“It’s not supposed to be easy.”
“I’m guessing you’re… experienced.” David slipped his fingers into Raja’s thick hair. This was exactly where he was supposed to be. He wanted to know Raja inside out, spend more time with him, and have sex twice a day. His head was a colorful mess of exciting ideas.
“Uh-huh,” whispered Raja and then opened his mouth, taking one of David’s balls into its molten heat. His rough palm trailed up David’s thigh and gave his dick a gentle tug.
David slid his feet down Raja’s back. “Oh, yes! Do that. I love your hands. I can feel it’s a man touching me.”
Raja growled and thumbed the base of David’s cock as he slowly sucked on first one and then the other nut, raising himself slightly between David’s legs. “And you like that, right? Big man hands to hold you down?”
David pushed through his shyness to whisper. “Yes, I’ve always been into bigger, older guys. I even had a crush on my coach.” He squeezed Raja’s hair, with a moan leaving his lips.
“Really?” Raja dropped David’s balls out of his mouth and blew over them softly. David couldn’t help but stiffen as pleasure rolled over him, sending some clear fluid out of his cock. “Did he talk to you dirty?”
“No, but I saw him in the shower once, and I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He had all this chest hair. I just wanted to go in there and kneel for him.” The memory made his cock throb, and the wine he’d drunk was only making it all more intense, as if the lines between fact and fiction blurred.
“Did he have a big dick?” whispered Raja, then kissed his way up David’s cock.
David didn’t even blink, so as to not miss a second of what Raja was doing. Raja’s face just next to David’s erect cock was a view he would never forget. The beard was tickling him, all the soft hairs swiping over his cock and balls.
“He did,” David groaned. “I was so ashamed of my thoughts but started practicing extra hard, so he’d praise me.”
“You should try extra hard for me too,” said Raja, rolling his tongue over the veiny underside of David’s cock. Just watching him do it so casually was such a turn-on David was worried he’d come too soon again.
“Yeah? What would you like me to do for you?” He’d go far to please Raja. To make him always call back, and never leave their strange, undefined relationship.
Raja looked thoughtful for someone who was about to give head. “I’ll think about it, but it’s gonna be hot and dirty,” he said in the end and picked up David’s cock, giving it a slow pump that seemed to set his eyes on fire. It was as if there were liquid bronze trailing around his irises when he looked at David.
“Yes, yes, please let it be hot and dirty.” David spread his legs wider and arched his back, in a frenzy to find out what it would be like to have his dick in the slick heat of Raja’s mouth.
“Like me sucking on your dick?” asked Raja and bobbed his head over the shaft. It slid right in, and David whimpered when the soft insides of Raja’s mouth molded to him as if his cock was made to fit between Raja’s smooth palate and the spongy tongue. In his fantasies, he could already see this strong, butch man swallowing seed like it was the best thing he’d ever tasted.
“Yes, yes, just like that,” David whimpered and had to fight between the need to close his eyes and drift away into pleasure, and the craving to watch his own rock-hard cock slide into the mouth of the most gorgeous man alive.
Raja groaned and twisted his head over David’s cock, pulling his cheeks in as he sucked, completely immersed in what he was doing. One of his hands massaged David’s balls gently, and he looked up, keeping David’s gaze hostage.
“Please, suck like that again,” he whined when Raja made a slurpy sound and his cockhead hit the back of Raja’s throat. It was all too good to be true. The world around them didn’t matter. The man he thought would never talk to him again was here, with his hot lips around David’s dick. Raja’s beard and moustache teased the skin around David’s cock, but it was when Raja swallowed around the shaft that David broke into a violent shudder, unable to control his legs anymore.
Raja pulled back slowly and started bobbing his head over David’s cock, accepting him into his mouth with an ease that was still alien to David, and yet there was so much tenderness and care to his touch that David couldn’t help but feel special.
