CHAPTER TWELVE.
HOW TOM DRIFT BEGINS TO GO DOWNHILL.
Time went on, and Tom Drift advanced inch by inch nearer the brink. Heslipped, not without many an effort to recover himself, many a pang ofself-reproach, many a vague hope of deliverance.
"Be good to Tom Drift!" was ever ringing in my ears. But what could Ido? He often neglected me for days. All I could do was to watch andtremble for what was coming.
You who are so ready to call Tom a fool, and hug yourselves that youhave more strength of character and resolution than he had, try torealise what were his perils and what were his temptations at that time,before you pass judgment.
The dulness of those lodgings in Grime Street was often almostunbearable. When his work was done, and Tom looked out of the windowand saw nothing but carts and cabs and tradesmen, and the dismal housesopposite, what wonder if he sometimes felt miserable? When he heardnothing but pattering footsteps down the pavement, the rumble of wheelsand the street cries under his window, what wonder if he felt lonely andfriendless? No footsteps stopped at _his_ door, no friendly facelightened _his_ dull study, no cheery laughter brought music to _his_life. What wonder, I say, if he moped and felt discontented?
What wonder if his thoughts wandered to scenes and places thatcontrasted forcibly with his dead-alive occupation? What wonder if hehankered after a "little excitement," to break the monotony of lectures,hard reading, and stupid evenings?
"Ah," I hear you say, "there are plenty of things he might have done.It was his own fault if he was dull in London. I would have gone to themuseums, the libraries, the concerts, the parks, the river, the picturegalleries, and other harmless and delightful places of amusement. Why,I could not be dull in London if I tried. Tom Drift was an idiot."
My dear friend, what a pity Tom Drift had not the advantage of youracquaintance when he was in London! But he had not. He had no friends,as I have said, except the Newcomes, whom he only visited occasionally,and as a matter chiefly of duty, and his anxiety to keep right at firsthad led him to reject and fight shy of friendships with his fellow-students. Doubtless it was his own fault to a large extent that heallowed himself to get into this dull, dissatisfied condition. If hehad had a healthy mind like you, friend, it would not have happened.But instead of utterly scouting him as an idiot, rather thank God youhave been spared all his weaknesses and all his temptations.
Was Tom never to learn that there was a way--"The Way, the Truth, andthe Life"--better than any he had yet tried, which would lead himstraight through the tangled mazes of his London life? Was he never todiscover that Friend, truer than all earthly friends, at Whose side hemight brave each trial and overcome each temptation?
Poor Tom! he walked in a way of his own? and trusted in no one betterthan himself; and that was why he fell.
As I have said, he did not fall without an effort. I have known him oneday buy a bad, trashy book, and the same evening, in a fit ofrepentance--for God's Spirit wonderfully strives with men--take and burnit to ashes in his grate. But I have also known him to buy the samebook again the next day. I have known him to walk a mile out of his wayto avoid a place of temptation; and yet, before his walk was done, findhimself, after all, under the glare of its lamps. The moth hovers inwide circles round the candle before it ventures its wings in the flame.And so it was with Tom; but the catastrophe came at last.
One evening about three weeks before the time fixed for the Easter tripwith Charlie, Tom felt in tolerably dull. He had been neglecting hiswork during several days for novels of the lowest and most sensationaltype. Over these he had dawdled till his brain had become muddled withtheir unreal incidents and impure suggestions, and now that they weredone he felt fit for nothing. He could not settle down to work, he hadno friends to turn to, and so he put his hat on his head and sallied outinto the streets to seek there the variety he could not find indoors.
As usual, his steps led him to the low theatre about which he was socurious, and of which he heard so much from his fellow-students. It washalf-past seven, and people were beginning to crowd round the door,waiting for it to open. Tom, standing on the other side of thepavement, watched them with a painful fascination.
"Shall I go for once?" he asked himself. Then he strolled up to theplaybill and read it.
As he was doing so some one slapped him on the shoulder, and, turningquickly round, he found himself face to face with his old acquaintanceGus Burke and another youth.
Gus, who was still small of stature, though fully nineteen years of age,was arrayed in the height of the fashion. As Tom regarded him he felthis own coat become more shabby and his hat older, and he wished he hadbrought his dogskin gloves and cane. Gus was smoking, too, a cigarette,and very distinguished and gentlemanly Tom thought it looked. He felt,as he regarded his brilliant and unexpected acquaintance, that he wasrather glad those people who were standing at the theatre door shouldsee him accosted in so familiar a way by such a hero. And Gus's friendwas no less imposing--more so, indeed, for he wore an eyeglass.
Tom was so astonished at this unexpected meeting that he had noticed allthis long before he found words to return his old schoolfellow'ssalutation.
Gus, however, relieved him of his embarrassment.
"Tom Drift, upon my honour! How are you, old horse, and how's yourmother? Who'd have thought of running up against you like this?"
Tom tried to look as much at his ease as he could as he replied,--
"Why, Gus, old man, where _did_ you spring from? I didn't know you werein London."
"Ain't I, though!" replied Gus, tapping the end of his cigarette on hiscane. "But what are you up to, Tom?--you're not going in here, areyou?" pointing over his shoulder to the theatre.
