by JL Madore
“What are you sayin’… exactly.
“I surrender.”
I can’t believe those words come out of my mouth, but I won’t take them back. It’s a truth I’ve refused to see for a long while now. In so many aspects of my life, I’m the dominant one. Here, with my mate, I don’t want to be in charge.
Jaxx’s eyes glow as his animal prowls into power. “Lift your knees,” he commands, his voice heavy with the demand of an alpha.
I do as I’m told, and he deposits my cum right where I expect. I look down my body and between my legs. Jaxx is fully aroused and hungry. “Last chance, Hawk. I’m losing control here. Once I’m inside you, I’m fucking you hard and long. You’re going to beg me for mercy.”
My eyes roll back in my head and I swear I almost blackout. No wonder Calli passed out when he was fucking her. The guy has more power than any male should have.
“Fuck me, Jaxx. Make me beg.”
Jaxx swipes my cum against my ass and plays a little. “You’ve had anal before, yeah? Fingers? Toys?”
“No. You’re in virgin territory here, Jaguar. Congrats.”
“Okay, well, you said you don’t mind pain. I’m big for a first run at things. This will burn at first.”
“Do it.”
Lining up, he uses the tip of his cock as at tool, probing, pushing, playing. When he slides his thumb inside and starts stretching me, I’m surprised at how eager I am.
“Fuck, I can’t believe I want this so badly.”
“Grab your cock and give it a tug.” While I’m doing that, he pushes through my resistance and then withdraws. “Again.”
I give myself a stroke and he pushes deeper. Everything burns for a bit, but I love it. With one last sweep of my belly, he slicks us up and starts pumping. I buck beneath him as my body shudders. With my knees in the air, he leans harder into the back of my thighs and starts ramming me in earnest.
The forward thrust has his balls slapping my ass and both of us groan. “How rough?”
It takes a second for me to form words. “No boundaries.”
Jaxx
The sun is bursting bright on the horizon when we finally fall sated into dehydrated heaps. I lay on my back beside him, panting, sweating, and more thoroughly worn out by a lover than I have been in ages. With Calli it’s different. I never use my strength against her, with Hawk, rough and raunchy rules. Never in a million years did I think Hawk needed to be dominated as badly as he did. But yeah, he runs the world, giving up the reins for a moment must’ve been hella-freeing.
“Jaxx? Don’t take this the wrong way… please don’t, but I’d like this kept between us.”
“The mating is impossible to hide. Our scents altered.”
“No, not the mating…”
“Your submission?”
“Yeah. I, uh… I have a lot of people watching me, judging me based on my badass outward appearance.”
“I get it. Behind closed doors, mate. I don’t kiss and tell.”
“Thanks.”
I roll onto my hip and brush my fingers over his nipple ring. “We do this again when you’re a hundy percent healed and fighting fit, yeah?”
“Damn straight.” His deep-throated chuckle hits me right in the junk. “It’s fun being the Dom, isn’t it?”
“Damn straight.” I break the contact with him before my poor cock gets another big idea. “I think I figured it out. You know, what you asked me earlier about why I think you stumbled over intimacy with the guardians.”
“Yeah? What did you come up with.”
“I think it’s an alpha thing. You pride yourself in being the expert in all things and the idea of getting down and dirty with a beta or an omega freaked you out. They’ve had male on male experience, and you didn’t know what to expect. Your hawk didn’t want to be vulnerable like that to someone lower on the dominance hierarchy.”
His eyes flutter shut. “And you were different?”
I shrug. “I don’t strut my alpha like you do, but your hawk picks up on it. I think that’s also why you chose to bottom. You’re letting another power take over for a while. I don’t think you will be able to do that with Brant or Kotah, but I think, in time, you’ll be able to mate them.”
I yawn and close mine as well. “That’s my two cents. Now, we rest. Doctor’s orders.”
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Calli
“C’mon, Bear. Shake your fine ass.” I tap my foot against the concrete floor at the end of the bunker entrance tunnel. “I need sunlight. Stomachs to fill. Air to breathe.”
