by Chrissy J
“Yo you a crazy bitch,” Eddie yelled walking inside the room I looked at him with a deadly stare“Yea I am crazy, get your shit and bounce nigga.” I said throwing his shit at him he walked up on me he had the nerve to say he wasn’t going nowhere
“Yes, the fuck you are, go ahead and be with that bitch. So that’s where all your money goes? You taking bitches to the Bahamas? And that hoe carrying your seeds fuck you Eddie, I’m not going to be your dummy anymore.” I said sitting on my bed and lighting my blunt getting on his knees he tried to grab my hands but I kept pulling them away I wouldn’t and couldn’t look in his face, He told me that Asia lost the baby thanks to me. I sat there smoking my blunt with a blank stare
“Eddie save that bullshit game for somebody that don’t know your sneaky ass, I asked you if you was still fucking her and you lied. You know how that shit make me feel? I go into a salon where the owner is like family to me and have to hear about my supposed to be man taking his side chic to the Bahamas again, then the nerve of you to be broadcasting that shit by standing there kissing her like y’all a happy fucking couple and I’m home beating myself up over our daughter health and let’s not get on the fact you barely be around your son, fuck I see now you was staring a whole other family and happy home so when this shit gets old you can go back and forth,” I said looking at him the pain I felt was killing me slowly
“My home is right here with you, Lil man and our baby girl; I’m going to let you cool off then we going to talk.” he said trying to kiss me I hit his ass with the deuces I laughed as he got up then walked out the room and the house.
I cut off all the phones and sat in my room, I was hurt and I didn’t want nobody messing with me I finish packing Eddie shit and sat it near my bedroom door, I found a baggie filled with coke I sat there staring at it and for the first time in my life I got high off of something besides weed, I sniffed half the bag. I started sneezing and coughing I got and ran to the bathroom I felt like I had to throw up but nothing came out, I drunk some water the rush I got from getting high was like no other. I laid in my bed sleep came over me quick, I had to be sleeping for hour when I woke up Eddie was lying next to me with his arms wrapped around me. I eased outta the bed and went into the bathroom I jumped in and out the shower I wrapped a towel around my wet body and walked out the bathroom into my bedroom Eddie was sitting on the edge of the bed smoking a blunt;
“Goddess you still upset with me?” he asked passing me the blunt then looking at me, he was hurting just like I was but for different reason
“Eddie what you think? You hurt me to many times, I love you yes I do but I’m not going to be with you if you can’t be with just me. What she have that I don’t have?” I asked turning my body to the side to look him in his face
“I keep asking myself the same question but I can tell you right here and now I don’t love her, I can’t lose you Ma,” he said walking towards where I was standing, he wrapped his arms around me and I fell hard again for his bullshit lies. Stupid!!!
Over the next month I kept getting high Eddie count was getting low but he blame it on the workers he didn’t know I was sniffing damn near $300 dollars’ worth of coke on an everyday bases, nobody knew I had a habit I gain and lost weight so nobody could pinpoint anything wrong with me, Eddie was working on my good side he wanted me to trust him again he stayed in the house every night with me and Lil man and if he went out he called to let me know if he was coming home or he was going to late.
