by Land, E. C.
With Lynsdey no longer working at the bar Izzy stepped in to help until we could get proper waitresses in there to do the job like I wanted. Izzy has had her own drama going on. She hates working for a douchebag like her boss with the real estate company she works for. My best friend is really having a tough time with everything that’s going on. The guy is constantly on her case. I know there’s more to it but she’s not talking about it. Honestly, I don’t see why she doesn’t open her own office. It’s not like she doesn’t have the experience. When I brought this up to her a couple weeks ago, she claimed she didn’t want the headache that comes with it. According to Scotty, Iz is the one that found my truck wrapped around a tree. Ever since she freaks out when anyone mentions the accident.
I’m going to miss that truck. I absolutely loved it. I keep asking Scotty to let me drive his, but he refuses. Says no one can drive his baby. Jerod jokes about it being his second love. Besides me and his bike. Being pregnant, I can’t even ride on the back of his motorcycle.
Today we have an appointment with the OB doctor as well as orthopedic. I didn’t have to wear a cast on my wrist for too long however I do still have to wear a brace. The wreck and then hanging from the ceiling did some damage, but not as bad as my leg. I will finally be getting rid of this cast on my leg. It took the most damage from the accident. And took a while to heal. I can’t wait to have it off so Scotty will take the kid gloves off.
Don’t get me wrong we have had sex, but he’s refused to take me the way I want him to. I want him to take me roughly. More than that, I need him to possess me. Take control off my body like he did before everything happened. According to him, he doesn’t want to do something that will hurt me. Like he could ever hurt me.
Last night while in bed we felt the smallest movement in my stomach as we laid there watching a movie together. I looked up to Scotty and asked him what he wanted the baby to be.
"Sweet girl I love you, and I love this baby no matter what he or she is. Doesn’t matter to me what we have, as long as he or she is healthy and you both come through healthy on the other end whole. That’s all that matters to me." His words had me crying thanks to the stupid hormones running through my body.
I pull on my shoes to go find Scotty so we can go. I call out to him not hearing him respond I walk outside to find him tinkering with his bike.
"Honey I’m ready to go come on. Let’s get going."
Looking up at me he says, "Sweet girl, I’ve been ready for over an hour. I got bored sitting around waiting for you, so I came out here." He laughs at me as he makes his way over placing his hands on either side of my barely there bump kissing me thoroughly. Damn I hope he fucks me when we get back. I’ve been seriously horny. But then again who wouldn’t be with a husband like mine.
We get to my first appointment in no time. When the nurse calls us back, she cuts the cast off before doing x-rays for the doctor. After looking at the film, the doctor informs me that I will need to wear a boot while I regain strength in my ankle and leg. Also, I will still need to use the crutches at least for a few more weeks. I can deal with that over having the cast.
Making our way over to our OB appointment. I can’t help but feel excited. I almost jump out of the truck feeling a newfound joy at being free of the cast. I’ll take this boot over an itchy cast any day. The thought of taking a proper shower is a simple joy that I have missed.
While I sit down Scotty goes to sign us in letting them know we were here. Doesn’t take long for the nurse to come get us. Guess when you have a man scowling at everyone things get done quicker. The first time we came here Scotty scared the shit out of the staff to the point that if he says jump, they say how high. I should be annoyed but I know my man. It’s just his way of protecting me.
Once inside the room the nurse does all she needs to do before the tech comes in and asks me to lay back and lift my shirt. At least I don’t have to have the wand anymore. When she’s ready to start, she asks several questions including whether or not we wanted to know the sex of the baby.
“Yes!” We say at the same time. While I keep shaking my head enthusiastically letting her know we want to know.
“Okay, mom and dad let’s say hi to your baby.”
Once she’s set and places the gel on my stomach, she starts moving the wand over my belly. No sooner she turns the tv on than we see our baby. Well, not just our baby.
"Well, I guess there’s your answer as what the sex is. With that thing hanging between his legs I can safely say you’re having a boy. He is hung like a horse." The tech laughs. “Congratulations!”
The two of us are laughing as I look up at my husband "I love you more than anything." I kiss him deeply looking forward to life with our son. With our little family.
I can’t wait to see what the future holds.
Like my daddy always said you can’t let the past keep you from the future.
THE END
Playlist
Apocalyptica — Strong Enough
All that Remains — What If I Was Nothing
Diamante/Bad wolves — Hear Me Now
Diamante — Haunted
Diamante — I’m Sorry
Crossfade — Colors
Smashing Pumpkins — Let me be your superhero
Godsmack — Bulletproof
Halestorm — I miss the misery
Theory of a Deadman — Hurricane
Theory of a Deadman — Angel
Brett Young — In case you didn’t know
Stone Sour — Bother
Stone Sour — Say You’ll Haunt Me
Kane Brown — Heaven
Thorn’s Revenge
Warning
This content is intended for mature audience only. It contains material that may be viewed as offensive to some readers, including graphic language, dangerous and sexual situations, murder, rape, and extreme violence.
