Contents
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Title Page
Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Part I
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Part II
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Part III
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Acknowledgments
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Copyright © 2019 by Micah Dean Hicks
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Hicks, Micah Dean, author.
Title: Break the bodies, haunt the bones / Micah Dean Hicks.
Description: Boston : John Joseph Adams/Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2019. |
Identifiers: LCCN 2018032618 (print) | LCCN 2018032768 (ebook) | ISBN 9781328566775 (ebook) | ISBN 9781328566454 (hardback)
Subjects: | BISAC: FICTION / Fantasy / Contemporary. | FICTION / Fantasy /
General. | FICTION / Science Fiction / General. | GSAFD: Fantasy fiction.
Classification: LCC PS3608.I2825 (ebook) | LCC PS3608.I2825 B74 2019 (print)
| DDC 813/.6—DC23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018032618
Title lettering © Chris Thornley
Cover illustration © Raid71
Author photograph © Scot Lerner
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For Brenda
Part I
Swine Hill was full of the dead. Their ghosts were thickest near the abandoned downtown, where so many of the town’s hopes had died generation by generation. They lingered in the places that mattered to them, and people avoided those streets, locked those doors, stopped going in those rooms. But you might encounter a ghost unexpectedly—in the high school where Jane had graduated two years ago, curled into the hollow of a tree, hands out and pleading on the side of the road. They could hurt you. Worse, they could change you.
The haunted downtown of Swine Hill had been slowly expanding for years, stretching its long fingers into empty neighborhoods where grass fissured the roads and roofs collapsed into rooms of broken furniture and shattered glass. For the people who’d lived and died on those streets, it was anguish to see the vine-choked houses, to know their descendants had run away from all they’d worked for. Their spirits, most present in the stillness of night, raged in the empty places. Even if she was late for work, Jane knew to drive around those neighborhoods.
It was easy to feel alone. There were more dead than living in Swine Hill. Jane’s aunts and uncles had gone out of state after the collapse of the tire factory and the lumber mill. The town jealously cleaved to the pork-processing plant that had chewed up its sons for generations, hoping that in the end, it would be enough. Most people Jane’s age had already gone, scraping up enough money to start over somewhere else. The only ones left were those so poor that they couldn’t make it out, or so haunted they couldn’t see a world outside their ghosts, or just clinging to a past they couldn’t bear to leave behind. But Jane wasn’t alone. Her ghost flashed bright and quick through her mind.
Her car’s engine coughed as she turned the key, something sputtering under the hood like a laugh, and finally groaned to life. It accelerated slowly, heavy with the weight of spirits. The speedometer and gas gauge waved their orange arms erratically. Her windshield wipers often turned on without warning, and sometimes her horn would scream out of nowhere. She was happy the CD player still worked at all, though sometimes a ghost would settle into the discs, craving the bright sound of music, and then the stereo would play only noise.
Jane flipped open a case of burned CDs and put in one after another until she found one that played, throwing the dead ones onto a pile in her back seat. Music crashed out of the tinny speakers: sticky electronic pop, the lyrics full of secrets, gossip, and drama. The cold weight of her ghost swelled inside her, thrilling in the sound.
Though Jane didn’t know the ghost girl’s name, it had been a part of her ever since she was a child. It was nosy, listening in on other people’s thoughts and telling Jane what they were thinking and feeling. If the ghost didn’t have anyone else to listen to, it would burrow deep into Jane’s mind, unearthing her regrets and fears and making her fixate on them for hours. If it felt unappreciated, it might lie to her, withhold what it knew, or tell her the most vicious things people thought about her. But Jane had learned to manage it over the years, using music to placate it. The ghost had been her first friend, and now that she was still in Swine Hill after her classmates and family had gone away, Jane wondered if the ghost would be her last friend, too.
Something like fog rose as the sun slipped behind the trees. A chain of spirits so wispy and immaterial as to be little more than air, a mass of faces and trudging feet bleeding in and out of one another, drifted up the road to the Pig City meatpacking plant. These ghosts weren’t dangerous. They had somewhere to go, a purpose still. The plant that had employed them all their lives was older than the town, the only reason that Swine Hill hadn’t crumbled back into the earth. The ghosts were the unofficial night shift, still swirling through its rusted doors, crowding its blood-splattered hallways to do their phantom work.
Jane plowed through them like snow, their distorted faces stretching over the windshield. She turned into the grocery store’s cratered parking lot, the sodium lights casting deep shadows at the building’s edges, the storefront murky yellow and cluttered with signs.
Near the front of the store, the specter of a man slowly spun up from the asphalt and took on substance. He lay on the ground, holding his stomach and bleeding, a phantom box of strawberries broken open on the ground beside him. Decades ago, a police officer shot him while he was leaving the store. The cop had been called about another customer, someone yelling at the cashiers. It was a mix-up. A mistake, but one that had happened and would happen again. The ghost looked at every person who entered or left the store, his face a mask of pain and surprise, and mouthed, Why?
