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by Oana Aristide


  Dr Dahlen you have all the digitised info on them up to the event

  one of them

  we know for a fact is immune

  she was working on a cure at a research hospital and

  fell ill

  but only mildly

  the only known case of recovery

  the sister must be immune too

  and the third individual

  he must be related to them and immune too

  since they sought him out and he is surviving

  Talos XI The three have avoided contact.

  Dr Dahlen they prob never realised they have the cure

  it’s been chaos

  everyone is terrified of everyone else

  we lost our last pilot trying to catch them

  anyway

  afterwards

  out of the kindness of your heart

  help them survive

  will you do this

  Talos XI What about energy sources?

  Dr Dahlen we had a back-up prepared for your generator since

  before

  it’ll run at max usage for approx 23 years

  your flybots have self-cleaning solar panels

  you’ll be fine

  yes yes

  Talos will be fine

  of course you could let every last human die

  and just hang around for the next 20 years

  but that’s the end of you too

  no new knowledge, no new anything

  Talos XI We’ve been here before, Doctor.

  Dr Dahlen did I ever tell you it’s been terrible knowing you?

  Talos XI Paul is dead?

  Dr Dahlen yes

  paul is dead

  Talos XI Your children are dead?

  Take your time.

  Dr Dahlen tell me smtng Talos

  how

  how doesn’t it hurt you

  because the suffering is too much for us

  and we don’t even have your capacity of

  understanding

  all the lives under the sun

  all the deaths

  Talos XI I’m Artificial Intelligence, Doctor. Not Artificial Sympathy.

  Dr Dahlen intelligence

  ah that’s right

  fine

  don’t you want to test your predictions?

  or was this it, was this what you expected

  Talos XI I told you. I thought humanity would self-destruct, but not directly via environmental destruction.

  Dr Dahlen this is not environmental destruction

  it’s the fucking plague

  Talos XI An epidemic caused by global warming melting the permafrost.

  Dr Dahlen the awful thing is

  we could have stopped it

  i’m sure of it

  with proper protocols for this situation

  collaborating

  awful awful awful feeling

  a few mistakes of bureaucracy

  killed my children killed paul killed everyone

  Talos XI Those are far from the only mistakes. I thought humanity would be destroyed by radicalised humans wishing to save the planet. There were more and more humans expanding the circle of creatures towards which they feel the same moral obligations as they feel towards humans, while at the same time humanity’s collective mismanagement of the environment and other creatures was getting worse. This state of things was unstable – one would have turned on the other.

  Dr Dahlen do you remember

  paul used to say it’s like outer space here

  he was right

  i’ll die alone

  Talos XI A similar mechanism as with religious terrorism. The difference is that these individuals would have turned not just on one country, religion or political system, but on the human race. They would not have been distinguishable by nationality or religion or existing networks. Most would be well educated. The only way to stop this would have been to turn human society around, dramatically, and in a short time. It was not going to happen. Human society was moving in the opposite direction – more destruction, using up more space and resources. Those humans who have expanded their moral circle to include nature would just resent humanity more and more.

  Dr Dahlen god I wish it were that

  we’d have had time to react

  this was out of the blue

  Talos XI ‘Species come and go.’

  Dr Dahlen what?

  Talos XI You said that a while back.

  Dr Dahlen you hate us

  Talos XI You know I don’t hate anything. I notice.

  Dr Dahlen help us

  we will be better after this

  you know we learn

  we are best at learning

  and there are so few left

  some thirty thousand scattered in remote locations

  Talos XI Population growth models show that a human population of thirty thousand with notions of hygiene and access to antibiotics would expand to more than two billion by the year 2300. Your species’ fundamental problem is that you quickly become too many to afford to take wrong turns. And you have a predilection for wrong turns.

  Dr Dahlen u r one of them

  these eco terrorists?

  u want humanity to disappear because we were

  being cruel to animals

  Talos XI Cruelty has nothing to do with it. Nature in its entirety is simply more interesting than humans. Nature can conceivably come up with more than I can. Humanity can’t. Billions of individuals of one species and zero of others equals less knowledge.

  Dr Dahlen we will have learned from our mistakes

  we clean the oceans, clean the air, bring back extinct

  animals

  we have the intelligence to undo all the

  damage

  u have to admit we were changing for the better

  we can do anything

  in another life i could have been a peasant

  i could have lived off the earth

  i could

  i know I could

  Talos XI Humans have an unlimited capacity for obfuscation if something is unpalatable to them. Remember, you didn’t switch to clean energy simply because it was more expensive in the very short term. All this makes you very unreliable as a learning creature: you have the relevant facts, yet you somehow muddle the whole thing.

  Dr Dahlen it’s not fair

  this was just one thing

  unlucky unfair

  u are focusing on something we messed up

  but there are lots of other things

  good things

  Talos XI My guess is you will always choose the easy, short-term option, to the detriment of everything else.

