Dear Ms. Kennakris,
I wanted to write and thank you for your kind letter regarding my husband, Marko. Commander Huron was so kind as to enclose a letter of his own, explaining further the circumstances of Marko’s death, and we are glad to know what happened and why. It has helped us much.
I do understand your feelings and appreciate them but please know that we do forgive you. Marko loved the Service. It was very important to him to do his duty and I know in my heart that he does not blame you nor would he wish us to, and I forgive you in his name as well as my own.
I know how you must feel but that is a burden you cannot forever carry. Marko would not wish it so, nor do I.
Yours most sincerely,
Laeyna Tiernan
Opening the message module of the desk’s console, she brought up Laeyna’s last email. They’d been in full comms lockdown during their transit and much of the time they were on-station. This email was stamped almost a month ago and it had just been released to her that AM. Now, it looked like they’d deploy within the next thirty-six—yesterday and today there’d been more exercises; she’d stood watch with Tole both days, assigned to the comms department—and they’d certainly go back into lockdown before they left. Skimming Laeyna’s email again—a warm, friendly, comfortable missive full of domestic details she didn’t always comprehend—she expanded a compose screen and started typing.
Dear Laeyna,
Thank you for your last email. I’m sorry I couldn’t reply sooner. Things have been busy around here, maybe you’ve heard. I’m happy Jeska and Little Marko liked the stuff I sent—I hope they don’t get into too much trouble with it. I hope Marlys is feeling better too. Those inoculations can be a real bitch.
She stopped and bit her lower lip. Was it okay to say bitch in a letter? Especially to someone you’d never actually met? Shaking her head slowly, she hit backspace and rekeyed: can be really uncomfortable.
Anyway, things are heating up. It looks like something major is at the horizon, so I may not be able to write back again. I want to let you know, that if anything does happen, I’m making arrangements to send you Marko’s pialla.
The CATs had given it to her at Marko’s funeral—she still wasn’t exactly sure why—and she’d written Laeyna shortly after to tell her she had it, and that she wanted to return it. Laeyna, unaccountably (as far as Kris was concerned) had insisted she keep it. So she had. But with her last outing and the way things were shaping up, it felt like time to stop taking chances.
You probably know better than me how screwed up—
She paused again and reread the last line. It was probably alright.
things get after a big dance, and I don’t want anything to happen to it. I’m leaving instructions with Rafe to send it to you. Either he, or his people, will handle it. It will be good for the kids to have when they are older.
I also want to thank you again for that first ever letter you sent. I can’t tell you how much it means to me. It has really kept me going at times. Your emails have always meant a lot to me too.
Please give my best to the kids, and especially thank Little Marko again for his email, that you enclosed. He already writes a better letter than I do.
Sincerely yours,
Loralynn Kennakris
PS: I forgot to mention that I got a note from CPL Gergen. The re-gen of his hand still won’t take so he accepted retirement on a medical instead of being stuck as a base wallah. He’s going back to Reveille. He’s passing through Whitworth on the way and said he’d like to call on you. (You might have heard from him already.) If you see him, please give him my best.
Lance Corporal Benn Gergen had been CAT 5’s gunner; he’d lost his left hand in the same firefight in which Marko lost his life. She still got a message from him on occasion, as she did from First Sergeant Andréa Burdette, CAT Second, who’d come close to losing her leg, and Gunnery Sergeant Antoinette Lopez, Fireteam Charlie’s leader, who had lost an eye and made good on her threat to replace it with a bright blue prosthetic to go with her remaining hazel one. As much as she appreciated their consideration, the kindness tended to put her on edge, as being undeserved. It was one thing for Laeyna and CAT 5 to forgive her for fucking up. Forgiving herself was quite something else.
Reading her reply over, she sighed. It reeked lame. Fuck it. She wasn’t kidding when she said Marko’s eight-year-old son wrote a better letter than she did. She hit SEND.
