‘What do you suppose he lacks?’ Sebastian asked, standing back with Abbey and the girls to examine the result of their labours.
‘A nose, of course.’ There was a note of scorn in Megan’s voice.
‘And eyes,’ Alice added.
‘You’re right.’ Sebastian pretended to think about it. ‘Do you think his head might be a little chilly, and his neck, too? Perhaps we should find him a hat and a scarf while we’re about it.’ He twinkled at Alice, reducing her to giggles. ‘We wouldn’t want him to catch cold, would we now?’
‘Snowmen can’t catch cold,’ Megan said, displaying traits of the ungenerous nature her mother kept under closer guard.
‘They most certainly can. Just look, his nose is already running.’ This produced more giggling, even from Megan. ‘What do you say, girls, shall we make him more comfortable?’
‘Yes, let’s!’ Ellen, all shyness forgotten, jumped from foot to foot in her excitement. Sebastian swept her into his arms and swung her over his head, making her giggle and beg for more.
‘I would prefer it if you didn’t agitate her, my lord,’ Miss Frobisher said. ‘She’s prone to sickness when she becomes over-excited.’
‘Really.’ Sebastian raised a brow and fixed the woman with an indolent look. Miss Frobisher sniffed and retreated to the stone seat which the children had cleared for her a short distance away.
‘Mama will be wondering what’s become of me,’ Bea said, bending to address the children, ‘I’ll return to the house and beg a carrot from cook for our snowman’s nose, find buttons for his eyes and see if Richards can find an old hat and scarf to keep him warm.’
‘Yes, please!’ three enthusiastic voices cried in unison.
‘Hurry please, Aunty Bea,’ Alice added alone. ‘He’s dripping.’
‘I’ll go too,’ Laura said, ‘but I shall return directly with our snowman’s wardrobe.’
It was a footman who delivered the required treasures, Laura having decided she was too cold to venture out of doors again. As soon as the snowman had been adorned with his final touches, Miss Frobisher ushered the reluctant children back into the house. Sebastian, anxious not to be seen alone with Abbey, took her elbow and turned her away from the windows overlooking the garden.
‘Stroll this way with me.’
‘Indeed I will since I most particularly wish to speak with you. What did you mean by insisting Sally share my chamber last night?’
Sebastian had been expecting her annoyance and was ready for it. ‘I felt safer knowing she was bearing you company rather than entertaining Hodges.’
Abbey covered her mouth with her gloved hand, but not before he saw her lips shape themselves into an astonished oh.
‘Sally’s a good girl. She wouldn’t do that.’
Sebastian cocked one brow. ‘Would she not?’ When Abbey remained stubbornly silent, Sebastian spoke again. ‘Hodges can be very persuasive and is popular with the opposite sex.’
‘Lord Denver, this is hardly a suitable topic of conversation between us.’
‘Is it not?’ He feigned surprise. ‘With an enquiring mind such as yours, I should have thought you’d be intrigued. The power of the human instinct to procreate tends to overcome the dictates of even the strictest societies. It’s been thus for millennia.’
‘Please tell me Sally isn’t increasing.’
Sebastian laughed. ‘Don’t worry. I’m sure Hodges was careful.’
Her eyes sparkled with interest and Sebastian suspected she had a thousand questions. Instead of voicing them she lifted her chin and changed the subject. Probably just as well, he thought.
‘What discoveries have you made?’ she asked.
‘That Lord Evans doesn’t care for my company.’
Abbey giggled. ‘Indeed he does not! He warned me quite forcefully to avoid you.’
‘Which is very mean-spirited of him. I’m a fine person, though I do say so myself.’
She canted her head and slanted him a glance, looking as though she wanted to laugh. ‘But lacking in humility, perhaps?’
He opened his eyes very wide in mock astonishment. ‘I have something to be humble about?’
This time she did laugh. ‘If you must know, Lord Evans thinks you are a lost cause. I expect he’s right about that. He is also afraid I might become tainted by association if I spend too much time in your company.’
