by Gary Hawkes
leaves
Now transcends, mind keen
Confidence appalled
Then mauled
Not appropriate on the day, or any day
Rudder less ship continues forward
What is this life for?
Can we question?
Anything except why
It’s the Black Fly
Immersed in the Black Dove
Flying high in the dark sky
Continue
White horse
Descending crow
Black dove
Is it Death, calling from above?
Time to go home
Eternal resting place
Above the sky, full of love
Your time is soon
Not yet
Beckoning from the maintained flock
No more wasted talk
They may balk
Rise again, from the ensuing slumber
Rise again, call their number
Maintain peace
Keep the peace
We all have each
A choice to ponder
Why wonder
Angels amuse themselves
Watching the busy elves, entertain themselves
Confident in their importance
Their long lasting existence
Sun soon sets
Brings with it the days regrets
Ponder the life yet lived
What will you give?
Anything they say, to continue as is
Change
Silly boy thinks it will work
Pampered amusement, no report
What else can there be to resort?
Soaring away with the bad thoughts
Unexplained, that is still fought
It never goes
Time will show
The true growth
So bring forth
New ideas to change the course
Relay the path
Correct the math
Prepare the upcoming wrath
Your time is now if you claim
Forget the pain
Get out, and explore the open range
Move forward, make your change
Amend
Contemplating things while sitting on my deck
Remember the first time I was in a wreck
Not much changes it seems
Even spoiled relations others would dream
Listening to old music from high school
Use to think this band was so cool
Now alone while wife and kids swim in the pool
Waiting again, have to be sorry again
For trying to live again
Can you go on without me?
Seemed too happy to agree
Run away in a flash
Left reflecting on the past
Met in a drunk haze, back in the glory days
Not quite opposites attract
But we were quick to hit it off
It wasn’t always easy
I was no saint
We had an interesting Canadian date
But we made it through
Moved a few times
Two boys who are just my style
We then grew apart
And not sure if we can both go without
Keep up the image
The world is a stage
Now anything to amend
Family’s support still depends
Happiness still possible
Better for it in the end
Amend Part II
Just a little more time, that’s all we need
Who cares if you have nothing to eat?
You did it, so we need to remind you of it
Mistakes must be ridiculed
We rule over you
Tension builds
Exhaustion kills
Never filled
We knew you’d come back to us
You can’t even afford a ticket by bus
So, suffer through this a little longer
We know you were the wronger
Or is it more wrong
Don’t know that song
East some pasta with ketchup
Then we’ll make up
Forget about yesterday
We can all get that way
Time to make amends
Happiness does depend
On being loved, being right in the head
Let’s look forward to this life ahead
The rock
The rock shifted, and I lost balance
Is there another chance?
Too drained to even dance
Relied too much on the rock, too much weight
My mistake
Now stuck in hibernate
Unable to leave
Lost all footing
Starting over with no bling
Lost connections
No preparations
How do you?
Cut off
Stand off
Lost
Able
Quickly, but patiently
Planning out, surveying about
Thoughtful past, long last
Move on when best able, but stay stable; Others unreliable
Self-made, from The Glade; what is paid?
Can we stay?
Nothing is sure on this day
Melancholy, watch the passing trolley and the girl with holly
Appraise, rearrange, clear the stage
Same words
Dream world
Nodding off
Cooling off
Straight edge
Need new sled
Broken deal, mended heal
Previous thought to steal
Confusion, combustion
Practice with certainty
Never coming opportunity
Allowance for misery
Expect close
The White Rose brings joyful Noise
So be poised for a new beginning
Will it ever?
Sometime in the evening
Paralleled meandering
Anything worth renewing?
Awake
Awake again
Scribbling
Channeling something
What about it?
What is to know?
Can there be a good show?
Full on crutch
Timeless past
Deep non sleep
Try to keep, anything real
Hold steady
Are they ready?
Unknown energy
Misgivings take the stage
Followed by wasted rage
Unavoidable truth navigates the maze
Dark, light
Good, bad; what is in sight?
It seems the journey is winding down
Soon is vague
Not much to say
Unknown play
But at least maybe not today
Foretold, instant light
Mid distance, bright
No need for fright
Embrace, as you said
Forgive for what was said
Return soon, hopeful noon
New moon
High Mountain beckons
Return call, nothing small
Detective of apparition
Come to a final conclusion
Dreamless
Overseeing the master plan
Not a careful man
Origination come into question
Why partake in this section?
Doomed reflection
Time to rebound
Or is it?
What will be found?
Ageless journey through the deep unknown
Assembling what they were shown
Allowing the clown to wear his gown
Laughing at the musing display
Nothing today
Dreamless nothing
Heading for something
Wearing the eternal ring
It’
s time to sing
Crashing near the dangers
Unknown sparks fear, angers
Hold fast and stay alert
Soon time to exert
Lasting hope still on Earth
Flailing hate hold its turn
Not ready for its time to burn
Scorched evil at a sonic yurn
Questioning the motives of both sides
No controlling the tide
Whose side are you?
Speak up
They’re looking at you
Appreciate your spot
Not too hot
Forgiveness can’t always be bought
Weaning energy
Flightless me
Hope eternity
Any?
Hard to see
Proclaim your spot
Soon The Others will find it too hot
Abandon what’s left
To start a new quest
Is there hope here?
Tell me deer
Why this place, and the human race?
Because it’s home
Too late
Too much reliance on others
Kicked down, too much of a bother
Painful pest I am
Hard to stand
Lost sight
How long to go on like this?
Long as needed
Proved misdeed
Past desecration
Wasted recreation
Can there be anyone for you?
Is it up to you?
Future bright for lucky few
But, anyway…
Not much else to say
What’s the name of this play?
Tomorrow is still a new day
Rise up, it’s never too late
Don’t test fate
Well, not too often
Soul softens, shadow boxing
Prepare for the end match
Dark one’s catch, prospering in the twilight patch
Engaged in the fight
It goes with all their might, tonight
Stand tall now, force yourself how
Can you make it?
Or desecrate it
Are you a member of the elite?
Push it; to the limit
But, anyway…
Not much else to say
What’s the name of this play?
Tomorrow is still a new day
Rise up, before the end of today
Young Star
Master of nothing; gained or lost leads to forgotten costs
Encouraged speak from the noble birth
What are you worth?
Unfortunates need to sort
Placate to what they demand
Anyone can; anyone will
Get your fill, but don’t spill
Expose yourself
Both light and shadow
Let them know; the others made a vow
No one will tell you how
When to take a bow
Let them laugh, let them fear
Confuse the presumptions with un-mistaken clear
It’s gone too far; who do you think you are?
Brightly shine young star
Before you fade in enclosing dark
What will become of the Forgottens?
Answers there are none
Go before it’s done, already losing some
Recycling, trying, dying
It’s gone too far; who do you think you are?
Brightly shine young star
Before you fade in enclosing dark
This Dream
Checking out this new house
Wondering what it is all about
Exciting days ahead
As long as the dream gets out of bed
Haven’t grown up much all these years
That Devil loves them beers
And now I’m hoping this dream comes true
The Others have left me only wanting you
We had a good times and I’ll always love you
But, I’m hoping this dream comes true
We Know
What’s wrong with you?
Are you feeling blue?
What makes you think it’s up to you?
You should listen to us
We know what to do
What is best for you?
Heaven help us
There’s nothing you can do
Joyous Occasion
Did I go too deep?
Unravel a mystery without any laws
Nothing is sacred in this land of make believe and flaws
Who’s mind is this they ask?
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