by Robin Hobb
‘I don’t know,’ I admitted grudgingly. ‘It shocked me when he set off on this ridiculous quest. He should have stayed here, and continued with his original plan. By the time he returns, half his kingdom will be beggared or given away, the way Regal is going at things.’
Chade looked at me levelly. ‘“His” kingdom is still King Shrewd’s kingdom. Remember? Perhaps he has faith in his father to keep it intact.’
‘I do not think King Shrewd can even keep himself intact, Chade. Have you see him of late?’
Chade’s mouth went to a flat line. ‘Yes.’ He bit the word off. ‘I see him when no one else does. I tell you that he is not the feeble idiot you seem to believe he is.’
I shook my head slowly. ‘If you had seen him tonight, Chade, you would share my anxiety.’
‘What makes you so sure I did not?’ Chade was nettled now. I had no wish to anger the old man. But it seemed to be going all wrong, no matter how I spoke. I forced myself to keep silent now. Instead of speaking, I took another sip of my wine. I stared into the fire.
‘Are the rumours about the Near Islands true?’ I asked at last. My voice was my own again.
Chade sighed and rubbed at his eyes with his knuckly hands. ‘As in all rumours, there is a germ of truth. It may be true that the Raiders have established a base there. We are not certain. We have certainly not ceded the Near Islands to them. As you observed, once they had the Near Islands, they would raid our coast winter and summer.’
‘Prince Regal seemed to believe that they could be bought off. That perhaps those islands and a bit of Bearns’ coast were what they were truly after.’ It was an effort, but I kept my voice respectful as I spoke of Regal.
‘Many men hope that by saying a thing they can make it so,’ Chade said neutrally. ‘Even when they must know better,’ he added as a darker afterthought.
‘What do you think the Raiders want?’ I asked.
He stared past me into the fire. ‘Now there is a puzzle. What do the Raiders want? It is how our minds work, Fitz. We think they attack us because they want something from us. But surely, if they wanted something, by now they would have demanded it. They know the damage they do to us. They must know that we would at least consider their demands. But they ask for nothing. They simply go on raiding.’
‘They make no sense.’ I finished the thought for him.
‘Not the way we see sense,’ he corrected me. ‘But what if our basic assumption is wrong?’
I just stared at him.
‘What if they don’t want anything, except what they already have? A nation of victims. Towns to raid, villages to torch, people to torture. What if that is their entire aim?’
‘That’s insane,’ I said slowly.
‘Perhaps. But what if it is so?’
‘Then nothing will stop them. Except destroying them.’
He nodded slowly. ‘Follow that thought.’
‘We don’t have enough ships to even slow them down.’ I considered a moment. ‘We had best all hope the myths about the Elderlings are true. Because it seems to me they, or something like them, are our only hope.’
Chade nodded slowly. ‘Exactly. So you see why I approve of Verity’s course.’
‘Because it’s our only hope of survival.’
We sat for a long time together, staring silently into the fire. When I finally returned to my bed that night, I was assailed by nightmares of Verity attacked and battling for his life while I stood by and watched. I could not kill any of his attackers, for my king had not said I could.
Twelve days later, Duke Brawndy of Bearns arrived. He came down the coast road, at the head of enough men to be impressive without being an open threat. He had mustered as much pomp and panoply as his dukedom could afford. His daughters rode at his side, save for the eldest who had remained behind to do all that could be done for Ferry. I spent most of the early afternoon in the stables, and then in the guard-room, listening to the talk of the lesser members of his entourage. Hands acquitted himself well at seeing that there was space and care for their beasts, and as always our kitchens and barracks made themselves hospitable places. Still, there was plenty of hard talk among the folk from Bearns. They spoke bluntly of what they had seen at Ferry, and how their summons for help had gone unheeded. It shamed our soldiers that there was little they could say to defend what King Shrewd had apparently done. And when a soldier cannot defend what his leader has done, he must either agree with the criticism, or find another area in which to disagree. So there were fist-fights between Bearns men and Buckkeep troops, isolated incidents for the most part, and over trivial differences. But such things did not usually happen under the discipline of Buckkeep, and so they were all the more unsettling. It underscored to me the confusion amongst our own troops.
I dressed carefully for dinner that evening, unsure as to who I might encounter or what might be expected of me. I had glimpsed Celerity twice that day, and each time slipped away before I could be noticed. I expected she would be my dinner partner, and dreaded it. Now was no time to give anyone from Bearns any sort of affront, but I did not wish to encourage her. I could have saved my worrying. I found myself seated far down the table, among the lesser nobility, and the younger ones at that. I spent an uncomfortable evening as a minor novelty. Several of the girls at the table attempted to be flirtatious. This was a new experience for me and not one I relished. It made me realize just how great an influx of folk had swollen the Buckkeep court that winter. Most of them were from the Inland duchies, sniffing after scraps from Regal’s plate, but as these young women plainly indicated, they would be happy to court political influence wherever they could. The effort to follow their attempts at witty banter and respond on a level of at least moderate politeness made it nearly impossible for me to give any attention to what was going on at the high table. King Shrewd was there, seated between Queen-in-Waiting Kettricken and Prince Regal. Duke Brawndy and his daughters Celerity and Faith were seated closest to them. The rest of the table was filled with Regal’s pets. Duke Ram of Tilth and his Lady Placid, and their two sons were the most noteworthy. Regal’s cousin Lord Bright was there as well; the young heir to the Duke of Farrow was new to court.
