by Ronnie
"I really had a good time with you, I wanna see you again." Said Bryson
"Me too, we can hang again like Friday night or something,"
"We can't let nobody else know about this tho,"
"I know, I know, but I feel it!!" I said
"I feel it too!" Said Bryson, then the nigga kissed me on the cheek!!! OMG I WAS SO HAPPY!
"Wow I never been kissed before!" I said all excited
"Yeah I just think you're an amazing person..."
"WILL YOU BE MY PROM DATE?" I just asked out of the bloom
"I never been to prom before, but yeah I'll love to go with you!"
Then me and Bryson looked into each other's eyes for a couple minutes, we was smiling hard as fuck lol! But then he left and I watched him walk, I noticed he had lil booty goin on! When I got inside my parents were in the other room so I used that opportunity to hide the pic of me and Bryson, then I came out like shit didn't happen!
"Hey son, when you get in?" My dad asked
"Not too long ago, I really had a good time, me an Bryson really turning out to be good friends!"
"That's good, I bet you saw a lot of girls too, by the way have you asked a girl out to prom?"
"No not yet," I lied, because I already got somebody.......BRYSON!!
Chapter 4: We Became One
May 2005.....A WEEK BEFORE PROM
Me and Bryson have been goin out for almost 2 months, and it was the best 2 months of my fuckin life! We went to movies, we went to the park, and I just bought my own car so we went to Myrtle Beach for a day....all this without our families knowing! When we be in the church we act like we just friends, and try to not look even a bit of gay, cause we know church folk love to talk shit. One day my parents were gone somewhere and since they was perfectly comfortable with Bryson they didn't mind him in the house.....or in my room! Anyways I was showing Bryson my sketch book and all my art and stuff,
"Damn babe, you're dope, especially that one with super man!" He said complementing me
"Aww thanks, lemme show you something else I been doing,"
I was flipping thru the pages of my book when I felt Bryson put his arm around me...and I felt so good inside, it really put me in a good mood! There were many times I wanted to kiss him like in his mouth and feel that tongue of his yessss....but for now I just wanted to take things slow, but it was no doubt we both felt ready...
"You don't know how bad I really wanna make love to you..." said Bryson
"I know, but babe let's wait a bit it's only been 2 months plus I never had a boyfriend before so give me some time…please." I said
"Ok I just love you so much, these past 2 months were the best of my life," said Bryson
"I love you too, what you wearing to prom?"
"Well I was thinking I would wear like a tux, you know something classy,"
"I already got my suit!" I said as I showed him my white suit
"I can't wait for prom night...." said Bryson we both looked into the mirror so damn happy
Prom night.....
I came down the steps in my white suit, I felt so fly!! My mom was all over the place just cryin an emotional like goddamn it ain't all that! I told my parents I was going by myself, Bryson said he was gonna meet me at the place (since his school just so happens to be hosting a prom not far from the venue). Now I know it's kinda risky, we don't know whose gon snitch or who got diarrhea of the mouth...because I want to keep this low key, but I don't care what happens nothin will stop me from loving him!!
"Ooooh don't you look cute....ugh my baby's going to prom (crying)!" My mom being all hysterical
"Pat calm down now, the boy is just going to prom he ain't getting Married!" Said my dad
"Well I don't wanna be late!" I said trying to get to my car
"So you goin by yourself son?"
"Yeah dad but it's no biggie,"
"All those girls in school you couldn't find one?"
"I don't know, look I got to go bye y'all!"
Ugh I was so glad to get away from them, wishing I could be so open with them but I didn't have much time to worry, cause I only had like 30 or so minutes to get to prom! When I got to the ballroom I was kinda nervous, like I never danced with anybody before let alone another boy, but then I saw Bryson in his suit and he was just so sexy!
"Damn you look good babe!" I said
"You look good too, I mean damn I'm lucky!" Said Bryson
As we went into the ballroom we saw my girl Erica and her date, Jada, we got some looks from others because we looked like a bunch of friends but we just gay couples...because Christian schools really didn't like gays so we knew we had to keep it on the low!
"Hey gurl!!"
"Hey boo and.....who is this best friend?" Erica asked all interested
"Wassup I'm Bryson, I'm his date!"
"Oooop.....oooop...OOOOP bestie he cute!!"
"I know he is, we been going out for 2 months now...."
"ALRIGHT EVERYBODY ITS TIME TO GRAB THAT SPECIAL SOMEBODY IT’S TIME FOR THAT SLOW JAM!"
Then we all got up, they was playing one of my favorite songs by Monica an Usher, then Bryson grabbed my waist and brung me closer to him, I felt his body on mine, damn it felt good.....at that moment I didn't think about who'll find out or what happens next, I was in in the arms of this fine ass nigga!
"I love you so much......" Bryson said softly
"I....I love you too," I said in a shaky voice
Then suddenly it happened, WE FINALLY KISS....LIKE IN THE MOUTHS!!! We both felt it like I swore that kiss lasted like 3 minutes but his lips were so good I wouldn't let go!!
