by Holly Black
Before Kaye could step close and snatch it, the man’s boot stamped down, smearing the faerie into the dust.
Kaye reeled back, pushing Folk aside in her haste to get away. Angling through the multitudes, she thought of her own foolishness in coming here. This was the Unseelie Court. This was the worst of Faerieland come to drink themselves sick.
Three men in shimmering green coattails, their arms and legs long and skinny as broomsticks, were pushing a doe-eyed boy with grasshopper legs between them. He crouched warily as if to spring, but each time was unprepared for a sudden grab or push.
“Let him alone,” Kaye said, stepping up to them. The boy reminded her too much of Gristle for her to just watch.
The men turned to look at her, all of them identical. The boy tried to slip between them, but one of the skinny men locked his arm around the boy’s neck.
“What’s this?” a skinny man asked.
“I’ll trade you something for him,” Kaye said impulsively.
One of the men snickered, and the other drew a little knife with an ivory handle and a metal blade that stank of pure iron. The third threaded his hand through the boy’s hair, tipping his head back.
“No!” Kaye yelled as the iron dagger stabbed into the boy’s left eye. The orb popped like a grape, clear liquid and blood running down his face as he screamed. The flesh hissed where the iron touched it.
“So much better with an audience,” one of the skinny men said.
Kaye stumbled back, reaching around on a nearby table, finding only a goblet. She hefted it like a small club.
One skinny man drew the iron blade over the skin of the boy’s cheek, down his neck as the boy trembled and squealed, his one good eye rolling weakly in his head. The iron left a thin red line where it passed, the skin bubbling to white welts.
“Going to save him, poppet?” another of the skinny men called to Kaye.
Kaye’s hands were shaking, and the cup seemed nothing more than a heavy thing she held; certainly, it was no weapon.
“We’re not going to kill him,” the man who was holding the boy’s hair said.
“Just softening him up a bit,” the one with the knife put in.
Fury surged up in her. The cup flew from her hand, hitting the shoulder of the man with the knife, spotting his coat with droplets of the wine before falling ineffectually to the dirt floor, where it rolled in helpless circles.
One of the men laughed and another lunged for her. She ducked into the crowd, pushing aside a dainty woman and sidling through.
Then she came to a sudden halt. Half hidden by three toad-skinned creatures hunched over a game of dice, there was Corny.
He was sitting with his back against an overturned table, a goblet tipped in his hand. He was rocking back and forth with his eyes shut. A puddle of wine was soaking his pants, but he didn’t seem to care.
Revelers were packed in tightly around her, so she scuttled under the table.
“Corny?” Kaye said, breathing hard.
Corny was right in front of her, but didn’t seem to see her.
She shook him.
He noticed that and finally glanced up. He looked drunk, or worse than drunk. Like he’d been drunk for years.
“I know you,” Corny said thickly.
“It’s me, Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
“What are you doing here?”
“They said it wasn’t for me.”
“What wasn’t for you?”
The hand with the goblet in it stirred slightly.
“The wine?”
“Not for me. So I drank it. I want everything that’s not for me.”
“What happened to you?”
“This,” he said, and twitched his mouth into something that might have been a smile. “I saw him.”
She looked quickly back into the throng. “Who?”
Corny pointed toward a raised dais where tall, pale faeries spoke together and drank from silver cups. “Your boy. Robin of the white hair. At least I think it was.”
“What was he doing?”
Corny shook his head. It hung limply from his neck.
“Are you going to be sick?” she said.
He looked up into her face and smiled. “I am sick.”
He began singing “King of Pain,” softly and off-key. His eyes focused on nothing, and he was smiling a little, one of his hands toying idly with a button on his shirt. It seemed as though he was trying to rebutton it.
“I’m going to find him,” Kaye said.
She looked at Corny, who was muttering, wiping the inside of his goblet with a finger that he brought to his lips.
“Wait for me here, okay? Don’t go anywhere.”
He didn’t make any reply, but she doubted that he could stand anyway. He looked well and truly wasted.
Kaye reentered the throng, weaving toward where Corny had pointed.
A woman with thick braids of crimson hair sat on a tall wooden throne with edges that came to worn peaks and spires. It was wormed through with termite holes, giving it the appearance of a lattice. At her feet, goblins gamboled.
Roiben walked up to the throne and went down to one knee.
Kaye had to get closer. She couldn’t see. Then she noticed there was a small indentation in the wall where she could hide herself, close enough to observe what was going to happen. She would watch and she would find a way to make him sorry for what he had done to Gristle.
Rath Roiben Rye walked through the crowd, past a table where a sprite was squirming in an ogre’s embrace, perhaps with pleasure, perhaps in dread. His old self would have stopped, surely. His silver blade was at his hip, but his Lady awaited him and he had learned to be a good little thrall and so he passed on.
Lady Nicnevin, Queen of the Unseelie Court, stood with her courtiers gathered around her. Claret hair blew around a white face inset with sapphire eyes, and he found himself halted once again by her cold beauty. Four goblins frolicked before her. One tugged at her skirts like a toddler. Rath Roiben Rye dropped to his knees and bent his head so that his pewter hair puddled on the ground. He kissed the earth in front of her.
