by Paula Quinn
“I’m glad you like it.” His voice came from deep in his chest, a rumble that set her blood to sizzling.
She leaned up on her palms and gazed down at him, heavy-lidded and slightly disheveled. How was it possible to love someone as much as she loved him? She asked him, but he had no answer, for her or for himself.
“When I saw him pointin’ that pistol at ye and Goliath, I think I went a bit mad,” he told her, running his fingers over a golden curl falling to her cheek. “I wanted to kill him, but I couldn’t do it in front of ye. I know what he was to ye.”
He was correct. No matter what William had done, she wouldn’t want to see that. “You are kind and thoughtful, Adam.” She kissed his chin, his lower lip. “You are honorable and brave. And so very romantic.”
He smiled slyly and pulled her on top of him. “I’m no’ well practiced in romance, lass.”
“Even better,” she whispered, straddling him. “What you do is genuine, and that makes it even more romantic.”
He laughed softly, filling her with warmth. She rubbed herself against him. He was hard enough to take her.
Pressing her breasts to his chest, she snaked up his body and kissed his neck.
When he cupped her buttocks in his hands, she let him guide her over him. She sank down on him, pushing him deeper inside of her. When she took him to the hilt, she sat up and gazed down at the man beneath her. She moved her hips, gyrating over him, and lifted her arms over her head.
He sat up, bending to her, and closed his arms around her waist, holding her close as they moved to passion’s ancient song.
“I want to marry ye again, lass,” he whispered across her throat as she arched her back and he leaned forward. “The right way this time.”
She clutched his shoulders and rode him, up and down, faster, deeper.
“I want to make all yer days happy—and if they are no’ always happy, they willna be dull.”
They laughed together, finding their cherished freedom in each other’s arms.
Epilogue
Nine months later
Camlochlin Castle
Sina held her baby daughter, Anne, after eleven hours of birthing pains. She admired her babe, swaddled in a striped wool cloth. Her tuft of raven hair and her tiny lips moving slightly as she slept made Sina smile.
She lifted her face to the women around her, to the ones who had helped her through it, who wiped her brow, held her hand and her legs apart. They were her sisters, and her mothers. Her kin. She loved them all.
She leaned her head back into the crook of her husband’s shoulder and trembled a little at the memory of him being here throughout. He’d burst into the chamber after a loud cry from Sina and refused to leave. Even when Aunt Maggie complained that it wasn’t a place for men, he strode past the gaping women and planted himself behind Sina’s head and encouraged her.
She loved him most of all.
“She looks like ye,” he said at her ear, sounding as awestruck as she felt.
“No, she looks like you.” She closed her eyes and pressed her cheek to his jaw.
“May we hold her now, Sina?” Violet asked impatiently.
Sina didn’t want to hand Anne over to anyone, but she remembered Laurel being passed around after her birth. Holding her bonded the women to the babe.
She offered her daughter to them, glad that Anne would have so many loving women in her life. She caught her mother’s eye and smiled, thankful that her parents had traveled here from London to see her. And it wasn’t the first time. In the past nine months, they’d been here three times. The MacGregors had the king’s favor.
“Chief, d’ye want to hold yer daughter?” someone asked.
Adam came around the side of the bed and sat at the edge and waited for them to hand her to him. His large hands, so deft at everything else, seemed awkward, but only for a moment. With a quick adjustment to his wrist, he looked more at ease.
“Ye will always have my love and devotion,” he promised his daughter on a soft, shaking voice. “And I will always love and adore yer mother and strive to make her happy.”
“You do.” Sina touched her fingers over his hair when he leaned in to press a kiss to their daughter’s head.
He looked up, catching her hand in his and bringing it to his lips. “Let this be the first of many.”
“Perhaps this isn’t the best time to bring up having more,” she told him, smiling.
He laughed and held up their daughter. “Aye, she is enough. Fer now.” He grew serious again. “Ye’ve made me a faither, Sina. I’m proud that my name will live on through our love.”
