Tug of War
Legacy Series
Rain Carrington
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Table of Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter One
The sunlight came through the shades they’d forgotten to lower the previous evening. To be fair, they’d been a little busy, as Diego was stripping his pants from him so he could eat Tommy’s ass for nearly an hour.
His hand was draped over Tommy’s chest, keeping him trapped there, where the sunlight could eat his brain.
“Wanna fuck?”
The voice was gravely, and it made Tommy laugh as he turned his head and saw Diego’s eyes were still firmly closed. “Are you dreaming?”
“Dreaming about fucking you, yeah.”
Tommy was yanked over quickly, and he started to laugh as Diego bit his neck and rubbed his course but soft beard on Tommy’s face. “Awake enough for you? Huh?”
There was nothing but good times with Diego, laughter, amazing sex, and he knew he was falling for him. There was only one problem. He was already in love.
“I want you so bad,” Diego whispered into his ear as he climbed over him, Tommy’s body warming with the rough voice and rougher hands, the sunlight forgotten as Diego lifted his beautiful, thick torso and blocked it. “Want you.”
He’d longed to hear those words all his life, and Diego used them often. He knew he should be content, happy even, that he had the most beautiful man who was there for him, cared about his needs and desires. And he did. Diego was everything he’d ever wanted. Everything, except he wasn’t Gary.
The man had gotten into his soul, camping there in his camo pants, his scraggly beard highlighted with bright silver haunting his dreams. Tommy had waited for love, and now there was too much, and he felt the guilt plaguing him as Diego pushed inside his ass.
“Fuck! Damn good, babe,” he whispered on Tommy’s lips, staying still to let him adjust. Not that it was needed, he’d been opened for hours the night before, but it was appreciated all the same. That was the thing about Diego. He would die if he thought he hurt Tommy. No one in his life had cared about him before the last year. It was still a foreign feeling for him, having friends and others that cared.
Diego was hung well, and filled Tommy nicely, starting easily, sliding in and out of his ass, kissing him deeply, and Diego kissed great. Not wet and hurried but seductive, enticing Tommy to a nice, slow burn.
He was new at sex, having hidden his sexuality for a long time. Having been in love with his best friend for years, that friend not only straight but abusive and angry as well, hadn’t given him leave to seek other sexual partners.
Diego’s mouth was artistic, crafting feelings and sounds, tastes that moved him. Yeah, he loved the guy. It was impossible not to. The thing he couldn’t wrap his head around was that he could be in love with two men at once. That confusion and guilt that he wasn’t giving enough of himself to one because the other overshadowed him.
Thoughts of Gary faded as Diego sped his thrusts, moving thoughts of anything else out of his mind. Emotions were pushed out of the way in favor of the sensations his physical being was experiencing.
That perfect cock inside him, stretching him, making feel full and satisfied, it was everything. Diego’s beard tickling his collarbone as his lips and teeth took over the flesh on his neck. Right there, a couple inches below his ear, Diego had found it fast, their first fuck, and Tommy had come, screaming his name.
Flipping onto his stomach, Tommy invited Diego to take him from behind, and in his fists, he gripped the pillow, muffling his grunts with it. Nails tenderly dragged down his back, lighting more nerve endings, and then a tight grasp onto his hip told Tommy it was about to become more intense.
It was so good, so very fucking good, he was spiraling toward climax, a whirlwind of base needs and desires being fulfilled, and he started to scream into that pillow, the slaps of skin on skin as Diego sped, blurring into one long keen of high pitched sound taking over the room.
“Come, Tommy, come with me!”
He loved when they orgasmed together, it was one of his favorite things in the world. It made him feel connected to someone, that them reaching that place together didn’t leave him alone in the world any longer.
Diego insisted on it, like he felt the same, though they never talked about it. They didn’t talk a lot about anything and not because Diego didn’t try. Tommy wasn’t in a place yet where he could trust…
When he came, his body tensing, he felt Diego’s hands gripping his hips painfully, and he went rigid as well. He was filled with cum again, and he liked the feeling, having that dripping from him after the cock had left him empty. With Diego, he so rarely felt empty.
He was turned to his back and Diego descended on him, kissing him as he chuckled. “That was fucking great, babe. You’re the best lover I’ve ever had.”
That shocked him so much he couldn’t move. “W-what?”
Falling to the side of him, Diego whispered, “It’s true. You don’t put on a show, you’re not fake. You’re also so beautiful when you’re enjoying yourself. You seem to get lost in it.”