Sebastian’s lips twitched. ‘I’m not contagious.’
‘He accuses you of taking shameful advantage of certain ladies and then deserting them.’ She bit her lower lip, still struggling not to smile, it seemed. ‘I was never more shocked.’
‘Really?’ They wandered beneath a stand of trees. Both of them were hatless and the thawing snow dripped from the overhanging branches straight onto their heads. Sebastian pulled the hood of Abbey’s cloak over her damp curls. ‘Does he suppose I intend to seduce you?’
‘That or something worse.’
‘What could possibly be worse?’ he asked, chuckling.
‘It’s difficult to imagine, but I’m sure there must be something.’
She spoke lightly but a cloud passed across her eyes and Sebastian could tell he had lost her attention.
‘What is it? What troubles you?’
‘Oh, don’t mind me.’ She absently plucked a snow-covered leaf from a nearby bush and then cast it aside. ‘I’m probably just being foolish.’
‘Even so, if something’s worrying you, you ought to tell me about it.’
‘It’s nothing to do with your reasons for being here. Besides, you will think me foolish if I tell you.’
He grasped her arm and turned her to face him. ‘I think many things about you, little one,’ he said softly. ‘But never once have I thought you are silly.’
‘No, but you think of me as a child and if I admit what’s on my mind it will reinforce that impression.’
Sebastian thought of her as she had been when he’d looked through the billiards room window earlier—throwing snowballs and laughing like a child. But there was nothing childish about her now. She was a woman again—a fascinating, spirited, beautiful woman who was occupying far too many of his thoughts for all the wrong reasons.
‘Just tell me.’
‘All right, if you promise not to laugh.’ She paused and then indicated the bare branches of the magnificent oak tree they were standing beneath. ‘I was just thinking I’ve never once seen this tree in full leaf.’
‘Because you only come here in winter for the hunting?’
‘I was standing under this tree when I saw my father alone for the last time. He’d just returned from a day’s hunting. I heard him, escaped my governess and ran out to meet him. We stood here, just as you and I are doing at this moment, and my father talked to me like I was a grown up. He told me all about the excellent day’s sport he had enjoyed.’ She paused, her face averted from his. ‘It was almost the last time we shared a private word because three weeks later they were both dead.’
She turned to look at him again. One fat tear ran down her face and Sebastian would have given half his fortune at that moment to be able to relieve her pain. She was too set upon pleasing the people surrounding her, he suspected, to articulate her worries about her situation to them. He felt glad she was unburdening herself to him but didn’t think she was doing so now because she required his sympathy. Nor would he make the mistake of showing any.
Abbey’s childhood had come to an abrupt end at the age of ten. Since then she had been grappling with her grief, struggling to come to terms with the enormous responsibilities she’d had thrust upon her and trying to live up to people’s expectations. A weaker person would have buckled beneath the strain long before now and Sebastian’s respect for her strength of character intensified. In the eight years since the death of her parents, Sebastian suspected the first time she had shown the slightest signs of rebellion had been yesterday, and then only because he had persuaded her to transgress.
Fighting an inner batt
le with his conscience, he wiped the tears from her face with the back of his thumb. She responded by leaning her head against his chest. She was trembling but probably not because she was cold. He had promised himself he wouldn’t touch her again because once he started it would be deuced difficult to stop. Given their current situation he had little choice but to close his arms around her and envelope her within the heavy folds of his coat. She was cold and upset. The mood would pass, he’d sense when it did, and then he would release her.
Definitely, he would release her.
He could hold her but didn’t trust himself to look at her. He recalled how bad she was at hiding her emotions and if he saw even the slightest flicker of awareness in her eye then…well, his resolve wasn’t that strong. He searched for a question that would distract her—and him.
‘Would you care if Evans was right about me?’ he asked.
