A J. S. Cooper Box Set: Three Standalone Romances

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by J. S. Cooper


  “This was fun.” She grinned through chattering teeth. “Though it’s a bit cold.”

  “It would have been warmer if you were naked,” I joked, and she poked me in the chest.

  “Sure it would have.”

  “I’m just saying.”

  “Do you and Clara go skinny dipping a lot then?” She looked up at me, and I couldn’t tell if she genuinely wanted to know or if she was just trying to bring Clara’s name up to remind me that I had a girlfriend.

  I shook my head. “No.”

  “I wonder if she’s up and making cocktails already.” Riley giggled, but I frowned at her words.

  I was worried about Clara’s alcohol intake. It seemed that she was always getting drunk these days. I thought back to the day we’d first met and how I’d thought she didn’t drink, but Clara had a problem with alcohol. I just didn’t know how to confront her about it.

  “Let’s hope not.” I dove into the water and swam out into the ocean.

  I loved swimming in the ocean’s never-ending pool of water. It was so different than swimming in a regular pool. The expanse of water was so large in the ocean that I felt like I could drift off and just keep going. In a pool, you always had to stop and turn around. There was something so jarring about swimming in a pool that wasn’t there in the openness of the ocean. I could float away in the ocean and forget all of my worries.

  I finally stopped swimming out and started swimming back to shore. I could see Riley standing there watching me with big open eyes. I wanted to know what she was thinking, what she thought of me. Did she think I was a creep because I was flirting with her while I had a girlfriend? Did she hate my kisses? Did she know that she was as special to me as she was?

  I swallowed a mouthful of salt water by mistake and starting coughing as I swam back. It was taking longer for me to swim back to the shore because the current was strong and kept pushing me farther back. I knew better than to panic, continuing with my front crawl, and kept trying to swim back to shore.

  “Hudson!” Riley called out. “Come back in now please. You’re scaring me.”

  I could hear the panic in her voice as she waved me in. I wanted to shout back that I was coming, but I knew I needed to keep my mouth shut in these murky waters. I didn’t want to swallow any more salt water, and I didn’t want to expend my energy trying to communicate with her. I increased the pace of my arms and tried to double up my strokes as I attempted to swim back to Riley.

  I saw her start swimming towards me and I panicked. I didn’t know if Riley would be able to make it back to shore with these riptides if she made it all the way to me. I took a deep breath and started swimming furiously. The only thing on my mind was making sure that Riley didn’t make it all the way out to me.

  I could see Riley’s arms flailing as she got close to me, and my heart stopped for a brief second before adrenaline kicked in. I swam towards her and grabbed her around the waist before setting her on her back and swimming back with her to the sand. This time, there was no current too treacherous for me to defeat. There was no way I was going to let anything happen to Riley. I made it back to shore in record time, and I carried a coughing Riley out of the ocean.

  “You okay?” I looked down at her face as she coughed up salt water and tried to calm my nerves.

  “I’m fine,” she sputtered. “I was worried about you.”

  “I’m fine as well.” I glared down at her. “That was a stupid move to make, coming out into the water to save me. How did you think that was going to happen?”

  “I didn’t think.” She glared back at me. “I just acted. I just wanted to help.”

  “You nearly drowned.”

  “Only because I had my clothes weighing me down and the current out there is crazy,” she muttered back to me.

  “Don’t ever do that again, Riley.”

  “I didn’t want to see you die, Hudson.” Her eyes filled up with tears. “I had to do something.”

  “Shh.” I crouched down and pulled her into my arms. “It’s okay now. We’re both fine.”

  “I know.” She nodded and looked into my eyes.

  We were both still for a moment before our lips met, slowly and unsteadily at first, as if neither of us knew what the other one wanted. Then the kiss deepened and we fell back into the sand, our tongues exploring each other while we held hands. The kiss only lasted for a few minutes before we both just lay back and stared at the sky in silence. My heart was beating fast as we lay there, exhausted, but happy, both of us wishing that we were somewhere else. That it was just the two of us.

