by ChaShiree M.
“Angel. I had this night planned down to the very second because I wanted to make it perfect for you. But now, sitting here I realize I was remiss in wanting to wait longer for something else special. I know we haven't known each other long and have even more to learn and overcome about one another; but the one thing I am surer of right here in this moment with you is that I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. Life is short Angel as we both know, and I think we should live every day to the fullest. With one another.”
“Lydia Stone. Come into the light with me. Would you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”
I start a countdown in my head. If she takes longer than 30 seconds, I will tie her to this bed and make her say yes. But, by the time I get to 10 she has knelt on the floor beside me, reciprocates my love and said yes.
After reaching into my nightstand and retrieving the ring I had planned on giving her next month after her exams, she became officially mine in all ways.
The Beginning in the end
So here we are. I don't want to give you the impression that once he found me all was well, and my life suddenly turned right-side up. I mean don’t get me wrong, having him in my life gave me something to live for. Something to be grateful for. A reason to smile. Even on my bad days. But it took time and work. We have had a lot of ups and downs. A lot. Majority of them mine. But he has had his share.
A few nights after he proposed he had a nightmare, which had never happened before. While having the nightmare, he called out for his sister sobbing like a lost little boy. My heart broke for him. After waking him and consoling him, I made him tell me how she died because he never talks about it. And that is when I learned she killed herself.
See Claudette had suffered from depression as well, all throughout high school. But along with her depression she had mood swings. Massive highs and the lowest lows. The day before she killed herself, she had been diagnosed with bipolar and she found it a proverbial death sentence. She felt that no one would love her with this illness and she had no chance at happiness.
Luke, being a guy and a college freshman, he brushed her off as being a drama queen, telling her to do what his mom, dad, and the therapist said, and she would be fine. He got the call the next day that she shot herself with Luke’s drill team pistol.
He was devastated as was his whole family. But he blames himself. First, because she used his weapon and second because he brushed her off the night before.
After he confessed that to me, we started both going back to counseling as individuals and as a couple to try to make sure we don’t bring our baggage into our relationship.
Planning my wedding was easy. It was Luke, his friend Toby, and I. That's it. Neither of us had anyone else, and for now that is fine by us.
See, I learned through this journey that it is not the quantity of people you have around you. But the quality. And Luke, he is the best of the best.
He found me, followed me and stitched me back together, and now I get to walk the rest of this life, side by side with him.
The Beginning of Our Forever
2 Years Later
“Luke! Can you please get your daughter before I scream? This child is just like you. Stubborn.” I say to my husband as I hand off my one and half year old to her father. Two months after getting married we found out I was pregnant. To say we were stunned was an understatement. I mean, of course we are not dumb, so we knew it was a possibility considering we never used birth control. But still. I panicked for a bit, not sure what to do about school, but Luke was amazing. He told me it was my choice and he would support me. He graduated top of his class from school and got a job at one of the top architectural firms in Chicago. We moved back to the city and got a house in Burr Ridge, selling his family home. I told him I was ok living there, but he said it was time to let it go and start a new home.
I decided to leave school and focus on making our house a home. We found out we were having a girl in my fourth month and without me having to say anything, Luke suggested we name her Macy. I looked at this wonderful man I married and cried. I cried for the life Macy would never get to lead, filled with love and compassion and happiness. I cried for the love I feel every day when I look at my husband he holds me after making me scream his name every night.
“What is she doing now?” He asks me, smiling at his twin. She looks just like him and acts like him. I shake my head looking at the two of them. When my eyes meet his, I lick my lips seeing the glint of mischief in his eye and I know its time for my midday treat. He walks over to me, Macy in his arms, and leans into my ear.
“When I am done putting her down, you know how I want to find you Angel. Don’t you?” I nod my head not able to form words. Wet and tinging in my parts that are begging for him. He rubs his hand over my ass, causing me to shiver and keen in the back of my throat. As he walks up the stairs, I let out the breath I was holding. Walking into my bedroom I rub my hand across my stomach, as our baby boy inside of it moves around, letting me know he is awake.
I simply take a second like I do every day, to take in my surroundings and give thanks for this life.
About the Author
ChaShiree M. lives in Chicago Il. With her family.
She is having the time of her life writing and can’t wait to grow even more.
She loves to read in her spare time and when she isn’t doing either of those, she is traveling to different book events with her friends.
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Acknowledgments
To my mom. I love you. No need to say anything else.
To my kids. Thank you for giving me a reason to breath every morning. Without your smile, unconditional love and laughter, I KNOW I would no longer be here. I love you four so much.
To Melinda. No words. I love you!!
To my little sister Ashlei. I am so freaking proud of you and the woman you have become. You found your way out of the darkness, so you can lead others into the light. You make me proud to be your big sister. I love you.
To my sisters in arms. Diana, Mercedes, Amy, Vanessa, Fabiola. Thank you for being such positive people and for knowing when I need you to simply just have my back. I love all of you. I thank God every day for bringing you to me. Or did he bring me to you as my last resort? One can only guess. Either way, I am lucky and blessed.
To my crazy duo. J Angel and Evangeline. You two are invaluable to my sanity. You keep me laughing and find ways to brighten me up when I see the clouds coming and you don’t even know you are doing it. Muah.
My loyal readers and friends. Thank you for always supporting me and my words. Words can’t express.
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