“Diva I got some shit to drop on you,” Hershey said walking into the kitchen where I was making Steak with rice and corn, I looked at Hershey like she was crazy I asked her what she had to tell me
“Asia lost her baby and no it wasn’t Eddie’s baby it was Kevin baby, now she wants your blood. I heard she was fucking both Eddie and Kevin the same time and when she found out she was pregnant she told both of them so they can throw money at her, but Eddie gave her money to get rid of the baby and she lied to him saying she was too far. So Chica you did your man a big favor by kicking that baby out of her,” Hershey laughed passing me the blunt she was smoking
“Why Eddie didn’t tell me all this?” I asked taking a pull from the blunt and shaking my head, “I just told you duh, she had both of them thinking they was the father, word around the hood is Eddie fucked her up for lying to him and fucking up y’all little happy home. But me and you both know he a dog and that nigga still a little salty about that hot shit Kevin was about to spit in the hospital,” Hershey said laughing some more, I turn to Hershey giving her the blunt back “She was fucking my Kevin to?” I asked needing to know so I can beat her ass again, Hershey laughed out loud telling me Asia was fucking this kid we knew name Kevin from Taft projects. I laughed out loud but Hershey knew I was plotting to kick Asia ass if she was fucking both of my baby daddies listening to Hershey joke about it would’ve been fucked up if Asia was really fucking Kevin and Eddie I gave her the middle finger then asked her if she was still coming with me to Virginia to visit my grandmother Nana who I haven’t seen in five years along with my two cousins Trill and Bria , I starting cutting some green peppers and onions waiting for her answer; “Hell yea and you know this, I need to find me another sponsor. I need to catch up with your ass,” she joked I rolled my eyes at her
“What you catching up on?” we turned to find Eddie and Teddy standing near the door way of the kitchen, I laughed telling Eddie none of his business. He walked over to me gave me a peck on the lips handing me two plane tickets that my father brought; Eddie asked when I was going to tell him that I was taking a trip out of town, Hershey cracked a smirk my way as she walked over to Teddy
“What’s up Teddy when you and my girl going to settle down?” I asked hugging him “When she stop playing games Lil mama, Yo when I’m going to get my nephew? Everybody else always get him even this one over here,” he asked pointing to Hershey
“So! I get him because I go and pick him up whenever I want my god baby I can’t wait for Fantasy to come home because I’ll be getting her to, Mel won’t have a problem with you picking his fatt butt up. And nigga what games I play? You the one always sneaking around,” she said mushing him in the head he grabbed her pulling her into him and they began kissing
“Come on nigga wifey don’t want to see that,” Eddie teased kissing my shoulder blade as I finish cutting up my stuff to throw inside the pot
“Y’all motherfuckers should be the last ones talking, y’all nasty asses make out everywhere,” Teddy joked
“Shut up,” I said laughing and sticking my tongue out at them. I called my father that night after Hershey and Teddy left to thank him for the tickets, he warned me not to get in any trouble in Virginia fucking around with my cousin Trill; and for me to go down there and relax with my Nana. It took him and Mary two weeks to even me to consider going to Virginia while my daughter was in the hospital, Mary assured me that Fantasy was going to be just fine between her my mother and Kevin being in the hospital with her. “Miles isn’t crazy daddy you better stop talking about my favorite cousin,” I said
“Yea that’s what your mouth say,” he joked laughing I spoke to him and Mary before yawning in his ear and telling him I love him and Mary and I’ll call them in the morning; “We love you Princess,” both Mary and my father said, we hung up and I went right to sleep.
The next day me and Hershey hit some store for a little bit of stuff to take with us because we both knew once we got down to Virginia we was going shopping, while we was paying for our stuff in the Gucci store I met Took. Now this nigga played too many games for me that’s why I put him in a friend Category. He stood around my height which was a turn off because I liked my men tall, he had nice brown skin long curly hair he kept in a ponytail with bushy eyebrows he was a shorty to the tee and he could dress his ass off; his whole approach is what made me stop what I was doing and talk to him, he touched my hand and asked what was my name. Hershey looked at him rolling her eyes up in her head trying not to laugh cause she knew
I didn’t date short men, I looked him over “Why you want to know? What’s your name?” I asked throwing the question back at him, “Took,” he said grinning with a mouth full of ice, and giggling like a school girl I asked what kind of name was Took? He explain that his father gave him the nickname when he was born after he came out bigger than his twin sister‘What is up with me and twins’ I thought; I asked him where he was from he replied Queens
“Are you going to tell me your name or you going to continue to be a Diva?” he asked smiling still holding on to my hand
“Well you just said my name and I didn’t have to tell you it,” I laughed
“Get out of here that’s not your name,” he said I laughed telling him that was my birth name Hershey cut in looking at Hershey pay for her stuff and grabbed her bags
“Yes, that’s her name, look exchange numbers already I got to go,” she said throwing her Jackie O’s on over her eyes I smirked at her she was being a real bitch , Took and I exchange numbers promising to call each other. When I got home I fucked the shit outta Eddie so he could shut the fuck up about me going to VA he was salty because I was leaving and I wasn’t taking Lil man with me he was staying at my father house while I was away and I was leaving while Fantasy was in the hospital; his thing was he couldn’t keep a watchful eye on me and he thought I was going out there to find me a new boo.
