One Life With Him
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One Life With Him
Jonathan & Monica’s Story
CD Reiss
Flip City Media Inc
Contents
I. SING
Opening
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Untitled
Chapter 49
II. CODA
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
Chapter 82
Chapter 83
Chapter 84
Chapter 85
Chapter 86
Chapter 87
Chapter 88
Epilogue
TAKE ME
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
The Edge Series
Chapter 1
Also by CD Reiss
One Year With Him - CD Reiss
Formerly Song Coda Dominance and Connection
Copyright © 2013-2015
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All characters are fictional. Any similarities to persons living or dead are the result of coincidence or wish fulfillment.
This book was previously published as Song Coda Dominance and Connection.
Cover art designed by the author
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The first four chapters of Coda are a modified version of “Monica” which was available as part of the “Dominance” collection.
Part I
SING
Take my hand, my love
On sinews of air we tread
Aught but distance our guide
With no tempo to our gait
No endpoint drawn
Neither plot nor plan
By the thorns of a compass rose
We bound toward the horizon
Chapter 1
MONICA
Dr. Thorensen had put up his Christmas lights on December first, two weeks ago, decorating his wood detailing and redwood fence with tiny multicolored dots. No fat inflatable snowmen. No Santas. No elves. Just classy little spots hanging around the edges of his property like a joyful fucking aura.
It was too early to ring Dr. Thorensen’s bell. He was a single guy in his mid-thirties, and it was Tuesday morning. He was probably at his office or the hospital. Maybe nuzzling one of the women I saw come around periodically. But I was losing my shit. I couldn’t wait another minute, and I’d noticed he kept odd hours. I saw him through the glass in a polo and jeans, carrying a coffee cup. When the door opened, he looked grave.
“Monica, am I blocking your driveway?” Then he looked at me. I must have been a sight. “Are you okay?”
“Not really.”
“What happened?”
I felt silly, as if I’d become a story he’d tell his friends. I’d become the annoying girl next door. He’d told me once that he didn’t put an MD license plate on his car because he wanted to avoid random advice-seekers and neighbors with a sniffle. I laughed with him over the story of the Montessori mother two doors down who wanted him to look at her son’s scraped knee. So I’d avoided ringing his bell for five long, lonely, friendless days.
But he was a cardiologist, and when Santa brought me a gift, I figured I shouldn’t try to cram it back up the chimney. One long sentence poured out. “I didn’t want to bother you—I mean, it’s not like he can’t afford the best doctors in the world—but I’m afraid to tell them what I think or that I’ll look crazy, so I was wondering if you had privileges at Sequoia Hospital?”
“I do.” I feared his next words would be something like, “Sorry, I’m not working right now. I deserve to be at home in peace as much as the next person, and the fact that I spent a quarter million dollars on school doesn’t make me public property.” But he stepped aside and said, “Come in.”
I’d never been inside his house. Though I’d always been curious about it, when I finally did see it, I barely noticed anything. I’d been blind to details for a week. My brain had somehow narrowed down to what it thought were the only important things: breathing, worrying about Jonathan, and desire to kill Jessica. But when I passed the living room, flashing lights caught my eye. Three huge flatscreen TVs were up with a leather chair set positioned to see all of them. I recognized the steampunk settings and those particular burnished brass and wood finishes from a party I’d attended before Jonathan. In another life.
“You play City of Dis?” I asked. The online multiplayer game was highly competitive, complex to a fault, and if a player had the brainpower to keep up with it, more addictive than crack.
“Yeah.” He seemed a little embarrassed. “Need to wind down sometimes, you know.”
“I know this guy who wears Depends when he plays so he doesn’t have to get up to go to the bathroom.”
“I’m potty trained, even in character. Coffee?”
I followed him to the marble and glass kitchen. “No, thanks. I’m more of a tea person.”
“So,” he refreshed his cup, “if it’s not the driveway, and you’re asking about Sequoia, must be a medical call?”
