“If you’re living in it, then yes. It’s your money, Lacey. Starting soon.”
She rubbed her hands up and down her arms. She didn’t know what the future held, but she did know she had very little left in the way of family beyond Uncle Marc. Although the man had been the cause of her childhood trauma, he may well have just saved her life. She didn’t know if they could ever have a relationship, but as gestures went, he’d made a start.
She raised her gaze to meet his. “You can stay in the house,” she said. “As I said, it’s your home, not mine. Whatever basics the trust has always covered, well, that can continue as far as I’m concerned. I’m sure my parents would want it that way.”
“I doubt it after all I’ve done to you.” His gaze shifted out the window, his embarrassment and humiliation clear.
“Actually, I think my father would be grateful you saved my life, so let’s just start from here, okay? From where I stand, you don’t have any more family than I do.”
He blinked. “Your parents would be proud of the woman you’ve become,” he said. “Through none of my actions, that much is for sure.”
She thought his eyes were moist, but she couldn’t be sure. Before she could reply, a knock at the door startled her. She turned to see Ty and the chief of police standing in the entry to the solarium.
“We didn’t want to interrupt, but I’m glad you’re both here,” the chief said.
Beside him, Ty scowled but said nothing.
Lacey felt sure he’d overheard at least part of her conversation with her uncle and didn’t approve, but the money was hers to spend as she wanted. Or it would be soon.
“What’s going on?” Marc asked.
“Paul Dunne was arrested at the airport before he could board a flight to South America.” Don’s grin told a story of his own. The man was obviously pleased they had caught their suspect. “You’re now both safe. You can relax, and things can go back to normal,” he said.
“Whatever that is,” Ty said as he shook the man’s hand and thanked him for his hard work.
Lacey studied the man she knew she loved. However would she handle what had to come next? She could no longer avoid returning home to New York, but was that what she really wanted?
They walked out of the hospital and headed for Ty’s car. A cool breeze blew around them and the sun shone bright in the sky.
Avoidance and procrastination. Two things Lacey had never considered herself an expert in before now. She had a business waiting for her in New York, but she couldn’t bring herself to bring up the subject and tell Ty she had to leave.
He knew, of course. Her leaving was like the pink elephant trailing behind them. The more they avoided talking about it, the larger it loomed. But now that the reasons for her return had been resolved, she couldn’t avoid her responsibilities back home any longer.
He paused by the car, leaning against the passenger side door. He studied her with those intense eyes, and she couldn’t tell what he was really thinking.
“My apartment’s been cleaned. I can move back in anytime,” he said, obviously choosing a safe topic of conversation.
“Why do I hear a ‘but’ there?” she asked.
He laughed. “You know me so well. But I thought I’d stay at Mom’s for a while, at least until she’s back on her feet.”
“I think that’s a really good idea.” Not only for his mother, Lacey thought. Now that she had her opening, she drew a deep breath and dove right in. “It’ll be easier for you when I—”
“Leave?” he asked.
She exhaled hard. “Yes. With things here resolved…” she trailed off, knowing she and Ty were anything but resolved. “What I meant was with my uncle no longer an issue, I can return to New York.”
“I notice you didn’t say return home.” He folded his arms across his chest, looking smug even for Ty.
She stepped closer. “It’s where I live. It’s where my business is.” The problem for Lacey remained though. Ty was where her heart was.
“Okay then.” He nodded, his easy agreement taking her off guard.
She blinked. “Just like that? You’re going to wave goodbye and say have a nice life?”
“It sounded to me like that’s what you wanted.” Already, he’d erected an invisible wall of self-protection.
“I don’t know what I want,” she said, not bothering to disguise her frustration. “Maybe you could split me in two. That would be a nice easy resolution.” She could run her business and live life in New York while a part of her remained here with Ty. Upset and confused, she ran a hand through her hair, tugging at the windblown strands.
Ty grabbed her hand and lowered it to her side, never letting go. “You need to go back to New York. You need to live your life, and with distance, maybe then you can decide what you want. I can’t do that for you,” he said in a gruff voice.
He was right, something she’d sensed deep down in her heart. She forced a smile and squeezed his hand tighter. “I lived for ten years on my own. I defined myself by my business. After a short time back here, I barely gave my old life a thought. I don’t understand how that could have happened.”
And it scared her, especially since most of what remained in Hawken’s Cove was a host of bad memories. Not that she could discount the good ones, but the past still held on tight, choking her.
“Which is exactly why you should go back. It’s what you planned to do. It’s what you need to do.”
Lacey swallowed hard. “You’re right. I do need to go home.”
Everything that had happened since Ty had shown up on her doorstep had occurred too fast for her to process. She needed time away from here so she could think clearly. She just wished she didn’t have to leave Ty to do it.
“I can drive you back after my mother is released from the hospital,” he offered.
She shook her head. “Thanks, but I can rent a car and drive home myself.”
“You’ve obviously thought this through,” he said, his words sounding like an accusation.
“Not really. I just don’t want to be a burden, and driving three hours back and forth to Manhattan is a hassle you don’t need right now.” She turned away so he wouldn’t see the tears forming in her eyes.
