by A. Marie
The takeout bags in his hands mock my already growling stomach. I didn’t have time to grab a bite before work and the tiny lunch I had hours ago isn’t holding me over until I can tear into my frozen dinner awaiting me upstairs like I’d hoped.
Coty gets out of the driver’s side next making me hungry in an entirely different, but just as pertinent, way. The growling intensifies much to my horror. At least it’s just my stomach though. I mean, I think it is. Coty’s black tee sculpted to his torso like a damn second skin has made some deep-seated animalistic yearning spring to life, making it hard to focus on anything other than what my body wants. Now.
His eyes immediately fly to mine with a dimple on his left cheek suddenly announcing its delectable existence as he smirks wickedly.
My shoe catches on a stair and I send my hands out in front of me before I can fill up on concrete for dinner.
Shit.
I right myself as quickly as possible, then take the rest of the stairs two at a time. I thought these guys might be dangerous but I had no idea just how much.
CHAPTER 4
Angela
It’s finally early enough for me to get something done other than work and school and school and work—like laundry. I’ve been doing my own laundry for years, but now I have to use shared machines with the rest of the building so I’m at the mercy of other people’s schedules, another thing I didn’t anticipate moving in here, but luckily, after finding a washer open today after work, I chose to go for a swim in the pool at the back of the property while my other clothes were out of commission.
The cool water skims across my skin as I make my way from end to end. Even with it being nearly dark, it’s still ninety degrees out and stifling hot. My half a sandwich I brought down sits untouched at the table next to my things. My mom never taught me how to cook. Or sew. Or budget. Or prosper as a regular functioning adult. The latter I’m working on figuring out through trial and error alone. The rest will follow in time. Hopefully. Probably.
Although she didn’t technically teach me how to clean either, I picked up that useful habit by actually giving a shit about my few possessions. Take my old as dirt 1986 Jeep for example. It offered me the first taste of independence and for that reason alone I love it. Hence why I clean it more than most people with luxury cars would. My studio hasn’t so much as had a single dust mite before I readily wipe it away with enough force to scare all its friends back to whatever filth pit they hail from.
As I float around on my back, soaking up the last few rays for the day, voices drift down causing me to glance up at the balcony overlooking the pool area. The boys’ apartment is so big it has two balconies. One in the front, like mine, overseeing the less than glamorous yet still overstated parking lot, then this one with a full view of the pool and surrounding yard. Marc, Beckett, and Coty all step through their sliding glass door laughing together. I take the moment to watch them unguarded, unfiltered, as they joke lightheartedly with each other. I never would’ve guessed Marc knew how to smile yet there he is openly laughing at something Beckett is saying. I find myself smiling along with the group even though I can’t make out a single word of the tallest one’s animated story. Whatever he’s sharing has them all in stitches and my moves slow in effort to share in the casual moment, even if only as an outsider. Outsider being a role I’ve grown accustomed to, I take comfort in my place on the cusp, secure in the anonymity being disregarded provides. My entire life has been spent meandering within the unknown and unwanted. I don’t even know any other place to wander.
My smile drops however as soon as Coty’s gaze collides with mine. There’s something in his stare that threatens ruination. Damnation. It may start at the base of my spine but it could spread to the rest of me, the rest of everything, if I let it. Total domination by a pair of mocha swirl eyes.
I dip my head under the water effectively severing the connection, the influence that devil dressed as my neighbor has. A huge disruption has me surfacing well before I’m ready to, only to be met by a grinning Beckett. With his clothes still on. In the pool. I can’t help but laugh even as I back up, eyeing him while I make my way over to the edge. The easy way he has about him, it’s infectious.
I hop up onto the ledge, wringing my hair out as he treads closer, studying me carefully. When his arms make circles out to the sides, I’m reminded of this video we watched in health class once on water buffaloes. His shoulders taking up most of the shallow end have me wondering how I even managed to stay in the pool when he jumped in. Or how he got down here so fast. I peek over my shoulder, noticing his roommates are exactly where I saw them last. Coty’s eyes are glued to mine, not missing a second. Marc is taking in the scene with vague curiosity.
It’s been a few days since I crashed their party—more like they crashed my sleep—and they are…a lot to take in. Especially dressed like they are. Like they just got done causing trouble. Judging from the wide smile on Coty’s face, they’re ready for some more.
“So, neighbor girl, where do you sneak off to all the time?”
His question catches me off guard but I recover quickly, throwing out, “School’s a bitch like that. Can’t live with it, can’t live without it.” Well, I can’t. I have a point to prove. A point that I am more. More than what my mom thinks of me. More than what she’s said about me. More than her, period. My mom never finished high school after becoming a teen mom. Back when teen moms weren’t cast as dysfunctional reality stars for public consumption, rather they were hid away from judgmental eyes to disintegrate in private. And crumble she did. Completing high school is only one of many steps to get there, but I will, damn it. I have to.
“What year are you?”
Beckett’s words pull me out of my own head. Pointing across the street, I say, “Almost done. Graduating in a couple weeks actually.”
My high school is just across the street making for an easy—and green!—commute.