They kissed and barely noticed Maggie lingering about them until she spoke up, grinning as she passed them. “We’re MacGregors, despite them.”
Temperance Menzie is starting to fall for the mysterious, wounded Highlander she’s been nursing back to health. But Cailean Grant has a dark secret, and only a Christmas miracle can keep them together.
See the next page for an excerpt from
A Highlander’s Christmas Kiss.
Chapter One
Glen Lyon, Scotland
Winter 1711
Need a room fer the night, sir? A bed?”
“Nae.”
“A warm bath then, mayhap, to shed ye of the dust of travelin’?”
Cailean Grant looked down from his horse and cast a scathing glance at the lad about to reach for his reins. “I said nae.”
The boy swallowed and jumped out of the way of the three riders following him. Cailean didn’t look back at the child and he didn’t seek forgiveness for not caring. It didn’t matter what the circumstances were. He kept people out. For his own good, not theirs.
“Ye should take the bath,” Patrick MacGregor said, catching up. “It might do ye some good to have the cockles of yer heart warmed.”
Cailean didn’t acknowledge his cousin’s good-natured suggestion but kept his eyes on the icy road before them. He liked his cockles the way they were. Cold. Empty. Safe.
“I think the boy shite his breeches,” Erik MacCormack laughed from his saddle behind them, then kicked another lad out of his way.
“What?” He chuckled again when Patrick glowered at him. “The waifs will likely rob us the moment we remove our purses.”
“They’d be disappointed by yours, Erik,” said Erik’s brother, Dougal, riding at his left.
Patrick moved his horse closer to Cailean’s. “These are the men ye chose over yer kin?” He shook his head at him. “Men who kick children oot of their way?”
Cailean glanced over his shoulder at the brothers, who had arrived at Lyon’s Ridge a fortnight ago to join Lord Murdoch’s band of mercenaries, the Black Riders. “They’ve been hardened by their pasts,” Cailean told him, turning back to the road. “What d’ye expect from them, courtly manners?”
“Ye dinna belong with them, Cailean. Let’s go back home.”
It was a conversation they’d had often. Cailean didn’t want to go home and Patrick wouldn’t leave without him. “I do belong with them, Patrick,” he said, and turned away to spread his gaze over the packhorses ambling through the market, laden with grain and other wares and led by peasants from the local farms.
He’d come to Kenmore to purchase some fresh vegetables in the hopes of eating something other than the shite served by the cook at Lyon’s Ridge Castle. If he had to consume another moldy carrot he was going to kill someone. He missed eating at Camlochlin. He missed home. But he couldn’t go back. After Sage…and Alison, he had changed too much to go back.
He didn’t mind Patrick’s traveling with him to the marketplace. Patrick’s easy nature and constant reassuring smiles had a way of making everything seem trivial, save for Cailean’s decision to join Lord Edward Murdoch’s Riders. Patrick didn’t approve of thugs for hire, but Cailean was where he needed to be—with men who didn’t care about love or dancing around with their words—or anything else. They left him alone for the most part, save for when Patrick was around.
Patrick was well liked by everyone who knew him.
Cailean had been like him once, smiling at life and wreaking havoc on village lasses. But that part was gone.
Living at Lyon’s Ridge helped him forget the crushing weight of what he’d lost—what his cousins back home had: bonny wives in their arms and loyal hounds at their feet. He’d wanted the same. He’d lost it, and with it his confidence that no cataclysmic tragedy would ever befall him or his family. Nothing was certain. In fact, it seemed the cards were stacked against him. It had changed him into something harder, emptier, and determined to stop feeling.
He’d been surprised when he saw his reflection in a basin this morning. His physical appearance had changed since Alison died. His hair had grown long and fell down both sides of his face. It created shadows along the gaunt planes and dips of his features. He appeared as dark and hollow as he felt.
“How much do you think she costs?” Dougal asked, eyeing a merchant’s daughter while she beat a blanket outside a cutlery shop with a painted sign depicting crisscrossed knives.
“To hell with the lass,” said Erik, called the Red by the other Riders, due to his red hair and Viking heritage. “My belly grumbles. I want to eat!”