Playlist
Thorn’s Revenge Playlist
Shinedown – Call Me
Five Finger Death Punch – Battleborn
Disturbed - The Sounds of Silence
Shinedown – How did you love
Kane Brown – Lose It
Mitchell Tenpenny – Drunk Me
Five Finger Death Punch – I apologize
Five Finger Death Punch - Blue on Black
Shinedown - I’ll follow you
Five Finger Death Punch – I Refuse
Russell Dickerson – Yours
Breaking Benjamin – Angel’s Fall
Breaking Benjamin – So Cold
Stone Sour – Bother
Seether - Save today
Acknowledgments
To my family that have stood behind me when I needed them too. You have been an inspiration to my life.
To all my friends that I have made, and have told me to keep going when I wanted to delete and restart new. They have pushed me to keep going and let the story tell itself.
To all those that have experienced some form of heartbreak.
Prologue
Lynsdey
Oh my god! How did I end up letting Thorn in my bed? That’s right, I couldn’t help but fall for his charms as he sweet talked himself into my bed. I can’t take my eyes off him as he thrusts inside me. He’s bigger than any man I’ve ever had before—in more ways than one.
“Fuck you’re tight, babe. Never had anything as tight as you. I can feel your pussy clenching my dick so fucking hard. You’re like a goddamn vice around me. You sure you weren’t a fuckin’ virgin?” He grits his teeth as I squeeze him even more. I close my eyes, savoring the feel of him pounding into me. I’ve never seen a man as huge as he is. I don’t mean just the size of his dick but the size of the man in general. He’s a damn beast.
Just as I’m going to come, he pulls out of me. What the hell? I was about to get off, damn it! I open my eyes to look up at him in shocked frustration. My breath catches at the lust glowing in his eyes.
“Fuck babe, not happenin’ yet, you come when I t
ell you to. Not until then. I’ll let you come when I’m damn good and ready. And when you come, you better have those gorgeous green eyes of yours on me, not fuckin’ closed. You got me?” Oh shit. I hope he doesn’t expect me to answer that. I nod my head at a complete loss of words with the way he’s staring at me.
I just want to fucking come.
“Need the words, babygirl. Nodding your head doesn’t tell me jack shit.” He slows his thrust to an almost complete stop while he waits for me to answer him.
I’m shocked at how he’s holding himself back. The bastard.
“Yes,” I manage to whimper out.
“Yes what, babygirl? I need more than that. Yes can mean anything. Tell me what you need.” Slowly fucking me, he smirks, knowing exactly what he’s doing to my body.
“Damn you! Yes, I fucking hear you. Please just let me come and stop with this fucking torture, and fuck me until I come on your dick!” I scream out as he slams inside me, fucking me rapidly like a savage animal.
“You got it. Keep your eyes open, baby, just like I said. If you don’t, I’ll hold you back again, and a-fuckin-gain, if you close them,” he says as the force of his thrusts become more savage. Being with him is an experience I’ll never have again. The man is ruining me for anyone else. “Fuck, you ready to come, babygirl?”
“P… Pl… Please don’t stop, I’m going to come. I need to come! Please, don’t you dare stop! Fuck me harder!” I beg him as I get ready to go over the edge.
At my words, he seems to lose the last bit of control he seems to have been holding onto. He starts to fuck me harder, his hands gripping my waist where I know I’ll have bruises come morning.
“Oh my god, yes!”
“Come for me now, babygirl,” he says moving a hand between us and flicking my clit. That’s all that he needs to send me catapulting into my orgasm. Seconds later, I shatter into what feels like a million pieces. I don’t know how much time passes before he groans, but when he does, his dick twitches inside me as he comes. I swear it feels as if he isn’t going to stop coming.
“Damn, that was fuckin’ great. I think you and I will be good friends.” He kisses my lips before pulling out, leaving me wishing he could stay inside me. “Fuck,” he mutters as he sits back on his legs looking down at the space between us. I don’t understand why he looks pissed all of a sudden considering how we just shared what I’ll always think of as the best damn sex I’ve ever had.
“What’s wrong?” I ask quietly as I stare at him nervously with the way his attitude instantly changed.
“The fucking condom broke,” he says through clenched teeth as he looks up. He must see the fear in my eyes at his outburst. His expression softened and he reached to stroke my cheek. “I’m sorry, babe, didn’t mean to scare you. This shit ain’t ever happen before, you don’t have to worry, I’m clean. I get tested once a year, and I never fuck a bitch without a condom on. Fuckin’ hell! I’ve never had a condom break on me before. Swear that vice of a pussy you have there. So damn tight.”
“I don’t know if I should take that as a compliment or not. Guess it’s a good thing I take care of myself as well, and I get the shot every six months. You don’t have to worry about diseases from me, I’m clean, and the last man I was with was over a year ago. So, that would explain why my pussy is like a vice. That and Kegels,” I say trying to lighten the mood.
Thank god I’m on birth control. I can’t even imagine being pregnant with some guy’s child who I don’t even know. No matter the connection I feel already with him, I couldn’t do that. The last thing I need is to become pregnant right now, especially when I’m not ready for one yet. I want to go to school before a kid is brought into the mix.