He didn’t want to be here tonight. His chest still ached, and he wanted nothing more than to lie down and close his eyes. But when he did close them, all he saw was the human girl’s face, full of shock and horror as he threw her down on the dirty floor of a diner.
“You may rise,” the Lady said. “Approach me. I have a task to set you to.”
“I am yours,” Rath Roiben Rye said, brushing the soil from his lips.
She smiled a little smile. “Are you? And do you serve me as well as you served my sister?”
He hesitated before answering. “Better, perhaps, for you try me harder.”
The smile curled off her mouth. “You would jest with me?”
“Your pardon, Lady. It is seldom merry work you set me to.”
She laughed at that, silvery cold laughter that rose up out of her throat like crows going to wing. “You have no tongue for courtliness, knight. Yet I find you still please me. Why is that?”
“Sport, Lady?” he ventured.
Her eyes were hard and wet as blue beach glass, but her smile was beyond loveliness. “Certainly not wisdom. Rise. I understand that I have a mortal girl to thank for your presence here tonight.”
His face was grave as he stood; he made sure of that. It would not do to let his surprise show. “I was careless.”
“What a fine girl she must be. Do tell us about her.” A few of the Unseelie Gentry watched this game as eagerly as they would a duel.
He was careful, so careful to keep the flinch from his face. His voice had to be easy; his words could not seem to be carefully measured. “She said that she was known to solitary fey. She had the Sight. A clever girl, and a kind one.”
The Lady smiled at that. “Was it not the solitary fey that shot you, knight?”
He nodded and could not keep the ghost of a smile off his face. “I suppose they are not al
l so closely allied, my Lady. As implied in what we call them.”
Oh, she didn’t like that. He could tell. “I have an idea, then,” his Lady said, raising one delicate finger to her smiling lips. “Get us this girl. A young girl gifted with the second sight would be an excellent candidate for the Tithe.”
“No,” he said. It was a sharp bark, a command, and courtiers’ heads turned at the sound. He felt the bile rise in the back of his throat. Not clever, that. He was not being clever. “They will not like it, you choosing a favorite of theirs.”
The Lady Nicnevin’s smile bent her lips in triumph. “I might point out that if they do know her it will be just the thing to remind them not to break my toys,” the Lady said. She did not mention his outburst.
Perhaps he was meant to feel something about being called her toy, but he hardly heard it. He was already watching the girl die. Her lips were already cursing him with his true name.
“Let me find you another,” he heard himself say. Once his Lady might have found it amusing for him to struggle with that, finding an innocent to take the place of another innocent.
“I think not. Bring me the girl two days hence. Perhaps after I see her, I will reconsider. Nephamael has just come from my sister’s court with a message. Serve me well and perhaps I will allow you to send one back with him.”
His gaze flickered to the other knight, who appeared to be speaking to a goat-footed poetess and ignoring their conversation. It made Roiben queasy just to look at the iron circlet burning on his brow. It was said that even when he removed it, the searing scar ran deep and black in his flesh. He wore a cloak lined with thorns. What little revenge there was to be had on the Seelie Court, Roiben had it in the form of Nephamael. He had noticed how often the Seelie Queen sent her new knight back down to the Unseelie Court on some easy task or another.
Roiben bowed low enough for his knee and brow to touch the earth, but her attention was already elsewhere.
He walked through the crowd, passing the table where he had seen the ogre. Nothing remained of the couple save three drops of cherry blood and the shimmery powder of the sprite’s wings.
His oaths cut him like fine wire.
Kaye watched Roiben sweep off the dais, fighting down the feelings that seemed to be clawing their way up her throat. A clever girl and a kind one. Those simple words had sped her heart in a way she didn’t like at all.
Did he know that his voice had softened when he’d spoken of her?
He is so unpredictable that even his Queen cannot trust him. He’s as likely to be kind as to kill you.
But the memory of his lips on her skin would not fade. Even if she rubbed the spot. Even if she scratched at it.
Kaye rose as another knight approached the Queen and bowed low to press his lips to the hem of her dress.
“Rise, Nephamael,” the Queen said. “I understand that you are here with a message for me.” His slim figure rose with the same graceful, measured formality that Roiben had. This knight was wearing a band of metal on his brow; the skin around it was darkened, as though burned. There was something about his yellow eyes that Kaye thought was familiar.
“This is the message my Lady would have you hear.” His smile emphasized his implication of disloyalty. “My Lady said that although there has been a truce in the matter of war, she wonders at the matter of mortal influence. She has some favorites that cross your borders and seeks a means of giving them safe passage through your lands. I am told to await your reply. She did not seem to think I need hurry back. I must confess that it is good to be home in time for the Tithe.”
“Is that all she said?”
“Indeed, although one of the Queen’s courtiers begged me to ask after her brother. It seems that she hasn’t had any news from him since he joined your court. A sweet thing, that girl. Very long white hair—one could almost wind a leash of it if one was so inclined.” Another mischievous smile. “She wanted to know why you never use Roiben as a messenger.”
The Queen smiled too. “It is good to have you home, Nephamael. Perhaps you can help my knight acquire our sacrifice.”