Those icy green eyes, so light they were nearly white, but he wasn’t icy. Diego was warm and sweet. Things he never thought he deserved, let alone have. “Why do you like me? Besides the sex.”
“Like you?” He moved and sat
on the edge of the bed, his back to Tommy. “Uh, this is one of those serious conversations you say you don’t like, Tom. Catching me off guard, here.”
It was true. Bandaging his heart for the second time in his life after Gary left, Tommy had sworn to himself he’d never get serious again. Diego wanted that, to be a couple, live together, have a life that they shared. It scared him, not to mention the fact he was nowhere near being over Gary.
“Sorry. I don’t know how to do this, Diego. I swear, I’m trying.”
That handsome face was turning, chin coming to rest on his own shoulder as those icy orbs landed on him. “I know you are. I see that, babe. I’m in no rush, and I promised I wouldn’t push.”
Tommy moved behind him, wrapping his legs around Diego’s waist. “You’re too good to me.”
“Yeah, so you’ve said. And like I’ve said, you should start to realize you are a good person, Tom. You’ve earned it, to have someone be good to you.”
“I’ve earned it. Why don’t I realize that?”
“Because you’ve been kicked around by life, and by men. I’m never gonna do that to you, Tommy.”
Tears came to his eyes that he refused to let fall. “You’re gonna be late.”
“So are you. Let’s go shower and head out.”
Tommy loosened his grip, letting Diego stand and move away from him. He fell back on the bed, wishing he knew how to be a boyfriend to a sweet man. With Gary, for the short time they’d been together, it had been easier. Gary was intense with sex and all things sensual, but when they weren’t fucking, he was overly casual.
Tommy thought many times that Gary’s eyes held things his voice wouldn’t disclose, but he was never sure. Couldn’t be. He’d never asked, either, which he regretted. There were many things he regretted about the relationship, but the relationship itself was never one of them.
After they showered together, barely touching, Diego dropped him off at Daniel’s house on his way to the office in town. Diego was part of the mafia family that Daniel ran with his father, Mike Montello. Since Diego had gone to college, earning multiple degrees in business and law, he was the consiglieri, or council of the family. Daniel had been running things recently, as Mike and his wife Mia, Diego’s cousin, had adopted a child. The little girl was their first together, and they couldn’t get enough of her. With them so busy, Daniel took over with his partner, Javier Duran.
Tommy had known Daniel for years, though they hadn’t become friends until very recently. Tommy had earned his place as Daniel’s personal bodyguard when he’d put himself on the line and taken bullets that were meant for Daniel. He’d luckily been wearing a bulletproof vest, but he’d shown that he was willing to die for the boss. That meant a lot to Mike and the family.
Tommy had found a little apartment north of town, which was where they had spent the night, instead of Diego’s beautifully restored Victorian on one of the older streets in town. Tommy loved the place, but since he’d spent his youth breaking into homes like it with his first love and abusive best friend, Lee, he didn’t feel all that comfortable in it.
His misery over the tense conversation of earlier must have shown on his face, because the moment he walked into the house that Daniel and Javi shared, Daniel commented, “You two get into a fight?”
Daniel was all for the relationship, liking Diego from the minute Mia introduced her cousin to Daniel. He wanted the best for Tommy, and hadn’t exactly approved of Gary, the former mercenary.
Javi, however, was on team Gary wholeheartedly. Javi and Gary were old friends and former fuck buddies. He saw in Gary what Tommy had seen, and few others got a glimpse of.
“Not exactly a fight, no.”
“Get over him already, then you and Diego can be happy.”
Daniel was younger than him, but wiser completely. He’d been through hell with Lee as well, being his baby brother and favorite punching bag. “Did I say the name? No! He’s gone anyway, Daniel. And thanks for the advice, asshole. Because it’s so easy to just get over someone.”
“I think I could do it.”
“You’re a bigger puppy when it comes to Javi than I ever was with Gary.”
He received a sheepish grin for that. “So?”
The house was where it had all begun for them, the change in their lives. Daniel had killed Lee when Lee tried to kill Javi, and Javi hadn’t wanted him to pay for it the rest of his life. He’d taken Daniel to a cabin west of town and they’d fallen hard for each other over the months there. Javi had also taken Tommy into his heart, but in a much different way. He was the first person to see that Tommy could be good at things and taught him to be a soldier.
The original wood in the arches that separated the rooms and the floors were beautiful, as were the plaster walls Javi had painted subtle shades of sand, sage, and turquoise. The furniture was casual, overstuffed and comfortable, and he took a seat on the couch across from Daniel, who was holding his new laptop.