“Thank fuck, babe. I swear, I didn’t mean for this shit to happen. And that’s good to know you’re covered. Wish I had more time to fuck you again, but I gotta get going. Least now I know I can fuck you without a condom. You cool with that?” He looks at me for an answer.
“Ummm, I’ve never been with a guy without one,” I shyly inform him.
“Not going to waste my money on shit that’s just gonna break, babe. You’re on birth control, so we’re covered.”
“Okay,” I whisper as all coherent thought goes out the window when he runs his fingers down my body, running a finger around my clit before getting off the bed.
He gives me a smile as he pulls his pants on. “Good, babygirl, I’ll catch you later. Maybe we can get together tomorrow night for another round. Make it an all-night fuck session.” The feeling of disappointment hits me that he’s leaving already. I wanted to feel that body of his move over me again.
“You know you could always just crash here, and we can have another round now if you want.” I smile up at him as I roll to my side moving my hand to support my head. My eyes roam over his gorgeous body as he buttons his jeans, before running a hand through his hair.
Damn, I’ve never seen a man look so damn sexy before.
“No can do, babygirl, I don’t do sleepovers.” Shaking his head at me, he puts the rest of his clothes on. He leans towards me, kissing me thoroughly one last time before he walks out of the bedroom. Lying completely naked, I grab the covers as I hear him walking out the door.
Damn, he is sinful with the way he just worked my body. I swear, if I were looking to be in a relationship, I could really fall for a man like him.
A man like Thorn.
* * *
One Month Later…
Shaking the thoughts of the first time we were together I can’t help the tears that sting my eyes every time I think of him. It continued that way for over a month before I overheard what he’d said. I haven’t seen him since, and I refuse to be the girl that goes crawling, whining about shit, causing drama. I don’t have time for that, who the hell does?
I honestly thought Thorn and I had an agreement, and it was working for us. Neither of us having to worry about a relationship. I don’t need one if I have a friend with benefits. I guess I thought wrong, which is fine. I don’t need him just like I don’t need anyone else. Everything I do is for me. I feel like complete shit for everything I thought we were, only to realize we didn’t have what I thought we did. I went into this whole ordeal wanting nothing but a clean, easy, fun time. That’s what being friends with benefits means. No Complications!
Now, my heart is shattering. I didn’t even realize I’d fallen for him. At least, not until it was too late. I can’t go there again with him. That would mean Thorn talking to his buddies about how he thinks I’m clingy. Nope not happening. At the end of the day, he should know me better than that, and I’m anything but some clingy bitch.
Thankfully, I won’t be seeing him around the bar now that I have a new job. I can’t thank Izzy enough for getting me a job with her at her office. I also started going to school for my degree as a medical tech, it’s something I’ve always wanted to do. I even found another place to live that is way closer to work. It sucks that I wouldn’t be living with Cleo anymore, but I need this change for so many reasons.
Now here I am, staring down at the test I’ve just taken, scared out of my mind.
What am I gonna do now?
I’m pregnant, and I can’t even tell the baby’s father. It’s not like he’ll want to have anything to do with us anyway. He’ll just think I planned to trap him.
After all, that’s what clingy girls do, isn’t it?
1
Thorn
My grandpa always told me that when I found ‘the one’, I’d know. Well, I fucked that shit up to hell and back. I met the woman that was supposed to be mine, but I’m a selfish prick and didn’t want to settle down yet. That’s what I thought— at least, before that woman quit the bar and moved out of town. It’s been two months since I’ve seen Lynsdey. Two-fucking-months of being pissed. The last time I saw her, she refused to acknowledge me. The woman completely ignored me.
I thought we had something good. It was just about fuckin’, but she’s the only one I want t
o stick my dick in. Fuck, it was the best sex I’ve ever experienced. The way we’d connect with each other was on an entirely different level.
After the first time we fucked, we agreed to be fuck buddies. That’s all I wanted— well, that’s what I keep telling myself. But what I really wanted to do was claim her as mine. I wanted to murder the fuckers she flirted with at the bar. All those guys eye-fucking her in that uniform almost made me lose my mind. I know what they were thinking since I thought the same shit. I’d imagine bending her ass over a table and slamming my dick in that vice of a pussy.
Now, I don’t even know where the fuck she moved to. Hell, her friends haven’t said a word about where she went. Several times, I’ve caught the stink-eye from both Kenny and Cleo when I go to the bar— as if it’s my fucking fault she left.
I wish I knew what went wrong between us. Maybe then I could fix it. If I could find out where she is, I’d be there in a heartbeat demanding answers.
I shake my head, trying to rid myself of any and all thoughts of Lynsdey.
What I need to do is get my damn dick wet. I haven’t been able to get even a twitch out of my dick when it comes to another woman. Not since I started whatever it was with Lynsdey. It’s like the woman put a damn spell on me. The last time my dick saw any action was with her that last time. I have no desire to fuck anyone else.