  My ringing phone upset the mood, and I groaned when I saw Clara’s name on the screen. I was going to ignore it when I saw Riley look at the screen and jump up.

  “I guess we should go.” She looked into the ocean and avoided my eyes.

  “Yeah.” I nodded and got up.

  We walked back to my car in silence, neither of us mentioning the moment we’d just had. Neither of us bringing up the fact that there was something developing between us. I guess we both realized that, with Clara in the picture, nothing could happen. Or at least nothing should happen. What sort of people would we be if we went ahead while I was still in a relationship?

  Everything in the gym seemed to go still as I stared at Riley. All the old feelings hit me once again—feelings that had never really left me. I watched as she raised her hand and waved at me with an awkward smile. I stared at her for a moment, not knowing what to do.

  I felt guilty that a part of me was so excited to see her. I wanted to run over to her, pick her up, and give her a big kiss. I wanted to hold her close to me. I wanted to feel her warm body against mine once again. I wanted to be able to love her freely. But then I thought of Clara, and the color that had seeped into my world for a brief moment faded to black once again. I turned away abruptly without even acknowledging her and walked to the locker room with my heart beating fast.

  Why was she here? I was annoyed. I hadn’t expected to see her. I didn’t want to see her. Riley could make what was very simple become complicated again. I closed my eyes and then went to splash my face with cold water. I felt bad for ignoring her, but I knew that was the only way. I had to be indifferent to her. After everything that had happened, I couldn’t allow myself to seek joy in her presence. I was a sinner and I had to pay for what I had done.

  Chapter 5

  Riley

  Present Day

  I hurried out of the gym with tears in my eyes. I should have known that Hudson was Batman. He’d always been Batman. I didn’t understand why he had snubbed me. Well, I guess that was a lie. I did understand why. I just hadn’t expected it.

  I felt like I couldn’t breathe as I walked to my car. Seeing him had affected me deeply. I felt winded. When I’d waved at him, his eyes had lit up for one brief second. For a split second, I’d thought everything was going to be okay. He had forgiven me. He had forgiven himself. We were all right. But then the light had faded, his eyes had darkened, and he’d walked away without even acknowledging my existence.

  I knew he blamed himself for what had happened. I knew that the guilt must be ravaging him inside. I knew that because the guilt was still ravaging me. Every single day. I felt like I was the scarlet woman. The whore of Babylon. I knew why he hated me, because I hated myself. But I still held hope.

  My breath had still caught when I saw him. My heart had still jumped when my eyes took him in. Oh, how I’d longed for the day when I would see him again. My tall, wonderful Hudson. He’d looked sweaty and more fit than I remembered him being. It had been four years since I’d seen him. Four long years. And nobody even realized it aside from me. I knew that Eden didn’t think anything of it. But of course, she didn’t know. She couldn’t know.

  I got into my car and sat there for a while, just letting my tears flow. I hadn’t expected it to feel like this.

  I’d been waiting for this moment for years. Hudson was my first love. My only love. And I’d longed for the day w
hen I would get to see him again. I’d hoped that it would be like it had been in the beginning: easy, carefree, loving. He’d always been my protector, more than my best friend’s brother. He’d been like my best friend as well. Only I had gone and ruined it. I’d ruined it all in one impetuous moment.

  Four Years Ago

  It was the final night of our summer vacation and while I was happy to have enjoyed the last two weeks of the summer with my best friend and her family, I was also incredibly sad. I had watched Hudson and Clara go out each day, and I’d been jealous. Very, very jealous. It wasn’t that I didn’t like Clara. She was by all accounts a sweet, intelligent girl. But I didn’t want her with Hudson.

  Hudson sat next to me on the couch. “Hey, sweet pea. What you thinking about?”

  “Nothing. I can’t believe this is our final night.” I smiled at him and tried not to shiver as he put his arm around my shoulder.