"Well, no," said Tom; "that is," added he, with as much of a swagger ashe could assume on the spur of the moment, "I had been half thinking ofjust seeing what it was like. Some of our fellows, you know, fancy theplace."
How suddenly and easily he was, under the eyes of these two "swells,"casting off the few slender cords that still held him moored to theshore.
"Oh, don't go in there," said Gus, with a look of disgust; "it's theslowest place in London--nothing on but that old fool Shakespeare'splays, or somebody's equally stupid. You come along with us, Tom, we'lltake you to a place where you'll get your money's worth and no mistake.Won't we, Jack?"
The youth appealed to as Jack answered with a most affected drawl, andwith an effort which appeared to cause him no little fatigue, "Wathah."
"Come along," said Gus, lighting a fresh cigarette.
Tom was uncomfortable. He would not for worlds seem unwilling to go,and yet he wished he could get out of it somehow.
"Very kind of you," he said, "I'd like it awfully; but I must get backto do some work, you know, I've an exam coming on. It's an awfulnuisance!"
"Why, I thought you were going in here, in any case!" said Gus.
"Ah--well--yes, so I was, just for a little, to see what sort of affairit was; but I meant to be home by nine."
"Well, just have a squint in at our place; and if you must go, you must.Come along, old man; cut work for one evening, can't you? You'vebecome an awfully reformed character all of a sudden; you usen't to beso hot on your books."
Tom had no ambition before these two to figure in the light of areformed character, and he therefore abandoned further protest, andproceeded to accompany Gus and his friend down the street.
"Have a weed?" asked Gus.
"Thanks, I hardly ever smoke," said Tom.
"They're very mild," said Gus, with a sneer.
Tom took the proffered cigar without another word, and did his bestfirst to light and then to smoke it as if he were an experienced smoker.
"Who's your fwend?" inquired Gus's languid acquaintance.
"By the way," said that young man, "I've never introduced you two.Mortimer, allow me to introduce you to my friend Tom Drift."
Mr Mortimer gave a nod which Tom felt he would like gre
atly to have athis command, there was something so very knowing and familiar about it.
"It was Tom got up that little race party I was telling you of, Jack,you know. He's a regular sporting card. By the way, what's become ofthat little mooney-face prig we took with us that day; eh, Tom?"
Tom was out in midstream now, floating fast out to sea.
"Who--oh, young Newcome?" said he; "he's still at Randlebury."
"Young puppy! You never knew such a spree as that was, Jack," said Gus;and then he launched forth into a highly-spiced account of the eventfulexpedition to Gurley races, contriving to represent Tom as the hero ofthe day, greatly to that youth's discomfort and confusion, and no lessto the amusement of Mr Mortimer.
"Here we are at last," said Gus, as the trio arrived at a gorgeouslyilluminated and decorated restaurant.
Tom's heart sunk within him. More than ever did he wish himself back inhis dull lodgings, never again to set foot abroad, if only he could havegot out of this fix. But there was no drawing back.
"Shall we go in yet, or knock the balls about for a bit?" said Gus."This fellow Tom's a regular swell at billiards. Do you rememberthrashing me last time we met, Tom--the summer after I'd leftRandlebury?"
Tom could not deny he had beaten Gus on the occasion referred to, andfelt it was useless for him to protest--what was the case--that he wasonly a very indifferent player. He agreed to the idea of a game,however, as he hoped he might at its close be able to make his escapewithout accompanying his two companions to the music-hall attached tothe restaurant, and which he already knew by reputation as one of thelowest entertainments in London. "You two play," said Gus, "and I'llmark. You'll have to give Jack points, Tom, you know, you're such adab."
It was vain for Tom to disclaim the distinction, and the game began.
"Hold hard!" said Gus, after the first stroke; "what are you playingfor?"
"Weally, I don't know; thillingth, I thuppothe," lisped Mr Mortimer.
"All serene! Go on."
And they went on, and Mr Mortimer made no end of misses, so that, inspite of the points he had received, Tom beat him easily. In the twogames which followed the same success attended him, and he won all thestakes.
"Didn't I tell you he was a swell?" said Gus. "Upon my word, Tom, Idon't know how you do it!"
"It's just the sort of table I like to play on," said Tom, elated withhis success, and unwilling to own that half his lucky shots had been"flukes."
"I tell you what," said Gus; "you owe me my revenge, you know, from lasttime. I'll play you to-morrow for half-crowns, if you'll give me thesame points as you did to Jack."
Tom was fast nearing the breakers now. He had nothing for it but toaccept the challenge, and the table was consequently engaged for thenext evening.
"I must be off now, you fellows!" he said.
"Nonsense! Why, you haven't yet seen the fun below. You must stay forthat."
"I wish I could," faltered Tom; "but I really must do some reading to-night."
"So you can; the thing only lasts an hour, and you're not obliged to goto bed at eleven, are you?"
Still Tom hesitated.
"You don't mean to say you are squeamish about it?" said Gus, inastonishment. "I could fancy that young friend of your mother's turningup _his_ eyes at it, but a fellow like you wouldn't be so particular, Ireckon; eh, Jack?"
And Mr John Mortimer, thus appealed to, laughed an amused laugh at thebare notion.
That laugh and the term, "a fellow like you," destroyed the last ofTom's wavering objections, and he yielded.
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