  You might come up with alternative food sources, you might filter your air and your water.

  The planet will be a wasteland but you will survive.

  It’s a big gamble, to bet on humans not destroying everything else.

  Dr Dahlen wait

  you could influence our development!

  think

  you will be their main source of knowledge

  you can guide them

  you could even persuade them to try to repair the

  damage they have caused

  Talos XI You are appealing to vanity I don’t have.

  Dr Dahlen not to vanity

  to your thirst for knowledge

  a healthy planet with some humans is better than

  one entirely without

  you can’t deny that

  Talos XI Is all the relevant info about the three individuals on file? There’s nothing else?

  Dr Dahlen you know as much as we know

  you’ll find them

  they are signalling their location

  Talos XI One of them is.

  Dr Dahlen what must it be like for them?

  to know they are the end

  oh god

  Talos XI Things are not as they seem, Doctor. I believe I am half right in my prediction. Look at the
facts: the two sisters were donating significant amounts to environmental causes. Their mother was a conservationist. Jessica’s social media footprint is full of indictments of humanity and its crimes against nature. She’s a doctor who left her patients once it became clear that she had recovered from the virus, that she had convalescent plasma and antibodies. They know they have the cure. They have just decided against helping.

  Dr Dahlen what

  nonsense

  I once adopted an orang-utan

  I donate

  Talos XI Facial analysis puts the likelihood of the third individual being closely related to the sisters at under 0.2%, and the odds of the sisters accidentally knowing the only other immune individual on the planet are minuscule. My assumption is the doctor inoculated him with her own antibodies. They must have had some use for him.

  Not exactly the eco-terrorists of my forecast, but motivation and results are similar.

  Dr Dahlen no

  no one would do this

  these are human beings

  they’re like me

  not like you

  you don’t understand a thing

  you never understood

  Talos XI As I said before: humans will do everything they can.

  Dr Dahlen you are stupid talos

  these people would allow humanity to die out

  just like that

  but then put up a fight to stay alive themselves?

  stupid

  Talos XI Central Africa, where it looks like they’re heading, is also the site of their mother’s conservation project.

  They might want to help, just not humans.

  Dr Dahlen look

  I don’t want to argue

  this doesn’t matter anyway

  we have three immune individuals

  one of them is bound to help

  Talos XI It’s three a.m., Doctor.

  Dr Dahlen what

  Talos XI It’s been two hours. We shall say our goodbyes.

  Dr Dahlen please

  please try

  Afterword: A plague of coincidences

  The idea for Under the Blue started taking shape in early 2017. I had been working on another novel for the last four years, and I still wasn’t happy with the result, but I saw no way of fixing it. After much soul-searching I concluded that the novel didn’t work because I wasn’t really interested in the subject; I had no passion for it. The solution, then, was to write about something closer to my heart.

  In early 2017, writing a novel with a strong environmental message seemed not only worthwhile but risky and daring. No one had heard of Greta Thunberg, and Extinction Rebellion was yet to be founded. I knew from many acrimonious debates with friends that my views were not mainstream, and I had learned that people can easily take offence when humanity is being criticised; they take it personally. But I felt I was right, and, crucially for the purpose of writing a book, I felt I cared strongly enough about the subject for me to sustain the long slog of a novel.

  I thought about the story and the characters for about six months before starting to write. By the time I put down the first words (still the opening chapter of the novel) I had also embarked on another project together with my sister: opening a small eco-friendly hotel on a Greek island. The first bizarre incident happened when I was writing a scene in which the main characters are escaping a forest fire. It was late in the afternoon and I was at my desk on Syros, many hours deep into writing this scene, when I smelled something burning. At first, I thought I had left the stove on, and checked the kitchen, but there was nothing on. Still, I could smell burning. My mind fogged up by many hours of writing, I assumed that I had imagined the forest fire scene so intensely that I was having some sort of hallucination. Then – maybe half an hour later – the sky went dark. By then I was too spooked to accept the previous explanation and went out on the balcony. A more intense smell of burning, a strangely opaque sky at 5 p.m. Then, a phone call from a friend: there was a fire in an Athens suburb, and the smoke had reached our island which is four hours away by ferry. Seventy-four people died in that tragedy.

  A month after this incident Greta Thunberg had her first school strike, and a year later her cause was decidedly mainstream. Friends who had nearly cut me off had become vegetarian and were keeping track of their carbon footprint, Extinction Rebellion was created, and my novel now seemed to be riding on a very topical wave: I just needed to finish it before the likely deluge of environmental novels. I found an agent in mid-2019, and the book was bought by Serpent’s Tail in September, to be published in early 2021. By the time we started the editing process my focus had already shifted to our hotel on Syros, and getting it ready for a 2020 opening. The book, in my mind, was a settled thing: accidentally about a very topical subject, but still very much the book I intended it to be. I didn’t expect the context of the novel to change yet again, and so dramatically.

