by Maine, Miley
It was a devastation I would never get over, and while I knew that moving on was not the same thing as forgetting, moving on was especially cruel at reminding. I didn’t want to be reminded about the love I’d lost anytime I felt anything with a new woman. I’d tried it over and over and it had become too much for me. I would not move on and actually see it through and the woman I was with would eventually leave, and rightfully so. It wasn’t fair to them. I needed to just be single. I’d had my chance at love. And I’d lost it. That was the way it was.
Or at least, that was what I thought...
About an hour after I spoke with Quinton, it was time to begin the Secret Santa program we always did. It was the most fun time of the party in my opinion. We all took turns drawing a name out of a hat as it was passed around and we would seek out this person to be their personal Santa for the time being. We had to buy them a gift or perform any service they needed done.
“Mr. Caplan,” Bryan Johns said on the microphone. I always let him host these things since he was so good at it. He was a natural born comedian and was born to be on stage. He would announce the games, the events, and hand out the door prizes. The guy was a total clown. And a hell of a nice man that I liked to consider a friend.
I ran up to the lectern and shook his hand. “Thank you, Bryan. How is everyone doing? We enjoying the festivities?”
The crowd erupted in cheers. “Fantastic. Glad to hear it. I hope you all get completely hammered tonight. It’s on me.”
Another round of applause. “Ok, let me get this game started.” I drew the name out of the hat.
“Julie Ashby,” I read the name out loud. The crowd cheered, but it was half as much as it had been, mostly because a lot of them did not know who Julie was.
Julie…yes, she was definitely on my radar. I had thought of her a lot since I first met her. Since that time, I’d run into her several times and we always had a nice conversation. She was fun, pleasant, sweet, and she was so smart and talented. She was bringing a lot of greatness to the team and I couldn’t wait to see some of her ideas in action.
But I was very hesitant to get too friendly with her. I had been fairly firm in my convictions that I was not going to let myself get attracted to another employee and have it turn into something. But I couldn't help it. Julie had this thing over me, this hold. When I was around her, I just got lost in her little world. I wanted to hold her, caress her, kiss her, and make beautiful love to her. Dammit, why was I so in lust with her?
It was enough to drive me insane sometimes when I saw her walking through the halls. She had this confident attitude, this sweet shake to her walk that said she meant business and people needed to get out of her way.
“Alright, Julie. I’ll come and find you,” I said with a grin.
I shook Bryan’s hand, and I left the stage. It took me a few moments, but I did find Julie hiding out by the punch bowl. I wasn’t sure how long she’d been at the party. It couldn’t have been too long. I would have noticed her when I was moving around talking to people.
When I saw her, I had to stop mid-step and take her all in. I almost forgot what I was doing, and I didn’t see that someone was walking right in front of me, so I almost collided with them. Luckily, I pulled up just enough right before I collided with them and I was able to do it in a very inconspicuous way. I’m not sure if Julie even noticed it. She was not looking at me as I approached her. She was talking with Barb, one of the leads in her department. Barb was checking me out very obviously and looking me from head to toe and back again. She’d had a thing for me for a while, and while I’d entertained the idea of dating her, nothing had ever come from that more than just a passing fancy. She was attractive, but we didn’t really have that extra spark.
“Hello, Julie,” I said as I approached.
Julie looked up at me with a bit of surprise and then she relaxed with that beautiful smile of hers. I could never get tired of seeing that. The way her eyes lit up brightly, the way she slowly spread her lips in that ever so sexy manner, and then finally, the way she leaned back into the smile and owned it so confidently.
“Hey,” Julie said.
“Hey, boss man,” Barb greeted the same time.
“Hello, Barb,” I said politely. I wished Barb would go away. I really wanted to get to know Julie a bit one on one. We hadn’t really taken that time yet. But we were here at this party and it was a much more socially acceptable thing to do now. “Are you ladies having a great time?”
“Oh, yeah,” Julie replied. “Thanks so much for inviting me.”
“Of course. You are one of us, now. You belong to the team.”
“You hear his choice of words?” Barb asked Julie. “He owns your ass.”
I smiled at Barb’s joke trying to put Julie at ease. Barb was known to make outrageous comments from time to time, and she was usually the life of the party for that very reason. Julie didn’t seem put off by her comments at all. I sensed some jealousy from Barb right then. She wanted me badly and she could tell that I was very interested in Julie. I shouldn’t have been interested in anyone who worked for me. It was a huge conflict of interest and professionally it was very improper. But I was just so damn drawn to her.
“Doesn’t that mean he owns yours, too?” Julie asked.
Barb was right on it. “Oh, he doesn’t want mine,” she said. “I think he is out for some new blood at the moment. Isn’t that right, Tony?”
I played dumb. “What do you mean?”
“Oh, now he is playing games,” Barb teased. Just then something caught her eye. “Hey, is that Roy Diehl? Hey, I’m going to let you alone with this one for a bit. I’ve got to talk to someone.”
Julie nodded. “Ok.”