“Okay, maybe I’m wrong about the guy, but I’m not wrong about Diego. If he left, then you could mope around. He’d be worth moping for.”
“If Javi took off on a job, would you just forget him?”
Daniel glared at him over the top of the computer and commented dryly, “If we’d had no real relationship in the first place and he left so easily, without talking to me about it, and with no thought of me, yeah, I probably would.”
Tommy laughed at him, knowing how much he loved Javi. Javi had been uncomfortable with their age difference of twenty years, and had tried to break it off with Daniel, but Daniel wouldn’t allow it. He’d placed himself squarely in Javi’s sights and refused to move.
“Sure, Daniel. Besides, I told you, it wasn’t about him.”
“Then what was it about?”
“Us. I am afraid to move forward, and he refuses to push me. Which is what I wanted, sure, but…I don’t know. I don’t know!”
“Are you sure this isn’t a rebound thing? After, you know, he-who-must-not-be-named?”
They’d made a pact never to say Lee’s name aloud, as it brought them both terrible memories. “Nah. How can you have a rebound if there never was anything to rebound from?”
The computer was set on the thick wooden coffee table and Tommy felt his body stiffen as he readied for the lecture.
“I get it. I love the same things about Javi that you feel for Gary. He’s got that dangerous, sexy thing going. That killer tough thing. You guys had a great time together, but you made the mistake of falling for him. Javi said that Gary wasn’t a tied down kinda guy.”
He couldn’t help but smirk at that, thinking of the kinky things they’d done. “No, he’s more of the tying someone else down.”
Daniel made retching sounds then laughed. “Didn’t need to know that.”
“Sorry.”
“Is that it? The sex? Doesn’t Diego do it for you?”
Sitting forward, he defended, “Diego is amazing in bed. I mean, like oh my fucking god kinda amazing. So was Gary, sure, but in totally different ways. Gary was all heat and intensity and with Diego, there’s plenty of heat but it’s in more of a loving and caring way.”
Leaving his own chair and joining Tommy on the couch, Daniel slung an arm around Tommy’s shoulders. “I get it. Javi does both, and I have tried to think of which I liked better. I can’t decide.”
“I do love Diego, Daniel. I really do. I can’t tell him that. I don’t know why, I guess because it’ll open all those doors he’s been waiting for. Moving in together would be next, and all that goes with that.”
“And as soon as you walk through all those doors with him, other doors would close on ever being with Gary. Damn. I think I finally kinda understand.”
He was more miserable instead of less, unlike other times he and his best friend would talk things through. “I don’t know what to do. If I saw him again, maybe…”
“Whatever you decide, just be careful. I don’t want to see Diego hurt, you know? I like him a lot, but you are
who I care about more. Besides Javi, you are the person I love most in the world.”
“Ditto. God, Daniel, I’m fucked up. I’m fucked up to even think about Gary anymore with Diego right here, loving me. I know he does, and I won’t let him say it.”
“Well, figure it out soon. He’ll only wait so long no matter what he says.”
Turns out, things happened that pushed the boundaries of Tommy and Diego alike. A week after their conversation, Daniel called Tommy in the middle of the night, calming his hammering heart right away by saying, “It’s not me, I’m fine. I don’t want to even tell you this, but Javi needs you over here. He’s sick with worry about Gary and I think you might be the only one to help him out.”
“What’s wrong with him? Did he get hurt?”
“No! He’s not hurt, but he could get that way, I guess. Come over as soon as you can. Javi says Gary is about to get himself in a lot of trouble. If you love him like you say, you can maybe stop him.”
Tommy set his phone down and scrambled out of bed, grabbing the jeans he’d stripped off only an hour earlier. Diego sat up, sleepiness making his voice thick. “What’s going on? Is something wrong with Javi or Daniel?”
He could lie, but he didn’t want to lie to Diego. “It’s…it’s Gary. Javi says he’s in trouble and I may be able to help.”
Diego knew about Gary, about their fleeting relationship that had lasted only a month. He also knew that Gary was the reason Tommy had been reluctant to give his heart again. Tommy expected jealousy, fighting, at least a nasty comment, so he was surprised when Diego got up and started dressing as well.
“What are you doing? Are you leaving me?”
“I’m going with you. If there’s trouble, and Javi wants you involved, I should know about it. Besides, you’re…you’re my boyfriend, like the title or not.”
Unable to keep the smile from blooming, Tommy went to Diego and kissed him with a loud smack. “I know this sucks for you.”
“It does.” Diego’s eyes searched over his face as he finished, “You’re worth it, though. Maybe one day you’ll know that.”
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