‘Don’t be ridiculous!’ Some of her former spirit was evident in her tone. ‘Our relationship is one of expediency. It doesn’t matter to me how you employ your leisure time.’
‘Ah yes, so it is.’
‘Lord Evans told me at the dinner table he has already sought my uncle’s permission to pay court to me.’
‘How very bad-mannered of him to mention it.’
‘That is what I told Lord Evans.’
Sebastian chuckled. ‘It’s what you expected, though, so it can’t have come as a surprise.’
‘Yes, I suppose—’
‘But?’
He placed a finger beneath her chin and tipped it upwards until she was forced to meet his gaze. What he saw there earned the curse he muttered beneath what little breath he had remaining. This situation would run out of control if he wasn’t very careful. Damnation, he absolutely shouldn’t be toying with inexperienced virgins—especially this inexperienced virgin—since she seemed intent upon furthering her amatory education.
But knowing it and forcing himself to release her from his embrace were two very different things. It was so damned comfortable with her body pressed against his and her head resting against his shoulder. She fitted perfectly and might as well stay where she was for just a little longer. It wouldn’t do to send her back to the house before she had completely recovered her composure.
‘I no longer know what to think about Lord Evans,’ she admitted. ‘But I do know he doesn’t excite my passions.’
‘I thought passion wasn’t part of your plan, child.’ Keep calling her a child and you might start to actually believe it.
A charming blush crept up her cheeks. ‘Perhaps I was mistaken.’
‘Oh, Abbey.’ He expelled a heavy sigh. This was all his fault. ‘What am I to do with you?’
When she looked at him like that, her eyes still artlessly reflecting her blind faith in his abilities—when she all but admitted he had awoken her passions and aroused her curiosity—he was profoundly moved. Her sensuality was like a beacon, drawing him towards her with licentious intent, testing his resolve to the limit. It roused his jaded spirit, overwhelmed him with a torrent of protective feelings and reinforced his determination that no one would ever get close enough to cause her harm.
Realisation of what mayhem he had caused in her well-ordered life served to reinforce his own will. He simply would not make matters more complicated for her. He was rather pleased with his noble intentions, but unfortunately Abbey had other ideas. Before he realised what she was about, her arms had worked their way around his neck and her lips touched his. She tasted of apples, fresh air and everything that was pure, reaching an area inside him that no other female had manage to invade, removing a healthy wedge of his cynical attitude in the process.
Of course he returned her kiss. It took every molecule of his self-restraint to break it again before it could become more impassioned. They were both breathing heavily as he moved slightly away from her, their heated breath swirling above them and rapidly cooling in the frosty air. Sebastian knew that cooling his rising ardour would not be so easily accomplished. Framing her rosy cheek with his hand, he smoothed the hair from her forehead and smiled into eyes which had flown open in protest when he broke the kiss.
‘So much beauty,’ he murmured, barely conscious of speaking the words aloud.
He groaned at her artless expression, the invitation in eyes that sparkled with a rare combination of provocation and innocence. Fortunately Abbey’s dogs bounded up at that moment, almost knocking them both from their feet, and the mood was broken.
‘Enough of this amusement,’ he drawled. ‘The hour for luncheon approaches and the cold has made me sharp set.’
She astounded him by stretching out a hand and touching his face, eyes alight with a fiery passion as she uttered just one word. ‘Please!’
‘No.’ He turned away from her.
‘That’s so unfair! You can’t leave me like this.’
‘I apologise, I shouldn’t have—’
‘Stop trying to be noble, Lord Denver. It doesn’t suit you.’ She wagged a finger at him. ‘You have a lot to answer for.’
‘I dare say, but—’
‘I thought I’d be happy to live in ignorance, and perhaps even a passionless marriage, but you have changed all that. I was firmly of the opinion that emotional attachment was over-rated but perhaps now I’m of a different frame of mind. I can’t actually say until I learn more and you,’ she said, smiling up at him with supreme confidence, ‘are going to teach me.’