“You be nice to her,” Barb said giving me that disapproving eye before grinning widely. Yeah, she knew better than to stand there running interference for Julie. It was not Barb’s responsibility to care who I was interested in. And if I wanted to express my romantic interest in Julie, then I would. After that it was up to Julie. But I wanted to keep things as professional as possible between us. That was important to me.
“So, what is this Secret Santa thing?” Julie asked. “I heard something about it when you were up there, but I was talking with Barb, so I missed quite a bit of it.”
“Well, basically I am your Santa. That means I will take care of your every whim, every need, and give you anything you desire from now until midnight. So, you have four hours to tell me exactly what you want, and I will make it happen.”
Julie’s eyes widened. “Ah, that is very interesting. I think I like this game.”
“It does turn out to be one of the favorites. So, what do you want?”
She thought for a moment. “I don’t know. I don’t need that much.”
“Well, you can think on it for a while. I’m at your beck and call. I think you should take full advantage of it.”
“I’ll try to do that, but I’m pretty independent.”
“Oh, I know that. It’s one of the things I find most irresistible about you.”
Julie’s eyes lit up and I saw her blush. She put her head down and smiled weakly. The confident woman I saw a moment ago had withdrawn into a shy, young lady. I wanted to comfort her, hold her, and tell her that I would make sure that everything would be alright for her. Nothing bad would happen to her on my watch; that I could assure her. In fact, if she’d asked for it, I would have given her the moon right then. I existed for her desires. My heart, my body, and my soul were all yearning for her.
Why did this have to happen right now? Why did I have to feel this strongly for Julie? It was dredging up a lot of old feelings, but I decided I was not going to be a slave to them. I deserved to move on and strive for happiness.
“What is it?” I asked. Julie had not spoken, and she didn’t want to keep eye contact with me. She was shy and nervous. But I could see that she wanted me back and those feelings were possibly very frightening because of who I was. I was her boss. This w
as heading into another territory. I had to proceed cautiously.
Julie then murmured. “I…I’m not sure how I’m supposed to feel.”
“Well, you feel how you feel. It doesn’t matter what you are supposed to do. I sensed something the day I met you. Did I imagine it, or did you feel something as well?”
She didn’t respond for a moment. But then she said, “I felt something.”
“What did you feel?”
I waited a few moments for her to collect her thoughts. Then she looked into my eyes. She was so beautiful. It pained me to see any kind of emotional grief in her eyes. I could see that this had been building inside of her for the past few weeks, just as it had inside of me. Every day we would seem to run into each other and have a quick discourse, and then go about our ways. But every day those longing glances would be more direct, more lingering, and it would take so much longer to recompose after it was over. I’d find myself working late at night and my thoughts plagued by feelings that I didn’t act on during the day. Well, now I was there with Julie and I could see it plain as day that she wanted me as much as I wanted her. There was no reason to pretend anymore. I’d made some vows to myself, but this was different. I felt that if I had a chance to pursue this and I didn’t, then I would regret it for the rest of my life.
So, there I was telling Julie exactly how I felt.
“I felt something,” Julie said. “I’m not sure I should be telling you this.”
“Why?”
“Because it’s got to be against some sort of rules or… something.”
“Does it feel right? Or do you just think it feels wrong?”
“It feels right. Since that moment I saw you, there has been this feeling of being drawn closer to you. I’ve tried every single day to ignore it and shove it down, but it’s there. It’s burning inside of me. I… I can’t stop it.”
I could see that Julie was almost in tears by now. The past few weeks had been stressful for her, just as they had been for me. I could count the number of times that I had fantasized about taking her as she walked down the hall, grabbing her hand and pulling her into the elevator, and then ravaging her body until we were both too weak to stand up.
“I’ve been alone a long time,” I said. “Emotionally, I’ve been alone. Physically, I’ve been alone as well. I can’t remember the last time I really felt like this. It’s a strange, burning desire so deeply ingrained in my soul that I feel I might suffocate if I don’t do something about it.”
This was really happening. We were going there. I could feel it, but I could still sense some hesitation in Julie. I had to know where she stood.
“What will other people think?” Julie asked. “I just started here, and I don’t want the rumors to start.”
“Don’t worry about it. Rumors can’t really hurt you. I always make sure that my employees are protected from each other. We have a zero-harassment policy here. If someone is treating you in a way that is unwanted after you’ve asked them to cease, then we will absolutely take care of it.”
Julie smiled. She was now standing so close to me. I wanted to scoop her up in my arms, to hold her against my chest, and kiss her deeply. I wanted to dance with her and feel her, writhing her sexiness against my body. And I wanted to do it right there in front of everyone. But I wasn’t going to. Right now, if something does happen, I wanted to keep it between us. It was fun to keep something secret for a little while.
“Thanks,” Julie said. The waiter came by just then and we both grabbed a glass of champagne.
I held up the glass to hers and she toasted it with me. “To letting the chips fall where they may,” I said.
Julie got a damn sexy, tough look on her face right then. “To saying fuck it.”
I laughed. “Fuck it.”
