by Wood, Lauren
“I’m going out with Jack.”
“Do you really think that's a good idea?”
“No, not really if I'm honest with myself, but I still told him yes.”
“I bet it's hard to tell him no. He's handsome, rich, and not to mention you have been in love with him as long as I can remember. Why aren’t you any more excited about it?”
I was excited. It wasn't the type that made me smile and dance around like everything was going to be okay, This was more a nervous anxiety that ran through me, hoping that everything would work out. I was starting to wonder if all of it had been for nothing. Had I wanted this man for all this time, and he was never supposed to be mine?
“I am excited, I just, I don't know. It's a lot you know. What if it doesn't work out?”
Angie didn’t want to discuss it. “It doesn't really matter if it works out or not. I mean, you have been wanting this guy for a long time and it's not like you don't know Jack. You have known him, about as long as you've known me.”
That was the problem. Right there. I did know Jack and I knew that he was the type of man that I was supposed to stay away from. I had always been attracted to bad boys, but it turns out, that bad boys can cause a lot of trouble. They don't mind who they hurt, and for a long time, it was always me. I was worried that getting with Jack, would be like getting with Billy. It would be good in the beginning and then just turn into a disaster. The only good thing that I knew about Jack, was at least he was a controlling like Billy. But still. there were some similarities that were hard to ignore.
“It's going to work out fine Bella. I have a good feeling about this.”
“Well, I'm glad that one of us does.”
“If you don't want to go, then don't go.”
I looked at her and shrugged. “We both know that I want to go. I have wanted to go out with Jack for a very long time.”
“Then go get him silly. You're just over thinking this too much. Go out. You never know, you might have a good time and be ready to dish when you get back. I want to hear all about it.
“You look really good.”
I smiled at the compliment. That was the look that I was going for, even though I wasn’t sure where it was going to go. I knew that me and Jack had a past, but there was something more between us. It was between us for a long time. I had met him once, and just known that he was for me. It wasn’t even a question for me. It was just something that I felt inside.
I had the same feeling again and for once, Jack was looking at me exactly as has wanted him to. He needed me and wanted me, just like I wanted him. It was all I could think about and before long, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do. How was I supposed to function, when I was already feeling this way? I hadn’t been around him long enough to feel any other way.
“Are you ready to go?”
I said that I was. He was probably going to take me somewhere close. I had dressed casually, because I didn’t want to overdress. I had clothes that I’d brought from California, that would never look right here. Here, it was a small town and wearing anything past regular clothes, would stand out. I didn’t want to stand out, I wanted to fit in. I never did fit in before.
“Sure. Where are we going?”
“Well, there isn’t very many places around here that are nice. So, I was thinking that we could take a ride on my boat.”
“I didn’t bring my bathing suit.”
“We don’t need one. I am sure that whatever you have on underneath will suffice.”
I was a little shocked that he suggested such a thing, but I did like the idea of a boat ride. It was a pretty day and seemed like the perfect thing to do.
Although I wasn't prepared for the offer, I could see no reason not to take it. I wanted to go with him and riding on a boat did sound nice. It was better than going to a restaurant and eating some basic food at the diner. Just being out in the open air, had my vote.
“That definitely sounds better than going back to the cafe. I didn't know you had a boat.”
“I always wanted one and the first time I sold rights to the franchise name, I got one. Ever since then, I have just upgraded it every once in a while.”
Since we were raised a few blocks from the lake, it had always been a big part of my life and Jack’s. I was glad that that part of him hadn't changed. It certainly hadn't changed with me, even though I surrounded myself with ocean, instead of fresh water for the last few years.
I relaxed a little bit because of our destination. It didn't feel like anything bad was going to happen while we were at the lake. It was just going to be calm and blissful and we would have time to talk and get to know each other. I had no idea what kind of boat he was talking about, until we pulled into the Marina and parked in front of one of the docks.
The boat was not a boat. It was more like a yacht and I remembered something that Angie had said about him making a lot of money.
“So, this is big.”
“I've sold a lot of franchises and like I said, I've upgraded.”
“I heard that you were like rich-rich.”
“I guess you could say that. I don't know, after a certain point it doesn't really matter. It just becomes a bigger number on the balance sheet.”
“And still you work every single day at the bakery?”
“I've always liked doing it and just because I don't have to work, doesn't mean that I don't want to. Besides, it's really hard to find good help in Coloma. You are the best employee to come around in a long time.”
“You say that, yet you keep sticking your tongue down my throat. I'm starting to think that you don't want me as your employee at all.”
I wanted to bite my tongue and stop talking altogether. I can't believe that I just said that. What was worse, was how badly I wanted him to do just that.
“Now, I didn't really stick my tongue in your mouth.”
“No, not really. But you did rub yourself on me.”
He chuckled a little bit and look down. If I didn't know any better, I would think that he was actually blushing.
“Yeah, I did. I was trying to mess with you and that quickly backfired.”