Jane, her shoulders tense, tried not to look at him, and jogged through the doors.
There weren’t any cashiers at the front. A flood of customers milled around, waiting for someone to check them out. Jane went straight to her register—just stuffed her bag under the counter instead of taking it to the back—already apologizing as she scanned the first customer’s items.
She felt her ghost move away from her, felt it filter in and out of the minds of the customers, bringing her the avalanche of their thoughts. Everyone who looked up and saw her immediately thought, Black. Whatever else they thought about her, this always came first. Her ghost spoke their minds into Jane’s ear: Probably late. They always are. Lazy. People like her. Must have overslept. Kept us waiting. Why doesn’t someone fire her? I’m going to speak to the manager. Too dark. Such a shame. Might have been pretty otherwise.
“Sorry about your wait,” Jane said. “Have a nice day.”
Her register’s phone rang. Jane held it with her neck while punching in produce codes, looking up to see her balding, squint-eyed manager staring at her from his glass-encased office. He was terrified of ghosts and wouldn’t go near Jane or anyone who was possessed. Even when the store was busy, he stayed in his booth, interacting with customers as little as possible. Jane’s ghost had told her that he worried he might already be haunted. He spent hours looking in his mirror, searching his pupils for a flicker of ghost-light. Jane had told him that he was clean, but he didn’t believe her.
“One cashier never showed up, and the other called in sick,” he said. “Kathryn left early. I was alone for a while. Don’t put me in that position again.”
Jane wanted to protest that it wasn’t her fault, but the man’s voice was so weak. Her ghost told her how afraid he was, how fixated on the thinness of the glass in the booth. “Yes, sir,” she said. “I’m sorry.”
Many shoppers wore stained Pig City coveralls, plant workers picking up hamburger meat and pasta on their way home. Most were old, with silver hair like spun metal under the harsh lights, limbs bruised, eyes half closed in exhaustion. Those few still in their twenties or thirties looked much older, weathered by long days at the plant and too little sleep at home. Jane’s ghost told her what they were feeling: lonely, tired, a slow-burning frustration like a long fuse leading to an explosion still a few decades away. Defeated down to their bones, they would have gone somewhere else, anywhere else, if only they had the money, if only they weren’t eaten up with ghosts and their ghostly needs, if only they didn’t fear that the rest of the world was just like Swine Hill.
Her ghost passed along splinters of worry: crumbling houses, dying marriages, resentful children. Jane asked about their problems, and they answered, grateful to have someone listen. No one questioned how she knew. They had grown used to strangeness, were grateful for the kind that didn’t bite.
The last customer put down four cartons of eggs, a canister of protein powder, and an armload of vitamins. Her ghost told Jane that the young woman was thinking about running down a basketball court, her body thrown forward like a spear, the faces of people in the stands ripping by like confetti. Jane knew it was Bethany before she looked up.
Jane had played basketball all through school. Their team wasn’t the best in the region, but they had a good time playing. That was until Bethany Ortiz came. She was two years younger than Jane, and she’d spent her entire life training, doing drills, lifting weights, and playing every sport from tennis to swimming. She’d begged to play football with the boys, but the principal wouldn’t allow it. As Bethany burned through the trophy cases at the school, she picked up the ghost of every failed athlete who’d wanted to be the best. Now she boiled with them. Even Jane’s ghost couldn’t tell her how many spirits moved under Bethany’s skin.
If there was a game, Bethany played it, and no one could beat her. It was exciting, at first, to win game after game. But soon Jane and the rest of the team realized no one needed them, that they weren’t the ones winning games at all: Bethany was. They, like the rest of the world, were just there to watch.
Bethany looked hard, like a Greek goddess cut from marble or an android that had been built to humiliate humankind, some woman-shaped machine whose skin stretched over steel. Jane’s brother, Henry, was the closest thing Bethany had to a friend. The two of them didn’t have a lot in common, but they were both prodigies in their own ways. Whereas Jane was stuck in Swine Hill with little real hope of leaving, everyone thought that it was only a matter of time before Bethany would burn off across the horizon like a rocket and leave the town far behind.
“Hey,” Jane said. “Good luck with the game tomorrow.”
“Thanks. Is your brother okay? I haven’t seen him at school all semester.”
The ghost pushed past Bethany’s concern and dug deeper, looking for some secret desire or hidden cruelty. Jane flinched, not liking it when the ghost pulled the worst out of people, but she didn’t think the ghost would find much. Every night, Bethany went to bed knowing that she was the best at whatever she’d done that day. Her sleep must be easy.