Erik and Dougal MacCormack were two of the twenty Black Riders in Lord Murdoch’s employ. Both of them combined couldn’t muster up the compassion or courtesy of an angry ogre.
But Cailean didn’t mind them, since he was the ogre.
They came to a shop with a barrel on a pole and stopped for a cup of ale.
“Go on inside,” Cailean told them, dismounting. “I want to purchase a few things. I’ll catch up with ye all later.”
He left them to wet their tongues and headed off toward the tightly packed vendors selling everything from onions to surgical procedures.
Pulling his fur cloak tighter around him, he looked up from beneath his hood at the useless sun caught between billowing dark clouds, and grumbled. The sun offered him no warmth, the clouds reminding him of his life, gray and ominous.
He spotted a vendor selling apples and went to have a look. It wasn’t unusual that a lass caught his eye. He was still a man, after all, even though he hadn’t partaken of the pleasures offered to him by any of the gels at the castle.
This lass, though…this lass parted the clouds.
She strolled out of a nearby fabric shop, dressed in pale layers of soft cream-colored wool. Her face was half-hidden beneath a matching hood, her wrist was looped through the handle of a basket, and a sweetly content smile was on her lips.
What was she so happy about out here in the cold mud and the reeking stench of sewage on the wind? And why did she draw him like a moth to a flame? He moved behind the vendor’s tent, his curious eyes fixed on her while she pushed back her hood and bent to feed a piece of bread to a stray dog.
Something in Cailean’s chest softened just a little at her gesture.
Eyes painted in vivid hues of blue and wreathed in lush, inky lashes danced across the faces of the folks she greeted when she lifted her head. Hell, the sight of her and the way the sun illuminated a hundred different shades in her flowing mahogany hair buckled his knees a little.
“She’s bonny.”
Cailean turned to Patrick biting into an apple, his cousin’s glimmering green eyes on her. “Let’s go greet her.”
Cailean stopped him from leaving with a hand on his arm. “Nae, I’m no’—”
“—As devilishly attractive as I am?” Patrick’s grin was wide and playful. “Dinna let it get ye doun, Cousin. Few men are.”
Cailean cast him a cool glance. “Why are ye no’ drownin’ yerself in ale with the others?”
He paid for Patrick’s apple and bought a bag for himself.
“And listen to their God-awful conversations aboot their lack of basic hygiene? I can only find so much humor in mindless chatter. I’m no’ a saint, ye know.”
“Farthest thing from it,” Cailean agreed, then fastened his eyes on the lass again.
“Who is she?”
Cailean closed his eyes when he heard Dougal’s voice behind him next. “Now’s there’s a rump I’d like to shove my—”
Cailean’s fist, crashing against Dougal’s jaw, silenced him. He collapsed to his knees but not before Patrick had swiped the drink Dougal carried with him and saved it from falling to the ground with its original owner.
Patrick held up the cup to his cousin. “’Tis good to know ye still possess some decency.” He guzzled what remained and then tossed the cup over his shoulder.
Cailean ignored him and the man knocked out cold at his feet, and his frown deepened when he noticed the lass had gone.
After they revived Dougal with a bucket of water, they purchased more winter supplies and then met up with Erik for a few hours of drinking before heading back to the castle.
They reached the mountain pass above the River Lyon with Patrick’s off-key singing to break the wintry silence. Cailean almost didn’t hear the thump of the arrow piercing his cousin’s chest.
This isn’t happening, Cailean told himself as he kicked open the doors of Lyon’s Ridge Castle. This wasn’t real. Patrick hadn’t just been shot by an unseen assailant. Cailean hadn’t pulled him unconscious and barely breathing off his horse and onto his own.
Stepping out of the cloud of snow he’d loosened from the stones above the door, he entered and stood with his cousin and best friend hanging limp across his fur-clad shoulders.