“I’ll be coming!” David warned Raja in case he wanted to pull away, because David wouldn’t have much self-control left soon. He needed to learn how to take all of Raja’s cock too. He moaned again, and when Raja didn’t pull back, his stomach filled with dozens of butterflies. Heat galloped all over him when the sucking became intense, fast, and Raja slipped his hand below David’s balls, pressing on the surprisingly sensitive flesh there.
He pressed his feet against Raja’s back when the orgasm hit him, and he spilled straight into Raja’s mouth. The experience was so intense, with his cock still between Raja’s lips, that he cried out and squeezed his eyes tight, trying not to buck his hips too hard.
That talented mouth didn’t leave him until it all became too much, and David’s cock started being so sensitive he couldn’t stand any more touch. Raja groaned with pleasure and bit David’s thigh, pulling his hips so close it felt like he wanted their bodies to merge.
“That was fucking hot, baby boy,” he whispered, massaging David’s flesh while his hair and beard still tickled the hypersensitive skin.
“I’ve melted,” David whispered, only partially lucid. He could hardly breathe, and the scent of Raja’s cologne all over him made David want to never wash again.
“Put yourself together. This isn’t over yet,” said Raja, climbing up David’s body and already unzipping his pants.
“Yes, I… uh… I’m getting there,” David uttered, ready to see that dark cock and welcome it into his mouth.
Raja let out a sigh of relief when he pulled out his stiff prick and hovered it over David’s face once he kneeled on the sofa. “Suck on it. I can’t fucking wait anymore.”
David opened his lips, itching to feel that salty taste on his tongue, and to have Raja push his cock in and out in fast jabs. Their eyes met, and the intensity of their connection made David shiver.
Raja’s mouth was open, his skin flushed, but there was nothing delicate about the way he lowered himself, pushing his dick right into David’s mouth. It was already wet with the salty precum, and the taste burned David’s tongue in a way that made him want to dryhump Raja all over again.
“Fuck,” uttered Raja, slowly closing David in the cage of his body, with his dick lodged deep inside David and demanding further entry.
David put his hands on Raja’s sturdy thighs, and he moaned around the dick despite gagging seconds later. He didn’t care. He wanted it all. He wanted to bury his nose in Raja’s pubes, and feel Raja’s balls on his chin. He was going wild with excitement despite having just come moments ago.
Raja gave a raspy moan and moved his hips back and forth, carelessly thrusting in, as if he didn’t care about David’s discomfort, even as he held on to the hair on top of David’s head. “Take it, you little bitch. Let me into that tight throat, so I can cream you.”
David whimpered, and tears formed in his eyes from the intensity of it all. His face was hot, his skin sweaty, and the words only made him want to have sex as soon as he could get it up again. He tightened his grip on Raja’s thighs, trying to open up more, to let that hot cockhead invade his throat even if it meant he couldn’t breathe anymore.
The thick dick kept shoving into his throat, tickling his tongue, and it was just the way this was meant to be. David’s heart was racing when Raja’s legs tightened over him. It felt so good to be used this way. He’d come in his pants from just this if it weren’t so early after the last orgasm, but Raja’s thrusts were getting quicker. He was about to come, and David was not going to tell him to back out. Unless Raja wanted to come somewhere on his body. David would be down with that too.
He couldn’t even r
ecognize his own slurpy grunting, nor did he care about the saliva dripping down his cheek. The heat created by their breaths was making him dizzy, and with his vision blurry from tears anyway, the whole experience made him feel as if he and Raja were melting together.
Raja rapidly pulled out of him, and then jets of warm sperm hit David’s neck, clinging to it as he fought for breath and tried to cope with the sudden emptiness in his mouth. Raja loomed over him like an ancient god, beautiful but fierce, with unyielding eyes that could read it all from David’s face.
David panted and reached to his own neck, spreading the spunk all over. His cock wouldn’t get erect again just yet, but it throbbed nevertheless. He arched up to lick the last drop off Raja’s cockhead.
Raja gave him a breathless smile, and then lowered himself to lie on top of David. His lips followed the warm trail of cum, and he carefully licked it all up, teasing David’s sensitive skin. David trembled with each lick, and slid his arms under Raja to hold him close. He could fall asleep in his embrace and wake up in it.