“It would be my honor.”
Kaye was suddenly caught by the arm and turned. She yelped.
“You shouldn’t be here.” Roiben’s tone was icy, and his hand was tight on her arm.
Taking a breath, she met his eyes. “I just wanted to hear the Queen.”
“If one of her other knights had noticed you spying here, they would have undoubtedly enjoyed making an example out of you. This is no game, pixie. It is too dangerous for you to be here.”
Pixie? Then she remembered. He was seeing green skin, black eyes, folded wings. He didn’t know her, or at least he didn’t know that he knew her. She let go a breath she didn’t even know she’d been holding.
“I’m no concern of yours,” she said, twisting in his grip. Surely he would let her go, she told herself, but Spike’s words echoed in her head. She saw Roiben on a black horse with glowing white eyes, face flecked with blood and dirt, riding down poor Gristle as he hurtled through the brush.
“Indeed?” He did not release his hold on her and was, in fact, pulling her through the crowd. From this vantage point it was easy to see that people didn’t just make way for him, they practically tripped over themselves to do so. “I am Nicnevin’s sworn knight. Perhaps you should be more concerned about what I am going to do to you than what I might do for you.”
She shuddered. “So what will you do?”
The knight sighed. “Nothing. Providing that you leave the brugh immediately.”
Nothing? She was not sure what she expected to see in his face when she looked at him then, but it was not the weariness she saw there. No madness glittered in the depths of those pale eyes.
But she couldn’t leave, and she couldn’t tell him that her very human friend was sleeping it off on the other side of the hill. She had to play this out. “I’m not allowed here? It doesn’t seem like there’s a guest list.”
Roiben’s eyes darkened at that, and his voice dropped very low. “The Unseelie Court delights in guesting spies for the solitary fey. We so seldom have volunteers for our amusements.”
Dangerous ground, now. The sadness was gone, and his features were carefully blank. Her stomach twisted. Delights . . . our amusements. The implication of his participation was not lost on her.
“Leave through here,” he said, showing her an earthen tunnel that was not the one she had come through. This one was hidden by a chair and closer to the giant. “But you must do it quickly. Now. Before someone sees me speaking with you.”
“Why?” Kaye asked.
“Because they might assume that I had taken a liking to you. Then they might assume that it would be amusing to see my face while I hurt you very badly.” Roiben’s tone was cold and flat. His words seemed to fall from his lips as though they meant nothing, just words dropping into darkness.
Her hands felt very cold as she remembered the diner. What would it be like to be a puppet? What would it be like to watch your own hands disobey you?
Fury rose up in her like a dark cloud. She didn’t want to understand how he could have killed Gristle. She didn’t want to forgive him. And most of all, she didn’t want to want him.
“Now, pixie,” he said, “go!”
It made her angry that she couldn’t stop thinking about his lips. Maybe tasting them would get it out of her system. After all, if curiosity killed the cat, it was satisfaction that brought it back. “I don’t know if I should believe you,” she said. “Give me a kiss.”
“There is no time for your snatched pixie pranks,” he said.
“If you want me to leave quickly, you’d best be quick.” She was surprised at her own words, wondering at the daring of them.
She was more amazed when his lips brushed across hers. A sudden shock of feeling lanced through her before he pulled away.
“Go,” he said, but he said it in a whisper, as though she had drained the breath from him. His ey
es were shadowed.
Kaye ducked through the tunnel before she was forced to think about just what she had done. And certainly before she had time to wonder what it had to do with revenge.
Outside, it was cold and bright. It didn’t seem possible, but the night was past. A breeze made the remaining leaves shudder on their branches, and Kaye crossed her arms to seal in whatever warmth she could as she jogged across the hill. She knew where the brown patch of grass had been. It was simply a matter of getting inside again. If she just stuck to the wall, she thought, probably no one would notice her. Corny would be there, and this time, she would pay better attention, mark the exit in some way.
The grass was no browner in one place than another. She remembered the location well enough. Next to the elm tree and by a grave marker that read ADELAIDE. She dropped to her knees and dug, frantically clawing at the half-frozen topsoil. It was dirt and more dirt, hard-packed, as though there had never been a passageway to an underground palace.
“Corny,” she shouted, well aware that he would not be able to hear her deep beneath the earth. But that didn’t keep her from doing it, over and over, again and again.
8
For beauty is nothing
but the beginning of terror we can just barely endure,
and we admire it so because it calmly disdains
to destroy us.
—RAINER MARIA RILKE, “THE FIRST ELEGY,” DUINO ELEGIES
Corny woke on the hillside to the sound of bells. He was shaking with cold. His teeth were chattering, his head felt thick and heavy, and just shifting his weight made his stomach lurch. His jacket was gone.
He was lying alone in a graveyard, and he had no idea how he had come to be there. He saw his car, hazard lights still dimly flashing where he had pulled off alongside the road. A wave of dizziness hit him. He rolled weakly to one side and retched.
The taste of the wine he vomited brought back a memory of a man’s mouth on his, a man’s hands stroking him. Shocked, he tried to form a face to go along with that mouth and those hands, but his head hurt too much to remember any more.