my lap.
“What about my sister?”
“You want her in or out? I don’t give a shit either way darlin’,” he says. Kyza looks over her shoulder before she looks back to Viking.
“I want her out. I know we aren’t on good terms, but I want her to know that she has the option to leave that life.” Viking nods and I kiss her neck. The other guys stand and move away, but Viking stays.
“We’ll get her out. You just tell me how in you want to be.”
“I want to be the one to kill him,” she snaps before he can even finish. I chuckle and reach around to caress her stomach with my hand. I start sucking on her neck and she moans.
“Get a room,” Viking snorts before he rises up out of his chair. I continue my trek down her neck until I meet her shoulder, “I like you wet,” I whisper into her shoulder.
“We were playing,” she moans.
“Yeah? Is that the only way to get you wet?”
Kyza grinds against me and my cock gets even harder. I want nothing more than to bend her over and take her right here, but I find I’m missing the smile that she usually has on her face, so I move her off of my lap. I stand her up before I move behind her. I steal the water gun from her, aim, and shoot.
“Monster,” she squeals as she turns to run.
I run after her and keep shooting. She laughs and the other girls join in. I don’t think I’ve had this much fun in way too long.
“Come on. I know you’ve got more than that,” I tease her.
The guys laugh, but I don’t stop. Her laughter is infectious. I can’t get enough of it. I turn to Whit and spray her down with water, but when I spin back Kyza slams into me. Her arms wrap around my neck and her hips crash into mine. The gun falls to the ground long forgotten as I kiss her back. My tongue slides into her mouth. I’m caressing her tongue as she moans. My hands tighten on her ass as I pull her as close to me as I can get her. I can’t stand it anymore. I need to be inside of her again before this all comes crashing down around us. I need to feel her. I need to know that she’s real and she’s here. My entire life I’ve wanted something like this, but I never really knew what it was. Other women would look at me with fear or disgust, but never Kyza. She stood up to me. She took me as I am and I can’t think straight when I’m with her. She makes me feel and that’s all I’ve ever really wanted.
I walk us inside as her legs tighten around me. Her lips are demanding of mine and it’s hot as hell. My heart thunders inside of me. As soon as I get to our room I kick the door closed and put her down. I move to the bed and she watches me with a confused look. I strip out of my clothes and sit on the edge of the bed. I’m looking at her, just taking her in.
“Strip for me,” I tell her huskily.
Kyza’s lips curve into a grin as she slowly pulls her shirt up her body. The wet material clings to her skin as she slowly pulls it off and tosses it to the side. She moves to her shorts next and my mouth starts watering watching her. Her bra comes off next followed by her panties and finally she’s standing there in nothing. I lie down and gaze up at her. She walks over slowly and climbs onto the bed.
“Face that way. You’re gonna ride my face,” I tell her.
Her cheeks flush, but she climbs up and faces away from me. Yeah, I’m about to bring back the old school sixty-nine. With her hips gripped in my hands I bring her pussy to my lips. I don’t take my time. I don’t tease her. I dive in. I’m devouring her. My tongue teases her. My teeth graze her. Kyza’s body jerks as she rocks her hips and moans for more.
After a few minutes she leans down and sucks my cock into her mouth. I jerk my hips and grunt from the feel of her wrapped around me like this. We’re both fucking each other’s mouths, but it’s me that gets her off first. Her body begins to tremble and her knees shake around me. Kyza stops sucking, my cock merely resting between her lips as she moans and pants. Her warm breath dances over my skin and I thrust upward just as I bite down on her clit. Kyza comes in my mouth and I lap up everything she gives me. She screams and her body shakes and quivers, but I don’t stop until my face is drenched.
“Turn around,” I demand of her.
Kyza moves on shaky legs and straddles me. I reach down and guide my cock inside of her before I thrust upwards. Her tits bounce with each thrust, but she quickly takes over. I grab her hips in my hands and force her down my length. Her lips part as sounds flow from her.
“So goddamn beautiful,” I grumble.
She opens her eyes and looks down at me. They’re sparkling like the sun. Kyza bites her lip as she fucks me senseless. Her pussy begins to clench tighter and I smirk up at her. She reaches down and drags her nails against my flesh. That does it. My balls tighten right before I explode inside of her. She comes right after me and milks me for everything I have. My fingers dig into her hips and we both continue to fall apart. Kyza finally drops forward and rests on my chest as I run my hand down her back. She moans softly and I can’t help but smile at her.
“Are you sure you’re okay with what we’re gonna do?”
It’s eating at me. I don’t like that she even wants to be there let alone be the one to kill him. He’s her father. It just doesn’t sit right with me.
“He wants me dead. I’m not going to let that happen,” she says softly.
“Neither am I, but you don’t need to be the one to do it. I’ll gladly do it for you.”
I’d do anything for her.
“I know you would, but this is personal. He took my love away from me once before Monster. I’m not letting him do that again,” she sighs and so do I.
“You love me Kyza?”
“You know I do.”
“I just needed to hear it.”
“I love you Monster. More than you think I should. No one has been able to bring me back to me but you. I can’t thank you enough for that.”
She props herself up so that she can look into my eyes. I reach up and brush her hair away from her face and smile at her.
“You know what you do to me. I don’t need to tell you that part. I love you Kyza. I don’t say that easily. Nothin’ in my life has come easily, but lovin’ you does. I don’t understand it, and I’m not sure I want to understand it. I just want to love you.”
She smiles and presses her lips to mine. In the fucked up world that I’ve lived in for so long I never thought that I would find happiness again. I never thought that I could trust anyone again, but Kyza proves me wrong. Every. Damn. Day. She shows me a side of herself that has long since been buried. She reached in and drug me through the ashes just to find my heart and br
ing it back to life.
“Stop thinking. Just do,” she whispers.
“Do what?”
“Love me.”
Chapter 24
Kyza
I’ve always known that Monster was different. From the moment he showed up at the clinic he was a mystery. I never thought I’d find myself in love with someone like him though. He’s so different, the complete opposite to how Ryan was. His entire demeanor screams danger. As much as I wanted to stay away from him, he just kept pulling me in.
I thought I had my life in order pretending to be someone I’m not, but he proved me wrong. He brought out the old Kyza and embraced her. He welcomed her with open arms and took her under his wing. I think that’s what makes me love him so much.
I swallow hard and look over my shoulder to Monster as I stand in my dad’s driveway. I’m nervous about seeing him after all of these years. I’m afraid of his reaction. I think I’m more excited than anything else though. Adrenaline is coursing through my veins like hot lava. This is it. It’s time to rectify my past. This is my chance at redemption.
Monster gives me a nod and I nod back. I know that the guys are only a few seconds behind me. I turn forward and walk up the driveway. The guards are watching me. When one stops me I take a deep breath.
“I’m here to see Mr. Ortega.”
“Who are you?” The man’s eyes roam over me and I can see the confusion in them. I look a lot like Annie and I’m sure it’s throwing him off.
“Tell him that his daughter is here,” I announce holding my head high. “Tell him the Soulless Bastards brought me here.”
The man watches me for a second before he pulls out his phone to make a call. He mumbles a few things that I don’t really hear because my heart is beating so loudly in my ears. A few seconds pass before I see him. My heart nearly stops as he walks toward me. I can feel the guys getting closer to my back, and a sense of calm washes over me. My dad keeps coming toward me and adjusts his suit jacket.