Refolding Laeyna’s letter and carefully putting it back in the pialla, she reached for the second envelope. Her hand hovered a moment over the crisp paper—the real thing, handmade by artisans and very expensive—and then dropped to the desk. Staring a moment longer, she reached out again and picked up the envelope, turning it over. On the back was a gold wafer, slightly curled up at one edge.
Setting it facedown on the desktop, she steepled her hands over it and squeezed her eyes shut. There was no need to open it, to pull out the sheet inside and read the words again. She knew them by heart—knew every loop and curve. Four spare lines of poetry, written in a woman’s graceful hand.
Mariwen’s hand.
She’d received it—without any explanation—when she graduated from the Academy. No address, for Mariwen remained in protective custody, her contact info highly restricted. No word since—nothing. Just those four unanswerable lines, floating in limbo, meaning nothing—everything.
Kris shook her head. She didn’t even know how Mariwen was doing, how she was recovering, if she still remembered . . .
Fuck.
Looking away, she picked up Marko’s pialla and put it back in the DMB. She took out the sheaf of documents, flipped through it until she found the one headed Final Deposition, Statement of Instructions, Disposition of Personal Effects, and pretended to read it. It named Huron as her executor—they’d made her have one as her estate was above the legal threshold, thanks to her repatriation settlement—and contained instructions to continue the annuity she’d arranged for Kym, a young girl she’d pulled off a slaver boat a year ago and become fond of. (She hoped Kym was okay: she’d married some guy she met by chance at Ceres transfer station, and that was the last Kris had heard of her.) Otherwise the document was blank, except for a note she’d written on the back about returning the pialla. No family, no next of kin, no possessions to speak of.
Just Mariwen’s letter.
Why was she even keeping it at this point? Maybe it was time to just—
No.
Hands shaking worse now, she gathered up the papers and stuffed them back in the DMB. She checked the time, and swore under her breath. She had a physical therapy session in five minutes—she was gonna be late. Again.
Shit.
Putting the envelope back on top of the other papers, she shut the lid. The edges glowed briefly as it sealed. Hurrying those few steps to her locker, she shoved the DMB back where it had been, slapped the door shut, and reached for her undress tunic.
Thirty-six hours—
Then what? More watchstanding. Watching. Waiting. Being fuckin’ useless. That letter . . .
She was gonna be late. She hated bein’ late.
Hated it.
Zero Day
IHS Marshall Nedelin, docked;
Janin Station, Tau Verde, Vulpecula Region
“My Dearest,” Jakob Adenauer began his latest diary entry, at 0800 on the morning after Nefastio. It would likely be his last for some time. That it might also be his last ever was in the back of his mind, as it always was for anyone who made war their profession, and as it should be. It was there that thought belonged, and there it would stay. Of much greater consequence was the thing he wrote next.
“The waiting is done. At last, we embark on the business at hand—it is a relief.” A tremendous relief, it was not too much to say. The planning had come together; the final simulations, held on board Ilya Turabian three days ago, were as encouraging as such things could be. He and Caneris had carried their main points, and there had been no sloppy
foolishness in these exercises. The monitor had arrived without incident, and his tech staff had completed their system checks and cleared it for deployment.
The last minute decision to give CARDIV I to Vice Admiral Tomashevich, temporarily relieving Josephus Kline, was not entirely welcome, but Tomashevich was senior to Kline and, after the beating CARDIV II had taken at Miranda, Tomashevich was eager to redeem himself. CARDIV I had not yet fully jelled and suddenly putting them under a new CO would not help that, but nor was it quite agreeable to entrust such a vital mission—almost unprecedented—to the less-experienced Kline.
Most of all, it just wasn’t politically feasible to leave Tomashevich in port, overseeing the rebuilding of CARDIV II, while a much younger admiral was sent off to harvest the glory that would naturally fall to the man who would release the Bannermans and play such a crucial role in trapping PrenTalien’s fleet, thereby seeing to its final destruction.