‘No, I most emphatically am not.’ Alarmed by her determination he attempted to move away from the tree, but short of literally pushing her aside there was no method by which he could extricate himself. ‘We should never have started this.’
‘Sebastian, please!’
Her imploring expression and, more especially, the sound of his name slipping so naturally from her lips, almost persuaded him. She was right. He was to blame for her current state of frustration. He had never considered the matter before but it must be extremely vexatious for young ladies whose natures were as passionate as Abbey’s to be denied even a rudimentary education in an area that so intrigued her.
He felt sympathy for her plight but couldn’t risk prolonging this dalliance. Appearing to sense his hesitation she seized the moment, and his neck. She pulled his head downwards with considerable force and set her lips upon his. Her enthusiasm sent fire lancing through his veins, but guilt overpowered even that dizzying sensation and he pulled away from her, aware the only way to overcome her determination was to be cruel to her.
‘Come, we’ll be late for luncheon.’
Her eyes flashed with bewilderment. ‘I don’t understand!’
‘I am not going to seduce you, Abbey, and there’s an end to the matter.’
Her eyes were luminous with embarrassment. ‘You don’t desire me?’
Oh, darling, you have no idea!
‘It’s not a question of that. I won’t be trapped so there is no point in trying.’
She gasped, shooting him a look of such injured confusion as to make him feel like crawling beneath the nearest rock. Being noble, he was fast discovering, wasn’t the slightest bit rewarding.
‘If that’s what you thought my intention was then you have grossly overestimated your charms, sir.’ She inverted her chin as she spoke, anger radiating from her eyes. ‘Come Marcus, come Marius.’
With her dogs at her heels she headed for the house. Sebastian let her go, knowing he had been to blame for the entire incident and was fully deserving of her displeasure. He should have known better than to try and comfort her when she became distressed, resulting in his adding to that distress with deliberately cruel insults. Not having been troubled by its existence for years, Sebastian’s conscience made its presence felt again for the third time in ten minutes.
What a farrago! Sebastian didn’t know his own mind at that moment. This inexperienced chit had turned his world on its head, stirring his passions until he thought he would go out of his mind—making him think the unthinkable. He vowed
never to allow Abbey to gain intelligence of just how greatly her innocent curiosity had affected him. She was young and impressionable, almost half his age, and had no place in his life. Better she should despise him than learn the true nature of his feelings.
Abbey pointedly ignored him during luncheon, saving her smiles instead for Lord Evans. Sebastian tried to congratulate himself upon steering her in that direction, but his heart was having none of it. This situation was dangerous; very dangerous. He vowed to redouble his efforts to reveal the identity of her aggressor and put a safe and permanent distance between himself and the object of his desire at the earliest opportunity.
He idled the afternoon away playing piquet with some of the gentlemen. Lord Evans didn’t join in the game and Sebastian wondered if he had chosen to remain with the ladies— an excuse to stay close to Abbey. Had he not heard some suggestion mooted during luncheon that he should read aloud to them? Unwilling to take any further chances when it came to her safety, Sally and Hodges had orders to keep her under surveillance at all times and not to leave her unattended for a moment.
Afternoon turned to evening and Sebastian started to feel uneasy when Abbey hadn’t appeared in the drawing room by the usual hour. He stood in the hall, glanced up at the empty staircase and wondered what to do. Common sense told him that if anything had happened to her, Sally or Hodges would have informed him. Even so, he couldn’t shake the feeling that something wasn’t right.
‘I need to go and find her,’ he said aloud.
Just as he placed one foot on the bottom stair he heard a rustle of skirts at the same time as the light fragrance he associated with her reached his nostrils. He glanced up and there she was, just about to descend the stairs. Sebastian expelled a sigh. She was all right after all, but still his unease persisted. She looked particularly lovely in a peach-coloured gown of embroidered brocade and Sebastian couldn’t seem to look away. Devil take it, he didn’t want to look anywhere other than at her!
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