His eyebrows jolt. “You’re still in high school?” Accepting my easy nod, he continues, “Why the hell do you live on your own then? Did some needy as fuck douche convince you to move out so he could stop sneaking into your parents’ house every night or something?”
Using my toe to kick water at his face, I mock frown. “Are you talking from personal experience?”
The wall of water thrown back at me almost knocks me backward and I have to fight to stay upright, breaking into watery laughter. Water buffalo indeed.
Finally, through the tsunami Beckett flung my way, I hear him ask, “Seriously, what’s the deal? Why wouldn’t you wait until after you graduate like everyone else?”
Running my fingers through my dripping hair, I consider his question. There’s no way I’m telling him the truth. Even if I was the sharing type, Beckett’s too carefree, too light to be dragged down by my gloom. He wouldn’t know what to do with the bleak answers that question produces. You can’t touch tar without getting dirty and the last thing I want is to infect his sunny disposition with my grime. So, I settle for a portion, a very small portion, of the truth by shrugging my shoulders and saying, “I just couldn’t.”
His eyes narrow before jumping over my shoulder. My gaze follows to see Coty watching from his elevated spot. He looks at his roommate, unease marring his beautiful features, then as I begin to turn away, he calls down, “hey, neighbor girl,” bringing my attention back to him.
Where Beckett uses the term in a playful, borderline endearing manner, Coty says the nickname like a caress. A tender stroke straight to my core. One that robs my ability to think clearly, breathe regularly, or behave properly as I sit here frozen in place. This is the first time I’ve heard him speak and it was to me. Not about me. Not around me. But to me. A single look eclipsed an entire party. A simple smirk short-circuited my motor skills. And now a friendly greeting threatens to send me hurtling through space without so much as a parachute. Danger. Pure, unadulterated danger. That’s what Coty’s interest suggests. What his attention warns. What my persis
tent survival instinct is screaming at me to realize.
My fingers snag on a tangle sending me spiraling back to Earth. Several strands become collateral damage as I rip my hand from the hair snare, standing so suddenly Beckett frowns beside me. With weightless limbs, I gather my small pile of things before scurrying past the gate, under the boys’ balcony to the stairs. A quick peek reveals Coty flashing that sinful smile that’s sure to keep me up later than their obnoxious parties ever could. I try to stifle my own, I really do, but my mouth betrays me and lets it slip anyway.
* * *
I throw on some active shorts, a loose short sleeve shirt that hangs off one sunburnt shoulder and my Adidas slides. As soon as I enter the downstairs laundry room, I spot Coty pulling clothes from a dryer into a basket and stop. He finds me frozen in the doorway before I can retreat and smiles warmly. I eye the empty walkway, considering waiting outside until he’s done but his voice lures me inside much like his eyes did the other night. Propping the door open with a nearby rock, I walk in slowly, methodically, keeping him in my peripheral.
“Hello,” I croak out, immediately regretting my need to wash my clothes. Who needs them anyway? A swimsuit and some strategically placed leaves could suffice, right?
Coty returns to his task while I stand here, not knowing what to do with my hands. He’s at an advantage having something to keep his busy.
I open the washing machine my clothes are in and push them around sluggishly, waiting for this to be over already. My shirt falls further down my shoulder but I don’t bother fixing it. The heat from the dryers mixed with the warm air wafting into the room is making me downright feverish. Maybe it’s just being in the same room as Coty. I glance over, noticing his movements have stopped altogether. Yes, it’s definitely him. Finding his gaze zoned in on me like a starved animal stalking its next meal, I clear my throat still randomly poking at the sopping pile. When he makes no move to continue with his own load, I surreptitiously glance around the floor checking for anything embarrassing that might’ve fallen out. If there’s a pair of period panties lying out, I will die right here, right now. Just climb into the machine and hope for a death less tumultuous than the life I’ve lived so far. Luckily, there’s nothing—unless you count the few hundred lint clusters littering the scuffed linoleum.
Frowning, I ask, “Are you done with that?”
My voice seems to snap him out of whatever trance he was in and he looks down to his hands gripping the top of the machine. “Uh…” His white knuckles regain color once he releases his tight hold. “Yup. It’s all yours.”
He strolls toward the door, leaving me plenty of room to switch my load over, so I work quickly but efficiently getting all my clothes into the vacant dryer without leaving anything behind. With his basket overflowing, I expect him to leave straightaway. He doesn’t. His black cut-off muscle shirt is doing a hell of a job showing off his muscles which I take great satisfaction in surveying. Coty’s the one to clear his throat this time making my already flushed cheeks bloom a deeper shade.
The final handful of wet clothes nestled in the still warm dryer, I hear coins tinkling beside me so I shoot my hand out to cover the slots before Coty can get any in.
“I can pay the dollar to dry my own clothes.” Which today is actually true. I almost never carry change but one of the last customers of the day tipped me in quarters which made doing laundry that much easier. Well, before this whole fiasco.
A multitude of thoughts cross his face—questions, assumptions, fears. All silenced as he drops his hand along with the issue.
“Hey, I never got your name. I’m Coty, in case you don’t remember.”
“I remember.” I shut the lid with a bang, insert my own quarters, then press start. My eyes find his. “I was tired, not drunk.”