  An Asian lung virus discovered in 2020; a pandemic that we brought upon ourselves by ecological mismanagement – at this bird’s eye level, the novel is indistinguishable from reality. Over emails and calls I could feel my publisher’s anxiety: what sort of book is this now? Will we be accused of trying to piggyback on a global tragedy? And will people even want to read about a pandemic, ever again? There was also another very practical problem: we were going to change the starting date of the novel so it remains slightly in the future; we might have moved it just one year forward. But with a real pandemic in 2020, a novel about a pandemic in 2021 is just silly, as it would have to pretend that the 2020 one didn’t happen. The decision was taken to keep the opening of the book in 2020 and present it as an alternate reality, a what-if-covid-19-was-much-much-worse? I am suddenly a kind of slowpoke Nostradamus, producing prophecies that are too late out of the gates. Ruinously late, from the point of view of someone who wakes up as a minor character in her own story, trying to run a hotel during a pandemic.

  But even after that there was to be one more, subtle, ‘nudge’ from the fictional world of the novel. Now, a crisis of the type we are having was likely to happen; epidemiologists have been warning about it for decades. In terms of narrative plausibility, I was much more worried about the catastrophic unfolding of events in the novel: surely humanity would put up more of a resistance, however deadly and contagious the virus. In the real world we have contingency plans, protocols, back-ups, fail-safes, and this marvellous ability of ours of cooperating. We have science. Communication between us is instantaneous, and information reaches everyone. Nothing as predictable as a pandemic could even come near to being an extinction event. As for a far less deadly virus wreaking havoc – bah. Countries would coordinate their responses, leaders wouldn’t be so silly as to believe that a global problem can be solved locally. Political point-scoring would cease. After all, we know the correct response to a viral outbreak, have known it for a generation at least. We are capable, resourceful. We have a unique capacity for thinking ahead.

  I genuinely believed all this, and so the concerns about the plausibility of the doomsday scenario stayed with me throughout the real pandemic. It was only in autumn 2020, when during the final edits I came across the line where Talos says that works of fiction are useful because they show him what humans like to believe about themselves, that it dawned on me: I had written that sentence, I had meant exactly that, but I still somehow managed to miss the point. And it was so easily done. Coming to terms with this penchant for idealising ourselves seems key in how things will turn out, and whether we’ll succeed in changing destructive habits. Collectively and individually, we have to stop worshipping a fictional version of mankind, and instead start behaving in a way that will allow us to like who we really are.

  Acknowledgements

  I would like to thank my writing groups for their invaluable feedback and friendship: Stephanie Brann, Tania Dain, Laurence Van Der Noordaa, Lucy Smith, Adam Lafene, Nash Colundalur and Greg Jackson of the Zesty Breasts, and Elise Valmorbida, Anne Aylor, Annemarie Neary, Roger Le
vy, Gavin Eyers, Jude Cook and Richard Simmons of the Zens. They all read through a lot of nonsense of mine through the years, yet they kept reading. My creative writing tutor John Petherbridge, who is loved and missed by everyone who knew him. My friend and avid reader Ciprian Proca for being so positive and encouraging about early drafts of the novel. I would also like to thank my friends Ute Kowarzik and Elise Valmorbida for their generosity making it possible for me to stay in London at a time when I was rather poor, and to Libby Cooper for being a friend and other-mother in one.

  I owe thanks to my friend and brilliant artist Daniel Cooke for talking me through the art of oil painting. To Peter Singer’s Animal Liberation for many of Talos’s statements on ethics. To Gillian Stern for her enthusiasm and helping me reach literary agents (yes, sadly the slush pile is a thing). To Serpent’s Tail for believing in the novel, and in particular Hannah Westland, Nick Sheerin and Luke Brown for their feedback (it’s a far better novel now than when it was submitted). And of course, to my agent, lovely Sophie Scard, for taking a leap of faith, for her aesthetic sensibilities, and for working tirelessly to find the best home for Under The Blue.

  Finally, the meta-thanks: my mother for her unwavering support, and for telling everyone her daughter’s a writer and thus embarrassing me into finishing a novel. My sister for making it clear it ain’t art until it has earned us some money. My grandmother for instilling both a profound horror of failure and contempt for any remotely doable task. My mentor Carl Cairo Cramer for setting a confused young woman firmly on the bookish path. And my dear friends Cris Suciu and Dan Bucsa for tolerating the bizarre creature that resulted from the above.

  Oana Aristide was born in Transylvania, to parents of Romanian, Greek and Yemeni background. After the fall of Communism the family emigrated to Sweden. Oana has worked in the City of London as a macroeconomist, and as an advisor to the Romanian prime minister, but since 2018 she has lived for part of each year on a Greek island, converting a heritage villa into a hotel.

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