“I love how heavy you are on me,” David whispered and closed his eyes, still enjoying Raja’s taste on his lips.
“I love how eager you are to swallow me,” muttered Raja, resting his head on David’s shoulder. He was hot too, and David didn’t mind one bit that he was half-naked underneath the muscled body.
“Is that normal to want it so much?” David stroked Raja’s back.
Raja nodded and looked up at David with the ghost of a smile on his lips. “Yeah.”
“You think we could wait with the full-on sex bit?” He gave Raja a kiss. He wanted to feel Raja’s cock inside of him so bad his mind was getting fuzzy, but now that he’d come, and he could think more clearly, he wanted to take things slower, not just do it as if this were a pie eating contest.
“Scared?” asked Raja, though it sounded more like a statement.
David nodded. “A bit. I’m really horny, but then also very nervous.”
“That’s fine. This isn’t a race,” muttered Raja, closing his eyes. His long lashes fluttered against the dusky skin, and it looked so beautiful David was compelled to pet Raja’s cheek.
“Does that mean you’ll stick around for a while?” he asked, hoping it didn’t sound too needy.
Raja yawned and started drawing circles around David’s nipple through the polo shirt. “Well, I can’t leave you hanging, can I?”
David smiled. “You can’t. Who would teach me all about being gay otherwise?”
“Precisely. I’m your coach now.”
“I’ll practice extra hard for you, coach.” He gave Raja a kiss.
Chapter 15
David was on cloud nine, in just his jogging bottoms, making coffee and toast in the kitchen while Raja sat at the breakfast bar and watched him with a smile. There was something positive in the air, and it wasn’t just the smell of milk and Nutella. They’d showered together and sucked each other off again in the morning, which left David light-headed with all the buzz in his body. This was it. He was an adult now.
“Do you want to come to church with me on Sunday?” he asked with a big smile, and pushed a plate of toast to Raja.
Raja’s thick eyebrows shot up, and he took another sip of freshly squeezed orange juice that David had insisted on making for him earlier. “What do you mean? As in sexy times in the church?”
David snorted so hard milk trickled down his nostrils, and he turned around to the sink in panic. Raja couldn’t see this! “No! What? What does that even mean?”
Raja didn’t sound disgusted with David’s clumsy display when he answered. “I was wondering, because I’m not religious. Why else would I go to church?”
David wiped his face and turned around. “I didn’t know if you were or weren’t. Just because you had bad experiences doesn’t mean going to church is bad.” David took a deep breath. “I’m beginning to question too. Why would the Catholic church be better than others? At the end of the day, it’s the same God, right? I mean, the Christian God. Do you think it’s the same God whether it’s Catholic, Baptist, or Protestant faith?”
Raja chewed on his piece of toast, and some of the crumbs fell into his beard, white against the black hair. “I have no idea. Aren’t you the believer here?”
David groaned. “I just… This thing happened two months ago, never mind what, and it had me thinking more about the church itself. I mean, it’s nice that people have a place to meet, that it’s a place of worship, the sermons are usually inspiring to be a better person, but I might look at other Christian churches too.”
“What happened two months ago?” asked Raja, focusing his eyes on David.
David opened his mouth and then closed it, unsure how to describe it. “It’s not a big deal. I think it must have been a misunderstanding.”
Raja dropped the toast on to the plate, brushed crumbs off his hands, and got up, approaching in smooth movements. David didn’t even know how Raja managed to corner him against the counter. “I still want to know.”
David sighed and brushed his knuckles over Raja’s T-shirt. “It’s nothing. I was very confused about my feelings, and when I talked to Father Joseph about it, I think he made a move on me. I mean, I’m not even sure about it anymore, but it was weird.”
Raja stood in front of him, completely calm and casual as he placed one hand on the countertop next to David’s hip. “A priest? Really? What did he actually do?”
David relaxed a little, even though the memories still made him a bit uneasy. “He said that there was nothing wrong with my urges as long as they were kept private and… he put his hand on my nape, stood really close.”