“I’m so sorry to bother you.”
“You’re fine. Sit.” He pulled out a tall chair by the marble kitchen bar.
I sat, feet wrapped around the legs, a coiled tension in my hips. “You did the place nice. It’s probably the best house on the block.”
“It’s an investment.” He put a pot of water on the stove. “Could have gotten something in Beverly Hills or Palisades for twice the price and half the aggravation, but where’s the fun in that?”
“It’s
quieter and cleaner?”
“No potential, though. Nowhere to go but down. This neighborhood’s going to be Beverly Hills in ten years, and I get to live next to people like you. Interesting people. It’s all lawyers over there.” He glanced at me as if checking on me. “So what brings you?”
“You’re a cardiologist. I’m sorry, but—”
“Stop apologizing.”
“My...I guess you’d call him a boyfriend? He’s at Sequoia.”
“A patient, I assume.”
“They say he has a heart problem. That he damaged his valves when he was younger and he...” Was I betraying a confidence? People had been talking of his suicide attempt so often that it seemed like old news, but the talk had been within the confines of his family and doctors. Dr. Thorensen waited, leaning on the counter, his cup warming his hands. “He took too much Adderall once when he was a teenager.”
“This is Jonathan Drazen?”
I felt a tingle of shock, like an adrenaline rush. He knew, and he mentioned his name right there in the kitchen, as if Jonathan’s condition and how he came to be so sick was public knowledge.
He must have seen the confirmation on my face. He put down his cup and opened a chrome canister on the counter. It was full of teabags. “That explains the car.”
Was I just being sensitive? It sounded as though he thought I couldn’t possibly have bought a Jaguar without fucking someone. I didn’t have time to decide if I was mad because Dr. Thorensen continued as if he knew he’d implied something that could twist my knickers and wanted me to forget it.
“We have a weekly meeting on the high-risk cardiology patients,” he said. “Just to check diagnoses and make sure we’re on the same page about treatment. I’ve seen him.” He held up a hand as if to reassure me. “I’m not his doctor or anything. Dr. Emerson is with him. He’s highly qualified.”
“And you agreed a sixteen-year-old overdose gave him a heart attack? That makes no sense.”
“Adderall is basically legalized speed. Taking a fistful will damage your valves, and the slightest blockage will give you a heart attack. No question. It’s a miracle he made it this far.”
He handed me my cup. I didn’t want it but found my hands clasping it anyway. “Are you sure?” I asked. He raised an eyebrow but said nothing. “I don’t mean to question you. I’m sorry. I didn’t go to medical school. But before it happened, we were at a party, and he was gone a long time. I think...” I felt so stupid even saying it. I’d told Margie my theory, and she’d dismissed it. “I think he was poisoned.” I stared into my teacup.
“That’s a pretty broad accusation.” He said it softly and kindly, but under it all was a hint of condescension, as if what he really wanted to say was that I was crazy.
“He has enemies,” I said.
“Yes.”
“His ex-wife was mad at him.”
“Okay.”
“He was fine just before.”
“No, he wasn’t.”
“I was there, you weren’t. I’m sorry, but he was fine.”
He put his cup down, and I felt the weight of my intrusion. He was playing a video game at eight in the morning, getting a moment’s peace from a high pressure job, and I was dragging his work into his kitchen. And he didn’t believe me. I wanted him to believe me, even though I felt crazier and crazier.
He said, “There was nothing on his tox screen. I sat with his attending for two hours looking at EKGs. He had a massive coronary event. There’s a pretty good chance he’d been having small heart attacks in the days previous. His valves are shot.” He stopped his sentence as if catching himself. He’d been talking about a man’s heart like it was a carburetor.
“I should go.”
“He has a very good prognosis.”
“Thanks for the tea.” I put it on the counter.
“Monica, listen—”
“Dr. Thorensen—”
“I’m Brad.”