After prom was over we both went to my car, and then Bryson looked into my eyes, and we had another kiss, goddamn his lips felt good....but It didn't stop there, he kissed my neck.....all I could think was DAMN DAMN DAMN!! Then he put his hand on my thighs as he was reaching closer to me, I knew after those kisses it was goin down....
"I want you so bad...." Bryson said as he ripped off his shirt SHOWIN A BAWWDY after that I couldn't resist
"I want you too Daddy....." I said as I started pulling off my clothes! At this point we both hard and ready, Bryson was putting it down!! I mean after some sloppy tongue kisses I lifted my legs to roof, now mind you my car is a Camry so it ain't that big, but we didn't give a fuck! I managed to roll my seat down low enough to lie on my back and let Bryson smash my backs! I had some lotion in car as lube as at first it kinda hurt but then after a few thrust I was in heaven!!!! AND WHEN HE TALKED ALL NASTY, SMACKING MY ASS WHILE HE WENT FASTER I WAS MOANING AND GRABBING THE SEAT CAUSE BRYSON WAS SO DAMN ROUGH! After that he cums an pulls out, but I'm kinda paralyzed from him goin balls deep like I was breathing so hard like I ran a damn track!! THEN HE PROCEEDS TO EAT MY ASS AND AGAIN SMACKS IT WHILE BURYING HIS FACE.....OH GOD I WAS BLESSED THAT NIGHT!!
We sat in the car for like 15 minutes, the car was kinda stuffy cause of the sweat and the smell of me and Bryson....that's the smell of love!
"That was fuckin amazing, my ass feels kinda numb," I said
"You're so tight, like damn, but you was delicious!" Bryson said with his happy ass
"You're such a freak.....but at least we finally made love babe!"
"Yeah, and damn it’s like 1:45 in the mornin!"
"OH SHIT I GOTTA GET HOME!" I jumped up an said cause I knew my parents might be getting suspicious
Me an Bryson put our clothes on, trying to make it look like nothing happened, some cum got on my pants so I wiped it off as good as I could, then after I dropped Bryson off at his house I went back home and my parents were waiting for me...
"Son it's almost 2: am what happened?" Asked my dad
"Well it kinda went a lil longer than I thought and then there was like a lil after party sorry I forgot to call!" I lied like a muthafucka
"Alright well at least you had a good time with ya friends, but next time call!" My dad said
"Okay imma get ready for bed goodnight!" I said as I slithered into my room
I knew I couldn't keep this relationship hidden forever, but tonight was so amazing, I NEVER had sex before let alone with another boy! But it felt sooo good, but deep down I just know something bout to happen.....and I'm gonna have to deal with it.
Chapter 5: Secret Is Out
Graduation Day - June 2005
I finally got my diploma and I was Able to leave this stupid school, I had a 3.5 gpa so I was kind of a smart ass lol and to celebrate my big achievement my the church decided to have this cookout type of celebration at the reception hall, and my dad boasted about me when the preacher called all the graduates up to the podium! It was me, Shanice, Brandon, and, Detravious and of course my boo thang Bryson!! I hated this church so much....like almost everyone here was fake and phony, but I didn't care cause today was the beginning of my future, and hopefully Bryson will be in it. We all went to the reception hall and had some food, of course my mom and Bryson's mom were crying like babies cause we was about to branch out and be grown, and these annoying old ass church folk kept badgering me about college girls like who gives a fuck!
"So you gon date them college girls huh?" Asked old ass deacon George
"Yeah I can't wait!" I said tryna act straight as I can
"Well you know son it's a different world than high school, them girls a lil wild ya know I what I mean."
"I bet I'll find out.....hey dad imma go get some cake!" I said as I slithered away from these straight folk, I was gonna get some of this yummy ass cake, when I saw Bryson getting some cake too....
"Hey baby!" Bryson said
"Hey, this cake looks good huh,"
"It ain't like yours tho, now that was good!" Bryson said referring to our hot car sex after prom
"Baby you had me weak, when can we...do it again?" I asked, feenin for that sex
"I need to talk to you bout something can we sit on the bench outside."
This sounded kinda serious, so we both took our cake and went outside to the bench, I thought we were gonna break up or some shit I mean I was very nervous! But Bryson told me this news that he was gonna join the army, and that he leaves in a month or so for basic training....I was crushed!
"So you're leaving me?" I asked
"Well kinda but babe just know I'll never ever forget about you!" Bryson said
"What about that sex we had, babe I wanna do that again, an again, I just want you!" I was raising my voice
"Look baby don't trip, it's in Virginia you can come visit me!"
"I can, so this won't be the end of us?" I asked all emotional
"Nah, there'll never be an end to this....baby we belong together, don't you know that! I love you so so much it's gonna hurt not seeing you!" Bryson said as he was gettin emotional
"Awww I love you so much too.....you know ain't nobody out here, can I have a kiss...."