Raja raised his hand to David’s face and traced his fingers over the hot skin. “He made you uncomfortable?”
David wrapped his arms around Raja’s waist. Many people said gay men were effeminate, but he never felt more masculine than when he held Raja. “He did. I got out of there so fast and felt queasy all afternoon.”
Raja crooked his head and pushed some of David’s hair back. “He definitely made a move on you then. You shouldn’t be alone with him again.”
“I thought about it so many times, and I was wondering if maybe I told him about myself, so he wanted to show me he was on my side by touching me? I don’t even know anymore.” David hugged Raja tighter.
Raja pulled him closer and exhaled, holding him in his steady, powerful arms. David had never felt safer than he did at this moment, in Hunter and Asty’s fresh-looking kitchen, and with little Bell asleep nearby.
“No. He shouldn’t have done that. If he ever does it again, tell him that I’m gonna get him.”
David chuckled against Raja’s shoulder. “Oh, yeah? You think he’ll be afraid of my biker boyfriend?”
Raja took a deep breath, and his neck pulsed against David’s face, but the sound of the front door unlocking sent Raja out of David’s arms and back into the chair he’d occupied earlier. He stuffed the rest of the toast into his mouth and looked at the doorway as they both listened to quiet sounds coming from the entrance hall.
David sent Raja a mortified look but decided to just go with it. Raja’s vest was in the corridor. They needed to pretend that he just came by in the morning. Since when was Asty an early bird for them to be arriving at eight in the morning?
“Hey guys!” David called out with sweat beading on his neck.
A dark figure moved through the corridor, and Hunter popped into the kitchen, looking between David and Raja. “I knew that cut meant something,” he said but didn’t smile, watching Raja with a slight frown. “Do you want to go to the office upstairs?”
Raja shrugged and gently rocked the plastic crib on the table. Bell seemed completely immune to any noises at this point in his sleep cycle. “Nah, I was passing by and thought that I could say hi. David here told me you’d be home soon.”
Asty walked into the kitchen and smiled at them both. “Hi, I can see you met our son.”
Raja shrugged. “He’s been a
sleep since I came here, but David tells me he’s got his mom’s eyes. I need to stay longer to find out when he wakes up.”
Hunter took a toast with Nutella from David’s plate. “Yeah, stay a little. We haven’t seen each other in ages. And you’ve only come back from the big trip. How was California?”
David cringed on the inside, yet a part of him had an unimaginable urge to blurt out that he and Raja were together. But what would Hunter even think of that? Asty’s brother was gay, so she’d probably not even shrug, but Hunter?
Fortunately, with the four of them seated at the table and eating breakfast, the atmosphere soon loosened up. Asty and Hunter told them about the concert they’d been to last night, Raja talked about all the people he met on the road last month, and David was just happy to savor his boyfriend’s presence for as long as he could. With Raja living an hour’s drive away, they wouldn’t be able to meet every single day.
In the end, little Bell needed a new diaper, and with Hunter delegated to deal with the problem, Raja decided it was his cue to leave.
David followed him into the corridor when Asty went to the garden shed to get some supplies she needed. “That was close,” he whispered as Raja put on his boots.
Raja finished pulling them on and straightened his back, sliding the tip of his tongue over his lower lip. It was one of the sexiest things David had seen in a long time, and with Raja leaving him behind for at least a few days, the longing to touch was quickly becoming unbearable.
“It was fine. I was dressed,” said Raja and winked at David.
“I’ll miss you.” David stood on his toes for a kiss. Nothing could compare to the beard tickling his cheeks when their lips met.
Raja cupped his head in his hands, and he briefly deepened the kiss, playing with David’s tongue in a way that made David shudder and squeeze his thighs with excitement. He felt lost when Raja pulled away, but there was no stopping him.
He winked at David and left, riding off on his bike a minute later. David took a deep breath and had to lean against the wall not to fall over with his knees soft. This had been the most amazing night of his life. Never before had he connected with anyone the way he did with Raja.
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