I liked the way he said it and his reaction to how we both responded.
We got out of the truck and I was a little worried to see that there was somebody already on board to pilot the boat. I was thinking that this was going to be something casual, but it turned out to be something incredibly romantic.
The deck had a table with candles and soft music played from speakers somewhere. There were even rose petals scattered about. He had gone all out, and it was pretty clear to me what he was hoping for. It certainly wasn't something that I was willing to jump in to.
“This is nice.”
He pulled the chair out for me and had this knowing look on his face. It was very clear that he was the one in charge and I was worried even more all of a sudden. Here I was worried about the wrong things. The only thing that I should have been concerned about, was Jack. He apparently had a plan of his own.
It felt too much like a trap and I had walked right into it.
11
Jack
I planned out everything to be perfect. I didn’t want things to get confusing like before. I wasn’t here as her boss, but something more. I didn’t want there to be any way to think that this was something more or less. I wanted her; it was just that simple. This was a date, which I hoped would lead to the tasting that I needed for dessert. That’s all I could think about.
She was wearing this red dress that called to me. It was tight, hugging all of the slender curves of her body. It was short, so it rose dangerously high on the way over to the marina. The boat was the perfect location, but now I was pulling my chair around to the side of her. Sitting across from her was romantic, but seeing the glimpse of her thigh as she sat, was far more enticing.
“You look amazing.”
Bella looked down and that innocence was back. It had been present far more, than the fiery woman that
had backed up against me that first day. I liked them both, but this route was rather intriguing. How was one little compliment too much one moment and rubbing against me, was not?
“Thank you. This all is great. I can’t believe you did all of this.”
“It’s all for you Bella. I should have treated you differently before. I don’t know what I was thinking, but now I know how much of an idiot I was being.”
She smiled at me and shrugged. “It was a long time ago.”
“Has your feelings changed?”
Bella shook her head. “I wish they would, but no, I don’t think they have.”
That got a smile and I knew then, that everything was going to be okay. I was so sure of it now. Now I could relax. It had been a roller coaster with her, and it was no more evident, then when Mona came in every day, as well as several other women. I didn’t have to work at it with them. It just came easily, but I still didn’t feel like this. I didn’t have the same desire.
With Bella, it wasn’t that way. I had a feeling that the reason it was different, was mainly because it didn’t matter what the outcome was with Mona. With Bella, I cared a lot how it all worked out.
The silence stretched on and then I was saved by a good song. I don’t know why it was so complicated with her, but I was convinced that having her in my arms, would negate all of the other issues that were cropping up. Maybe we just didn’t need to talk, but touch, to make ourselves known.
I asked her if she wanted to dance and as it was starting to get dark, the lights were illuminating just so. It made her look even more beautiful, if that was even possible and I was able to see her in all of her glory. She looked happy and I wanted it to be because of me.
I pulled her close and heard her purr. She sounded just like a cat and that just endeared her to me even more. I really liked the sound and the way she melted against my chest. The music was light, almost nonexistent, especially when she was close enough to be blotted out by the deafening sound of her heart. I wanted to be closer and I pulled her in for a kiss.
Bending down, I captured her lips in my own. I couldn’t think of anything else that had felt better in a very long time. I wanted her, needed her even, but it was complicated. I had to have her all to myself and it no longer mattered where we were or the problems I saw cropping up because of it.
I was pulling her completely into my arms, her feet now off of the ground. The kiss deepened and she was gyrating against me. Her legs wrapped around my waist and she clung to me. I growled in response and that only made her smile and rub against me some more. It was all more than I could handle, but I think that was the point.
“Why don’t we go below? I would imagine that you have a bed down there somewhere…”
I agreed that I did, but I was still afraid that she was going to change her mind on the way. She had been so hard to deal with, when I was using words to communicate. Bella seemed to do much better, when I was able to show her how I felt with my hands.
Instead of taking her down below, I set her down on the floor of the deck. It wasn’t the most comfortable, but she didn’t seem to mind and neither did I. The last thing I wanted to do, was lose the momentum that was happening between the two of us. I could feel it building and I would be stupid to let it slip away.
Her dress came up quickly and I was thankful for that. I needed to feel the soft, long legs that I had been admiring all week. The rest of her had my attention as well, but I wanted to work myself up to that.
The skin underneath my lips and tongue was soft, and she squirmed as I made a trail up one side. I stayed close to the inside of her thigh, just because I knew that it was the most delicate part of her. Bella jumped and jerked like I was driving her crazy and I couldn’t think of a better response. Her legs were quivering, and I took it as a compliment, one of the best.
I pulled back and looked down at her flushed face. “You can’t imagine how beautiful you are right now.”
She raised up and kissed me, before Bella lifted up her arms, letting me help her out of her dress. My eyes went to the large globes in front of me. Now I couldn’t breathe. Fuck, she was beautiful. I mentioned something of the sort and she just laughed, that wonderful tinkling sound. I was never going to get sick of it.