Then there was the question of his people, and here too he had a mind more contented then it had lately been. “They will be at ease,” he added to his diary, “knowing their duty, and the Fleet will come together, the discords being set aside.”
He did not think he was being overly optimistic here. It was true that the newcomers—Orlan was particularly singled out—had been viewed as interlopers and not made to feel at home. The men and women of the Kerberos Fleet had come to take a perverse pride in their humble origins and rough colonial ways and enjoyed looking down on the “blueblood virgins” who made up a large part of Orlan’s crew. Adenauer knew that in the mess or on grave watch—whenever they thought an officer wasn’t attending—the seniors of the fleet would jerk their head toward a port, wink, and say quietly: “We’ll get them aristo fuckers over there at the pointy end soon enough. Then we’ll see what color their blood really is.”
That was part of their spirit, well earned by now, and he’d turned a mostly deaf ear to it. In any case, regulations and stern admonitions from on high could not weld a fleet together. Only the shared experience of battle could fully accomplish that, and battle they would soon have. The blueblood virgins would earn their place and be given their just due. Or they would not. Either way, there was nothing more to be said about it.
What mattered now, to the people of all ranks, was that after the disappointments of Miranda, they were going to get a chance to salve their injured pride, to prove their worth—to give their social “betters” another one in the eye. That was merely right and proper, in their book, for all it would tear them away from the good food, cold drinks, and supple limbs afforded by a nice long port stay, and as much as they would gripe and grumble and bitch when it happened—and that was right and proper too. It was for good reason that they were called—and called themselves—the dregs of a hundred planets. He would not have led anyone else.
His stylus scratched on, at times squeaking faintly against the surface of the pad.
“It is odd perhaps to think of such a thing at such a time, but I cannot help but recall our wedding: how vast were the plans, how carefully laid, what debates on this detail or that one. And on the AM appointed, how nothing seemed to go right. The hairdressers were late, and there was not time for the coiffures intended. Someone lost her shoes—she borrowed a pair of boots from your sister with disreputable heels. Your maids’ gowns arrived without closures by some astounding oversight—I helped you sew them on the girls while our families fretted. What a terrible breach it was that we should be together before the ceremony—a frightful scandal. Your mother was absolutely white with it all.
“And yet, in the end, it all passed off rather well. No one knew and by the feast all was forgotten. So it is in war—as the first guns speak, the plans are found to be useless (though planning itself cannot be dispensed with). Someone critical is always late—something indispensable must again be dispensed with. Yet still may we stitch together a victory, though the means may look, to some, disreputable.”
He lifted the stylus for a final time, a private smile unstiffening his long features, then dipped it to the pad again. “Now, I must close. Keep yourself well and we shall meet again, at the time which Providence, in her wisdom, shall appoint.”
Attaching an affectionate valedictory, he closed and locked the document and returned his attention to the cabin’s situation displays. He knew full well that throughout the fleet, all who could command a port or a screen or a console were keeping their eyes on the flagship, while those who couldn’t kept their eyes on those who could. But all of them were eagerly waiting for his inevitable signal: All captains repair aboard Flag; in joyful anticipation of yet another glorious cruise.
Part II: The Shattered Sword
“The longer a war lasts, the more things tend to depend on accidents. Neither you nor we can see into them: we have to abide their outcome in the dark.”
Thucydides, The Peloponnesian War
“Do your damnedest in an ostentatious manner all the time.”
Gen. George S. Patton Jr.
Chapter One: Opening Gambits
Z-Day +2 (AM)
LSS Ardennes, Point Moira;
near Wogan’s Reef, Hydra Border Zone
Wogan’s Reef was binary system, a circumstance that resulted in its usefulness as a transit node along with some other notable characteristics. The primary was Wogan’s Star, a moderate red giant whose companion was smaller K1-type. For eons, the primary had been feeding off its poor relation, now reduced to not much more than a dim dwarf, and the primary’s gorging made it a fast-period variable.