Kotah joins me fresh from the shower and he shrugs. “He’s not ready yet? He had first shower.”
“I know, right? He’s been holed up in the office all morning. I need him to let us out to start our day.”
“All right. Keep your panties on,” Brant says, jogging up the tunnel. “Or better yet, take them off and we can stay down here for the day.”
I chuckle. “As much fun as that sounds, Kotah and I want to work on my phoenix transformation. I’ve mated with all four of you now, so we think my wildling side will be strong.”
Kotah nods. “If we can prevent you from crashing to the earth and breaking every bone in your body, I say we practice as much as possible.”
“This,” I say, pointing at my wolf. “I’m hoping to eliminate crash and burn from my skillset. I’m jazzed. I really think my phoenix is stronger.”
“I’d like to take all the credit, but it might also have to do with what Jaxx and Hawk were getting up to.” Brant raises his brow and shakes his head. “Still can’t picture that.”
That’s another reason I want outside. I need to phone them. I want the details. “Oh, I’ve been picturing it for hours,” I say. “What I want now is to witness it firsthand.”
Kotah’s grin makes my toes curl and a zing of horny heat hits me in the hoohaw. Both of them growl.
“Sorry. Fresh air. Let me work off some of this energy.”
Brant checks the monitor that tracks movement in the driving shed above and the perimeter outside. Once he’s satisfied that no bad guys are waiting to pounce on us, he presses his hand on the locking screen and opens things up.
“We should get groceries and stock the kitchen. Then I wouldn’t get so hangry after hours and hours of mind-blowing sex.” I smile at my mates and bite my lip. “I can’t believe you two aren’t ravenous after all the calisthenics.”
Brant chuckles, hops into the front seat of the golf cart, and Kotah and I slide into the second row. “Unless I miss my guess, Margo and Ben will have a brunch buffet ready for us when we arrive at the ranch. She asked me to text her half an hour before we head out. I’m sure she’s almost ready for us.”
I pull out my phone and call Jaxx… it goes to voicemail.
Next, I call up Hawk and try him… it goes to voicemail.
“They must be sleeping in.”
Brant guns us over a rise and we bounce off the seat and get air. Kotah holds on to the frame with his left hand and wraps his right arm around my shoulder. “I’m guessing your mating with Brant had a lot to do with Jaxx and Hawk’s progression in mating.”
“Then I’m glad I was part of it in some way.”
“Now, the question will be if Hawk’s defenses are down or if it was a momentary moment of weakness.”
I laugh. “We’ve both had sex with Jaxx. That man is addictive. No matter how stubborn Hawk is, my bet is that he can’t help but want more.”
Kotah chuckles and palms the front of his jeans. “Time to change the subject. We’re about to sit down with Brant’s family and I don’t want to be noticeably aroused at the table.”
Brant snorts. “Trust me. That wouldn’t even register. I can’t even tell you how many off-color things I’ve contributed to the breakfast table here.”
“Do tell, Bear,” I say. “I’m all ears.”
Hawk
I roll out of bed around noon and feel almost fully back to myself. My shower is hot and quick. I tow
el off, brush my teeth, probe the bullet entry wound in my chest and the one at my hip, and then find my duffle on the floor by the dresser.
Jaxx is dead to the world, sprawled out naked, the sun of the day warming his ripped and sinewy physique. Fuck me he’s beautiful. My first instinct is to balk and play down what went down between us. That would be a dick move.
I’m tired of always playing the dick card.
I grab my phone and take a picture. Sex with Jaxx signifies more than me being weak in a moment of heightened wanton. Sex with Jaxx marks the moment my world shifted toward believing in a future with these four.
“That’s a very contemplative smile,” the Jaguar says, a coy expression on his face. “You planning on blackmailing me with naked pictures?”
“A keepsake—just for me—if you don’t mind. I’ve got encrypted security on my phone and retinal recognition. It won’t go beyond my viewing.”
He rolls onto his back and slides one arm under his head. The position stretches out his six-pack and looks like something you’d see in on an erotic website. With his free hand, he reaches between his legs and adjusts things. “Here, take another one of my good side now that I’m awake.”
