by B. B. Hamel
“It’s what I’m into.”
“Should I go check your freezer?”
“Only if you want to find my feet collection.”
“Gross,” I say, laughing.
“Come here,” he says.
I walk over and sit down next to him. I look up into his eyes as he tips my chin toward him.
“I’m not going to hurt you,” he says softly. “You know that by now, right?”
“I guess,” I say, glancing away.
“Ruby.” He tugs my chin, making me look back into his eyes. “I’m not going to hurt you.”
“There are a lot of reasons this can’t work,” I say suddenly.
He looks surprised. “Like what?”
“You’re older than me… you’re my grandmother’s doctor… you’re basically married to your job. I don’t know if you even have time for something real.”
He takes a breath and lets it out. “In the past, I’ve made sacrifices,” he says softly. “I’ve sacrificed a normal life with a regular family. I gave that up to become the best doctor I could become, but I’m finished, Ruby. I’ve done enough.”
I blink, surprised. “Are you quitting?”
“No,” he says quickly, “no, not at all. But I am going to scale it back.”
“How?”
“I’ll take on fewer hours. I’ll let some other doctors get the difficult patients sometimes. I’m going to give myself a break.”
“When did you decide this?”
“When I met you,” he says softly.
I bite my lip. “You’re still twice my age.”
“I know. I can’t do anything about that.”
“How will it work?”
“I don’t know,” he admits. “But I can say that I want this, despite the age difference. And I won’t be your grandmother’s doctor for much longer.”
I sigh. “I want it too.”
“Then have it.”
I stare at him and it would be so easy to give myself to him. It would be so easy to let him take care of me, let him be my Daddy for real. No more games, no more half in and half out, no more hiding or worrying. It would be so easy…
So I do.
I kiss him.
His lips are soft. He hesitates.
But he kisses me back.
It’s that easy. I stare into his eyes and I kiss him, and I make the decision.
I’m going to be his. No more worry, no more questioning. It doesn’t have to be complicated.
He pulls me over toward him and I straddle his hips, getting on top. He pulls off my shirt, takes off my bra, kisses my neck and breasts.
It feels good as I grind myself against him. My Daddy, my big man.
Muscular. Intense. Brilliant.
He can take care of me all he wants.
I gasp as he stands, lifting me up like I weigh nothing. He turns and throws me onto the bed. I laugh as he grins at me, drops to his knees, and takes off my pants.
I’m so wet by the time he slides my panties down my smooth skin and kisses the inside of my thigh. I’m so wet when he laps at my clit, gently at first, teasing me, before tonguing me harder.
“I’m all in,” I moan as he tongues my pussy. “I’m all in, Daddy.”
He groans in response and tongues me faster, licking my clit, lapping back and forth. I gasp, arching my back, and start to roll my hips against him.
He pulls back and I sit up, taking off his clothes as fast as I can. I’m in heat, I’m losing myself. I kiss his muscular chest and take his big, thick cock in my hands, slowly stroking his length.
He groans and grabs my hair, pulling my head back. “You think you can do this?” he whispers to me. “You can handle this for real?”
“Please,” I groan. “I want it.”
“Good.” He kisses me, fierce enough to hurt my lip. “You’d better.”
He grabs my hips and rolls me over, pushing me onto all fours. I look over my shoulder as he spreads my ass and licks me top to bottom, tasting every drop of my pussy, every inch of my skin.
I wiggle my hips, gripping the sheets tighter.
I feel him position himself behind me, grabbing onto my hips with both strong hands. I groan, biting my lip. My heart’s beating fast.
He grabs my hair, tilts my head back. I stand back up on my hands then onto my knees.
He pulls me tight against him. “I want to feel you,” he whispers. “Every part of you.”
I bite my lip. “You can have whatever you want, Daddy.”
“Are you sure?” He teases my pussy before sliding his finger back…
I let out a gasp. He pushes it inside of my ass.
At first, I’m surprised. I’ve never felt this before. But after a second, I relax, and it’s actually…
Kind of nice.
“Whatever you want,” I repeat.
“Good girl.” He pushes me back down roughly. “I knew you’d be good.”
I look over my shoulder, biting my lip hard now.
“Relax,” he whispers.
I feel his cock against my asshole. He spits in his hand, strokes himself, and presses it back against me. I wiggle my hips as he slowly sinks himself inside.
I gasp, biting down against the sheets. I’ve never had anything in my ass before, let alone a man’s huge cock. It hurts at first, sharp and intense.
“Relax,” he repeats. “Trust me, little gem.”
I wiggle my hips in response, take a deep breath, and relax.
It still hurts, but it’s not as bad.
He slowly sinks himself inside of me. It’s like getting filled to the brim. It’s strange and unusual…
And I actually like it. I mean, aside from the pain, the sensation is actually nice.
He starts to stroke. Slowly, very slowly, very gently. He reaches around and rubs my clit softly as he does it.
I let him fuck me in the ass. It hurts, especially at first, but I slowly loosen up, get used to him. Slowly the pain turns to pleasure as his fingers do their magic to my clit.