  “I know.” He nodded. “It went by so fast.”

  “We didn’t even get to spend much time together,” I blurted out and then groaned inwardly. Why was I being so obvious?

  “You and Eden seem to have been very busy.”

  “You and Clara looked busy too.” I could hear the jealousy in my voice, and I bit my lower lip in embarrassment. “Not that there’s anything wrong with that, of course. You guys are in love.”

  “We’re not in love.” Hudson shook his head. “Far from it.”

  “Oh.” I looked into his eyes then and saw an emotion I’d never seen before. “I thought you were.”

  “No, we’re just friends.”

  “Friends with benefits?”

  “There aren’t many benefits,” he laughed and looked over at Clara. “I mean, she’s a great girl, but we aren’t together for stuff like that.”

  “Stuff like what?” I giggled.

  He rolled his eyes. “Benefit stuff.”

  “You mean sex?”

  “Yes, Riley.” He sighed and squeezed my shoulder. “I mean sex.”

  “You guys have never had sex?”

  “We have.” His eyes searched mine. “But we haven’t had sex on this trip.”

  My eyes widened. “Oh.” I wanted to ask why, but I was scared of his answer.

  “Hudson, let’s go down to the bar,” Clara called over to us as she danced along to a song in the kitchen.

  “We have beers here, Clara,” Hudson called back, but he didn’t get up.

  “I want to go to the bar.” She made a face. “Don’t be a spoilsport.”

  “I don’t want to go to the bar. You’ve had enough to drink.”

  “Who are you? My dad?” She left the kitchen and walked over to us. “Leave the little kids behind and let’s go be with the big kids.”

  I gasped at her words. She’d never been so mean and rude to me before. I could see from across the room that Eden looked a bit shocked as well.

  “Be nice.” Hudson frowned. “And maybe go and lie down. You’re drunk.”

  “I’m not drunk,” Clara slurred.

  “Come on.” Hudson jumped up and grabbed her arm. “Excuse me, Riley.” He gave me a small smile and escorted Clara out of the room.

  “I guess they’re about to have some hot drunken sex.” Eden grinned at me, and I attempted a smile, though it was very weak.

  “Yeah, who knows.” I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a soda, feeling overwhelmingly sad. “I wish today wasn’t our last day here.”

  “I know,” Eden groaned. “I don’t want to go back to school.”

  “At least we have college applications to look forward to.”

  “Are you joking?” Eden gave me a crazy look. “I still have to retake my SATs, and I don’t know if my GPA is good enough to get into State.”

  “Not trying for Harvard anymore?” I laughed.

  “Harvard my ass.” She grinned at me. “My GPA wouldn’t even get me into the kitchen staff program.”

  “Kitchen staff program?” I burst out laughing and collapsed next to her on the couch. “You always make me laugh, you goof.”

  “You know it’s true. Shit, I may not even get into State. I may have to go to community college for two years.”

  “Nothing wrong with that.” I smiled at her and rubbed her shoulders. “It’s cheaper.”

  “You’re a doll, Riley, but I do not want to go to community college first.” She sighed. “I want to meet hot frat guys, and there are no hot frat guys in community college.”

  “Eden, you do know you’re not going to college to meet guys, right?”

  “What? I’m going to get laid.” She grinned.

  “What do you think you’re first time will be like?” I sat back and sipped on my Coke.

  “I hope it’s hot.” She grinned. “And I hope he’s hot as well. Tall, blond, maybe a surfer. And I hope he’s really into me.”

  I rolled my eyes. “Well, I would hope he’s really into you as well.”

  “What about you? What do you want your first time to be like?”

  “I want it to be magical.” I closed my eyes and thought for a moment. “I want it to be under the stars. I want there to be fireworks in the sky. I want him to hold me and love me and kiss me all over. I want him to—”

  “Okay, this is sounding like a movie, Riley.” Eden laughed. “I do not foresee some random guy in college kissing you all over. More like a quick in out, in out, and bam.” She laughed. “That’s what Alexis told me her first time was like with Todd.”

