“I thought I was done crying,” she said with a hollow laugh. “I suppose I’m not.”
Ludivine paused at the window, her slender body framed in twilight. Frozen forever at sixteen—what a strange and terrible thing.
And not a secret any of them would be able to hide forever.
“I wish I could help you,” Ludivine said, and Rielle felt the truth of it brush against her mind. “I wish so many things.”
“Just because I don’t trust you right now doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I wish I didn’t, and maybe I shouldn’t after what you’ve done, but I still do nevertheless.” Rielle turned away from the hope shining on Ludivine’s face. “There. I’ve wanted to say that for days, and now I’ve said it.”
A soft knock on the door. Evyline entered with a delicate cough. “My lady? Prince Audric is here to see you.”
Rielle’s heart jumped with nerves. Since the trial, Audric had been so occupied with meetings, funerals, and caring for his mother that she had barely seen him. And whenever she did, she faced him with a new fear: that he would sense the lies spinning in her heart and turn her away forever.
But as he entered the room, meticulous in mourning black, all of that flew out of her mind. If she looked tired, he looked far worse—his skin sallow and drawn, his eyes red from exhaustion. His grief trailed him like shadows.
She went to him at once, and without a word he opened his arms to her.
“I’ve missed you,” he whispered, his voice muffled in her hair. “Would it be awful of me if I asked you to my bed tonight?”
For a moment, she could think only of his arms around her. She smiled against his shoulder. “I was about to ask you the same thing.”
“My light and my life.” He bent low to kiss her softly.
“Is everything ready below?” Ludivine asked.
“Our escort is waiting for us.” Audric paused, then released Rielle and, hesitating, held out his hand to Ludivine. “But before we go down, I need to talk to you for a moment. To both of you.”
Rielle stiffened.
Don’t worry. Ludivine took Audric’s hand. He knows nothing. And he never will. I’ll see to it.
“It’s this…all of this. Corien. The Gate and the angels. And you, Lu.” Audric released Ludivine’s hand with a tight smile. “It’s a lot to wrap my mind around. And now, with Father gone—” His voice caught. “Mother will be the one to lead us to war, when it comes, and we’re to help her with that, Rielle—you and me. And Lu, we won’t tell anyone what you are, of course, but you will also be instrumental as we move through these next months and years. The knowledge you have about your kind will be invaluable.”
Ludivine nodded. “Of course.”
Audric considered her. “Can you really be so eager to turn against your own people?”
“They are not my people,” Ludivine said. “Not anymore. You are my people.” She looked to them both, her face open and fierce. “I am loyal to you and no one else.”
Rielle glanced at Audric. Their gazes locked, and she didn’t need Ludivine’s power to understand what he was thinking: He was still wary of Ludivine, just as Rielle was. But what choice did they have but to trust her?
“Mother will need advisers,” Audric continued after a moment, and we will be her closest ones. We must fortify our borders, reach out to the rest of the continent. Find out what they know—and what they don’t.”
“And we must travel to the Gate,” Rielle finished, “and assess the damage for ourselves.”
Audric nodded. “Tal and Sloane will accompany us. Tal insisted upon it. And where Tal goes…”
“Sloane follows.” Ludivine clasped her hands in her lap. “She wouldn’t want him to have all the fun after all.”
The forced note of cheer in her voice seemed to shake them all.
Audric’s gaze dropped to the floor. “There’s one more thing. If we are to do this, together, then we must have no more secrets. If you hear murmurings from the other angels, Ludivine, I want to know. And when Corien comes”—Audric took Rielle’s hand in his—“I need you to tell me, darling, when it happens. If he forces himself on you again, I need to know. What he says, what he does. Any clues as to where he is, who he might be with, what his plans are… Any of that could be helpful to us. When he moves against us, I want to be ready. And you are the closest link to him we have.”
Rielle nodded, unable to speak. It was unbearable, how little he suspected her of lies. He raised her hand to his lips, kissed her clenched fingers.
“I’m sorry,” he said, his voice tight with anger. “I wish I didn’t have to ask this of you.”
“Don’t be sorry.” She tried for an encouraging smile. “I’m the Sun Queen, aren’t I? This is what I do.”
“You’re only half right, my love. You protect me and my kingdom, but we also protect you.”
Below, throughout the city, the temple bells struck nine o’clock. In half an hour, the procession would begin.
“Shall we go down?” Ludivine stood a little apart from them, a careful smile on her face. “We don’t want to be late.”
“Promise me, first.” Audric held out his hand to her. “If we’re going to do this, we’ll do it together. All of us.”
Ludivine hesitated, then took his hand.
Rielle joined them, swallowing against the guilt wedged hot in her throat. “I promise,” she said and kissed his cheek. “No more secrets.”
“No more lies,” Ludivine added.
“Together, then,” Audric said and escorted them downstairs.
• • •
Hooded citizens lined the streets of me de la Terre, carrying candles in tiny brass cups. Hanging from every door and window, mourning lamps flickered softly.