“Boo come on the plane leave at one,” I yelled from the living room “Goddess I’m coming, you have everything you’ll need?” he asked walking down the stairs with my Gucci duffle bag I laughed putting my hand out to him telling him I had everything but money, he cracked a smile asking me how long me and Hershey was staying out there? And telling me I thought I was cute smirking at him as he pulled out two bankrolls of money to give me
“First of all, I know I’m cute, Maybe a week or three days I really don’t want to be away from my baby girl to long, plus I haven’t seen my Nana and cousins in a while and do I need to tell you how much money I need?” I smiled real wide as we walked to his Blue Benz, Eddie open the door for me then walked around to the driver’s side and got in
“Yo you know I don’t be knowing how much money to give your spoil ass, that’s why I asked you. Mel probably hit you off already,” he joked pulling off, yea my father gave me his bank card plus five grand in cash but Eddie didn’t need to know all that. He was my man not my father and he was going to come out his pockets for whatever I wanted or needed no questions asked;“Whatever nigga stop being cheap,” I told him punching his arm “When have I ever been cheap to you?” he asked pulling up to Teddy house to pick Hershey and Teddy up. Once Hershey and Teddy got inside the Benz we were on our way to the airport, while we were driving I got a call from Took asking me what was happening for the day I peeped Eddie staring at me so I kept my answer nice and short
“Ain’t nothing happing today I’m on my way outta town, we’re going to have to link up when I come back. Hershey down to go clubbing,” I told him throwing it off
“Aight Boo, I have a friend for her,” he said I heard the smile in his voice, I told him I’ll call him when I got back in town then hung up. Eddie looked at me being nosey, he been doing that lately every time my phone ring he want to know who calling and when I’m in the bathroom or kitchen and I leave my phone sitting somewhere this nigga have the nerve to go through my phone, I told him penalty of times I didn’t have anything to hide if I was cheating on him I would tell him just so he can leave me the fuck alone; I didn’t have time to baby sit a insure nigga, letting him know I wasn’t him and I didn’t need to cheat on him to hurt his feelings or break his heart he let up a lil with the inspector gadget shit;
“Who was that?” he asked stopping at a red light, I heard Hershey in the back seat giggling like a dummy
“That was Tanya, this girl we went to school with. She out of school for a month and she wanted to link up,” I told him rubbing his head he smiled that smile I loved, he pulled in the parking lot of Newark Liberty International Airport. Teddy jumped out grabbing our bags as me and Hershey walked inside the airport we got to our gate after getting searched Teddy and Eddie was right behind us
“Your plane is boarding now,” the ticket attendant said checking our tickets, we thanked her and turned to our men.
“Okay boo give me a kiss, you better be good don’t have me come home to find out some bullshit,” I told Eddie wrapping my arms around his neck he leaned down so his lips was touching mine
“Don’t worry about me Goddess, go chill but don’t have too much fun,” he joked but I knew he was serous, Hershey and Teddy was locked in a heated kiss bystanders was staring at them shaking their head, I was about to spazz out on them like they never seen a fucking couple kissing;
“Do y’all want a ticket for exploit behavior?” I joked Hershey pulled away from Teddy smiling
“See you in a week baby,” she said to Teddy wiping the lip gloss from his lips, he just stood there grinning.
“Love you Hershey chocolate,” he whispered in her ear, who would’ve thought both of us would snatch twin brothers and have them wrapped around our fingers, that shit was scary sometimes because Teddy and Eddie was identical minus the scar. Eddie got sliced in the face while he was in jail. Eddie gave me 5,000 he told me if I needed more to call him, which I didn’t because my father gave me his American express card to use. Me and Hershey boarded the plane and took our seats. Where Eddie money goes? To me and mine and not to another sorry ass bitch; it’s a damn shame how bitches play the side chic role only to get their feelings hurt in the end.
