by J P Sayle
The door was like a beacon calling to my overfull bladder that wanted to let out the pee. It wanted out now and it wasn’t up to stopping for anything or anyone. Bursting through the door of the elegant bathroom, I jogged to the toilet, slamming the door behind me. I hopped about while trying to quickly fumble with my zip.
The level of desperation was creeping past my limits on holding in the pee. The second the air hit my cock it was all over. I had the foresight to jerk it over the toilet and thanked the lord it didn’t hit anywhere but the bowl. With a sigh I spent the next thirty seconds feeling the relief that only comes after you’d held off peeing until your eyes crossed.
I kept my eyes off the dried cum flaking to the floor and waited out my bladder emptying. Once finished I zipped up, washed my hands and headed back into the corridor. My eyes moved to where I’d left Luke not more than a few minutes earlier. A sob rose in my throat at the now empty hallway.
He left me! He left me!
The thought on repeat, I sucked in the sobs and wiped at my eyes as I went to the door highlighted with a sign to show it was the stairs, dragging my feet down the nine flights.
My heart heavy, I popped my head out the door marked exit, seeing no one near. I stepped out and worked on stopping myself from running. Instead I took my time, not making eye contact with anyone. Once outside, I noticed the guy from earlier was nowhere in sight and I thanked my lucky stars. I wasn’t sure I could hold myself together if he’d stopped to question if I’d found my friend. Fuck, I’d found so much more than that. Leaving the hotel behind me, I walked down the street before hailing a taxi.
When a taxi stopped, I climbed in and let out the sobs that had been choking me.
“Hey mate, you ok?”
The alarm in the guy’s voice kept me from blustering out my woes.
“I’m fine,” I said, giving him my address and pretending not to notice how he spent more time looking at me in the mirror than on the road.
The feel of my pocket vibrating pulled me from my misery.
DaddyL: Where the hell are you? This is so not over and don’t you think it is. This is only the beginning. And I swear when I get my hands on you, you’ll not be able to sit down for a week.
On a hiccuped sob, my heart soared with relief. Warmth replaced the cold feeling that enveloped me the moment I’d seen the empty corridor.
SassyS: Yes Daddy… I’m sorry. I’m in a taxi heading home, when I came out of the bathroom you were gone. I thought you’d left and it was over… When do you want to give me my punishment?
It wasn’t over. It wasn’t over. Joy burst out of me and I giggled at the feelings spreading over me. Maybe The App was only the beginning for us?
I turned around when Bob stopped waffling about how long it had taken for the part to arrive and then went into a long-winded talk about what was wrong with the lift.
My mouth opened and shut. Where the hell had Scott gone? He’d been there a minute ago I was sure. I grunted at Bob when he went to say something more, waving him off. “Did you see where Scott went?”
His eyes narrowed on me but I kept my gaze steady, working on not showing the panic wanting to choke me.
“No boss, he was there a minute ago. Maybe he just wanted to leave ‘cause he’d been trapped so long.” He shrugged as if it was nothing.
The urge to shout at him was stifled only by the fear I’d fucked up and given Scott the wrong impression that I didn’t want for this to continue. I racked my brains to come up with an answer as to why he’d run off. I muttered to Bob I’d catch up with him later as I stormed off to the stairs; he had to have gone down them.
Opening the door, I walked to the top and looked down. Seeing no sign of Scott I raced down them, breathless and with my heart squeezing painfully in my chest. I ran into the foyer, my gaze sweeping the reception. Finding nothing, I raced to the door.
Rupert’s replacement for the evening, Griffin, stood taller as I came out. “Good evening, Griffin. Have you seen a dark-haired gent dressed in jeans and a black top leave in the last few minutes?”
The head shake set my stomach to jumping. “No sir, I’ve just returned from helping a couple with their bags. I unfortunately haven’t seen a gentleman meeting that description. If I see him would you like me to call you?”
His brows rose and the interest in his eyes stopped me cold. “No, it’s fine, thank you.” Going back through the door I searched the foyer again, coming up empty. I headed for the lifts cursing with every step.
Why had he run off?
I was going to spank his backside so hard when I found him. Ten minutes later, my anger was past simmering and well on its way to boiling when my search of the hotel room I booked showed Scott had never gone there. It took stepping into the lift to make me consider that maybe that was where he’d gone. Only I was wrong and now I didn’t know what I was going to do.
Do I leave it, or do I message him?
Was him leaving his way of saying he didn’t want more?
I took several deep breaths and sat on the end of the large king-sized bed I’d never got to use and eyed the floor. Pull yourself together. He couldn’t fake the way he behaved, it was real. He wanted you.
Was I thinking that because I wanted it to be true? Was it real? Driving myself to distraction, I got up and paced the room, feeling like a caged animal.
No. What we had was real, the connection more profound than a quick fuck. Hell, I’d had plenty of those in the past. This was different. I sighed. Then what the fuck do I do now?