The procession moved slowly up the city—first across the bridges over the lake, then the cramped lower streets, and at last the smooth paved roads of the temple district. The youngest acolytes from each temple led the way, scattering white petals. Seven windsingers guided King Bastien’s silk-draped stretcher slowly through the city on a gentle cloud of air. The king’s hands lay folded at his waist, his face peaceful.
Queen Genoveve followed behind them, her arm hooked through Audric’s. From behind her, at Ludivine’s side, Rielle saw how heavily the queen leaned against her son.
At the castle gates, only the royal party was allowed to proceed. Mourners crowded silently at the line of guards that barred their way. Rielle looked back once, saw the mass of bowed heads and bobbing candles winding like black rivers down the mountain to the city’s outer wall and the Flats beyond. They filled every road, lined every temple garden.
Some, Rielle noticed, looked not at the king, but at her. Did they wonder how so many had fallen, even with the mighty Sun Queen there to defend them?
Did they fear what that meant for the days ahead?
Rielle turned away from the scattered stony eyes upon her, heart clenched with worry.
What are they thinking? She clutched Ludivine’s hand. The ones staring.
They wonder many things, Ludivine replied.
They wonder why I was able to save you but not their loved ones who died at the trial. And not their king.
Ludivine was quiet for a moment, then squeezed Rielle’s fingers. Don’t think about that now. Be here, with me and with Audric. We both owe Bastien that much.
The procession entered the gardens behind Baingarde. Sorrow trees glowed pink throughout the shadowed green canopy. The seeing pools stood black and still.
At the mouth of the catacombs, Queen Genoveve stepped away from Audric and took her place before the great stone doors. She knelt, touched her fingers to her heart, her temple and throat, her palm, forehead, the nape of her neck, and the lids of her eyes. She rose to her feet as acolytes rolled open the doors and began to sing.
Saint Katell had sung the
same ancient lament over Aryava’s body, and the queen’s shredded voice tore on every word—but she stood tall and unbroken as her husband’s body passed beside her into the shadows.
It was then, as Bastien’s body faded into the blackness of the catacombs, that Rielle felt the wind kiss her skin.
Her power swelled gently against her bones—a wave building on a rumbling sea.
She looked, shivering, through the trees to the east, where the mountains surrounding the capital stood darkest. Ludivine’s hand tightened around her fingers, but she barely noticed.
It might have just been the wind she had heard, she supposed.
Or it might have been a whisper, calling her name.
52
Eliana
“I saw the storm she pulled down from the sky, how it set the Empire monsters afire and tore their ships in two. I saw her storm, and I fell to my knees and wept.
For I knew it as sure as the bones in my body: the Sun Queen had come at last.”
—Collection of stories written by soldiers in the free kingdom of Astavar
Curated by Hob Cavaserra
Eliana awoke quietly from a hard sleep.
Above her, a vaulted, violet-colored ceiling painted with silver stars.
Beneath her, a comfortable bed. Piled pillows and cool linens.
Beside her—
“Simon,” she whispered. He sat in a simple wooden chair at her bedside, his head in his hands. At the sound of her voice he looked up, and across his battered face flickered a softness she had never seen him wear.
“Hello there.” He pressed the back of his hand against her forehead. “You’ve cooled a bit more. That’s good.”
Then she remembered:
The storm raging black and brilliant over the crashing sea.
Simon holding her on the beach, his own body trembling with exhaustion. You’re burning up. Look at me, Eliana.
You have to stop it, or you’ll kill us all.
“No,” Eliana whispered, her face crumpling. “No, no, no.”
“Listen to me.” Simon gathered her hands in his. “You saved us. You saved everyone. Astavar still stands free. The Empire fleet has been destroyed. You did that, Eliana, and should be proud of it.”
She blinked back tears, struggling to breathe. “How long?”
“Three days. I’ve kept you fed as well as I could.”
“Remy?”
“Asleep.” He looked over his shoulder.
Eliana peered past him, found Remy sleeping peacefully on a pile of blankets by a blazing hearth. His mouth hung open as he snored.
She let out a tiny, tired laugh. “Navi?”
“Resting and well. The kings’ healers think that Fidelia had not begun their experiments, only the preparations.”
“And you?” She inspected his stitched-up torso, the bruises coloring his face, the redness rimming his eyes. “Oh, Simon, your eyes…”
“Don’t fret. They’re healing nicely. And anyway, I’ve had worse.”
She believed that without question but nevertheless sat up, ignoring his protests. Someone had dressed her in a simple, dark nightgown. Her body ached, but it was whole and healthy, and she hated it bitterly. One monster walks away unhurt while the other takes every scar for himself?
She swung her bare legs over the side of the bed and scooted close to Simon, her knees bumping against his. She reached for his face, hesitated. He watched her so intently she almost lost her nerve.
Almost.
She drew her fingers softly through his hair, down his cheek, across his jaw. She avoided the worst of his wounds, and yet still wondered if this was too much—an intrusion, a selfish one.
But she couldn’t resist touching him. She searched the tired lines of his face for the frightened little boy Zahra had shown her, and when her thumb brushed against his mouth, they both shivered.
“Am I hurting you?” she whispered.