Cailean could scarcely see through his misty eyes. “Come quickly!” he shouted through the halls, his call reaching the rest of the Black Riders in the great hall. “Quickly!” he commanded with his heart battering against his chest. He felt sick with horror, filled to the brim with sorrow. Not him. Dinna take him! “We must help him!”
They would. They had to. These men fought for a living. They were familiar with wounds and patching them up. They would know what to do.
“What happened?” John Gunns, a mercenary from Caithness, asked, reaching him first. Two more men appeared and carefully removed Patrick from his shoulders.
Briefly free of his cousin’s dead weight, Cailean inhaled a breath that stretched his cloak across his chest. Still his heart refused to slow its frantic pace.
He raised his trembling hands to his hood and pushed it back. Dark hair fell over his forehead and hollowed cheeks. He swiped it away from his eyes. “We were returnin’ from the market in Kenmore…”
His mournful gaze fell to the arrow that rose from Patrick’s chest while the men carried him to the great hall. Cailean looked away, almost overcome with the basic need to scream, to run…to fall to his knees. God, please, don’t have me watch someone else I love die. I will perish altogether. Is it not enough that hardly any part of who I was still remains?
“Does he still breathe?” His own breath still came hard, freezing in the chilled castle air and floating before him. He hadn’t wanted to ask because he wasn’t sure he could accept the answer. But he had to know.
This was his fault. If he’d left his new profession as a mercenary and returned home to Camlochlin as Patrick had wanted him to do, none of this would be happening.
“He breathes,” said Cutty Ross of Orkney before he swept his massive arm across the table in the center of the cavernous hall.
They laid Patrick out and began to remove his clothes. The lasses who worked at the castle helped bring the men what they needed to soak up the blood.
Cailean looked at all the blood. He felt it, still warm at the back of his neck.
He stepped back, away from the work of saving Patrick’s life. His breath faltered and his hands shook at his sides. He vowed that whoever had done this would die. He would ride through every villiage like a plague no one would ever forget until he found who was responsible.
“Hell,” Brodie Garrow of Ayr swore. “It’ll be hard to get out.”
Cailean’s muscles twisted into knots. Part of him was afraid of what he would become if he lost his cousin. Patr
ick was more than that. He was Cailean’s closest and dearest friend, the only one who’d managed to bring a little light back to his life, and with it a wee bit of his old self. He raked his fingers through his hair as that same feeling of helplessness he’d experienced twice before coursed through him. What would he tell Patrick’s parents, Tristan and Isobel?
His blood sizzled in his veins. He wanted vengeance now. He flicked his gaze to the only man who had not risen from his chair to help. Duncan Murdoch, son to Lord Edward Murdoch of Glen Lyon.
“Ye know this land and the people on it. Who could have done this?”
Duncan grinned. Cailean wanted to punch his teeth out. The lord’s son was a jealous, squeaking twit who’d hated Cailean a day after he’d come here, when his father, Edward, first began praising the Highlander for battle skills superior to his son’s. Their dislike for one another had grown after Cailean began visiting the lord’s solar for long, quiet games of chess. His son, Murdoch had told him, had never been able to learn the game. Despite Cailean’s brooding nature, the lord of Glen Lyon was fond of him. Still, he wouldn’t take kindly to Cailean’s killing Duncan. Presently Cailean didn’t give a damn.
“If ye dinna answer me,” he warned, his voice deep and taut, his eyes glimmering behind strands of dark chestnut, “I’ll be standin’ over yer chair before anyone can stop me, includin’ ye, and I’ll see to it that ye never speak again.”
Cutty may have heard him because he stopped working and turned to look at him, as did Tavish Innes of Roxburgh. What would the other mercenaries do? Cailean wondered. Would Cutty try to kill him if he went after Duncan? Cailean had given his allegiance to Edward Murdoch, not his son. He’d come here to escape the memory of a life filled with expectations. He was paid to fight and protect Murdoch’s land. Not to give a damn about the men who fought with him. But today he needed them to help Patrick.
“Where did the shooting occur?” Duncan asked him with an irritated sigh.
“The arrow was fired from the direction of Fortingall. That’s all I know.”