From where I sat, I could see little, and hear even less. I felt Verity’s churning frustration at the situation, but there was nothing I could do about it. The King looked more weary than dazed that evening, which I took to be positive. Kettricken seated beside him was near colourless save for two spots of pink on her cheeks. She did not seem to be eating much, and seemed graver and more silent than usual. Prince Regal, in contrast, was both social and merry. With Duke Ram and Lady Placid and their boys. He did not quite ignore Brawndy and his daughters, but his merriment clearly grated on the visitors’ mood.
Duke Brawndy was a large man, and well-muscled even in his old age. Shocks of white hair in his black warrior’s tail attested to old battle injuries, as did a hand missing a few fingers. His daughters sat just down table from him, indigo-eyed women whose high cheekbones told of his late queen’s Near Island ancestry. Faith and Celerity wore their hair cut short and sleek in the Northern style. The quick ways they turned their heads to observe everyone at the table reminded me of hawks on a wrist. These were not the gentled nobility of the Inland duchies that Regal was used to dealing with. Of all the Six Duchies, the folk of Bearns came closest to being warriors still.
Regal was courting disaster to make light of their grievances. I knew they would not expect to
discuss Raiders at the table, but his festive tone was completely at odds with their mission here. I wondered if he knew how badly he offended them. Kettricken obviously did. More than once, I saw her clench her jaw, or cast her eyes downward at one of Regal’s witticisms. He was drinking too heavily as well, and it began to show in his extravagant hand gestures, and the loudness of his laughter. I wished desperately I could hear what he was finding so humorous in his own words.
Dinner seemed interminable. Celerity rapidly located me at table. After that, I was hard put to avoid the measuring looks she sent my way. I nodded affably to her the first time our eyes locked; I could tell she was puzzled by where I had been seated. I dared not ignore every look she sent my way. Regal was offensive enough without my appearing to snub Bearns’ daughter as well. I felt I teetered on a fence. I was grateful when King Shrewd rose and Queen Kettricken insisted on taking his arm to help him from the room. Regal frowned a trifle drunkenly to see the party disperse so soon, but made no effort to persuade Duke Brawndy and his daughters to stay at table. They excused themselves rather stiffly as soon as Shrewd had departed. I likewise made excuse of a headache and left my giggling companions for the solitude of my room. As I opened my door and went into my bed-chamber, I felt myself the most powerless person in the keep. Nameless the dog-boy indeed.
‘I see dinner was absolutely fascinating for you,’ the Fool observed. I sighed. I didn’t ask how he had got in. No point to asking questions that would not be answered. He was sitting on my hearth, silhouetted against the dancing flames of a small fire he had kindled there. There was a peculiar stillness to him, no jingling of bells, no tumbling mocking words.
‘Dinner was insufferable,’ I told him. I did not bother with candles. My headache had not been entirely a fiction. I sat, then lay back on my bed with a sigh. ‘I do not know what Buckkeep is coming to, nor what I can do about it.’
‘Perhaps what you have already done is enough?’ the Fool ventured.
‘I’ve done nothing noteworthy lately,’ I informed him. ‘Unless you count knowing when to stop talking back to Regal.’
‘Ah. That’s a skill we’re all learning, then,’ he agreed morosely. He drew his knees up to his chin, rested his arms upon them. He took a breath. ‘Have you no news, then, that you’d care to share with a Fool? A very discreet Fool?’
‘I’ve no news to share with you that you would not already know, and probably sooner than I did.’ The darkness of the room was restful. My headache was easing.
‘Ah.’ He paused delicately. ‘Shall I, perhaps, ask a question? To be answered or not as you see fit?’
‘Save your breath and ask it. You know you shall, whether I give you permission or no.’
‘Indeed, there you are right. Well then. The question. Ah, I surprise myself, I blush. I do. FitzChivalry, have you made a fitz of your own?’
I sat up slowly on my bed and stared at him. He did not move nor flinch. ‘What did you ask me?’ I demanded quietly.
He spoke softly, almost apologetically now. ‘I must know. Is Molly carrying your child?’
I sprang at him from the bed, caught him by the throat and dragged him up to his feet. I drew back my fist, and then stopped, shocked by what the firelight revealed on his face.
‘Batter away,’ he suggested quietly. ‘New bruises will not show much upon the old ones. I can creep about unseen for a few more days.’
I snatched my hand back from him. Strange, how the act I had been about to commit now seemed so monstrous when I discovered someone else had already done it. As soon as I released him, he turned away from me, as if his discoloured and swollen face shamed him. Perhaps the pallor of his skin and his delicate bone structure made it all the more horrifying to me. It was as if someone had done this to a child. I knelt by the fire and began to build it up.