He closed his eyes, leaned into her touch. “No,” he said hoarsely, “and if you ever did, I’d bear it gladly.”
“We fought well together out there.”
“We did.”
“I’m sorry you’re hurt.” Her chest tightened at the raw longing on his face, and she wondered when it last was that someone had touched him with any sort of kindness. “I wish I could take it from you.”
“Eliana…please.” He caught her hand gently and opened his eyes. “Don’t pity me. When I can, I take the blows meant for you.” He gathered something from the table beside her bed, folded it into her hands. “You are my queen, and my life is yours. It has been since the day you were born.”
She stared down at the necklace resting in her palms. “This was hers, wasn’t it? The Blood Queen. Mother said she found it on the street, but… Did she know?”
“Did Rozen Ferracora know who you really are? I doubt it.”
She settled the chain around her neck once more and breathed a bit more easily with its weight between her breasts.
“So you believe me now?” he asked.
She avoided looking at him. “About what?”
“That you are who I say you are.”
“What would it mean if it was true?”
“It would mean that you had inherited the power of the Blood Queen. That you are without doubt the only person capable of destroying the Empire. And that soon everyone in the world will know that Rielle’s daughter lives—and want you for their own.”
“Oh, is that all?” A tremor shook her voice.
“You won’t have to do this alone,” Simon said urgently. “I won’t ever leave your side, Eliana. And whatever I can do to keep you safe, I will do it.”
“Because I’m…your queen.” The words sounded hollow and ridiculous to her ears.
“Yes. And because…” He paused. “Because you are the best chance to save us all.”
She rose, moved past him to pace unsteadily through the tiny candlelit alcove surrounding her bed.
“I suppose I can’t deny it anymore, can I? After…” She waved one of her hands in the air.
“After your storm?”
Her storm. She closed her eyes, her mouth souring as she remembered the wildness of lightning and ocean scorching her fingertips, how she’d felt not at all herself and no longer in control of her own body.
She never wanted to feel that way again.
She watched Remy’s chest rise and fall. “Tell me about the night I saw.”
“What night?”
“You told me about it, I think, on Rahzavel’s boat.” She turned to him, losing her breath for a moment at the sheer unwavering focus on his face. “Zahra slipped into my mind, showed me a vision of it. There was a little boy, holding a baby. You showed me the bit of my blanket.”
“It was the night you were born,” Simon said at once. “Your mother—Rielle—decided to send us away, keep you out of Corien’s hands. I was her only chance to do so. She wrapped you in a blanket, put you in my arms, told me to take you north to Borsvall. We would seek asylum there.”
Her hand moved to her necklace. “And this?”
“A gift from King Ilmaire of Borsvall. She placed it around your neck, tucked it into your blanket. It was meant to be a message for him, I think.”
Eliana nodded slowly. She had heard various versions of the Blood Queen’s Fall from Remy over the years, all of them much grander than this one. The thought made her sad, which angered her. She didn’t want to feel sad about the woman whose unholy blood festered in her veins.
“And then she died.”
“And then she died. Her last act in this world was saving you.”
Scoffing, Eliana looked at the ceiling. “I’m not sure she did a good job of that. And I still don’t understand how we ended up here, over a thousand years later.”
Your mot
her—Rielle—decided to send us away.
I was her only chance to do so.
She walked back to Simon slowly. “You sent us away. You mentioned a thread, that it was too strong for you to hold onto me.” Heart pounding, mind racing, she sank onto the edge of her bed. “You’re a marque.”
Simon’s eyes glittered, watching her. “I was, long ago.”
“But Remy said marques have wings on their backs from birth, like a brand. I’ve seen your back—”
“The force of Rielle’s death threw the entire world out of alignment. Many things do not look as they once did. And whatever proof was left on my flesh, the Prophet made sure to eradicate it.”
The darkness in his voice made Eliana bristle. “Who is this man, anyway? The Prophet. What did he do to you?”
Simon touched her cheek with the backs of his fingers. “My queen worries for me. Be still, my wicked black heart.”
“As your queen,” she interrupted, her voice only a little unsteady, “I could have you hanged for touching me without my consent. Isn’t that right?”
He lowered his hand at once, but Eliana caught it and pressed his palm against her cheek. “I could also order you to stay as close as I please.”
His eyes never leaving hers, he knelt at her feet. “As my queen commands, so shall I obey.”
“Your life is mine,” she whispered, sliding his hand down her face and throat, coming to rest against her necklace. Through the thin fabric of her nightgown, his fingers burned her skin.
“To do with as you will, Eliana,” he said softly. “Then, now, and always.”
With her free hand she reached for him. “Come here,” she said, drawing him up to meet her. So near to him, she could think of nothing else—not her mother or this world of war and black-eyed angels or the storm still tingling under her skin. His fingers brushed against the dip of her waist, and she closed her eyes, grief and desire twining sharply up her spine.
“Please, Simon.” She breathed in and slowly out. Her eyes burned, her tears near and precarious. It had been too long since she had been held, since she had come apart at the touch of another’s hands, and suddenly she craved that release so ferociously that her head spun. “If it wouldn’t hurt you too much—”
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