Chapter 7
Virginia/ Virginia Love
When we landed we grabbed our duffle bags and walked off the plane, Hershey asked who was coming to the airport to get us. I told her breath easy my fine ass cousin should be in the parking lot waiting for us; my cousin Trill is brown skinned with jet black curly hair; his eyes are hazel and a sexy body. We walked out of Richmond International airport
“Is that my baby cousin?” I looked up and seen Trill coming towards us from a money green Range Rover
“Trill,” I said jumping on him, I haven’t seen my cousin and his baby sister Bria’ Star since I was ten. My Nana packed their shit and left New York, I always spoke to them on the phone but Trill hated NY since his father killed his mother. My aunt was a hustler’s wife for real, she was down for her crown she did everything for my uncle Miles. But it wasn’t enough she had my cousin Bria four months before my mother had me, after she was born everything went down my aunt left uncle Miles. He didn’t like the fact that aunt Summer was going clubbing and hanging out with her home girl’s, one night my uncle went to the house they once shared and threated her if he caught her with another nigga he was going to kill her. I was five and Trill was six when my aunt died, my uncle Miles went home to my aunt Summer house drunk while my she was sleep and shot her in her head then turn the gun on himself. He took both their lives that winter night in October. Uncle Miles told everybody if he couldn’t have my aunt no other nigga would, his other two baby mothers didn’t mean anything to him like my aunt did. He knew he did her dirty by having two kids with two different bitches, Trill the oldest and only boy Bria being the baby. Within three months he had three babies back to back, Trill hated his father for what he did and he didn’t like his father family. He sent money to both his little sisters but that was it, he even change his birth name from Miles Jr to Trill. “Look at you girl, you got so big.” he said in a southern drawl spinning me around then putting me down
“You too where Brianna Star at? Damn I’m mad rude, Trill this my best friend Hershey. Hersh this my big cousin Trill,” I said he kissed her hand causing Hershey to blush
“MM mm... that name fit you Ma, your hand taste just like Hershey chocolate,” he said making her blush,
“Trill stop being nasty, come on girl you over here stuck,” I laughed getting inside the Range I got in the front and Hershey got in the back
“Shut up bitch, that nigga is se
xy as hell. Why I never met him before? I know your whole family both sides,” Hershey said holding her chest and fanning herself, I told her she knew his sister and that Trill is the one I told her about that didn’t like New York. Trill got inside the Range asking if we were hungry my Grandmother said she was making me some curry goat so I didn’t want nothing else to eat I looked at Hershey in the back seat to see if she was hungry,
“I’m good just get me a blunt and a juice,” she said Trill laughed passing her a rolled up blunt“Get your mind right Shorty,” he winked at her through the mirror
“Thanks,” she smiled I looked at both of them and shook my head. I talked to Trill about my grandmother and cousin, asking Trill how was my Nana; Trill told me she was doing alright but she was in the hospital the month before for pulling a muscle trying to lift something, he said his lil sister Bria had issues how she always in some bullshit and she be on some bullshit sometimes. Bria still live with Nana, Trill told me she don’t help my Nana do anything around the house shaking his head.
“What’s wrong with her?” I asked taking then blunt from Hershey I really wanted some coke in my system but I had to wait until I was alone for all that so the blunt was good
“She just like her dumb ass sister Kia, she was dealing with this nigga from Hampton. She got pregnant dude gave her money to get rid of the baby because he had a wife at home, this dumb ass sister of mine spends the money and try to keep the baby his girl stepped to her and they got it on and Bria lost the baby. I almost killed dude for sending his wife to my baby sis, but Bria should’ve known better Nana baby her and let her run around here wild auntie told Nana to send her up to New York with her but Nana said no.
“Haaa she one of those bitches that like another bitch property, and how the hell my mother going to tell Nana to send her up there she don’t even have her own life in order to try to help somebody else get their life on track,” I laughed and so did Trill he asked how my mother was doing and if she was still with that lame nigga Whitey, Hershey laughed in the back. I told him my mother wasn’t leaving Whitey and vice versa them two were made for one another; “Yo I’m sorry to hear about both the babies Nana told me Baby girl was doing much better, y’all ever found out who was behind the shooting?” Trill asked driving