I sat back down and took out my phone. I eyed The App before opening it with trembling fingers.
DaddyL: Where the hell are you? This is so not over and don’t you think it is. This is only the beginning. And I swear when I get my hands on you, you’ll not be able to sit down for a week.
The thirty seconds it took for a reply to come through felt like an eternity. My palms sweated as my phone buzzed.
SassyS: Yes Daddy… I’m sorry. I’m in a taxi heading home, when I came out of the bathroom you were gone. I thought you’d left and it was over… When do you want to give me my punishment?
The simple explanation finally got my heart to stop feeling like it was no longer whole.
A grin spread over my face as I glanced at the phone.
Oh, my naughty boy was going to pay in the most delicious way. The App might have started this, but I was going to finish it and make Scott mine, no matter what it took.
With that thought running through my head, I started typing.
When Fake Changed Everything
When did being ‘fake boyfriends’ start making it difficult to remain ‘friends?
Jamie Rider is a man who accepts who he is with no boundaries, but with that comes consequences that leave him vulnerable.
That is, until Todd.
Todd shows him that he’ll always be his knight in shining armour bringing Jamie to a new reality.
Todd stands up to the bullies allowing Jamie to see that friendship is no longer the thing he craves the most.
But can a fake relationship, too many years of friendship and a nasty boss prevent Jamie from gaining the one thing he now realises he can’t live without—Todd?
‘When Fake Changed Everything’ is a standalone book. It is M/M romance with fake relationship, friends to lovers, and a best friend who needs a sassy boyfriend who loves to wear heels.
A Christmas Wish: Potters Creek (Book One)
Can Christmas wishes come true?
Roman Austin is shy, more than a little geeky, and thinks he’s overweight. Past experience has taught him that he’s better off with his nose buried in a book.
Until the boy who left town years ago returns.
Donavan’s return makes Roman face what he’s avoided for years, himself.
With each new revelation, can Roman see what is right in front of him?
Will past secrets and a meddling brother stop Roman from finding love with the one man he never knew wante
d him?
A Christmas Wish is a standalone sweet gay romance, a small-town friendship, and a guaranteed HFN.
Puzzle Pieces: La Trattoria Di Amore Series (Book One)
Why was he so drawn to a man when he dated women? A man who kept his true self hidden. A man who wanted to be his Daddy.
Richie Bellinger learnt just how cruel life could be: a family in crisis; he is left alone to deal with the unthinkable. His life in complete turmoil; he is drowning.
Until Sebastian became the one thing he needed.
Sebastian’s need to be a Daddy shows Richie he can choose a different life that makes him complete in ways he’d never imagined.
Sebastian’s ability to push past Richie’s defences has him opening to something he’s never considered, loving a man.
Sebastian showing his flaws gives Richie the power to embrace a new life.
But Richie understands life can come and bite you on the ass when you least expect it. A cheating girlfriend, a death, a discovery, a best friend, and a need to be out for Sebastian all work against Richie. Can he work past all the barriers to find happiness in the most unlikely place?
Puzzle Pieces is the first book in the La Trattoria Di Amore series and can be read as a standalone.
It is an MM romance with Daddy Kink, out for you, light BDSM play, an age gap, and a Daddy who needs to understand it’s alright to let go of the past. This book has a HEA.
Dominated but not Subdued: La Trattoria Di Amore Series (Book Two)
Why does he want to be a “boy” to a man twenty years his senior? A man who is so much more than big and burly. Is he a Daddy or a Dom?
Adam Grainger learnt the hard way that coming from an affluent family does not guarantee love or affection. It makes him doubt anyone could ever love him.
That is until Carl.
Carl showing him the darker pleasures in life leaves Adam revelling in the true meaning of letting go.
Carl standing up for him allows Adam’s need for a “Daddy” to surface.
But too many secrets and a driving force to not submit might prevent Adam from gaining what he never knew he craved: a Dom Daddy.
Dominated but not Subdued is the second book in the La Trattoria Di Amore series and can be read as a standalone. It is M/M romance with Daddy kink, aspects of BDSM play, an age gap, and a Dom Daddy who needs a strong boy to keep him on his toes.
Where it all Began: Manx Cat Guardians Origins (Book 1)
Why did he crave something that would condemn him to a life of purgatory? A man who was born to be king. How could a lowly servant be the one thing he wanted more than his crown?
King Óláfr the Black was a Norseman and was no stranger to suffering: pain was nothing he’d not experienced time and time again at the hands of those who pertained to love him. It hardened his heart to what could be.
Until fate stepped in, in the form of a Guardian Cat, Maximillian.
Maximillian’s need to connect the two soulmates gave Óláfr his first and only taste of love.
Maximillian’s ability to go against the laws of his kind gave Óláfr an unthinkable decision.
Maximillian shows Óláfr that fate will not be messed with, not without consequences.