I don’t know what’s gotten into me, but I can’t say no. With his cock swelling and shifting up the ridges of his abs I fight my instincts. “If my life were my own, I would totally come back to bed.”
“But?”
“But, I want to see if anyone has tracked us here, I need to check in on Calli and the others, and I also need to follow up with Lukas on the missing teens and a few FCO issues.”
Jaxx dips his chin and strokes himself. “Suit yourself—I’m self-sufficient—but I gotta say this bad boy is your fault. Standing there aroused and naked and taking sexy pictures of me set the tone.”
I glance down and curse. “It’s hard enough being around Calli and keeping focused on work. Now I’ve got you to tempt me too.”
Jaxx swings around and crawls to the end of the bed. He sits, with his feet on the floor, and spreads his knees. “Come here for a sec before you have to go.”
“I recognize that look, Jaxx. If I come over there, we’re never getting out of this room.”
His smile is all sultry feline. “I promise. My cat just wants a drink of cream, then I’ll let you leave.”
My cock bobs against my belly and I curse my lack of self-control. I hold up my finger. “And then I leave.”
He trails his finger over his heart and makes a cross. “As your mate, I think it’s in your best interest to start every day with a brojob.”
I bark a laugh. “You didn’t say that.”
He lets off a seductive purr and I groan and sway toward him. “Okay, we make it quick.”
“I promise. I’ll make you come hard and fast.” He drops to his knees and points to the chair he was sitting in last night. “Sit and let me suck on you.”
That ring of his alpha sends shivers through me and I’m helpless but to obey. I sit and he curls over my lap and closes the distance between his mouth and my cock. The wet heat of his mouth, the hollowing of his cheeks, his fingers gripping my sac underneath…“Oh, fuck that’s too good.”
Jaxx has talents I never imagined and in minutes, I’m panting. Then he starts to purr. The vibration of his animal’s pleasure vacillates around my shaft and I grip the arms of the chair. My balls are tingling and the pressure is building fast. I decide I don’t want to be fast. I want this to last forever.
It’s too late. His head is rocking over my lap and I’m too far gone to back it up.
My gaze locks on him, savoring me. He’s rapt and hungry and so fucking confident in taking what he wants. His eyes open and those turquoise pools catch me watching him.
They flash. His jaguar is close to the surface and filled with sultry satisfaction.
“Oh, fuck…” I throw my head back and stiffen. An electrical storm explodes from the base of my cock.
The purring grows louder and his grip shifts to my hips. He’s sucking and swallowing and the heat of cum pushes through my crown. He has me pinned in place, devouring everything I’ve got.
It’s so hot. Cum launches out of me again and again, in wave after wave of convulsions. The tremors don’t end like they always have before… they build up and roll over each other until I’m sure I’ll die from the pleasure.
How can I survive this?
I realize I’m gripping his hair and fucking his mouth like a madman. My pulse is thundering in my head and my vision goes spotty. I’m going to blackout.
Jaxx stops purring and things finally slow down.
My release ebbs to its end and I can breathe again. “What the fuck was that?”
“I told you I was going to make you come hard.”
I can’t look at him curled in my lap right now. I’m too raw. I lift him as I stand and flop us both on the bed. With a hand on my chest, I wait until I can breathe again. “Sorry. I didn’t realize I was fucking you there until I was really fucking you hard.”
“Why are you sorry?”
“Well, I certainly wasn’t being a gentleman about it.”
Jaxx laughs and rolls onto his belly. “You be a gentleman with Calli and Kotah. You be everything else with me.” With that, he props himself up on his elbows, kisses the ever-loving hell out of me, and then pushes off the bed.
Sauntering his naked ass toward the bathroom he leaves me breathless and stunned. “Go to work, Hawk. Leave a cat to jack in the shower in private.”
I groan.
“You’re totally picturing it, aren’t you?”
“Yes.”
“Good. Now go to work. I’m a male of my word—brojob and away you go.”