I roll my hips, moaning. He fucks me faster, sliding in and out. He slaps my ass, stinging and hard. I look over at him as he pulls his cock out and leans back.
“Good girl,” he repeats, and I feel him press himself inside of my pussy.
I gasp. I wasn’t expecting that. Pleasure blooms all through me as he starts to fuck my pussy nice and deep.
He pushes me down to the mattress and rips into me. I wanted this so badly. My ass is still gaping wide, almost inviting him for more, but I work my hips, needing his cock in my tight pussy.
He groans and I know I’m moaning. I think I’m begging his name.
I think I’m calling him Daddy.
I can’t tell. It doesn’t matter. There’s just the two of us, our bodies writhing, fucking, sweating. I’m going to come on his cock, leave a stain on his sheets.
“Fuck, girl,” he whispers. “Every inch of you is fucking incredible.”
I groan, look over my shoulder, bite my lip.
He grunts, grins, fucks me harder, shoves me to the bed.
I work my hips, rocking back and forth, moving in fast circles. I’m panting, gasping, moaning. I need it, so fucking bad.
I come hard on his big cock. He presses a finger up my ass as I come, and it only makes the orgasm double with intensity.
He groans, and I feel him spurt deep inside not ten seconds after I finish. He fills me, fucks me raw, comes until his groans turn into soft pants and he collapses on the bed beside me.
I look into his eyes.
“Please, Daddy,” I whisper. “Let’s make it real.”
He grins. Kisses me. I kiss him back, not caring about anything else in the world.
18
Aiden
“Well, look at you,” I say to her, “you look twenty years younger.”
Dot rolls her eyes. “That’s your standard line, isn’t it, doc?”
“Pretty much.” I grin and glance over at Ruby.
“She re
ally does look a lot better,” Ruby says.
“I look fabulous,” Dot adds.
“You’re going to be on medication for a while, but I think you can handle it. You’ve tolerated it really well so far.”
“Seizure aside,” Dot says, grinning at me.
I shrug. “That was a different medication. You’re on something new.”
“There’s more than one drug that treats my condition?” she asks.
I grin sheepishly. “Not exactly. You’re on something that’s technically not approved yet.”
She blinks. “Really?”
“You’re part of a trial, don’t worry,” I add quickly.
“You didn’t tell us that,” Ruby says with a sigh.
“I didn’t? Sorry.” I grin at the two of them.
Dot sighs, shaking her head. “If I didn’t feel so good, I’d be annoyed, you know that?”
“I’m sure you would be.”
“But the truth is, I do feel twenty years younger.”
“Good. You’ve got another twenty years, I bet.”
“Oh, I’m sure I do,” Dot says, laughing.
Ruby grins at me and I wink at her. Dot notices and her smile gets bigger.
“So…” she says slowly. “We can maybe talk about you two now, right? Since you’re no longer my doctor.”
I try not to wince. Ruby coughs, looks embarrassed. “Grandmom,” she says.
“What? He can’t know you told me?”
“It’s okay,” I say, laughing. “You’re right, Dot, it doesn’t have to be a secret anymore.”
“Good. So I can come right out and ask you, you’re going to take care of my granddaughter, right? Not going to hurt her?”
“No, ma’am,” I say softly. “I’m too old for games.”
“Good man,” she says, nodding. “I know a lot of people might frown on the age difference, but I know that doesn’t need to matter.”
“I appreciate that,” I say.
“Grandmom,” Ruby says again, looking like she wants to die. “You don’t have to do this.”
Dot looks at her granddaughter. “Damn right I do,” she says fiercely. “You don’t have anyone else that’ll do it for you. You’ve been looking after me all this time, now I need to look after you.”
The two women stare at each other. Ruby looks mortified and Dot looks almost angry.
I step toward the two of them and clear my throat. “Dot, please. What’s happening between Ruby and I isn’t just some passing fad. It’s very much real.”
Dot looks at me and nods. “I believe you, doctor. Just don’t hurt her.”
“I won’t.”
Ruby stands. “Okay. That’s enough.” She comes around the bed toward me. “We can be done now, right?”
“I’m content,” Dot says, grinning. “Go ahead and give him a kiss before he has to leave.”
Ruby hesitates, but I pull her toward me. “You heard the lady,” I say, grinning. I kiss Ruby on the lips, a little dramatic and overdrawn, but Dot seems to love it. The old woman howls with laughter.
I let Ruby go and she hits my chest, grinning.
“I’ll see you ladies later,” I say, kissing Ruby one more time. I leave the room, a smile on my face.
I haven’t had this sort of relationship in a long time. It feels good to have a fucking crush on someone again.
I feel like I’m walking on air. I’m going to discharge Dot, and after that, my relationship with Ruby isn’t an issue. I can scale back my hours here at the hospital and be with her as much as I want.
The future is fucking bright.
“Aiden.”
I stop in my tracks, look over my shoulder.
Liza’s standing there.
And she looks pissed.
“A word?”
I hesitate. She rarely uses my first name. It’s like my fucking mother using my middle name.
“What do you want?” I say to her, my good mood slipping away.