‘Didn’t get a good enough look?’ the Fool asked acidly. ‘I’ll warn you, it gets no better by giving more light to it.’
‘Sit on my clothes chest and take your shirt off,’ I told him brusquely. He didn’t move. I ignored that. I had a small kettle for tea-water. This I set to heat. I lit a branch of candles and set them upon the table, and then took out my small store of herbs. I did not keep that many in my room; I wished now I had Burrich’s full store to draw on, but I was sure that if I left to go to the stables, he would be gone when I returned. Still, those I kept in my room were mostly for bruises and cuts and the types of injuries my other profession exposed me to most often. They would do.
When the water was warm, I poured some into my washbasin and added a generous handful of herbs, crushing them as I did so. I found an outgrown shirt in my clothing chest and tore it into rags. ‘Come into the light.’ This I phrased as a request. After a moment, he did so, but moving hesitantly and shyly. I looked at him briefly, then took him by the shoulders and sat him down on my clothing chest. ‘What happened to you?’ I asked, awed by the damage to his face. His lips were cut and swollen, and one eye swollen near closed.
‘I’ve been going about Buckkeep, asking bad-tempered individuals if they’ve fathered bastards lately.’ His one good eye met my glare straight on. Red webbed the white of it. I found I could neither be angry with him, nor laugh.
‘You should know enough medicine to take better care of something like this. Sit still now.’ I made the rag into a compress, held it gently but firmly to his face. After a moment, he relaxed. I sponged away some dried blood. There wasn’t much; he had obviously cleaned himself up after this beating, but some of the cuts had continued to ooze blood. I ran my fingers lightly down the lines of his jaw, and around his eye socket. At least no bone seemed damaged. ‘Who did this to you?’ I asked him.
‘I walked into a series of doors. Or the same one several times. It depends on which door you ask.’ He spoke glibly for someone with mashed lips.
‘That was a serious question,’ I told him.
‘As was mine.’
I glared at him again and he dropped his eyes. For a moment neither of us spoke as I searched out a pot of salve Burrich had given me for cuts and scrapes. ‘I’d really like to know the answer,’ I reminded him as I took the lid off the pot. The familiar biting scent rose to my nostrils, and I suddenly missed Burrich with an amazing intensity.
‘As would I.’ He flinched slightly under my touch as I applied the salve. I knew it stung. I also knew it worked.
‘Why do you ask such a question of me?’ I finally demanded.
He considered a moment. ‘Because it is easier to ask of you than to ask Kettricken if she carries Verity’s child. As far as I can determine, Regal has shared his favours only with himself of late, so that dismisses him. You or Verity, then, must be the father.’
I looked at him blankly. He shook his head sadly for me. ‘Cannot you feel it?’ he asked in a near whisper. He stared off in the distance dramatically. ‘Forces shift. Shadows flutter. Suddenly, there is a rippling in the possibilities. A reordering of the futures, as destinies multiply. All paths diverge, and diverge again.’ He looked back to me. I smiled at him, thinking he jested, but his mouth was sober. ‘There is an heir to the Farseer line,’ he said quietly. ‘I am certain of it.’
Have you ever missed a step in the dark? There is that sudden feeling of teetering on the edge, and no knowledge of how far you may fall. I said, far too firmly, ‘I have fathered no child.’
The Fool regarded me with a sceptical eye. ‘Ah,’ he said with false heartiness. ‘Of course not. Then it must be Kettricken who is carrying.’
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p; ‘It must,’ I agreed, but my heart sank. If Kettricken were pregnant, she would have no reason to conceal it. Whereas Molly would. And I had not been to see Molly in several nights. Perhaps she had news for me. I felt suddenly dizzied, but I forced myself to take a long calming breath. ‘Take your shirt off,’ I told the Fool. ‘Let’s see your chest.’
‘I’ve seen it, thank you, and I assure you it’s fine. When they popped the bag over my head, I presume it was to provide a target. They were most conscientious about striking nowhere else.’
The brutality of what they had done to him sickened me into silence. ‘Who?’ I finally managed to ask.
‘With a bag over my head? Come now. Can you see through a bag?’
‘No. But you must have suspicions.’
He canted his head at me in disbelief. ‘If you do not know what those suspicions are already, then you are the one with your head in a bag. Let me cut a bit of a hole for you. “We know you are false to the King, that you spy for Verity the Pretender. Send him no more messages, for if you do, we shall know of it.” He turned to stare into the fire, swung his heels briefly, thunk, thunk, thunk against my clothing chest.
‘Verity the Pretender?’ I asked in outrage.
‘Not my words. Theirs,’ he pointed out.
I forced my anger down, tried to think. ‘Why would they suspect you spy for Verity? Have you sent him messages?’
‘I have a king,’ he said softly. ‘Although he does not always remember he is my king. You must look out for your king. As I am sure you do.’
‘What will you do?’
‘What I have always done. What else can I do? I cannot stop doing what they command me to stop, for I have never begun it.’