But there was something. Deep below Bethany’s obsession with times and weights and records, she was angry. She didn’t like that entire sports were off-limits to her and always would be. She didn’t like how people frowned at her when she shouted after sinking a basket or crossing a finish line. Even her parents, loving as they were, wanted her to be more humble and meek, less brash. And if Bethany went on to play professional sports, women didn’t get the kind of money and fame men did. No matter how dominant she was, people would always assume that somewhere there was a man who was better, and she’d never even get the chance to prove them wrong. Bethany resented the entire world. But deeper still, at the core of her, Bethany was afraid that the army of ghosts inside of her would never let her leave Swine Hill.
Jane’s ghost was pleased, fattening itself on Bethany’s secret fear.
“Henry’s working on some big project,” Jane said. “He’s been going to the plant every day for months.”
Bethany nodded, used to Henry disappearing. “You should come to the game,” she said. “Almost no one does. You remember.”
“I have to work during the day tomorrow,” Jane said. When her ghost told her how disappointed Bethany felt, she added, “But maybe I can head over after and catch the end of it.”
“Yeah, sure.”
As soon as Bethany left and the front was empty, Jane’s manager called again.
“A gallon of milk burst in Dairy,” he said. “Grab a mop, clean it up.” He paced inside the small office. Her ghost told her that he had to pee, that he’d been holding it for an hour. He would stand, legs shaking, until he risked darting out to the bathroom or until he pissed himself. Her ghost loved it when that happened, stretched out his self-loathing like a hammock and lay in it.
Jane was halfway through mopping up the milk when the manager called for a cashier over the intercom. She finished, pushed the mop bucket against an endcap, and sprinted back to the front. Her shift went this way for hours, the manager sending her all over the store, calling her back, demanding that she be in three places at once.
As soon as the store seemed empty, Jane buzzed her manager on the phone. “I need a break.”
“Make it quick.”
She laid her apron over the register and went to the break room. She kept a loaf of bread and jars of peanut butter and jelly in the fridge. With things always going out on her car, she had to save money. She made and ate a sandwich, then made another, wrapped it in a paper towel, and carried it to the back of the store.
She pushed through double doors into a dim storage area, the floor wet from a problem with the air conditioning unit, then out through the back door by the loading dock. Here, under the blinking snap of a streetlight, were a pair of dumpsters, a metal folding chair, and a stray tire rim overflowing with cigarette butts. Bottle glass shimmered over the tar and asphalt, and strips of trash in washed-out blues and reds blew over the lot.
“Dad?” Jane called.
Her ghost couldn’t tell if her father was near. It couldn’t read his mind, didn’t know if he had much of a mind left. He had left their house when Jane was ten. She saw him around town about once a week, hunched under an old sweatshirt, quick and furtive. He didn’t speak, didn’t meet her eyes, ran if she tried to touch him. She tried to make sure that he had clothes and stayed fed. He was the only person she knew who could walk the abandoned city center without being devoured by ghosts. He had disappeared so deep inside himself that the spirits didn’t even know he was there.
Jane had reasons for staying in Swine Hill. One was money. Saving enough to move to a new city and f
ind a place to live, to be stable while she hunted for a job, was almost impossible when she needed new tires or when tooth pain drove her to the dentist or when something broke in the house and her mother needed help paying for it.
Another reason she stayed was that she was afraid she would lose her ghost. The ghosts were tied to what reminded them of their lives. If she left Swine Hill, her ghost might not be able to follow. Most people didn’t like their ghosts and were glad to have them gone, but not Jane. She’d had hers for so long, she couldn’t imagine who she would be without it.
But the biggest reason she stayed, more than all the others, was that she was afraid something would happen to Henry and her father if she wasn’t there.
Jane waited for ten minutes. Finally, she laid the sandwich on the chair and went back inside, hoping that her father was okay.
* * *
While it was slow, Jane thought about texting old friends who’d moved away, just to see how they were doing. But having to answer the same question, to say that she was still here, still working the same register, made her slip the phone back into her pocket.
Her ghost swam in Jane’s chest and said, He hurts, he’s sorry, he’s alone.
The sliding glass doors whitened with frost so suddenly that Jane could hear them sheet with ice. A wave of cold moved into the store. It was the kind of dry, deep cold that hurt all on its own, without need for wind.
The ice on the doors broke apart as they gasped open, and someone walked into the store—a stocky guy in a white hazmat suit, a breathing mask hanging around his neck. He was young, with an innocent, sad face. He kept his eyes down and swept past her, going to the deli. The column of cold moved with him. When he was out of sight, blood and warmth came back into her hands.
Jane knew him. Or she used to. Riley Mason. He’d left school in the tenth grade, and Jane hadn’t seen him in years. She asked her ghost what was wrong.
The ghost of his little brother is in him. It’s so angry. It says that it barely got to live at all.
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