Then Bryson gave me such a good ass kiss, damn......DAMN, I practically had my legs wrapped around, then we both laid on the table just caught up in our love, kissing endlessly!But then suddenly our parents just so happened to come outside and you can only guess what happened next....
"BRYSON WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!!!"
"MOM!"
"AARON!!"
"Um.....it's not what it looks like mom...."
Later on that day was like being in hell! My parents were so upset more than ever! They sat me down and we had like this super tense moment, I basically revealed everything about me and Bryson, how we met and everything...
"So he's your boyfriend?" Asked my mom
".....Yeah," I said depressingly
"Did you guys......have sex?" My mom asked me nervously
"Yes.....after prom" I revealed
After that my mom put her head in shame, she then started crying like it was sooooo dramatic! I tried to go over to comfort her but she pushed me away! My dad looked at me in disgust, as an upcoming pastor he couldn't have a gay son that would be bad for his lil image or whatever, so later on he took me back to the church, we were the only ones there, and as went inside the sanctuary he made me get on my knees and he put this oil on my forehead and started praying hard as hell! He was crying I was crying, I felt mega bad about the love me an Bryson had and I felt so ashamed, my parents made me feel like a fuckin pervert!!
"LORD OH LORD, GET THIS UNCLEAN SPIRIT OUT OF MY CHILD, OH LORD IT GOT A HOLD OF HIM RELEASE IT......RELEASE IT NOW LORD!!!!" My dad was just so damn extra
Two days later.....
My dad told me to come to the living room, I didn't know if he was goin to do another kamikaze prayer or what, but as I sat down in the living room they really looked at me like they had something planned for me.....
"What's going on?"
"Son, we know you can’t shake this....this homosexual spirit all by yourself, which is why you are going to Orange Grove,"
"LOOK YALL DONT UNDERSTAND, I LOVE BRYSON, I LOVE HIM, I DONT NEED FIXING I JUST WANNA SEE HIM!" I protested
"Son you are not right.......you're not right, how can you lay with another man with a smile on your face DONT YOU KNOW WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS!!" My mom started getting emotional again
"Trust us this is for your own good...."
Orange Grove was like this super uppity school in North Carolina with crosses on the lawn! It was like some San Quentin shit like all the girls dressed like the damn 1950s and church was mandatory.....EVERY MORNING! Aside from what I heard I didn't know what to expect but I really didn't have a choice, it was nonrefundable and I really wanted to make my parents love me, and I was willing to anything to get them to love me again even if it meant being "straight" again.......big fuckin mistake!
Chapter 6: Being Something I Wasn’t
Orange Grove University, August 2005
It was a rough summer, I mean it was so much tension, and my parents doing everything they could to make me straight, I really missed Bryson at this point, but he was In the army somewhere an was pretty much gone now! I still loved Bryson with all my heart....and that's something my parents would never understand! But today was the day I moved in to this dorm at the school, it really felt like a fuckin prison I mean we couldn't cuss or anything, girls wore skirts down to the knees! And of course the most important one.....we had to go to chapel every morning and it just like church back at home just more boring! My parents pretty much forced me to go to this place so I guess I make the best of it....
When I went to lunch at the cafeteria I sat usually by myself, I called my friend Erica back home and boy was it a relief to hear her voice...
"Hey Aaronnnnnnn!"
"Hey gurl how you been?"
"Well I'm a freshman at UNC and chile these girls fine as shit, like imma be busy.......how you been!"
"Not so good, my parents found out about me an Bryson and I haven't talked to him since, and gurl they really were angry like everything was goin good till they caught us kissin!"
"Omg why they so mad Bryson makes you happy tho!"
"I KNOW, but they went all crazy TRYNA pray the gay out of me and signing me up for this uppity Christian school like gurl.....I wish I can run away and be with Bryson but he told me he joined the army so....I feel so ashamed!
"BABY DONT BE ASHAMED OF WHO YOU ARE YOURE GAY AINT NOTHIN WRONG WITH THAT FUCK WHAT YOURE PARENTS THINK GOD KNOWS YOU GAY...AN OBVIOUSLY HE STILL CARES!!"
"Thanks gurl, maybe me an Bryson will get back together because I really do miss him...."
After I talked to Erica I was sitting at the table by myself and then I overheard these other boys talkin, they were talkin all this shit about gays and how they were going to hell, I felt so uncomfortable and it brought back flashbacks about my dad trying to pray the gay out of me and how my parents basically made me feel like shit just because I was in love with Bryson.....so I left the cafeteria with a few tears in my eyes back to my dorm. When I got to my room I just was wallowing in my s
hame, then I thought about it god would really let me into heaven, being that I already fucked Bryson and let him eat and smash my booty! Later on that day I went to chapel and I really didn't want to but something inside me thought it was a good idea.....
"Aaron what are you doing here, chapel is closed." Said minister Clarence
"I need to talk to you...it's important."
"What's the issue young man?"
"You see I'm gay.....and I want to go into heaven but I already had sex...with another guy an stuff, will God forgive me?"