She might have to leave, she might understand her reasons for doing so, but that didn’t make it any easier to do. “It’s still early in the day. I can take care of the car and still spend some time with your mother before I leave. I want to see Hunter and Molly, too.”
“Actually, Molly’s gone.”
His words took her by surprise.
“Hunter called earlier to tell me she packed up and left.” Ty unlocked the car doors and held hers open for her.
“Just like that?” Lilly asked. Stunned, she turned back around. “Didn’t Molly have her law practice here? Her mother? Her life?”
Ty shrugged. “It seems her mother took off, as well. There’s a lot of leaving going on,” he said, wryly.
Lacey knew he wasn’t as cavalier about the subject as he sounded. “Poor Hunter,” she murmured and climbed into the car.
Ty shut her door without responding. He’d had to bite his tongue not to remind Lilly that Hunter would have Ty to keep him company soon. He didn’t want to come off sounding pathetic in any way.
He’d held on to his sanity by a thread as he and Lilly walked out of the solarium, her words to her uncle ringing in his ear. Giving her parents’ home to her only relative didn’t bode well for Ty’s hopes that she’d developed ties to her hometown. Ties to him.
Although he’d only heard part of the conversation and he knew nothing she’d said to Dumont took her feelings for Ty into account, his gut had been churning ever since. He’d promised himself he wouldn’t push her for answers until the threat to her life was over.
Now that the time had come, he couldn’t bring himself to push her at all. Once before, Lilly had chosen not to come back, and he couldn’t just forget how easily she’d put him in the past and left him ther
e. If he hadn’t shown up and begged her to reclaim her trust fund, she’d still be living her life in New York, without him.
So, if Lilly wanted to leave again now, far be it from him to stand in her way. No promises had been exchanged, and he was glad he’d reminded himself of this possibility all along.
Not that knowing made the inevitable any easier to handle, he thought. But he’d survive without Lilly. Just as he’d done once before.
Chapter Seventeen
Flo Benson had been home from the hospital for a week. The doctors assured her that her heart would perform like it always had. She’d be fine. Unfortunately, she couldn’t say the same for her son. Since her release, Ty had stayed with her in the house. After the first two days, he’d gone back to work. During the day he’d be at the office, and most evenings he was doing surveillance, which freed up Flo to be with Andrew.
Still, she knew Ty was merely keeping busy to avoid thinking about Lilly and how he’d let her go. Again. Damn stubborn man, Flo thought. Not only was he torturing himself, he was driving her crazy, hovering whenever he was around.
“Mom? I made you a cup of green tea. It’s supposed to be full of antioxidants and good for your heart.” Ty stepped into her bedroom where she relaxed, watching the late news.
“You aren’t working tonight?” she asked.
He shook his head. “Derek’s got things covered.” He placed the cup and saucer on her nightstand.
“Ty, I need to ask you something, and please don’t take this the wrong way. When in the hell are you leaving?” she asked her son.
He cocked his head to the side. “I can be out of here now if that’s what you mean. My apartment’s been ready for a while. I just thought you’d appreciate having some company when you came home.”
She shook her head. Sometimes men, including the doctor that she adored, could be so thickheaded. “I meant when are you leaving Hawken’s Cove and going after Lilly?”
He lowered himself onto her bed with a heavy thud but remained silent in the face of her blunt question.
“It’s not that I don’t love you and appreciate you taking care of me, but I don’t need it. I’m fine. The doctors told you so. The fact that you’re still here at all is more for your benefit than for mine. I’m thinking you don’t want to go back to your small lonely apartment and think about what an ass you’ve been letting her leave you again.” She folded her arms across her chest, defying her son to argue.
He scowled as he replied, “I am not going to discuss my love life with my mother.”
“What love life? As far as I can see, you don’t have one and you never will. Give me one good reason why you didn’t ask her to stay.”
“Why am I the one getting flack when she’s the one who packed up and left?” he asked.
“Because you’re the one who’s miserable, and I’m the unfortunate one who has to watch you suffer.”
Flo pushed herself up against the pillows, getting more comfortable. She winced at the slight pulling in her chest, a normal reaction, the doctor had assured her.
“But that’s what is bothering you, isn’t it? The fact that she left you. A part of you can’t get beyond the fact that she never came back the first time, and you wanted her to be the one to step up now. Am I right?”
Ty squirmed, uncomfortable in the glare of his mother’s questions and accurate guesses. “Do you want to know what life has taught me?” he asked her.
She raised her eyebrows. “Do tell.”
“People leave. Dad left. Lilly left. Hunter went next. Lilly has a life in New York. Why the hell should I expect her not to want to return to it?” He wasn’t one for spilling his guts, but his mother knew how to push all the right buttons and make him angry enough to talk about things he’d normally leave bottled up inside.
Flo shook her head. “I hate to say this to you, but it’s time for you to grow up. Your father was a no-good drunk and a gambler. His leaving was the best thing that could have ever happened to us. As for the rest, well, pardon my French, but shit happens.”
Ty stared at his mother. He’d never heard such frank talk from her before.