12
Bella
The swaying boat almost put me to sleep, if not for Jack. I wanted to think that everything was as it should be. I wanted to think that I was finally where I needed to be. Jack was looking down at me with so much lust, it was hard to ignore how it made me feel inside. He smiled as he looked on, the hunger in his face only getting more desperate.
He never could get his eyes off of my top and now that I was bare underneath, except for a pair of panties, it was obvious where his attention was going to go. I made them jiggle a little extra for him and I heard him growl. I don’t know why, but the sound was such a turn on.
“Damn Bella.”
I shushed him, because he was going to say the wrong thing. It seemed that he was very good at that. I didn’t want to ruin the moment, by him talking about the past again.
Instead of letting him speak and ruin the moment, I waited for him to hush and then kissed him. He was above me and all I had to do was pull him down to me and there was no more talking. Jack was pressing his hard length into me and I was shaking underneath him. I knew this was going to happen, but after thinking about it for so long, it was hard to imagine that it was finally happening. It was messing with my head a little bit.
When he pulled back and said my name, I realized that I wasn’t looking at him. Somewhere along the way, my eyes had closed. At the time, I just wanted to feel her lips on mine. That was all I could focus on and I lifted up for more, but he was gone. When I finally opened my eyes, I realized that he was taking his shirt off.
The hard chest was rippled and again, my hands and fingers were itching to take it in. It was a shame, how badly I wanted to feel the skin under my fingertips.
He came closer and my hands were out, touching him, before I could stop myself. There was a panic inside of me, once I realized how big he was all over. His body was taking up all the space around me, as he lowered himself on top. His weight was overwhelming, but it was the hard bits of him that made me suddenly unsure of this course of action.
“What’s wrong?”
I was biting my lip and Jack could tell that I wasn’t as into it as I should have been. This is what I had been waiting for. His face was full of need, but also concern. His biceps were shaking, and I could feel the head of his desire against me. It wasn’t that I needed more time. I was ready. All he had to do was touch me to discover that much, but there was something that was bothering me.
It was Jack. My Jack. The one that I’d wanted so long. Jack was really massive, and I’d seen him in action. After all this time of wanting him, it was the first time I seriously questioned if I could even have him. Could I take the man that I wanted so much?
“Nothing, you’re just big. Like, all over.”
He chuckled and promised to go slowly, but I didn’t like the look of mischief in his eyes. It didn’t feel like he was going to do what he said. I could see possession in his eyes and there was a pent-up energy that was daring to come out. Jack looked like he was starving, and I was the only thing around to eat.
I raised my hips slightly, just to get a feel for the hardness that was pressing against me. It pushed between the lips and rubbed against my core. I jerked at the sudden heat that he supplied and the way it felt dragging against my nub. I gasped and he kissed me.
“I want to hear you when I enter, if that brought you so much pleasure.”
“It’s been a while for me Jack. A long while.”
Jack agreed with the sentiment but didn’t go any further. He was looking in between our bodies and I followed his gaze. It was the last thing that I should have done.
I could see his hard-on pointing at me and the disappearing as he slid between my legs. Jack still didn’t penetrate though
. He seemed content to let me just feel a bit of him slide against me. It wasn’t enough, but it was all he would do for several strokes. I was getting frustrated and that seemed to entertain him more.
“Jack, what are you doing? I need you already.”
I was being impatient, and he ignored me. As much as I expected him to slide in and never leave, he did not. Instead, he kept pushing between my legs, past my core and then out the other side. It was starting to get to me, and I decided that I was going to make it happen, if he wasn’t.
Raising my legs to his waist, I moved my hips, so that there was nowhere else for him to go, but inside of me. I didn’t want to argue with him, but I wasn’t going to wait anymore. I just couldn’t. I lifted my hips up, as he made his next pass through my legs and he pressed in suddenly. It took us both by surprise, but the sound that I made was far louder than his. It was all just too much and before I could stop him, he had pushed far deeper than I’d imagined him going.
I cursed as he paused for a moment. Our eyes locked and he told me I felt far better than he thought I would. It was good to hear, but strange to hear when he was still inside of me. Then Jack was pushing deep again, and my eyes must have rolled back in my head. I could say the same thing to him. He felt really damn good.
Jack started a rhythm that got me worked up quickly. I was shaking in his arms, unable to stop the sound of pleasure that came out of me. This wasn’t the place for that of course. I could only imagine what the others on the boat were thinking, but then I would come again and not care. It was all more than I could handle.
At some point, I had lost count of how many orgasms I had had. It didn’t matter, but I knew I couldn’t do anymore.
I was now on my stomach, my ass high in the air and he was slamming into me. Every time he pushed me forward with a thrust, he just dragged me back to him, to do it all over again. I whimpered and whined, but I couldn’t help it. I don’t think I had another time in me and I told him that I was done.