The variability of Wogan’s Star complicated astrogation in the neighborhood, shifting the Teller rings and thus the favored jump sectors, as did two massive gas giants, trapped in uneasy, unpredictable orbits between the two stars. Another complication was that Wogan’s Star did not feed in a genteel manner: it sucked up its diet of hydrogen sometimes in sips but often in gulps, and frequently emitted great belches of plasma, which mariners facetiously referred to as “weather.” These posed no physical danger to ships, although small craft might suffer if caught in one, but they did play Old Harry with sensors and lightspeed communications.
The hydrogen and helium, with traces of heavier elements, swirling in to feed Wogan’s Star heated and ionized as they did so, creating a disk of plasma about the diner that gave it an unhealthy squashed and bloated appearance. Jump sectors could shift in and out of this disk; doing so did not make them unusable, but the plasma’s effects on navigation sensors greatly increased the risk. There were always those willing to run such risks, however: smugglers and pirates mostly, who used these occluded jump sectors to transit the junction undetected.
Finally, there was the reef in Wogan’s Reef: an accretion disk surrounding the companion star out to about 2 AU. The system’s complex gravitational interactions prevented the formation of anything larger than gravel, and the reef was composed of these pea-sized particles orbiting in a soup—quite thick by astronomical standards—of fine silt-like grains. Ships could not operate in this soup, but the gravity of the chaotically orbiting gas giants perpetually stirred the accretion disk, creating voids and eddies through which ships could safely transit, and in which they could—if need be—hide. For this reason, the reef had been heavily mined at the beginning of the last war, and these days no one knew how many mines were still there, and how active they might be. These factors played together to make Wogan’s Reef a very valuable bit of ether and also one that was especially difficult in which to operate.
Admiral Joss PrenTalien had this all in mind as he stood in the combat information center of LSS Ardennes, the most powerful dreadnought in the CEF Navy and now Third Fleet’s flagship as well, surveying a forward view screen upon which a schematic of Wogan’s Reef was displayed. The data, which were being collected by a constellation of probes within the system and a line of stealth frigates outside it, and then transmitted to the fleet by hyper-relay, was fifty minutes old. The fleet itself was assembled six hours out, at an otherwise undisti
nguished location PrenTalien had designated Point Moira, on the suggestion of his flag lieutenant. The young man had gone on to explain that Moira was the name Homer used for the Fates—he could be whimsical like that. The admiral, having grown up with a grandmother of that name (and it fit her to a ‘T’), happily fell in with the notion.
Now, thoughts of whimsy (or even beloved grandmothers) far from his mind, PrenTalien used his pointer to highlight a region between Wogan’s Star and the innermost gas giant, close to the edge of the former’s plasma disk.
“This is what worries me, Harry”—addressing Harry Bolton, the Captain of the Fleet, who was standing next to him. “This damn zone has moved twice in the last week. The Bannermans have been running smugglers and worse through this system for a century. I’m betting they can predict it. We’ve got no handle on it at all. If it moves anywhere here”—he swept out an area of the plasma disk—“they can jump in and we won’t even be able to see them, much less stop them.”
The Bannerman fleet at Callindra 69 was the object of his concern. Recent reports of the Doms’ activities had driven their faith in the blockading force’s ability to hold them there even lower.
“I’m afraid we may have given up too easily on detaching X-ray to reinforce them.” Bolton sounded uncharacteristically peevish, but then the last few days had been especially trying. “Hamish would’ve superseded Hollis, putting an end to all the nonsense. That alone would’ve been a victory.”
Bolton was alluding to an eleventh-hour proposal to dispatch the strike force’s other DREDRON under Vice Admiral Hamish Burton (Third Fleet’s nominal CO) to Callindra 69, greatly strengthening the blockade and giving him something more active to do than hold the exit gate for them at Wogan’s Reef. But the Nedaemans were in no mood to reverse their earlier veto of allowing Ardennes X-ray to deploy out of Merope, and in any case, the plan would have put the entire strike force on the wrong side of the plate if things broke ugly. The suggestion had been allowed to die a quiet death.
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