“You need to get over the past. Lilly has. I heard she had no real reaction to Marc Dumont’s confession that he paid me to take her in. That she was never really in foster care. Did you notice?”
He rubbed the back of his neck with his hand, his muscles tense. “Yeah, I noticed.” He’d been shocked that she hadn’t been more hurt by the news or angry at her uncle for placing her in a home he knew nothing about. Or felt betrayed by his mother for conspiring with Dumont and taking such an excessive amount of cash.
“She shocked you, didn’t she? You’ve been protecting her from a secret that she didn’t need protecting from. And you’ve also eaten yourself alive with guilt because you had nice things and she struggled to survive. But she’s over it, Tyler. You’re the only one still suffering.”
He rose to his feet and walked to the window. The shade was drawn, blocking out the dark night sky. He turned back to his mother, glancing at her from across the room. “You’re very perceptive all of a sudden.”
“A brush with death will do that to a person. I love you, and I don’t want to see you end up alone because you’re scared to let yourself feel too much. You’re afraid of being hurt, but guess what? You can’t feel any worse than you do right now.”
He shook his head and laughed. “Leave it to my mother to tell it like it is.”
“I figured if I wasn’t honest, you’d never leave.”
“Don’t tell me I’m cramping your social life?” he asked jokingly. Then he caught his mother’s blush. “I am cramping your social life,” he said, shocked he’d never realized it before. “You could have just asked me to move out already.”
“I believe I just did.” Flo grinned, the flush in her cheeks brighter than before.
His mother wanted him to move out so she’d have time with her boyfriend. “I’ll be gone first thing in the morning,” he muttered, shaking his head at the ironic turn of events.
“Are you going to talk to Lilly?” she asked hopefully.
Ty grinned. “I thought I told you I wasn’t going to discuss my love life with my mother?” He walked over and kissed her cheek. “Thank you for caring enough to toss me out on my ass,” he said, chuckling. “As for the rest, I promise to think about everything you said.”
He’d think. And then, maybe, he’d find the courage to go after what he wanted.
Back for a week, Lacey now remembered why she loved her business. The girls who worked for her were so happy she’d returned, they had shown up at her apartment with a welcome-back cake. As a special surprise, one of them had looked Marina up and brought her along with them. Whenever Lacey talked to one of her employees, she remembered her early days in New York and how grateful she’d been when Marina had given her a chance and a job. She loved doing the same.
As for the people who employed her company, some were a pain in the rear end, complaining endlessly about towels not folded right, dogs who’d pooped in the house, which must be the dog walker’s fault, and grocery lists filled wrong. Then there were those who just appreciated having someone other than themselves do their odd jobs while they put in a long day at the office. Either way, Lacey found herself back to multitasking all day and loving every minute.
She also missed Ty. Constantly, desperately and always. Still, she’d done the right thing by going home and remembering what it was that she loved about her life. A life she could duplicate in Hawken’s Cove, if that was the only way to be with Ty.
Because another thing she’d realized by coming back was that home wasn’t a place. Home was a feeling. Home was where her heart beat a little faster and a place she could come to at the end of a satisfying or frustrating day and know he was there waiting. At this point she didn’t care if her parents’ old house and her uncle were there to remind her of all she’d lost. She’d gained so much more by reconnecting with Ty.
She had a few days left until her birthday, the day when she’d go back to Hawken’s Cove and claim her trust fund. A day when she’d sign the house over to her uncle for good. She wanted nothing to do with that part of her life.
As for the money, the court-appointed trustee who’d taken over for the now jailed Paul Dunne had informed her that Paul had embezzled hundreds of thousands of dollars over the years. The estate itself now consisted of one point seven million dollars, excluding the house and real estate. An amount she could barely comprehend.
Despite the loss, more than enough remained for her to cover her uncle’s cost of living in the house, and for her to start up an Odd Jobs in Hawken’s Cove. Marina was retired, but Lacey had asked, and the older woman had agreed to oversee the business in New York. Over time, Lilly could either sell it to her or one of her employees. Time would tell.
Of course, all of her plans hinged on the assumption that Ty wanted her to come back. That he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her and make babies together when they were ready, and let his mother shower their children with love and affection.
She just didn’t know what he wanted, and the few times she’d called, she hadn’t left a message. She assumed he was out working, either the night shift at the bar or on a case. Because she didn’t know how to broach her feelings on the phone, she hadn’t left a message. And he hadn’t called her, either. Or like her, he hadn’t left a message.
She fingered the locket around her neck. She still couldn’t bring herself to part with the sentimental piece of jewelry, and she wouldn’t. Not unless Ty told her to get lost for good. She swallowed over the lump in her throat and continued to think positive thoughts.
Like what would she do with the rest of the money in the trust fund. It seemed a waste to let the money sit and just accumulate doing nothing. She had some thoughts, but she hadn’t come to any firm decisions yet.
A loud knock startled her, and Digger began her obsessive barking, jumping up and down at the door without even knowing who was behind it.
Lacey glanced in the peephole and nearly passed out. She flung the door open wide. “Ty? What are you doing here?” she asked, excited, hopeful, and also scared something had happened to his mother. “Is Flo okay?” she asked.
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