“Brad, it’s been a rough five days. He’s got seven sisters and a mother and they...most of them...act like I’m no one to him. I’m on his list, so I’m told everything, but I’m surrounded by strangers. Seeing him like that, with the IV and the tubes and just waiting to get cut open… Everyone’s worried, and no one wants to listen.”
“I understand the desire to blame someone, but he wasn’t poisoned. I promise you,” he said.
There had been no evidence of poisoning, and Jessica had been in my sights, or in the bathroom, most of the time. I was looking for a ten-second interval where she could have...What? Fed him something? Slyly injected him? Did I think I was living in an Agatha Christie novel where conceptual artists moonlit as chemists?
“Yeah,” I said, “I guess.”
“Tell you what. Why don’t you play City of Dis with me for a little while? I’m in the eighth circle. I’ll build you a character from my profile. You won’t get an opportunity to play at that level anywhere else. All your problems go away.” He snapped his fingers. “Magic. Come on.”
“I can’t.”
“An hour.”
“I haven’t done laundry in two weeks, and I have to go to work.”
He put down his cup. “Rain check?”
“Yes, and thank you, Brad.” His short name sounded both overly familiar and coldly detached in my mouth.
“Any time.”
He walked me out, and I went home to wrestle the laundry. Maybe I’d hang out a Christmas light myself. I found a letter taped to my screen door. No envelope, just an open sheet.
Notice Of Public Auction
The rest was legal bullshit, but I scanned the page for the handwritten parts. My address. Thirty days. Non-payment.
“Shit.” I looked at my house as I might find an answer there, but it was just a dark wooden box with a crumbling foundation. I still hadn’t gotten the papers signed to fix it, but if the permits had been opened, my mother had gotten the notice in the mail. So she knew something was going down. The notice must have been the result of my failure to send her a check two months running.
I had to call her.
I didn’t want to call her.
I stared at my phone. The number was right there. I’d missed rent twice before, once when Kevin and I broke up, and once when Gabby had tried to commit suicide. Both times, I’d sent two months' rent in an envelope with a thank you note. So when Gabby died and I was short, I just figured I’d make it up. I could have, except I was in Vancouver December first and forgot. Then I stopped working when Jonathan collapsed. Honestly, even if I’d had the cash, I was too preoccupied to manage any practical aspect of my life.
That’s what I got for living in her house. Really, how long could I mooch off someone I wasn’t speaking to anyway? How old was I? I hit her number while I unlocked my front door. It was easier to do difficult things if I multitasked through them.
My house was exactly the same every time I went into it to shower or grab something. Nothing moved. The blanket on the couch was rumpled in the shape of an opening rose. The curtains draped over the back of the chair like perfectly-trimmed bangs. The dishes in the rack were filed and waiting for archiving in the cabinets.
The phone stopped ringing, and there was a click. Mom’s voice still had the slight Brazilian accent that had been carefully chipped away but never smoothed off. My heart skipped a beat, an adrenaline rush in preparation for the confrontation. It was her voice mail.
“Hi, Mom. I got a notice the bank is auctioning off the house? Should we talk about it?”
God, that was stupid. I hung up. Should’ve paid the fucking rent. Should’ve called her to let her know I was in a pinch. Should’ve had Darren move in. One more stupid shit thing in a long line of other stupid shit things. I folded the notice and wedged it into the corner of my notebook. Fuck the Christmas lights.
Chapter 2
MONICA
I was nearly out of gas. I had five dollars in my pocket, one maxed out credit card, and a checking account dangerously close to scraped cle
an. I could get to work and make some cash, but without that eighth of a tank, I’d be taking the bus to the hospital and paying the fare with change found between couch cushions.
I didn’t dare tell Jonathan things had gotten that bad. I went to him every night with sunshine in my voice and rainbows in my pocket. When I wasn’t at Sequoia, I let the panic come. Slamming my locker closed, I painted on a customer service smile for no one in particular.
“Monica?” Andrea came up behind me, her hair dyed blue. It was always a new color with her, and I seemed to have missed that change. The color was already fading back to green.