Ignoring my jab, he presses, “And your name is?”
His arched eyebrow dares me. To answer? To run?
I decide to throw him a bone if not to get out of here that much faster. That’s what I tell myself anyway as I say, “Angela.”
I stick out my hand to shake his but he ends up enveloping mine with a soft palm accentuated with long, tender fingers. There’s no quick shake. There’s no movement at all save for the thrum of the metal against my thighs as the load inside picks up speed. His eyes bounce between mine as my heart begins whirring to the rhythm of the machine. The moment stretches, expanding, folding in on itself until I feel like maybe I’m in the dryer as well.
I yank my hand out of his grasp, mumbling out, “It’s nice to meet you.”
I grab my own basket when he presses, “Have I seen you somewhere? Maybe at your work?”
Again with the probe disguised as an innocent question. These guys are relentless. “Maybe,” I say carefully.
Walking backward, he surprises me by saying, “At Hot Spots Car Wash maybe?”
Damn. So, he was checking my clothes out. Hopefully he didn’t see everything. Never have I wished I could afford to shop at Victoria’s Secret more than I do right now. I’m adding that to the top of my adult list as soon as I’m back upstairs.
I shake my head lightly. “I’d remember if I saw you before.” Instantly, my lips clamp shut as I eye the empty washing machine, gauging if my body will fit in there after all. A chill like the one Coty’s mere presence evokes is not something I’d ever forget but he doesn’t need to know that. Or that his face has been burned into my memory with no chance of rehabilitation. Fourth-degree. Straight through, zero interference. When I donate my body to science after I die, they’ll find an exact replica of Coty’s face right there on my hippocampus.
Planning to get the hell out of here before anything else slips out of my mouth without my brain’s consent, I attempt to step around Coty when he shifts to block me. Not in an aggressive way. More like a last-ditch effort to get my attention. Little does he know, he already has it.
And there it is. That alarm blaring as loud and persistent as someone else’s dryer buzzing from across the small room. The one telling me to avoid the looming threat by way of either fight or flight. My stupid body, not consulting with my brain yet again, chooses the lesser known option—to freeze, like a mannequin modeling last year’s newest laundry basket. Mid-air. I’ll never be able to look at this stupid thing again without remembering this day. The day my neighbor realized he was living next to a woman with the equivalent of blow-up doll arms—utterly fucking useless.
Coty regards me another moment so I take the opportunity to do the same. His shirt’s open arm pits are cut so wide I can just make out tattoos under his collarbone on each side. Something intricate. Something with wings.
Shuffling the basket into one hand, I push back some hair that fell forward over my shoulder and fan my face.
“That wasn’t a lot of clothes over there. Is it just you upstairs?” His eyes hold mine with something that looks an awful lot like hope but might actually be a reflection of my own futile desire. “Or maybe you have a roommate you’ve been hiding who’s opposed to wearing clothing?”
My previous idea of becoming a nudist returns, making me smile. “Hence the need to keep them hidden.”
We both breathe out somewhat strangled laughs.
“Right,” he drawls.
“You caught me,” I joke, leaving the truth suspended somewhere above us to join the hot air creeping along the ceiling before it can all float out together where I left the door cracked open.
So quiet I almost miss it, Coty utters, “Not yet.” Then louder, he says, “I’ll see you around, Angela. Let me know if you ever need a cup of sugar or something.”
I bite my lips between my teeth to keep from laughing. Sugar, huh?
With that, he takes off out the door and out of my head.
Hopefully.
Probably.
CHAPTER 5
Coty
Sugar? Really? That’s the best you could come up with?
Neighbors do that kind of thing. Right?
Fuck it, they do
now. I’ll get her the whole damn baking aisle if I have to.
I pound up the stairs a little too hard thinking about our new neighbor. Our frustratingly cryptic, sarcastic, takes no shit, drop-dead gorgeous neighbor.
Angela.
With her tan skin layered with a slight sheen of sweat from the balmy day. That bare shoulder taunting me. Testing me and my thin-as-thread patience from being cooped up in that heat swamp of a laundry room before she walked in bringing that much needed breeze I didn’t realize I’d been hoping for.
Her straight, sun-tinted hair, reminding me of the Californian surfers we saw on one of the many trips Marc let us tag along on, reaching just above her perfectly toned ass. It would look better splayed across my bed than stuffed under those hats she’s always rocking but we’ll get to that. One day. She may be on the skinnier side but her body holds a layer of muscle at every angle that proves she’s a hard worker. If what she told Beck is true about her still being in high school, then she must work hard to live on her own. If she lives alone.
Those hazel eyes beg me to take a closer look, even if her mouth says otherwise—chameleons in their own right, much like Angela with her vague responses and non-answers. She’s one of the most interesting people I’ve ever met and I know nothing about her. Yet. She takes in everything around her without revealing anything in the process. She’s holding back, that much is obvious. She knows what’s going on but doesn’t use that knowledge until necessary, and not a moment sooner. She demands attention without even trying. It’s almost like she’s trying to hide herself from anyone and everyone, which is the opposite of what happens. All eyes land on her. And stay.