She took a long drink of the champagne. A moment later she held her head with her hand and smiled. “Wow, head rush. This is strong shit.”
I smiled. “I only serve the best. By the way, how are you getting home tonight?”
“I took a taxi here,” she said. “I figure, I’ll taxi back.”
I smiled. “Or I could give you a lift in my limo.”
She nodded. “I would love that.”
I rested my hand gently on her back as I whispered in her ear. “Would you like to dance?”
“I’d love to,” she said.
* * *
“Well, this is it,” Julie said.
The driver pulled the limo up to her apartment building. I escorted her out and held onto her hand as I did so. Her soft hand in mine felt so good that I just didn’t want to let it go. I wanted to continue our conversation. We apparently had the same tastes in old western movies. It was refreshing to have someone to talk to about such things. All of the people I knew thought those movies were so old and annoying.
The ride home in the limo had been far too short. Julie only lived about twenty minutes away. And now the night was about to end. I felt a sinking, sad feeling in my guts. I wanted this to continue. I wanted to know more about her, I wanted to find out more about her dreams, her ambitions, her wants and true desires.
“This is a nice building,” I said. “I own a few buildings throughout this neighborhood. It is expanding really well.”
“Do you ever sleep?” she asked me.
“Not very well,” I replied honestly.
I stood there staring into her eyes for several seconds. She stared back into mine. The silence around us was golden, beautiful. We were in our own little world. I didn’t want this to end and I didn’t think she did either.
I took her face gently in my hands and I leaned into her. I paused briefly before our lips touched. Then I kissed her softly. Her lips were warm and moist. She kissed me back a little bit, teasing me at first, a bit apprehensive about taking any more lead. I was fine with being in control. I’ve always been in control. That is how I live my life.
And I was in Heaven with this amazing woman right then. I finished the kiss and held my lips close to hers, letting our breath mingle and relishing in each other’s heat. Her eyes caught in mine and then slowly a sweet grin spread over her lips.
“Would you like to come in for a drink?” she asked.
“I would,” I replied.
I followed into her building and we didn’t even say anything in the elevator on the way up to her floor. This was going to happen. It was a matter-of-fact thing. We both wanted to satisfy our carnal urges so badly that nothing else mattered at all.
I put my arm around her waist and held her close to me. Her warmth was just the thing I needed right then. It turned me on like nothing else. I was hard as a rock by the time we reached her apartment. She closed the door behind us and locked it. Then she stood there leaning against the door with a hungry look in her eyes. That was the only signal I needed.
I rushed forward and kissed her hard on the mouth. Her tongue darted between my lips seeking out my own. Our flesh wiggled and gyrated, our oral appendages dancing and wrestling back and forth as our lips touched hard. I pressed my mouth down on hers effectively sealing in the kiss so that our tongues were fighting it out with each other inside the caverns of our lustful mouths.
I hoisted Julie up and she wrapped her legs around me tightly to hold on and balance against me. Her back was leaning against the door, thumping with every move and change of position. I reached down and unzipped my pants. Reaching into my fly hole, I moved my boxers out of the way and within seconds my cock was free for her.
Then I reached under her dress and found her panties, which I ripped from her body. They fell to the floor. I kissed her even more aggressively and then I lowered her body onto mine. She gasped inside the kiss letting out a little, squealing moan as I penetrated the wet lips below me. Her tight pussy wrapped around my cock and embraced me as I entered her. Her body lowered down on my dick as far as it could.
I held her there and began to pump wildly away at her succulent pussy. She was tighter and wetter than I ever thought possible and s
he was taking my nine-inch-long, three-inch-thick dick inside of her without any complaints. She loved being filled with me. I could feel it.
I pushed harder and harder inside her. I couldn’t believe that this was actually happening. It was even better than I’d fantasized about the past few weeks. It was addictive, the way she felt sliding up and down on me as I held her in place, fucking her as hard as I could.
She hugged me tighter and whispered in my ear, darting her tongue in the canal and kissing me, suckling at the lobe and grunting with every violent thrust of my hard cock.
“You like that pussy? Is that what you want? Yes… fuck it… fuck it…”
Her breathy words poured into my ear and set my soul ablaze with a fiery passion I could not remember. I fucked her as hard and fast as I was physically able to. My body was screaming for release, to ease up on the mayhem I was forcing it through, but I held on. I was In-charge of this ship. My body would do what I wanted.
We came together a few moments later almost instantly. I flooded her tightness with my hot, salty seed, and she lapped up every drop of it within her body, holding it for a minute or so before I finally began to withdraw from her.
I slumped to the floor with her on top of me. I was still inside of her. The two of us lay there on the floor together for several minutes. Neither one of us said anything. Nothing needed to be said. What had just happened was not just two people who needed sex from each other. No, we’d awakened something between us that I wasn’t sure would stop anytime soon. I couldn’t explain it, but I couldn’t wait to get another taste of it.
And listening to the softness of Julie’s breathing while she laid on top of me, I had a feeling that Julie felt the same way.