But Óláfr knows he’s being watched, his people thirsting for blood. A priest, a fire, a blood eagle, and a promise of redemption. Can two souls searching for love find each other again?
Where it all Began (Manx Cat Guardian Origins) the prequel to Manx Cat Guardian Series, these books are not standalones, and this book links directly to Searching for a Soul to Love. They should be read in order to gain the background.
It is an MM historical romance, with soulmate connections, slow burn, angst, and an ancient paranormal cat that likes to interfere. This book has a cliffhanger with no HEA until book 4.
Trigger Warning: There are some scenes of violence.
Seeing Beyond the Scars: Manx Cat Guardians (Book 2)
Why did his new neighbour make him want to change and leave his protective shell? A man not frightened to show the world who he was. Would Martin stay or run when faced with Brad’s past and his scars?
Brad Cummings lived a quiet controlled life: the world he created was not through choice but from necessity. A traumatic past left him unable to see past his scars.
Until fate steps in with Martin.
Martin’s need to show him how beautiful he is both inside and out leads Brad to finally understand the true meaning of love.
Martin’s ability to have fun allows Brad to stop existing and start to live for the first time in his life.
Martin shows him that not all families are the same: a family can be more than a blood connection.
But Brad has learnt the hard way, being himself is not always a good thing. A mischievous cat, a prying neighbour, a sexual awakening, and a father intent on harm, turn Brad’s ordered life upside down. Can he trust an instant connection and believe in soulmates?
Seeing Beyond the Scars is the second book in the Manx Cat Guardian Series, these books are not standalones and need to be read in order to gain the background.
It is an MM romance, with hurt comfort, steamy instant connection, light aspects of BDSM play, and an ancient paranormal cat that like to interfere. This book has a HEA.
Trigger Warning: There are aspects of child abuse and some scenes of violence.
Destiny Collides Past and Present: Manx Cat Guardians (Book 3)
Why did his new housemate make him want to break the promise he made to himself? A man who has learnt to face his own demons. Could Stuart help Joe face his and survive to meet their destiny?
Joe King travels to the Isle of Man to stay with his best friend: in need of a place to mentally and physically recharge. A wrong choice blinds Joe to the possibilities of destiny.
Until fate steps in with Stuart.
Stuart’s need to care for him shows Joe that the right person can heal all wounds.
Stuart’s ability to fight for what he wants gives Joe the courage to take a leap of faith and trust again.
Stuart shows Joe that he will go to any lengths to protect their love.
But Joe has learnt over many months of running there are some things you can’t escape. A mischievous cat, a protective best friend, a shooting, a kidnapping and an ex-boyfriend who won’t let go, turn Joe’s world into chaos. Can he trust in those around him to bring his destiny back to him?
Destiny Collides, Past and Present is the third book in the Manx Cat Guardian Series, these books are not standalones and need to be read in order to gain the background. It is an MM romance, with hurt comfort, soulmate connection, steamy scenes, and ancient paranormal cats that like to interfere. This book has a HEA.
Trigger Warning: There are some scenes of violence.
Searching for a Soul to Love: Manx Cat Guardians (Book 4)
Why did one touch from a man he didn’t know leave him reeling with a sense of knowing? A man—or was he a warrior?—who carries a heavy responsibility. Could Aaden share the burden with Greg so they could finally right a wrong?
Greg Kelly was stuck in a rut: in a relationship with a man who treated him like a booty call. A realisation with profound consequences left him floundering.
Until fate steps in with Aaden.
Aaden’s need to right the wrongs of the past release him to find a new beginning he never knew he wanted.
Aaden’s ability to see past the peculiar is what his soul has been searching for.
Aaden shows him that truth and honour are what make him a man to keep for eternity.
But Greg learns that even when things are meant to be, fate can interfere. A boyfriend, a kidnapping, a hidden soul and a sexual connection casts Greg into a world of make believe. Can he trust in what Aaden feels for him and allow two lost souls to reunite?
Searching for a Soul to Love is the fourth book in the Manx Cat Guardian Series, these books are not standalones, and this book links directly to Where it all Began. They should be rea
d in order to gain the background. It is an MM romance, with soulmate connections, slow burn, steamy scenes, and ancient paranormal cats that like to interfere. This book has a HEA.
Trigger Warning: There are some scenes of violence.
The 12 Disasters of Christmas: Manx Cat Guardians (Book 5)
How did Brad find himself planning a Christmas Eve party? A party, he didn’t want in his home. Can his budding relationship with Martin survive?
Brad has never had a memorable Christmas: the family he was born to made sure of that. With his first Christmas with Martin looming, Brad’s plans are blown out of the water.
Until Joe, Greg and Nick step in.
Nick’s need to offer friendship without the boundaries of his past opens Brad’s eyes to all kinds of possibilities.
Greg’s ability to love unconditionally allows Brad to experience what life is like with true friends.
Joe shows Brad that sometimes a little kink can be the spice of life.