  “She had sex with Todd?” My mouth dropped open, and Eden nodded.

  “Didn’t I tell you?” Eden squealed. “She and Todd had sex and he came within three minutes.”

  “What?” I screamed. “Three minutes?”

  “And he wasn’t wearing a condom yet.”

  “What?” I screamed again.

  “So she had to take a pregnancy test.” Eden shook her head. “Imagine if she got pregnant after three minutes.”

  “That would be crazy.”

  “What would be crazy?” Hudson walked back into the room with his shirt off and I tried not to gasp out loud. He was so hot.

  “Nothing.” I shook my head, embarrassed.

  “Alexis had sex with Todd and he lasted three minutes and now she thinks she might be pregnant,” Eden burst out.

  Hudson laughed in response. “Is this a soap opera or something?”

  “No, you know Alexis,” Eden rambled on. “My friend with the white-blond hair and the big boobs.”

  “Uh, okay.” He shrugged and looked at me with a small smile. “What are you guys up to tonight?”

  “I’m going out with that cute guy from Boston.” Eden jumped up. “I better go and get ready.”

  “What about Riley?” Hudson frowned as he watched his sister run to the bathroom.

  “Riley doesn’t mind, do you?” She looked at me and I shook my head.

  “It’s cool. I’ll just watch TV.”

  “Why don’t we go somewhere?” Hudson looked at me casually.

  “I thought you and Clara were going to go to a bar.”

  “No.” He shook his head. “No, we’re not.”

  “Oh.”

  “I shouldn’t be telling you this, but I think Clara and I are pretty much done.” He sighed. “It was a mistake to date her.”

  “Why?” I asked him with wide eyes and excitement in my heart.

  “I don’t think we are compatible.” He shrugged. “But let’s not talk about it.” He gave me a smile. “Want to do something tonight?”

  “Okay.” I nodded and then thought back to my conversation with Eden. There were some parts that I hadn’t told her. Like that I wanted Hudson to be my first. “What do you want to do?”

  “I don’t know. What do you think?”

  “Maybe we can go swimming.”

  “Swimming?” He looked surprised. “At night?”

  “Well, you know. We only went that once and it was a bit of a mess.”

  “You can say that again.” He laughed. “Oka
y then. Let me go and get my trunks.”

  “Or maybe we can skinny dip this time,” I spoke slowly, not believing what I was saying.

  His eyes blazed into mine in shock. “Are you sure?”

  I nodded. A look of understanding passed between us.

  “I’m sure.” I reached over and softly touched his chest. He stilled and grabbed my hand.

  “What are you doing?”

  “Just checking out your tattoos,” I lied, but I wasn’t about to tell him that I just wanted to touch him because I couldn’t resist anymore.

  “Do you like them now?”

  “They’re just okay.” I half-smiled at him.

  “You’re just okay.” He ruffled my hair, and I stuck my tongue out at him.

  “Ass.”

  “I never want to be an ass to you, Riley.” He pulled me into his arms and looked down at me for a few seconds. “I hope you know that.”

  “I do.”

  “Are you sure you want to go skinny dipping?”

  “Yes.” I nodded and leaned up, kissing him lightly.

  “I taught you well.” He laughed, leaning down and kissing me harder. I felt the tip of his tongue on my lips, and I opened my mouth slightly before we both jumped apart.

  “You guys decided what you want to do?” Eden walked back into the room, spraying herself with perfume.

  “Not yet.” I shrugged, trying not to blush too much. “We’re still deciding.”

  “Okay, well, have fun.” She hugged me. “I can’t believe we’re leaving tomorrow.”

  “Me either.” I hugged her back hard.

  A part of me felt like my life was about to change tonight. Tomorrow seemed so far away. Part of me didn’t care if tomorrow never came, just as long as I had tonight.

 

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