I lay there in a daze for a few more minutes and then the shower comes on. If I give in, we’ll never get out of this room. Right. Work. Things to do. I grab one of our towels from last night, dry things off, and grab a pair of slacks and a golf shirt from my bag.
I glance around, wondering if my kink kit is in here too or if Calli has it from when she was looking at it. Who knew I’d be wanting it on my side trip with Jaxx? In the end, it’s not here, so that’s likely a good thing. I need to rethink and research before I bring up kink with the jaguar.
My cock stirs behind the fabric of my slacks and I groan. Part of me hopes that this incessant need for my mates is just the mating bond aligning and it will settle over time.
The other part hopes it never ends.
“Good morning,” I say to Lukas as I stride into the kitchen and beeline it for the coffee machine.
“Good afternoon,” Lukas says, a smile in his voice.
I turn and peg him with a look, but he’s studiously glancing at his company iPad. “There are leftovers from dinner last night in the fridge. Milo was here and made bacon and lamb lasagna and mushroom risotto.”
I chuckle and pull a plate down. “He allowed us to keep leftovers? I thought that offended his chef's sensibilities.”
“It does, but Jaxx batted his eyes and used his southern charm to sweet-talk him into it. He was adamant you’d want some when you felt up to it.”
I turn on the oven and slide the lasagna pan inside to heat up. “That was thoughtful. I do.”
“With that drawl of his and his alpha power, your jaguar’s hard to say no to, I’m sure.”
I take the risotto out and set it on the counter a little more aggressively than I intend. “You got something to say to me?”
Lukas holds up his palms and smiles. “Just that I’m glad your life is starting to fulfill you. You deserve every happiness. You work too hard not to reap some rewards. Not that you need me to weigh in, but I approve.”
I turn and busy myself with transferring the risotto into an oven-safe dish. I don’t want to discuss Jaxx with anyone. For now, I want that part of my life to be about me and him.
“Tell me what I missed over the past two days. Where are we on things? Start with office stuff. Jaxx will want to hear the update on the attack and
the teens.”
Jaxx
By the time I get cleaned up and head out to the kitchen, Hawk has the leftovers warmed and is dishing himself a plate. He gestures to the second plate and I nod. “Yeah, thanks.”
“Lukas was saying that you and he have a theory on who found us in Oregon?”
While he finishes with doling out the portions, I grab cutlery and pause at the glasses. “Wine or water?”
“Wine, thanks.”
“Lukas?”
“I’m good.”
I grab two wine glasses down from the stem rack, the bottle of red from last night from the fridge, and head back to the other side of the marble island. “Cool. I don’t want to be the only lush imbibing so early in the day.”
Lukas snorts. “Seriously, you two, it’s almost three o’clock. Early was hours ago… unless you’re saying this is an early dinner. Then you’re good to go.”
I chuckle and set out our cutlery and glasses. “But doesn’t your boss look better after taking a respite?”
Lukas nods. “I told him as much a few minutes ago. Now, back to our theory. Jaxx and I backed things up all the way to the roadside attack on the tour bus, to the intended helicopter crash, to blowing up of your cabin at the Bastion, to the attack at the Oregon compound.”
Hawk hands me my plate and stays on the opposite side of the counter eating while standing up. I open the bottle and pour us two generous glasses of Tuscan red. “So, four attacks. Two occurred while we were on the road and we should’ve been off the map. And two occurred when everyone knew we were at the Prime Palace or the Bastion.”
“Okay, and what did that tell you?”
“Well, we were more interested in the two where we were on the road. We rented that tour bus, so we know that wasn’t what led hostiles there. Calli’s existence was only known by you four, me, Jaxx’s alpha, and the Fae Council.”
Hawk nods. “Agreed, that’s a small group of suspects.”
I chuff and swallow. “That’s only one group of suspects—the Fae Council.”
Lukas nods. “It’s safe to say it wasn’t any of us or Jaxx’s alpha, so yeah, that leaves the council. Then, the helicopter and the cabin both happened while meeting with the council and staying on council land. And then Oregon.”