She gestures for me to follow. I hesitate but go after her. I can’t exactly ignore the director of medicine in front of six fucking nurses, as much as I’d love to.
She pulls me into a side room and shuts the door. “I saw what you did,” she says softly once she rounds on me.
I hesitate, frowning. “What are you talking about?”
“I saw you kissing her.”
I take a sharp breath. “Liza—”
“You idiot,” she says, shaking her head. “You goddamn idiot. She’s half your age and you’re really with her.”
“I thought you already knew.”
“Those were rumors!” She stares at me like I’m crazy. “I never thought I’d actually see you kissing the damn girl in the hospital.”
I glance away from her. That was probably a stupid move, in retrospect.
But it felt good.
I’ve been pushing aside what feels good for a long, long time. I’ve been sacrificing, giving this hospital everything. I’ve saved countless lives.
But I haven’t saved my own.
“So what do you want to do about it, Liza?”
“I want you gone,” she whispers harshly.
I clench my jaw. “Excuse me?”
“If you can’t keep your hands off that girl, I’m going to fire you.”
“I doubt that.”
“You think your board members are going to protect you? Aiden, she’s half your age, and she’s a family member. It’s so inappropriate it makes my head spin.”
I stare at her, trying to keep myself under control. “I’m discharging the woman tonight. She’s going home tomorrow.”
“Too late. Should’ve done it sooner.”
“What does any of this matter?”
“You put the hospital at risk,” she snaps at me. “I know, I know, you’re such a good doctor. You save lives, and it’s true, it’s why you still have a job at all. But this is too far.”
I glare at her, hands in fists. I want to say every fucking shitty thing I’ve ever thought about her. I want to pour venom on her, rip her face off, pound her into dust.
But she’s right. I know she’s right, which is part of why I’m so angry.
I fucked up.
I chose myself for once.
“Threatening me won’t work, Liza,” I say softly.
“It’s not a threat. I’m telling you what will happen if you don’t get in line.”
“Go to hell.”
She rolls her eyes. “Grow up.”
I turn and leave the room. I can feel her eyes on me still, but I don’t give a fuck.
I know I’m going to lose my job if I don’t stop seeing Ruby. If I don’t make some public display of leaving her, it’s all over. I can forget about being a doctor at this hospital ever again, maybe anywhere for that matter.
If this rumor gets out, that I’m dating a girl half my age and she’s the family member of a patient, it could ruin me entirely.
Nobody will touch me. Why would they? I’m notoriously hard to work with.
Sure, I’m good. The best in the fucking region.
But I’ll be toxic.
I know it, Liza knows it.
She has all the cards.
I storm back to my office, anger rolling through me, my mind a mess of confused feelings.
I don’t know what I’m going to do. Being a doctor is all I’ve ever known, and I’ll be nothing without it. I can save so many more lives if I just break things off with Ruby.
But what about myself? What about her? I told Dot I wouldn’t do this.
I told myself I’d finally try to be happy for once.
Sometimes, I’m a liar. I just never thought I’d lie to someone I really give a shit about.
19
Ruby
I’m smiling the next night as I head into the hospital.
I’ve been smiling all day. I keep thinking about what Aiden said to Grandmom, about taking care of me, about never hurting me.
I can’t stop smiling. I feel like suc
h an idiot, walking around with a grin on my face.
Work drags so slowly it almost hurts. All I want to do is hurry into the hospital to see Aiden, to kiss him, to let him pick me up in a tight hug.
I haven’t heard from him at all this afternoon but that’s not unusual. He’s busy all day long, and I don’t want to bug him. I know what he’s doing is important, and he’ll message me if he has time.
That’s the thing about being with a doctor. You never fully control their time. Other people need them, too.
That’s okay. I can handle that. I can share him, so long as he’s saving lives.
I stroll through the lobby and head to the elevator. I think about my grandmother, how good she’s doing, and my smile gets bigger.
We’re leaving tonight.
As I get closer, I notice a security guard walking straight for me. I step back, assuming he’s heading for the elevator, but he stops and turns to stare into my eyes.
“Ruby White?” he asks.
I nod, frowning. “Is my grandmother okay?”
“Come with me, please.”
I hesitate. “Why?”
“Please, Miss White. Just come with me.”
I stand there, not sure what to do. Fear spikes through me.
Did Grandmom have another seizure? Did something worse happen?
I don’t know why they’d send a security guard, but I decide to go with him. I figure I have no other choice, anyway.
He leads me over to his desk. “Wait there,” he says, gesturing at a little couch against the wall.
I sit down on the fake leather. It creaks almost inaudibly.
He gets behind the desk and picks up a phone. I watch him make a call, his face deadly serious. He talks to someone, although I can’t tell what he’s saying. After a minute, he comes over to me.
“I’m sorry, Miss White. You need to leave the hospital.”
“Excuse me?”
“You need to leave the hospital grounds, Miss White.”
I stare at the security guard, not sure if I’m understanding him. I can feel myself getting dizzy, my face turning red, confusion settling over me like a thick wool blanket.
“I don’t understand,” I say.
He frowns, looks around nervously at the people walking past. I can tell a few of them are looking in our direction.